Christina's Poems

Strange Heart

My heart is quite strange

I'm not sure just why.

It makes me feel anxious

And makes me want to cry.

Sometimes it skip beats

Other times one it adds.

It feels me with worry

And makes me quite sad.

The doctors are amazed

To hear such a beat.

I wonder and worry

If this I can defeat.

The love of my husband

And the love of my kids.

Keeps me going strong

With the will to live.

Some call it an arrhythmia

Others call it palpitations.

For me it's really been

Quite a revelation.

When I went into labor with my fourth child, it was my birthday.  That was the same day I learned that my heart did strange things.  I was given medicine to stop my labor, then they monitored my heart for the entire night.  I was skipping and adding abnormal heartbeats every 1 to 3 beats, and it was bizarre.  The heart specialist gave the okay for me to give birth to my miracle child the next day, but when they gave me the epidural, it caused my heart rate and blood pressure to go so low, that I was literally dying.  If not for the amazing nurse named Becky, they would not have known to watch for such an occurrence, and they would not have been prepared with the correct medication to keep me alive.  I call this child my miracle child, because halfway through the pregnancy, I developed every symptom of having a miscarriage, but I went on total bedrest, and somehow managed to keep her in.  I first went into labor with her a month earlier than she was due, and the doctors were able to stop my labor, not one, but three different times in total.  It's a miracle that she is here with us today, and very healthy.  She is now 11 years old, and I still feel my heart add and skip beats, but we are both happy to be alive and I truly feel blessed.