Choosing The Omega

In hot water

SELENE’S POV

After Adonis ran to my mother to report me, I was left in so much pain. I couldn’t even walk or call for help and all I could do was lie on the floor because that seemed to make the pain a little bearable. After a few minutes of Adonis being gone, my mother finally came into the room and she looked like she was ready to strike me with lightning but luckily she wasn’t that kind of god otherwise I would have been dead before I could explain anything to her. 

However he expression changed as soon as she realized that I was in excruciating pain and she rushed to me. I was starting to think of my current condition as a blessing in disguise, if I had not been in so much pain I would have received a much colder and angrier reaction from my mother.

“Selene…Selene, what is wrong with you?” she asked me in a high-pitched panicked voice as she ran to my side. It was like she wanted to hold me but she wasn't sure how to because she didn't know which part of me hurt.

“Adonis punched me in my stomach,” I said and then groaned as the pain seemed to worsen as I spoke

“Oh my darling I am so sorry, it's all my fault,” she said and I was a little relieved to be getting the mother that I had always known and loved. I was relieved to know that she was somewhere in there, my mother had always been caring but lately, she had turned into a monster that I couldn't recognize. It was like other people were more important to her than me and when I say other people I mean Adonis.

 However, this was no time for me to have an “I told you so moment” so I decided to just decide to let it be for now. My mother being the moon goddess was very strong and so she could carry me back to my bed with no strain or trouble. After she put me on the bed she just started pacing around and then she finally seemed to make a decision and then she ran out of the room. I was silently hoping she would tell Adonis to keep away from me but I knew that was just wishful thinking and she was probably not going to do that. After a few minutes, she returned to the room with the doctor who started checking on me and then smiled at both of us.

“She is ok, and so is the baby,” he said and before I could even react or say anything to him I was caught by mother’s reaction to that declaration. She looked like the color had just drained off of her face and she looked pale. I could already see what she was thinking at this moment and she was probably thinking and wondering what she had done to deserve a daughter like me but then again this was my life and I was going to live it however I wanted to live it. This was just another way for me to prove to her that she had no control or say in how my life was to be lived. They thought they had me cornered when they forced me to accept Adonis but they all didn't know me, or that I had a brain.

“Thank you, doctor,” my mother said coldly and I instantly knew that I was in trouble. After the doctor walked out of the room my mom sat down on my bed with a deadly calm. There was an awkward silence between us for a whole minute as the tension rose, and I just wished I could escape to anywhere

“Are you trying to embarrass this family Selene? Are you trying that selfish?" she asked me but gave me no chance to respond to her first question.

“Why do you insist on doing exactly what your head tells you no matter how selfish it is?” she asked again and I knew that answering any of her questions at this point would be a bad idea. When my mother was angry, her anger would often be expressed as a series of questions most of which she didn't want an answer to.

“Why don’t you just accept the fact that you are now with Adonis and you can't be with that peasant?” she asked me

“I love him,” I said “and I am keeping this baby” I added

“you will do no such thing, what about Adonis?” she asked me

“you are the one who wants him in the family so badly so why do you go ahead and entertain him” I suggested innocently and she slapped me but I smirked while rubbing my painful cheek.

“Why are you on his side?” I asked her and she dropped her head in shame and I could see that she was keeping something from me, why couldn't she just be open with me for once and tell me what was going on.

“I am not on his side and neither am I trying to protect him from anything,” she said “I am just trying to protect my kingdom and I am sorry that that protection is coming at the cost of your freedom but its time for you to grow up and learn that not everything is about you,” she said "everyone in this family has had to give something up for the betterment of the kingdom" she added

“Mom are they blackmailing you?” I asked her because this was the only explanation that I could think of, but I couldn't even think of one reason why Adonis would think he could get what he wanted from my mum except by blackmail.

“No, they are not, no one would dare to do that to me. Have you forgotten who your mother is?” she asked me

“No I haven't forgotten who you are, but I think you have forgotten who you are,” I said “and who I am to you,” I said in a whisper as I dropped my head and started playing with my fingers but when I looked up I could see the sadness in her face. I knew she was keeping something from me and this concerned me a lot.

"My mother would never allow me to be treated like this by anyone, she would stand by me no matter what decision I made. My mother would defend me and stand up for me" I yelled as tears started streaming down my face.

“It doesn't matter what you think anyway…I will make a decision and then get back to you” she said as she got up

“A decision about what?” I asked her

“A decision about what will happen going forth, about what is going to happen with that baby and Alexis,” she said as if I had asked her a question with an obvious answer. What made her think this was her decision to make.

“This is my life and my decision to make, I am keeping my child and there is nothing you can do about it,” I said determined to stand my ground

“Selene, I don’t have the energy to debate with you right now and I will suggest that you get some rest and we will continue this conversation tomorrow morning. I will make certain that Adonis does not come in this room tonight” she said “not that he would want to spend a minute with you in that state” she said as she walked out

The only good thing that had come out of my conversation with my mother was the fact that she had promised me that tonight I would have my room all to myself. I hated being close to Adonis and if I could use this time as an excuse to be far from him then I was going to gladly do that. A night without him was certainly going to be too short but I was going to enjoy those few hours that I was going to have without him.

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After my mother left me in my room to cry over my pathetic life I cried myself to sleep. I felt so helpless and alone and I felt like I was stuck in a black hole.

Adonis never did come into my room just as my mother had promised me and that was a huge relief. My mother had requested that I give her time to decide on what was going to happen to my baby and Alexis and she hadnt returned to tell me what decision she had taken concerning that. As much as I hated that my mother had made my future her business angered me in the worst possible way but I had no choice because I knew if I didn’t do things her way I would lose. Come to think of it I was losing this battle whether or not I was doing things her way.

I was still not feeling a hundred percent, Okay but I was much better than I had been the previous day or the day that Adonis had attacked me. I hadnt seen Alexis because he couldn’t come and visit me in the palace and I had noticed that ever since our relationship came out in the open I hadnt been seeing much of Alexis and that was because my mother had moved him and given him new responsibilities.

As I was sitting on my bed thinking about Alexis and his whereabouts and also wondering when I was going t get the chance to see him, I heard a gentle knock on the door.

“Come in,” I said and my mother walked in, and not only was this unusual but it was also suspicious because my mother never knocked on anyone’s door let alone mine.

“Mom, you knocked” I commented and she smiled at me gently

“How are you feeling?” she asked me

“I am much better thank you,” I said as I sat up and she sat on the bed next to me, this was the mother that I knew and the mother that I had missed.

“So I came here to talk to you about your situation,” she said, “ I told you I would think about it and I have” she added and I felt my insides tremble but at the same tie I was comforted by the fact that she was being nice to me and that gave me hope that whatever she had to say to me had to be good news. I mean why would she suddenly be nice to me only to shatter my heart afterward.

“What did you decide?” I asked her

“Now you know as royals and as the moon family our reputation matters the most because we aim to lead by example,” she said “I understand that you love Alexis but this is not about love my baby it's about duty and because of the duty you have in this kingdom I can't allow you to be with him,” she said

“I am already pregnant mum,” I said

“No one needs to know that,” she said as she tried reaching for my hand but I pulled it away after realizing what she was insinuating I do.

“Adonis already knows,” I said

“Yes he does and so will Alexis but Adonis is willing to stay quiet and bury our shame if you get rid of it” my mother finally allowed the horrific suggestion to escape her mouth

“How can you as a mother and as a woman ask me to murder my child?” I asked her

“Selene listen to me, the way I see it you have only two options and neither of them favor you….depending how you look at it,” she said

“What options do I have?” I asked her

“you can either stay here and raise this baby all alone and watch your family go through the shame you have brought to us or you can get rid of it,” she said

“And where does Alexis fit in all of this?” I asked her “you do remember that he is the father of this child don’t you?” I added because she seemed to think that all this was about me or I had made this baby on my own.

“I have an ultimatum for Alexis and this is regardless of whatever decision you make concerning the baby, it's either you break up with him and you will never see him again or I will banish him into the earthly realm” she threatened

“I will go with him,” I said and she laughed gently as if saying I was dumb for even suggesting I had an option of going with Alexis.

“You will never survive, imagine the moon princess living with the humans and the fall to earth will be enough to kill both you and the baby,” she said “but let's just say you love him enough to get him banished to earth and follow him, don’t you think he will hate you for the rest of your life for getting him banished?” she asked me

“Alexis loves me and he will never hate me for any reason,” I said confidently

“There is a very thin line between love and hate my darling and my question to you is are you selfish enough to cross it?” she asked me as she walked out of my room leaving me with a lot to think about.

I loved Alexis very much and I was willing to do anything for him but what if getting him banished was going to push him over the edge and make him hate me?