Clandestine Affair With The School Bully (Filipino)

Chapter 15

Maybe the thought of him being mine wasn't enough.

Maybe I need something more.

Something simple like holding his hand in public.

Can kiss him in public without any worries.

Maybe I'm not really into this type of secrecy.

I hate to say that I regretted agreeing to this situation but what can I say? I like him, a lot. I don't know why I felt this way towards a person that I only knew a week ago.

I felt guilty of feeling regret. I need to remind myself that I'm the one who brought myself into this kind of situation.

Siguro ay hindi lang ako sanay sa ganito at isa pa unang pakikipagrelasyon ko ito.

First relationship ngunit sekreto.

I don't know how to feel when I heard the word secret one more time.

Four days had passed already and I think I'm already sick at looking of how Nicole did her so obvious flirting on my boyfriend. I still have a whole year to endure. Damn, what a long f**k*ng ride.

I hope this would eventually stop. Dahil hindi ko ata kakayanin kung araw-araw kung makikita ang ganitong eksena.

Hindi ko alam kung hindi ito napapansin ni Kairo o sadyang wala lang siyang pakialam. Kung alin man diyan ay pareho parin itong nagpapainis sa akin.

"Hoy, konti na lang talaga at matutupi mo na ang kutsarang hawak mo," rinig kong sambit ni Janice ngunit hindi ko parin inalis ang aking tingin mula kay Nicole. "Pagsabihan mo kasi yang boyfriend mo."

Sobrang lapit kasi ng mukha ni Nicole sa mukha ni Kairo. At may ibinubulong siya sa tenga ng aking boyfriend at bigla ay magtatawanan sila pareho. Ayos lang sana kung simpleng bulungan lang ngunit ang mga kamay ni Nicole ay paulit-ulit na humahagod sa balikat ni Kairo.

Napapadalas na lang din ang pagkikita namin ni Kairo sa rooftop. Na walang ginawa kundi dumagdag sa pagkasiphayo na aking nararamdaman.

Hindi na naulit pa ang nangyari noon sa bahay ni Kairo. Hindi ko namang hiniling ang mangyari ulit yun pero kung may pagkakataon at umpisahan niya ay bakit ko siya tatanggihan? No, nothing happened but a h*****b na tinulugan ko. I never got a chance to touch him cause I immediately dozed off after I come. And I will treasure that moment. Ang matigas na bagay na aking naramdaman noon ay vial pala kung saan niya nilagay ang t***d ko para sa experiment namin sa biology. Nanghingi pa ako ng pabor noon kay kuya ngunit ako rin naman pala ako ang mag-dodonate.

"Sinabihan ko noon, sinusubukan naman daw niya," sagot ko kay Janice. "And he can't stay away from Nicole that easily. They're bestfriend since they were young."

Hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng pag-iwas ang ginagawa ni Kairo kay Nicole. Sa nakikita ko ngayon ay mukhang hindi naman ito pag-iwas.

"Ang harot kasi ng babaeng yan."

Wala na akong naging tugon sa sinabi niya because she's got a point. She's Nicole, known for the things that she does to every hot guy. To every hot guy she laid her eyes on.

Parang nawalan narin ako ng gana kaya niligpit ko na lamang ang aking pinagkainan.

Days had passed and it's friday. Binago ang schedule namin, tuwing friday ay half day lang ang klase para magagawa namin ang aming mga activities with our group kung meron man dahil ayon sa head ng school ang weekends ay para makapagpahinga ang mga estudyante. At may mga muslim ding estudyante na nag-aaral dito, friday kasi ang simba nila.

"I'm sorry."

Iyan agad ang bungad ni Kairo sa akin nang makapasok kami ng bahay nila habang pinagbubuksan niya ako ng pinto.

Nandito ako para gumawa kami ng activities namin na binigay ni Mrs. Bayona sa biology subject namin. Actually, dadating si Dave mas nauna lang ako dahil sabay kaming pumunta ni Kairo dito. May dadaanan pa raw kasi siya.

Kumunot ang aking noo sa kanyang sinabi.

"Bakit ka nagso-sorry?" nagtatakang tanong ko.

"I know you're not happy with our relationship right now," he said and the frustration and sadness was palpable in his face.

Bigla akong natahimik dahil wala naman akong ibang maging tugon sa kanyang sinabi. It's not that I'm not happy. Seriously, I am. Lalo na tuwing magkikita kami sa rooftop. Every jealousy and frustrations that I felt dissipated when our lips met. When I felt his warm touch towards my face.

"Aren't you gonna say anything?" he asked. His voice was low and the sadness that I heard sipped to every veins in my body.

"I'm happy, Kairo. I'm not, with our situation, sure, but I am more than happy with our relationship. Who wouldn't? Mayroon akong boyfriend na maaalahanin. He may be called bully by others but you're soft inside. And I like you because of that."

I looked at him and give him my sweetest smile. I touch his face and felt the rough five o'clock shadow in his cheeks.

"You're worth the secrecy, Kairo. You're mine and that's enough for me," malumanay kong sinabi.

Binabawi ko na. When I said about him being mine wasn't enough. That's not true. He's more than enough. His smile is more than enough to made my whole day.

"Thank you," rinig kong sambit niya. Mahina ngunit dinig na dinig ko.

Ngumiti rin siya sa akin. He took a step forward and give me a small peck on my lips. Na tinugon ko naman.

This is enough.

He's enough.

I just need to remind myself that everyday.

Nope. Every single time when jealousy spiked inside my system.

Pumasok kami sa kanyang kwarto. Agad akong pumunta sa kanyang kama habang siya ay lumabas upang kumuha ng snacks. I told him that I'm good but he insisted. Kailangan ko raw kumain. Hinayaan ko na lamang siya.

Nang malapat ko ang aking puwetan sa malambot niyang kama ay biglang bumalik ang mga alaala nang ginawa namin noon dito.

Biglang umakyat ang mga dugo ko papuntang mukha.

I never regretted that it happened. The thing that I regretted the most was me sleeping after I got off. I haven't got a chance to touch him. Iyon pa naman ang gusto kong mangyari nang araw na iyon. Ang mahawakan siya. Ang makulong ang buong pagkatao niya sa kamay ko.

I grab his duvet and smell his sweet scent.

Ang bango na hinahanap-hanap ko kapag nakahiga na ako sa sarili kong kama.

One of the things I love about Kairo is his smell. Hindi matapang, tama lang sa aking pang-amoy. Hindi tulad ng ibang lalaki na madaanan ko at malanghap na sobrang tapang. Na para bang nilagyan ng asido ang aking ilong sa tuwing maaamoy ko ito.

Kairo entered the room holding a tray with what seems like a baked spaghetti inside. Hindi ko pa man nakikita ay alam kong baked spag ito dahil sa amoy na umabot sa aking pandama.

I never noticed that I'm still holding and clutching the duvet in my hands. Napansin ko lang nang tingnan niya ito. Agad ko itong binitawan at tumayo na para bang walang nangyari.

"Inaamoy mo ba 'yan?" tanong niya.

My face never been this red before untill now.

"Nope, why would I?" maang-maangan kong tugon.

He just laughed at me while he's putting the tray on his bedside table.

He beckoned me to have a taste, since I'm on the other side of the bed, I beeline to where he put the food and grab a spoon he offered.

"Try it. I made that this morning."

Umupo ako sa upuan at kumuha ng isang sansubo ng pagkain. I took a bite and when it reaches my taste buds my eyes goes round. Not being exaggerated but this is the best baked spag I tried so far.

"Are you sure you made this?" I asked him.

I know it was just a simple dish but I'm sure it took enough much effort and wit to be this delectable. Damn, he's not just softie guy inside but a cook too.

"Yeah, I actually cook what I eat everyday. Sa labas kasi sila mama at papa kumakain palagi. They're busy with our business and church. Kaya hindi na sila makapagluto pa."

No, way!

"You should let me try other dish you made sometimes."

Ngumiti at tumawa lamang siya habang kinakamot ang kanyang ulo.

"Next time pero hindi ko nasisiguro na magugustuhan mo," aniya.

How can I say that I would try every single thing he'll cook for me kahit may masamang lasa pa ito. But I doubt it. Baked spag pa nga lang ay masarap na, pano pa kaya ang iba. Hindi ko alam kung anong ingredients ang nilagay niya rito but sure damn it tastes good.

Hindi pa man kami natatapos sa aming kinakain ay biglang tumunog ang doorbell kasabay ng pagtunog ng aking phone.

Kinuha ko ito habang si Kairo naman ay bumaba upang pagbuksan ang kung sino man ang nandoon. I have a guess who it was.

Nandito na ako sa labas.

What I saw the text Dave sent me.

Well, guess we don't have enough time to have some kissing session then.

I don't care. Dahil alam kong pagkatapos naming masagutan ang activity at makauwi si Dave ay doon rin ang punta namin.

I wear a smile, can't contain the excitement that I felt.