Clandestine Affair With The School Bully (Filipino)

Chapter 14

Remember when I said I wouldn't dare to date a closeted guy? Well, here I am, dating the closeted bisexual bully of our school. We made it official last night and I wouldn't been more happier. I got the hottest guy in the whole campus.

We need to be more careful, though, cause he's not out yet to the whole school, not just to our school but to his parents as well.

I even made things clear about him and Nicole. To avoid any complications. Lihim na nga ang relasyon namin magkakaroon pa ng komplikasyon.

Last time, Nicole said they are dating but Kairo said they're not.

Nagulat pa nga siyang sinabi sa akin ni Nicole iyon. At nangako siyang didistansiya na siya kay Nicole simula ngayon pero hindi tuluyang lalayo dahil magkaibigan sila simula noong mga bata pa.

Napagkasunduan namin kagabi na kailangan muna naming ilihim hangga't hindi pa kami nakapagtapos ng senior high.

Baka kasi malaman ng kanyang magulang at baka ipatigil o kaya ay ililipat pa siya ng ibang paaralan.

Did I mention that his parents were religious? They piously worship the creator. And so as the word of God. Some people of today believe that same s*x relationship is a sin. Kaya natatakot siyang pagnalaman ng kanyang magulang ay baka ipatigil siya sa pag-aaral. Especially when his parents were living in the dark ages. They're pretty conservatives. Iniiwasan niyang mangyari yun.

At ayaw ko ring malaman ng ibang tao lalo na at binu-bully ako noon dahil sa kasarian ko.

Marami na ngang may ayaw sa akin dahil sa kasarian ko, dadagdagan ko pa ba ang rason para mas lalo silang magalit sa'kin?

Ayaw ko rin dahil baka lalayuan si Kairo ng mga kaibigan niya. Hindi ko kayang mangyari iyon.

And speaking of kaibigan, nandito ako ngayon sa rooftop kasama si Kairo. It's recess time but instead of going to canteen, we immediately wended up here.

Hinihintay naming dumating si Janice.

Napagdesisyunan ko kasing sabihin na sa kanya ang lahat. Kailangan ko nang sabihin sa kanya ito before the idea have lost some of its appeal.

And Kairo wants to come with me. Sinabi ko sa kanya na huwag na ngunit mapilit siya at sinabi niyang sasamahan niya ako kaya wala na akong ibang nagawa at pumayag na lang.

"Are you nervous?" Kairo asked me.

I'm fidgeting and who wouldn't? I decided to tell my bestfriend something about the thing that I'm scared to share with her.

"Medyo," mahinang usal ko.

He grasp my hand and held it tightly.

Narinig naming bumukas ang pinto ng rooftop. Ang kaninang mahinang pagtibok ng aking dibdib ay lalong bumilis. Naramdaman kong mas lalong hinigpitan ni Kairo ang pagkakahawak niya sa aking kamay.

Nang makita kami ni Janice ay sa kamay naming magkahawak agad dumapo ang kanyang tingin. Tumaas ang isang kilay niya at tumingin sa akin, nagtatanong ang kanyang tingin. She didn't voice it out but I know what that expression mean.

What is happening?

The unspoken question I see in her eyes.

Nakaupo kaming pareho ni Kairo sa upuang semento na nilagay ng mga custodians at janitor dito dahil hindi na magagamit.

Umupo siya sa harap namin since may upuan din sa aming harapan.

"What's this all about?" she asked while motioning her hand to me and Kairo's intertwined fingers.

Hindi ko na nababasa ang kaniyang mukha cause it turns emotionless.

"We're dating," diretsong sabi ko.

She drew a hard and long breath. Si Kairo ay tahimik lang sa aking tabi. Not saying a single word.

"Since when?"

"We started fooling around on the first week of school and we called it a thing last night."

Matapos kung sabihin iyon ay walang kahit na sino ang nagsalita sa amin. She remained silent while still looking in our hands.

Minutes had passed and I thought she's not going to open her mouth ngunit bigla siyang nagsalita.

"Alam mong wala akong pakialam kung sino ang gusto at gusto maging boyfriend Jasper, diba? Bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi sa akin?"

I can feel the pain in her voice that didn't help with the guilt I felt. Mas lalo lang lumaki ang guilt sa loob ko.

"I'm sorry kung ngayon ko lang sinabi—

She raised her right hand to stop me. Tumayo siya at lumapit sa akin.

Ngayon ay malumanay na ang kanyang mga mata.

"Is this because of the argument we had before? You're scared that I might disapprove the reason why you didn't tell me?"

I didn't do anything but nod my head. She drew the breath I didn't know she's holding and hugged me tightly.

"I'm sorry if I acted that way. I didn't wish anything but your happiness, Jas. Always remember that."

Sunod-sunod na gumulong ang luha sa aking mata matapos kong marinig ang katagang iyon mula sa kanya. She hugged me even more tightly.

"I'm sorry too, Janice. Sorry if didn't trust you. Akala ko hindi mo ito matatanggap."

I told her everything.

From the start.

Sinabi ko ring lihim lang muna ang relasyon namin. Hindi siya pumayag nung una pero nang ihayag namin ni Kairo ang dahilan ay buti at naintindihan niya.

The thing that I love about Janice.

She's always understandable. I'm lucky to have a friend like her.

We're both silent for a moment and stays like that for almost a minute.

Hugging each other.

I didn't even noticed the time untill Kairo broke the silence and speak and remind us.

"I think recess is almost over," aniya na bumuwag sa pagyayakapan namin ni Janice.

She wiped away the tears in her eyes while I'm doing the same.

"So? You two, huh?" she's now wearing this obnoxious smirk on her face. "I couldn't imagine."

"Who's the top?" she said again while wiggling her brows.

Kapag talaga nasimulan ni Janice ibuka ang bunganga niya ay hindi ko talaga alam kung paano siya patigilin.

"Yup, aren't we two adorable?" Kairo said na lalong nagpapula sa aking mukha.

Well, sh*t. Mukhang magkakaroon ng panibagong tandem na sisira sa araw ko. Well, not the ruined thing you're thinking. Ruin in a good way.

"HINDI ka ba naiinis diyan sa babaeng nakalingkis sa braso ng boyfriend mo?" naiinis na sambit ni Janice. "Kaya hindi talaga ako pabor sa secret relationship na'to, e."

Nandito kami ngayon sa canteen. Lunch na. Gusto sana namin ni Kairo na doon ulit kumain sa rooftop ngunit baka manghinala si Nicole kung saan siya pumupunta. Lalo na at she's claiming they have a thing. And that didn't sit well with me.

Close rin si Nicole sa mga magulang ni Kairo. Baka kapag nalaman niya ang kung anong meron kami ay magsumbong. We don't want that to happen.

Kung maari sana ay lagyan ko ng sign si Kairo na pag-aari ko siya upang wala ng kahit na sino ang lumalapit sa kanya maliban sa akin. But I know I can't do it. We both have reasons not to.

Just like now. Nicole is flirting with him. Mababakas sa mukha ng boyfriend ko na hindi siya komportable at naiilang. Boyfriend. Damn, sounds good.

Palihim rin siyang tumitingin sa akin. He always send me an apologetic smile everytime he catched my eye and I replied a smile that says it's all good. I hope got that.

"Hindi naman," puno ng kumpiyansang sagot ko kay Janice sa katanungan niya.

I saw her rolled her eyes.

"Dahil pag-aari mo na siya?"

Ngumiti lamang ako sa kanya na naging dahilan upang matawa siya.

"Oh gosh. Ayoko magkagusto sa isang tao. I don't want to end up like you," sabi niya na nagpataas sa aking kilay.

"What about Daryll?"

Nang sambitin ko ang pangalan ni Daryll ay biglang namula ang mukha ni Janice. Umiwas siya ng tingin sa akin mabilis na nilagay sa kanyang bunganga ang kutsarang punong-puno ng pagkain.

"Am I really the only one who keeps secret from us?"

She know that I'm just kidding when I said that. Kaya ay binigyan niya ako ng tumatayong gitnang daliri.

"Hindi pa kami," mabilis niyang sabi. "And I don't think I'm ready to have thing with him."

Nagtataka akong tumingin sa kanya.

"Why not?"

"Remember, Zach? He's the reason."

Oh, sh*t. Sumama ang aking loob dahil nakalimutan ko na ang tungkol doon.

The reason why kuya and I were protective over her is because of what happened in the past.

Si Zach ay ex boyfriend ni Janice. Tumagal sila ng halos apat na buwan noong Grade 9 pa lamang kami.

They're happy.

In-love.

Have a healthy relationship but something happened that we didn't expected.

Zach had a past na sinubukan niyang takasan. Nakabuntis siya at hindi niya ito pinanagutan. Kaya pala lumipat siya rito upang takasan ang kanyang responsibilidad. And you know what made it even worse? His parents send him here. Bought him a house and enrolled him to a school that they know he can hide. Hindi kasi masiyadong kilala ang school namin sa mga mayayaman. Well, maliban sa pamilya ni Nicole. May share kasi sila sa school na ito.

Nalaman lang namin nang sabihin ito ng isang mag-aaral dito noon.

May lumapit saming lalaki at nagpakilalang pinsan ni Zach and he told us all about him.

Labis na nasaktan si Janice sa nangyari. Mas lalo lang dumagdag ang sakit dahil iyon din ang araw na nakulong si Kuya.

He loved Zach so much and so as Kuya Ezekiel.

She's devastated. Wrecked. And hopeless.

Yung akala namin na magiging okay si Janice kung komprontahin namin si Zach pero mas lalo lang siyang nadurog nang hindi niya ito tinanggi. Taas noo pa niyang sinabi na mas pipiliin niya si Janice kaysa sa bata.

It took Janice a lot of effort to forget Zach.

Bumubuti na siya ngayon ngunit umiiwas siya when it comes to relationship.

I can't blame her, though. Hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng sakit ang naramdaman niya nang mangyari yun. And I don't want to experience it.

Totoong nawalan ako ng ama at masakit iyon. But I don't want to compare the pain I felt to her. Magkaiba kami kung paano namin damdamin ang sakit.

Kung samin mangyari iyon ni Kairo ay hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin. Buti si Janice ay nakayanan niyang lahat.

I looked at Kairo's way and found him already looking at me.

I give him the sweetest smile I can muster. Hindi naman ako nabigo dahil lihim rin siyang ngumiti sa akin.

Lihim.

I don't care. As long as he's mine.