Make me fall in love

Day 4- Part I

Jennifer's POV

So, I'm in a relationship and never in my life did I think I would do the things I've done for him.

Ew. Who am I? I ask myself.

However, I keep feeling this weird sensation that makes me want to do it again and again and I don't know if it is a nasty or a good sensation. I always intend to be near him, to annoy him and make him laugh. The way I am changing is not at all fine for me.

Thankfully, today is thursday . I have an appointment with Dr. Dirk Nannes today, I can tell him all about this weird sensation and he can help me figure out how to get rid of this nasty feeling that I'm getting. It makes me nervous and I don't like it. My hands shake for no reason and they get cold as well.  KISS! I still can't get over the fact that I've  kissed someone as passionately as him. It was great, I'm not going to lie, it felt amazing and at the same time it made me feel weird but I liked it. Strange, right?

I know he likes it... It is very obvious, when I first kissed him in front of the whole school, he was in shock, he couldn't even speak! I kept remembering it and laughing at it. he is so cute.

Ew, gross. Now, I am admiring him.

See what I mean? I need to go see Dr. Nannes as soon as possible, I need help with this, what the hell is going on with me?

"Snap out of it." Nick snaps his fingers bringing me out of my thoughts. We're in Maths. I sit in between Nick and Cindy. "Do I need to repeat myself?"

"Yes, please do." I said, he sighed

"He asked if you are really serious about going out with Richard, said something about a bet." Cindy rephrased as she write something down with her left hand. If I didn't tell you, she's left handed.

"Yes, like I said the other day, I am in what you could call a relationship with Richard, but it is a temporary relationship, so don't think of it." I said while copying Cindy's work. "Cindy, what's this?" I asked her as I couldn't understand whether it's j or k.  I always make jokes about how she will be a perfect doctor as no one will be able to read what she writes.

"Figure it out yourself, stop copying my work." She said as she cover her notes.

"Is it because of the bet? Dude, I didn't mean you have to go get yourself a boyfriend, all I said was bang him and be done with it!" Nick whispered. I sighed . To be honest, I have  forgotten about that bet .

"Nick, believe it or not— s**t, to be honest, I don't know what I'm doing or why I'm with him." I sighed, it felt so good to say it out loud, might as well say it to my best friends. Cindy suddenly turned to look at me. Probably curious.

"Argh, guys. It made sense at first because of the bet but I've been with him for almost a week or it feels like it, and I don't know why I'm doing it anymore, I guess its nice to get to know him? He's nice guy. I don't know."

"You want to get to know him?" Cindy asked confused as I tried to carry on with copying her work but she slapped my hand away, "But you didn't even like him two weeks ago.." Cindy always says that only a tiny step away from hate to love .  She also joked about me being sexually frustrated because I couldn't get on with Richard.

"Yes but we've been talking and he's... I don't know, nicer than I thought, I didn't even know him and I've been living with the guybfor almost three year, what does that say about me?" I asked frustrated with myself.

"All I'm gonna say is— Fuck." Nick paused, he was looking up, so me and Max turn to look where he was looking. A girl!

She look like a half asian girl. Whatever she is, she is really pretty. And I'm not the only one to think so, Nick has the same reaction

"Hey, sorry I'm late, I couldn't find the room." Shay said looking at Mr Davis, "I'm new, Shay Harriet." She smiled and turn to look at the class, our eyes met and she smiled at me.

"That's okay, I'm a substitute teacher, just grab a sheet and sit where you can." Mr Davis said, Shay grabbed her sheet and walked to the sit in front of us, she turn to say hi.

"Hey, Shay, right?" Nick said smiling, she nodded.

"Yes, this is Cindy and Jennifer." He introduced us, he began to talk to her until Mr Davis told them to shut up and we carried on with our work.

Once the bell rang, Nick told Shay he could help her finding her next lesson. They left me and Cindy alone. She is telling me something about some guy she has been talking to.

I met her when I first moved here, she is from France and we both moved here around the same time, we were both six years old and English wasn't our first language, now we can speak well but back then it was easier to speak our native languages.  Then we met Nicholas Cronje. His dad is Russian and once he heard Cindy talking in french, Nick approached us telling her that her language was pretty.  For me, their languages are set of letters put together but after a while, I just learn to love it.  I love every little things about my friends. My friends are my like my second family. Or the first. They're family and I loved them as such.

Next class  is as boring as the first one, I keep on trying to copy Cindy but she wouldn't let me. So I kept annoying her about the guy she said she liked.

Cindy doesn't even want to tell the name of guy she likes yet because for now they were just talking as friends. I can make her blush so easily.  She's always blushing, when she's embarrassed, shy, angry. Always! She got tired and finally allowed me to copy her which I refused because I had already finished it .

Cindy is in every single one of my classes, Nick , Sandra and Elliot are in some of my classes. Elliott is not much around as he always away for playing football. Sandra is close to Elliott. She follows him. I am dying of boredom because Cindy fell asleep . The last time when I draw moustache on her while she's asleep, she chased me and almost killed me. When the bell finally rang, I banged my books against the table, making her jump.

Lunch time!

We entered the cafeteria as usual Cindy headed to our usual table, I followed her but something caught my eye.

Dimitri is walking away from Richard's table, he is looking at Dimitri with anger . I told Cindy that I'd be going to Richard's table.  She nods and headed to our friends. Shay is with Nick, he is talking to her and she's laughing. Oh lord.

"What did he want?" I ask sitting down next to Richard, he is surprised to see me. he's easy to scare. "Dimitri, I mean."

"Nothing." Ric answered too quickly.

"Your little manwhore wanted to insult Richard and make sure he knows that you are going to be back with him in no time." The angry looking girl said, everyone at her table glared at her, if looks could kill...

"Emily!" Richard angrily said, Emily! That's her name.

"I'll be right back, love." I said and Ric blushed. I liked the way he blushs whenever I called him love. He gave me a peck in my lips, I am surprised by it. From the corner of my eye before I stood up, I saw the angry girl, Emily, looking at me angrily. I ignore it as I made my way to Dimitri's table, ignoring Richard's words.

"Hey dude" I smiled, Henry is 'friends' with Dimitri. 

"Hey hottie," Henry winked at me, I smiled feeling Richard's eyes on me. "Is it true you're with him? he's nice guy"

"Yes, something like that." I answered laughing, Dimitri's face redden. Remember what I said about guys wanting to be the special one to make the 'bad girl' change for him? Well, Dimitri here probably thought he was going to be a 'real thing', something longer than my usual fling. Dimitri was good in bed that's why I kept him around for so long , it wasn't my intention for him to get any wrong ideas.

" it seems someone doesn't understand how things work." I said looking over at Dimitri. He stand up to leave. But I caught hold of his hand, he looked at me with anger in his eyes. I am  getting annoyed of all his stupid childish actions. "Where are you going? Sit down."

"What's going on?" Henry asked confused.

"What is going on is that Dimitri doesn't understand that I no longer want him and that I've moved onto better things . But he keeps bothering my boyfriend and telling him stupid things that bothers me." I spat getting annoyed at this little  jealousy. Henry nods. This is why I like him, because he's not stupid, he knows better than to be in my bad side. Noone wants to mess with me.

I'm not aggressive, and I hate to be that person but I can boss everyone if needed to be. I know too much about all this people, every single person in this cafeteria has a secret or two and I know them all, I know their dirtiest secrets and their shady ways,so nobody wants to be on my bad side.

"Look Dimitri, why do you go to him when your anger should be directed to me? I don't care what you say to me but leave him alone, know your f*****g place. " I finish, "Anyway, Henry, I'll be having a party soon, you'll be the first one to get the text."

"Sure, babe." Henry said making Dimitri sit down next to him.

I walked back to Richard's table as if nothing has happened, he looked at me with wide eyes "What did you say?" he asked annoyed. I rolled my eyes.

"Told him to leave you alone and annoy me if he wanted to but not to say s**t to you." I said shrugging sitting down next to him. "So are you ready for your exam? Come on, let me help you." I was helping him when I heard someone get up and walk towards us.

"You'll come back." Dimitri said.

"Byeeee!" I waved at him goodbye with a smile. It really irritated him.

I continue to help Richard study . For every answer he got right, I  kiss him. he was annoyed at first but then he wasn't , he tried to pretend he didn't like my way of rewarding him but I knew he liked it. I could tell by the way he looked whenever I kissed him or how he waited for a kiss when he got the right answer.

"You guys are cute." Jessica said at the same time a voice behind me said something completely different. "You guys are disgusting."  Emily said scrunching her nose. I think this girl Emily likes Richard and he is oblivious to that.

"Well thank you bright eyes and Emily, I guess." I frowned at her as she walked to sit next to Jessica. Soon Cindy joined us.

"Can I ask you something?" Richard whispered against my ear making me shiver, he laughed at my reaction.

"Yes."

"Does your friends know what you're not ready to tell me yet?" he asked as I tensed up. I didn't mean to but I couldn't help it, I looked over at Cindy . "She knows?" Richard asked surprised to which I nodded.

"She was there. When it happened. I was with Kayden, she was in the cinema room watching a movie." I whispered against his ear, I wasn't about to let anyone hear, I don't know why I feel like I can tell him, like I can trust him. "I was looking for Kayden. I was— I saw him arrive and he was with his— with a girl who I completely despise and wish nothing but hell upon her. Cindy and I were having a sleepover, we were watching a movie, I told her not to worry that I'd be back. I- I even forgot she was there. She was the one who called the ambulance."

He didn't say anything, I didn't need it anyway, he just held my hand and kissed me.

"Another question?" he asked and I nodded. "Why is your friend Nicholas texting Jessica and flirting with that girl over there, the new girl who you also spoke with?"

"Is that jealousy I hear?" I joked as he rolled his eyes ,pushing me away. "Well, I don't know, Nick text a lot of people. I can't tell him not to text Jessica if that's what you're asking..."

"Don't even worry," Cindy said interrupting our conversation. "Your friend won't be played, Nick is very honest, if he wanted to have s*x with your friend, all he does is ask and if your friend says no then he'll probably move on. If she says maybe, he works for it but he makes it clear it'll be just for s*x. You have nothing to worry about." Cindy said and I nodded.

"Of course, nothing to worry about, now I feel so much better." Richard said sarcastically and I laughed. "So, are we doing anything today?" He asked excitingly.

"She can't do anything with you today, she has an appointment, Thursdays and sometimes Mondays from 4 pm to 5 pm." Cindy said, I glared at her. "Sorry... I'll leave." Cindy put her hands up in the air going back to Simon who was laughing at Cindy . "Like I was saying, you eyes look really calming, its the color, I really like it." She said to Emily and the girl blushed. Oh God. Here I thought she likes Richard.

"Emily doesn't like girls." Richard said, looking at me.

"Neither does Cindy. I think. She doesn't know what she likes. But she's right, I have an appointment with my psychologist  today at 3pm." I told him, he nodded. "Oh by the way, Patrick called this morning, told me he talked to you but isn't sure what your decision is, told me to try and convince you."

"I really want to... But I don't think I can take the job... I can't do it, the time I'd have to be there is late... I can on Saturdays but I don't think I'll be able to go on the weekdays and Sunday. I'm still in college, you know."he told me, I knew how badly he wanted the job, I just wish there was something I could do to help.

"I guess I'll just have to wait until I finish college. I want to go with music, I want that as my career but I have to be realistic, it might not happen, so I can't just give up my studies for it because I need it if music isn't work for me.you know?"

" both are going to be a success, because you're going to pass this exam and you'll be a famous singer and I'll be expecting a song about me so everybody will know how great Jennifer Giamatti is." I told him as I kiss him. Okay maybe I am acting a bit more caring than I should but I just wanted to, I can be sweet and caring and loving. I can be, besides, I like to see his face whenever I do because he always get surprised by it.

"Bell's about to ring, get off him and lets go. I don't wanna be late." Cindy stood up and I followed but I also wanted to wish Ric good luck.

"I'll see you in class, Cindy." She walked away rolling her eyes at me as I walk beside Richard to his class. "Good luck, Ric."

"Thank you, Jen." He leaned in to kiss me which caught me by surprise .

"By the way, could you... I'm sorry but could you get someone to drop you home? I can't do it 'cos I can't be late and Dirk has this thing about arriving  earlier... And the traffic and I want to—" why am I stuttering?

"Don't worry, I'll get Jess or someone to drop me off, now go to your class and I'll see you at home. By the way, don't be talking to your therapist about me." He  kiss me again

"Love, why would I ever talk to Dr. Nannes about you? No way." I said sarcastically. If he only knew about the several sessions I spent complaining about him.

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