Mind of a Lycan

Jackie

Dear Journal,

Oh, My Goddess, I can’t believe that Selene, herself, is sitting next to me explaining everything from the artifacts I found in Europe to why I was able to bring Aunt Denise’s spirit back to her body while everyone else everywhere else was frozen in time.  It feels like an out of body experience, but I know I’m here since her hand is holding and squeezing mine.  I was right she made me in a way that I cannot reveal my true Lycan form and color in front of any other until I am marked and mated.  She told me how proud she was of how I dealt with rejecting Giovanni and everything that happened afterward with his father.  She explained that it was something I had to go through, like a trial by fire thing, so that I would be able to better understand Aaron’s pain to a certain extent since we are each other’s, second chance mates.  She said that even though his first mate, Shari, will be dying soon and his young son is fighting for his own life due to a heart issue, she has to keep him cloaked from me until his heart heals more.  If we were to meet right now, he would choose for me to bring Shari back as she won't die a natural death.  A band of rogues will find her as she is running alone. Her death would be to fresh and he won’t be ready to even look at another female in the same way for a few years.  I was told that I could not go to their pack and stop what must happen for the future to turn out as it has too for everyone to fulfill their destinies. 

Hearing that I would be able to restore life to someone so long passed, my heart jumped and I had to ask her exactly how far back I could stretch to bring a loved one’s spirit back to their body.  I started thinking about how much Grandpa Carlos was missing Grandma Carrie, his mate, who had died over 30 years ago and the promise I made to him from inside Mom to heal his heart one day.  Selene could hear my thoughts and nodded her head understanding how much I wanted to be able to make not only Grandpa’s heart complete again but Mom and Aunt Charlie’s as well.  There isn’t a day that goes by that they don’t miss her and wish she was there to see her wonderful grand-children.  Even though we have never met her in person, my siblings and I still grieve for her loss as well, yes we love Nana Nina and Great Nana Celeste, but Grandma Carrie is a part of Mom and we feel like she does that a part of us is missing too.  Selene took my hands and helped me stand up, she told me to shift into my Lycan and once I did we walked together to the cemetery where she was buried and up to her gravestone.  With the wave of her hand over the site, the casket came rising to the surface.  She instructed me to open it and inside was her skeleton, with her skull and breastplate still completely intact.  My paws were put on each and I was told to do the same as I did with Aunt Denise, focus on making the body whole once more.  I could feel Selene’s warm hands on each of my shoulders while Lynn 2.0 began to heal Grandma’s corpse.  Slowly, each of her muscles, her veins, her organs were replaced into their proper spots, and her skin began to regenerate to cover her entire body.  So that within about 10 minutes she looked just as she had before she was sickened by the poison and killed.  Just like before I began to howl so loudly, but now I understand that this is how I call the spirit to return to the body.  Again seconds after I started a chorus of howls joined mine.  Mentally, I link with Selene through the hold she has on me and pray, “Moon Goddess from above, please help me bring back the one we love.  Let us now her spirit restore and as we bring her back from death’s door.”  This time I know I am drawing directly from her power to find Grandma’s spirit among so many she has with her and I can feel it flowing through my body as Grandma draws in her first shallow breath.  As soon as she did, Selene told me in my mind to shift back to human form since my family is now unfrozen and racing to where we are.  Grandpa felt his mating bond come back just like Uncle Edward had and knew his mate was alive again, so he was leading the pack to us.  After all that I passed out beside her casket and that is where they found us.