Mind of a Lycan

Jackie

Dear Journal,

So, I’m told that several days have passed as I just finally woke up.  When I opened my eyes, Chris, my twin brother, was holding my hand and sitting in a chair next to my hospital clinic bed.  They must have brought me here because the last thing I remember was the Moon Goddess kneeling next to me holding my hands then everything went black.  When he notices that I’m staring at him, he literally screams, “She’s AWAKE!!” into our family link.  I growl at him as I hold my head from him shouting so loudly.  Mom and Dad come rushing into the room from close by and I’m swept up into my Daddy’s arms like a little girl.  Everyone else filters in over the next few hours giving me hugs and warnings “Never do that again to us, young lady.”   Sammie came in and pinched me – yes, she pinched me hard – she said it’s because I didn’t link with her as soon as I found the artifact and got more information on my Lycan form.  Even though she is my little sister, she is also my best friend and confidante, she is the only one who actually knows what most of my “gifts” are and I know hers.  The doctors came in and checked me over thoroughly, which made Mom growl at them a bit protectively and they declared I was free to return back to the Palace so they could use this room for someone who needed it. Wink, wink, giggle, smile.  I had to agree to take it easy for at minimum a month since they didn’t know exactly what I did but they knew that my energy levels were severely depleted and needed time to fully recharge.  Chris told them he would kick my butt if I tried to do anything but relax once we got back to our pack and that was enough to convince the doctors I was in good hands.

The whole way back to the Palace, my Simon was curled up sleeping in my lap.  When we got there Chris took him, saying I wasn’t allowed to carry anything heavier than one of those sappy romance novels Sammie keeps hidden in her closet.  This earned him a couple of tongues stuck out in his direction as we all went back into the parlor, where Grandma Carrie was sitting holding and spoiling Chrissy.  Aunt Denise jumped up and ran to hug me, thanking me so much for helping her and Grandma find their way back to the loves of their lives.  I looked around a bit confused about what happened at the gravesite, so Grandpa took and sat me on his knee as he used to when I was small and explained everything that occurred after they got there and I fainted.  He said that Selene, the Moon Goddess, was cradling my head in her lap and waiting for them to arrive.  After she introduced herself, which was unnecessary since everyone knew her instantly, she informed them of the truest of all the gifts that I was born with.  If someone I loved with all my heart lost someone they loved by unnatural causes like an accident, poisoning or straight-up murder.  I had the ability to heal the body completely and bring their spirit back from beyond.  She wanted them to understand how special my Lycan is and how without my mate taking and marking me as his, Lynn 2.0 has to remain hidden from anyone else’s eyes. Like Mom’s Lycan, I need the protection of my mate or I would be in extreme danger if anyone knew my color.  Yes, my wolf, Lynn, is pure white like Mom’s Lycan, but Lynn 2.0 isn’t white, in fact, she is a color no one has ever seen before.  She gave them a brief history of my gifts as they were over 5,000 years in the making.  She profusely apologized to Grandpa and Uncle Edward for the pain she knew losing their mates caused them all so that I could come to this place at this time to learn my full potential.  She promised them both long and full lives with their loves and then she went over and touched Grandma’s head and made her a full Lycan, brown in color so that Grandpa could remark her immediately without killing her.  After making sure that everyone understood what was going on, she gave Chris the instructions to stay by my side until I woke up.  She said it was a twin thing and his presence beside me would help me find my way back since I was hiding in a spot in my mind where no one could find me.  She told him that each of us was given special gifts and in time we would learn them all.  Then she surprised everyone by hugging them all and thanking them for taking such good care of each other throughout all these years, she told Chris she was so proud of him for rising above the natural feelings of jealously that comes from being my twin.  She congratulated Mom and Dad for raising us to know that family and love were more important than the power we have inside.  She told Grandpa that she knew she had made the right decision to set him on this path as a young child because he did all she wanted him to and so much more by raising his family, even Carlotta, with true love. 

Chris stayed with me in the hospital, by my side, holding my hand for the 2 days it took to get me back.  I could feel him in my mind talking to me and telling me how proud he was to be my big brother, even though I bite him before we were born.  After Grandpa finished, I jumped up off his lap and tackled Chris in a bear hug to the floor, as I shifted into Lynn so that I could hold him down and lick all over his face.  He responded by shifting into Topher and tossing me off his chest, as we circled each other, Dad ordered us to shift back using that dang voice to make sure we complied.  Then he pulled me onto his lap to cuddle me.  Yes, I may be 20 but I will always be a Daddy’s girl.  He reminded me I have to rest, which means no roughhousing with my siblings.  He had a lot and I mean A LOT of experience making Mom relax and he plans on using that knowledge to keep me in line for the next month or more.  There was a mini fight with the group over which pack territory I should be staying at for security purposes.  Finally, having enough of them going back and forth I froze only Mom and Grandpa and let the others watch.  Dad stood there looking in wonder, and Chris suddenly tackled me claiming that now he knew how I was able to beat him so much when we sparred.  Flicking him off me rather easily I said I didn’t have to cheat when we fight simply because I’m just better than him.  Dad conceded that I can take care of myself and asked me to release Grandpa and Mom, which I did, but then Dad asked what would happen if I’m knocked out and unable to stop my attackers.  I smiled and asked him if he thought I was his only kid who could freeze people in place.  Then I walked over and took Jared’s hand, looking him straight in the eyes I taught him how to unleash his gift through our family link.  His face lit up like a Christmas tree and he turned to Chris asking if he could do this too, and then he froze Chrissy who had started crying since she wasn’t getting all the attention.  Through our link we could hear her yelling, “That’s not fair!” and Chris, Sammie, Simon, Jared and I started laughing so hard we ended up on the floor.  Mom told Jared to let Chrissy go so she could be fed and I looked a Chris, who snapped his fingers and the sounds of a very ticked off 3 months old filled the air once more.  Simon giggled, clapped twice and there was silence again, then Sammie looked at Chrissy who was raging mad in our link demanding we let her go and so Sammie snapped unfreezing our very mad baby sister.  Chrissy, who Grandma was still holding, vowed to make us pay for that when she was older and we all laughed knowing we could take the memory from her at any time.  Uncle Edward asked if we each had a special way to stop someone in their tracks since Sammie and Chris snapped and Simon clapped.  Jared told him that we could just do it, now that I taught them how, and that the others were just using showing off by making it flashier like a Vegas magician.  Dad shook his head and looked at Mom saying that they were in trouble now that all of us knew how to control it, and I told them they don’t have to worry about us using it improperly.  It is a defense mechanism built into our minds and now unless there is danger or we feel overstressed it won’t work.  Chris tries and nothing happens, Mom stared at me and I told her, in her mind only, that she was right I could use it anytime I wanted and the others could only use it as I had explained.  She asked if I had used it before and I said only once when I first learned I had it when I was training and 3 warriors came at me simultaneously.  She smiled and stated to all I would be going home to Full Moon with the full protection of my siblings who would be take turns sitting with me while I did absolutely nothing for the next month, and then she concluded it would look less suspicious for us to return home as if nothing was different.