Finding My Forever Love

Chapter 3

Jackson

My name is Deputy Chief Jackson Tyler Garrison I'm the fire chief at firehouse 38. At 31 years old I'm the youngest guy to ever be a deputy chief in the firehouse.

Being a fireman is what I love and I'm the first to go in and the last to come out of a fire. If you ask any of my guys, they'll tell you I'm the biggest d**k you've ever meet but I make sure they stay safe and make it out alive.

I'm 6'7 270 pounds of pure muscle with brown hair and dark blue eyes. My body's a work of art, I'm covered in tattoos from my arms to my back and legs.

I think the only place not covered in ink is the spot over my heart and that's reserved for the one woman who's able to catch my brothers and my heart.

After all the girls that we've shared over the years, I'm starting to give up hope that we'll ever meet the perfect girl for us.

I know that my brothers are convinced that Harley's that girl, but I can't afford to get my hopes up. We've been let down too many times before.

I'll admit that she is different and that every time I'm around her I feel like I'm drawn to her. She's extremely beautiful and sexy and the sweetest girl ever.

She'd do anything for anyone. That long red hair and those green eyes drive me nuts when I'm around her not to mention that ass of hers, damn.

I can tell that something bad had happened to her in the very recent past though. There's a look she gets in her eyes anytime a guy starts flirting with her.

Yea she smiles and laughs but it's like she's holding herself back. Still, even though she's beautiful and a good person I'm just not convinced that she's for us or at least not for me.

So, as I lay here in bed trying to fall asleep after a long night like always, the only thing I can think about is her beautiful face.

I've not seen her in a few weeks because I've been trying to stay away. But right now, she's all I can think about and now I'm hard as hell.

Laying there thinking about her I pull my d**k out of my boxers and grip it in my hand. I start sliding my hand up and down while squeezing it.

I can picture her taking that beautiful mouth down on me. She starts licking the tip where the precums coming out and then she starts sucking me into her mouth.

At first, she goes slow, her hand is squeezing the base of my c**k. Then she starts sucking me hard and moving her hand and squeezing my balls. I can fill that tingle at the base of my spine so I squeeze hard and then I shoot a load of c*m straight up onto my stomach.

After I lay there for a few minutes calming down I pull my boxers off grab a clean pair and go shower again. I shot so much c*m that I'm amazed.

I've not come like that in a long time and never from a fantasy. Friday has got to get here soon so I can find us a girl to bring home.

I've got to get this girl out of my system and fast before we end up hurt and disappointed again. After another hot shower, I finally fall into bed and crash hard. I was glad to finally fall asleep.

Since I worked the late-night shift this week, I didn't get home till around 7 am. So, after showering twice this morning it was around nine before I ever fell asleep. I woke up when my alarm went off at 3 o'clock and felt tired as hell.

I'm so glad that this is my last shift this week. I'm so ready for a few days off so that I can relax and chill. It's been a long week and I'm tired as f**k.

Of course, when I wake up the first thing on my mind is Harley. I've got to fix this s**t by getting laid or something I can't keep thinking of this chick all the time.

I'm about to lose my damn mind. I learned a long time ago that there are no such things as a happy ending.

Chicks around here just don't understand our way of living and considering the fact that Harleys not even from here I doubt she even knows that we like to share.

When I finally emerge from my room Coles in the kitchen fixing breakfast for everyone. He always beats us up and cooks for all of us. I don't know how he's always so damn happy when he first gets up but it's annoying as hell.

Don't get me wrong I love my brother's, all of them. But I wake up grumpy as hell and I have to have my coffee before I'm ready to deal with anyone.

"Good morning Jax breakfast will be ready soon and the coffee just got done," Cole says.

"Ugh, thanks. Why the hell are you in a good mood already today. It's too early for that shit."

"You're just a grouchy ass and I'm in a good mood because it's Thursday. The last day of the work week. I can't wait for tomorrow night. Harley, Chelsea, Emma, Lila, Arabella and I are all going out tomorrow to Rocky's bar. The girls all have dates as do I finally."

"I know most of the girls have boyfriends and husbands but since when do you and Harley have a significant other? Last I checked you were both single and you were chasing after Henley."

"I wasn't chasing after him you ass. I had a crush on him and since he's not interested, I'm moving on."

"Who's not interested in what?" asks Hunt and Dec. They both came in at the same time.

"Coles got a date Friday night because apparently, he wasn't chasing after Henley. He also doesn't think that Henley's interested in him. And you didn't answer my other question who is she going out with?" I demand.

"Who is who going out with?" asks Dec. "Harley has a date, and since when do you care you act like she doesn't exist. She's sick of waiting around for you idiots also."

"Who the hell is she going out with?" I demand again. He mumbles a name. "Sorry, but I didn't f*****g catch that." "I said she's going out with Zeke. He asked her last night again and she said yes. So we're all going out tomorrow night" Cole finally says.

"Your f*****g kidding me rite! She's not going out with that douche bag. No f*****g way, I will put a stop to this at work today and when the hell did, he ask her last night" Hunter says and he's really pissed off. More so than me if that's at all possible.

"Listen I've told you assholes for months now that she likes all three of you and yes, she knows that you share because I finally told her. I wanted to make sure she knew what she was getting herself into because she didn't think that she'd ever even had a chance with just one of you. But that didn't matter to her she was excited about it. We really didn't have much time to talk about it because we were at the end of our lunch break. If any of you t**t waffles screw this date up for her because you're a bunch of blind d***s, then ill kick your asses myself, I promise you that. Now eat your damn breakfast before it gets cold" said Cole.

I think we finally managed to piss off Cole which is not an easy thing to do. He's the most laid back out of all of us and it takes a hell of a lot to make him lose his cool.

When it comes to Harley though he's very protective of her, she's his best friend. He made him a plate and left the room. We all got plates and ate quietly while trying to figure out what to do.

As I ate, I tried to figure out what to do. I didn't want her for myself, but I'd be damn if I see another man touch her. If they were going to be at Rocky's bar, then so would I, and id make sure that slimy bastard didn't touch her or leave with her.

"What are we going to do. I'll be damn if I let f*****g Zeke touch her or go out with her. The guys a fuckin creep" Hunt says.

"Not much we can do, it's her choice," I say. "The f**k you say. Seriously man, you know what he's like. Hell, Arabella's trying to get switched with Parker and be my driver on the squad because he won't leave her alone. The guys about to get fired" Hunt says.

"Damn I didn't hear that s**t. If he's that bad he does need to be fired. It's still not my business if he goes out with Harley or not though" I say.

"Damn man since when did you become a cold-hearted bastard. You're the one always trying to find us a new girl to have s*x with man. We're ready for that s**t to change. I know I am, I'm sick of this new girl every weekend s**t and I'm ready to settle down and start a family. Harleys perfect for us but yet you won't even think about it. Why the hell not and don't tell me that you're not ready to settle down because I know you are" says Dec.

Now he's pissed at me to, oh well what are you going to do. "Ya she's the one just like Linda was or Diana was huh. What was it six months with one and three with the other and they couldn't take it? Said it was way too much for them they couldn't keep being with three men at once. What happens when we start dating Harley and let's say she makes it three months or six. Hell, she makes it a year then decides she can't handle us and want's out. What do we do then? I can't put my heart on the line anymore dude. You may be able to, but I can't not again. No f*****g way No f*****g how" I say.

"Really man that may have happened with those two but that was different." Hunter held up his hand to continue when I got ready to argue. " I don't know about you two, but I wasn't really into those to chicks it was just s*x and it didn't bother me when they left. With Harley, it's different I can tell just by being near her. I don't just think about s*x when I'm around her or talking to her. I actually see myself with her in the future. Hell, I got butterflies in my stomach just talking to her. The best part of my day is when I have to make a trip to the hospital, and I get to see her. That may make me sound like a damn chick, but I don't know how else to describe how I feel about her. I do know how it makes me feel to think about her being with a guy that's not one of us. I have a boiling rage in me that's ready to go off at any minute. And when I think about her going out with Zeke it really makes me want to f*****g go off on him because he knows how I feel about her. But I swear he may pick her up and take her out, but I will find out where they're going and by the end of the night, she'll be with us. Whether that's all of us, two of us, or just me is up to you guys" Hunter says.

I think about what he says for a minute and just can't do it. I'm not ready to settle down just yet. "Hell, yea I'm in for it. I feel the same damn way man" Dec says.

I say "I don't man, but I'll tell ya what I know. They're going to be at Rocky's bar tomorrow night. I'm planning on going so if you want, we can go together and keep him away from her. Then you two take her home. I plan on finding myself a piece of ass for the night and it's not going to be her" With that I stand up put my plate and coffee cup in the dishwasher and head up to get ready for work.

I'll help them keep him away from her, but I can't have anything to do with her because if I do, I'm pretty sure id end up losing my heart to her and I'll be damned if I let that happen.

Because if Harley broke my heart, I know I'd never get over it. Because what no one knows is that I fell in love with her the first time I met her. I mean come on just look at her what's not to love.

Harley's beautiful and perfect and I want nothing more than to make her ours, but I just can't take the chance of getting hurt again.

If she's what my brothers want, then they can have her. I don't ever plan on falling in love again. I going to stay the way I am now.

I go get ready for work so I can get this last day over with. Once this shift is done, I have the weekend off so I can go out, relax and forget everything and find a piece of ass for the night. Come on Friday my love I am so ready to see you.