The Diary

Unwanted Guest.

Reality is just an illusion . Today I learned something - " DON'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU THINK BECAUSE NOT EVERYTHING YOU THINK TO BE REAL IS REAL . " That sounds like a tongue twister . But what if everything that I believed up till now was the truth . Even if it is I don't want to believe it .

Anyways , I saw someone today outside Jenny's clinic today . I ignored him but then I saw him standing outside my house . He was dressed all in black . He wore a black jacket and a black hat . He vanished in a blink so maybe he was just another hallucination . Jenny said that I have to find something that could drag me to reality . But what could it be? .

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27 September 2019 :

Dear diary , last night was restless , I heard someone talking nearby ( usually saying my name or just a couple of muffled syllables ) , bits of songs ; like having an ear worm except louder . A distant ringing telephone , except we don't even have a telephone . I heard something loudly falling somewhere . Visually , I saw they flashes of color or blackness in the periphery of my vision . Like when someone walks by and you just barely see them out of the corner of your eye . I saw the basement women standing behind my cupboard, she whispered " RUN OR YOU WILL BECOME ME " . It was probably the most startling to me .

Once or twice I had instances where familiar people were complete strangers , no recognition whatsoever – that was pretty trippy and more than a little terrifying .

I also woke up one morning after a restless night to see a girl standing by my bed in a white night gown . I shrugged it off and rolled over . It wasn't until I woke up later that I realized what happened . I am finding it hard to deal with it . I wanted to take my medicines but after everything that Jenny told , I was not able to .

I felt a connection with the girl I saw in the morning , though I know she is not real . And how am I supposed to deal with the basement women's warning . I have to get her out of my head . The only option for that was to go and check the basement . So I went to the basement , though it was morning but the place was still dark . It had no window to let the sunlight in . I took a torch but the batteries betrayed me . There was a mini lab as I remembered . Nothing there was suspicious everything was normal , except the blood , the blood was there on the floor . There was no sign of the basement women . I was not able to stand the smell of blood so I turned back to walk out , the flickering light of my torch fell on a dark figure . I freaked out but then I realized he was none other than my dad . I knew , I was dead . My dad strictly warned me to stay away from the basement . He said : " What the hell are you doing in here ,  Kate " , I could feel the anger in his voice , I tried to give him an explanation , but he interrupted in between and asked me to come out . I felt like a criminal . As I went out three figures surrounded me , dad , Claire and some unwanted guest .

I wanted to confront my dad ,

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Kate " Dad I thought you were supposed to come tomorrow . "

Kevin " What were you doing in there , Kate . "

Kate " What about the blood ? If you want answers then you will have to answer first . "

Claire " So girl , you are arguing with your dad now . "

Kate " Please Claire , stay out of it . "

Kevin " That's no way to talk . "

Kate " What about the blood , dad ? "

Kevin " Trust me , Kate you don't want to know about it . "

Kate " I want to more than any thing .  "

Kevin " We performed a sacrifice , for you . "

Kate " A sacrifice ! "

Kevin " Your condition was deteorating , your hallucinations were growing worse , I was feeling hopeless but then I found a grimore of your mother and there was a mention about a special ritual . "

Kate " What is a grimore ? "

Kevin " It is a spell book . "

Kate " Like the one which witches have . "

Kevin " Yes ! "

Kate " Why did mom had a grimore ? "

Kevin " I never wanted to tell you this but your mother practiced witchcraft . Her father was a exorcist . When your mother was nearly your age she was constantly being struck by delusions and muscle spasms at 3 am , doctors diagonosed her with grand mal epilepsy and psychosis but her father believed that she was possessed by a demon . He performed exorcism on her but that went wrong and it affected her head . She claimed that she gave in to the temptations of the devil , and learned how to perform magic by following around groups of witches . After our marriage she started having hallucinations , she always thought that I was abusive . She was experiencing difficulties in her personal life - an abusive husband , as she thought ; a daughter suffering from a syndrome . She thought that things that were going wrong in her life might be because of a demon , and if she got the demon out , things would get better . She used to perform different rituals in that basement . Later , she came to me and said that ' Kate might not be autistic but possessed by demons , and our child needed deliverance ' . I thought that it was high

time now , I didn't wanted her to drag you into all this , so I confronted her . Next day she left the house with you , it took me two years to find you . "

Kate " I can't believe that my mother was a witch ! "

Kevin " That's why I always asked you to stay away from the basement . "

Kate " Dad , I heard some strange voices from the basement so that's why I went there . "

Kevin " I am so sorry Kate , I shouldn't have left you alone , it's my mistake . "

Kate " Dad are you also a witch ? "

Kevin " I am not a witch Kate "

Kate" You said that you performed a ritual "

Kevin" I love you Kate, the most. I hate seeing you suffer, I made numerous prayers to god but none got answered so I decided to pray to the demon. "

Kate" Are demons real ? "

Kevin" Demons don’t seem very scientific. Neither do angels. These are invisible beings that affect the visible world. Demons are angels that followed

Satan in a rebellion in heaven. The reality of demonic forces only highlights the great power of the Living God we serve."

Kate" Was mom dangerous ? "

Kevin" She had a whole different side to her . You had an older brother, Kate. He fell from the terrace and died, your mother claimed that she saw him two days later.

He told her that he was still alive on the other side. Your mother thought she could bring him back. "

Kate" A dead brother, other side , Am I hallucinating ? "

Kevin" No you are not, if we are talking about truth then you should know everything "

Kate" Other side, does it even exist "

Kevin" Yes it does, you stay there till you find peace. When you get to the other side, you can see but you are not seeing with your eyes as those were left behind

with your body , so think of it rather as an ethereal sense not rooted in physicality. Similarly you can hear without ears and touch without skin. You are immersed

in an energetic frequency that has no physical form but is still very real and very present. "

Kate" How do you know all this ? "

Kevin" Your mother told me, she said that she will go to the other side and bring back your brother. Since his body was dead so she had to perform a sacrifice. I didn't

understood the meaning of sacrifice, so I helped her unwillingly"

Kate" How can you go to other side when you are alive "

Kevin" You die when your brain stops functioning so if you temporarily stop your brain from functioning you can go to the other side and you can even come back."

Kate" How can you stop your brain from functioning "

Kevin" On the full moon she performed a ritual, she enchanted some spell which made her brain temporarily dead. She was supposed to come back to life within

two hours but she didn't, I waited for three hours, four hours but when she didn't gained conciousness, I took her to the hospital. She went into coma for four months. When she woke she said that she failed, she told me that she got trapped to the other side. I knew that she needed medical care, she was in trauma.

I contacted a psychiatrist but she never went to see him. A few days later, I found a body of a six year old girl in our basement. Your mother told me that she sacrificed her and she was supposed to bring the soul of your dead brother into her body .  "

Kate " Dad please stop that's all I can take . "

Kevin " I am so sorry Kate ! "

Kate " No dad , I am sorry , I doubted you , can I ask you a question ? "

Kevin " Go ahead . "

Kate " Is it possible that the spirits of the other side are trying to contact . "

Kevin " Why what happened ? "

Kate " Lately I am having some weird hallucinations , last morning I woke up with a bleeding head and I have no idea how I hurt myself . My hallucinations feel very real its hard to distinguish between hallucinations and reality . "

Kevin " I have got cameras I will install them in the entire house , you have got nothing to worry . And your hallucinations are getting worse because you are not taking your medicines properly , Are you ? "

Kate " No dad , sorry , who is this person by the way ? "

Claire " He is my third cousin , Kyle , he will be staying with us for a few days . "

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Kyle , I have never met him but I know him . He was an abused child of an alcoholic father and a puritanical and domineering mother but there is nothing to pity about him . His first wife accused him of homicide . She said that she was increasingly neglected , belittled , beaten , starved , lacerated by him . Then he married a girl half her age .

Her name was Mary , she strangely disappears after a month of marriage , her body was found after few days at the outskirts of the town . It had more than sixty wounds . The sheriff suspected that Kyle has killed his wife but due to the lack of evidences he was not able to lay any charges .

Dear diary , If a spirit were indeed able to exist in two realms at the same time - to occupy the spirit world while still involving itself in our designs here in the material universe - wouldn't it be aghast with glory and wonder ?  Wouldn't it transcend the pathetic little concerns of daily life ? I think some spirit of other side

is trying to reach me . Maybe my mother is trying to reach me . Today dad told me a totally different story about my mother , I can't believe that she was a witch , according to my dad's story she was not a good lady , according to Jenny's story my dad was not a good person . I don't know who is telling the truth , I have to find it , somehow . I went to my mother's stuff in the store room and there I found a lot of grimores . This means that dad was telling but why will Jenny lie to me .

I went to Jenny's clinic to question her . The gate was open , I walked in , her body was lying on the floor lifeless , it was surrounded by a pool of blood . The rugs were soaked in blood . Her body had scrapes and bruices all over , they showed that she made numerous unsuccessful attempt to defend herself . She wasn't dead , she was still breathing . Her breaths were shuttering and haltering as she attempted to control the pain and shock . It was hard to stand her tortured sobs . Blood was slowly dripping down her lips as she struggled to sleep . I was not able to breath , my legs trembelled as I ran out . I dialed 911 . I didn't dare to walk back in the clinic . I sighted a black hat in the room , I picked it up . The man who I spotted outside my home yesterday wore the same hat . This means that he was not a hallucination he was real . He killed her !

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