The Diary

Killer Kyle ( part 1 )

Previously ;

The gate was open , I walked in Jenny's clinic , her body was lying on the floor lifeless , it was surrounded by a pool of blood . The rugs were soaked in blood . Her body had scrapes and bruices all over , they showed that she made numerous unsuccessful attempt to defend herself . She wasn't dead , she

was still breathing . Her breaths were shuttering and haltering as she attempted to control the pain and shock . It was hard to stand her tortured sobs . Blood was slowly dripping down her lips as she struggled to speak  . I was not able to breath , my legs trembelled as I ran out . I dialed 911 . I didn't dare to walk back in the clinic . I was just not able to stand the horrific sight . I sighted a black hat in the room , I picked it up . The man who I spotted outside my home yesterday wore the same hat . This means that he was not a hallucination he was real . He killed her ! .

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30 SEPTEMBER 2019 :

Dear diary , I am sorry I deserted you again but I needed a break to figure out everything . Last two days have been grueling . I can feel this thing in my head , it' s killing me from inside . I don't think people understand how stressful it is to explain what's going on in your head when you do not understand it yourself . Earlier I thought that it is fear but no it is the guilt . Fear is the price our concienece pays to guilt . I am not able to let go of it . I could have saved her , I saw that strange man outside my home , I could have informed the cops but I mistook him for being my hallucination . I feel so worthless . I know guilt cannot change what happen , but guilt can certainly change what will happen . My guilt will force me and push me to find the killer . I feel so alone , I have locked myself in my room for past two days but no

one even bothered to come to me , to talk to me . My dad comes ones or twice to check on me . He asks if I am okay but mostly he don't even want an answer .

Sometimes we need someone to simply be there . . . . . . . . .  Not to fix anything or do anything in particular, but just to let us feel we are supported . Just to let us feel that we are not alone , we are not lonely . Loneliness is like a disease  it takes over your body and if not cured on time , it can kill us ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

That night , while returning home , I saw a car driving in my direction . It suddenly veered onto the sidewalk , continued toward me , and swerved back onto the road moments before hitting me . I thought it was real , but I was so out of it from exhaustion that I didn’t even flinch . Today I realized that the curb of the sidewalk was too high for a car to have possibly driven over . Last night I dreamt of the basement women she was with the girl I hallucinated before , she repeatedly said that " DON'T TRUST ANYONE " I don't understand what she meant . I was going through my mom's grimore this morning and I found two photos in one of them , one was of a girl and the other was of a boy . Maybe the boy was my older brother , this means that she was the girl sacrificed by my mother . I felt a chill in my bones , I looked on to my mother , I thought that I knew but now I realize that I was living with a complete strange . Okay so that's a lot to take , I need a change , if I will keep on juggling with these thoughts I will never be able to find

the killer . I don't want Jenny to get trapped on the other side , I want her to find peace for that I will have to find the killer . So I decided to go to ' The Beanery ' ,  but before that I went to the cemetery to offer some flowers to Jenny , I met Peter over there ,

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Peter " Hey Kate !  "

Kate " Peter , what are you doing here ?  Wait a minute , are you following me . "

Peter " No , no you are getting me wrong , I came by to see my parents . "

Kate " Oh , I am sorry . "

Peter " Kate are you okay ! "

Kate " Sometimes all you can do is smile , move on with you day , hold back your tears and pretend you are okay , so yes I am okay . And just to tell you ' ok ' is way over - rated . "

Peter " What are you doing here ?  "

Kate  " I came to see Jenny . "

Peter " I feel so sorry for that lady she was so brutally murdered . "

Kate " Me too ! ( sighs ) . "

Peter " Kate , I wanted to say . "

Kate " I think I should keep going . "

Peter " Wait a minute where are you headed to . "

Kate " The Beanery . "

Peter " Can I accompany you ? "

Kate " Of course you can but I don't think you shall ." 

Peter " I know you are upset and you think that I told them about your syndrome but trust me Kate I haven't , I will never do that to you . "

Kate " It was my mistake I shouldn't have told you about everything . "

Peter "  No , it's not like that , I will never do anything to hurt you . You can trust me .  Just tell me how can I prove it to you . "

Kate " I want to tell you something but I want you to promise me that you won't tell it to anyone . "

Peter " I promise . "

Kate " I know who killed Jenny  . "

Peter " What , who killed her ? "

Kate " I killed her . "

Peter " What are you saying . "  

Kate " I am not joking , I killed her and now I feel guilty . "

Peter " Why do you say so ? "

Kate " Three days back I went to Jenny's clinic , while returning I spotted a guy outside her clinic , he wore a black coat and a black hat . Later I spotted that guy outside my home . "

Peter " Who is that guy ? "

Kate " I don't know , I didn't see his face . "

Peter " Do you think he killed her ? "

Kate " I am sure , I found the same black hat at the crime scene . "

Peter " Where is the hat ? "

Kate " It's with me ,  I brought it home . I could have saved her but I thought that he was just another hallucination , I feel so guilty . "

Peter " No Kate it wasn't your fault , so what are you on to now . "

Kate " I want to find the killer . "

Peter " You should tell the cops about the hat . "

Kate " I want to but I am scared what if that man was mere an illusion . "

Peter " But you found the same hat , that can't be a co - incidence , can I have a look at it "

Kate " Of course , I think we should go to my place . "

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WE CAME HOME AND WE WENT STRAIGHT TO THE STORE ROOM , BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS PERFECT TO HIDE THE HAT WITH MY MOTHER'S STUFF. I HAVE KEPT IT IN THE CUPBOARD .

Peter " Don't mind Kate but your store room is definitely in a pitiable condition , it is badly stuffed , the webs and the smell it's gross . "

Kate " Yes that 's because no one even peeps in here . I guess the door got jammed can you give me a hand . "

Peter " Yes , wait a minute , pull it on the count of three , 3 ! 2 ! 1 ! pull ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !  "

Kate ( chuckles ) " It opened , wait what no ! "

Peter " What happened ? "

Kate " The hat is missing , I kept it right over here . "

Peter " Let me help you search . "

Kate " It must be somewhere between the clothes check carefully . "

Peter " Kate I have searched every where , nothing is here . "

Kate " I kept it here myself . "

Peter " I am so sorry , Kate . "

Kate " Why are you being sorry , oh yes , you don't trust , do you ? "

Peter " I trust you Kate but maybe you were wrong this time ,  maybe you never saw that person , you stay here , I will get you some water . "

AND THEN HAPPENED THE WORST . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 

Jenny " I am dead because of you . "

Kate " Jenny ! "

I SAW JENNY , SHE WAS BLEEDING EVERYWHERE , I WAS ABLE TO SMELL THE BLOOD .

Jenny " Don't turn your face , you did this to me . "

Kate " I didn't do it . "

Jenny " You were supposed to be dead Kate not me . That man wanted to kill you . "

Kate " But why will anyone want to kill me . "

Jenny " I tried to help you and look the price I paid , you saw the killer , I was alive when came to my clinic , you could have saved me if you wanted  . "

Kate " I wanted to help you , I still want to help you , I will find the killer . "

Jenny " Will that bring me back ?  "

Kate " No , but you will get justice . "

Jenny " I don't want justice , I want life . "

Kate " But that's not possible . "

Jenny " It is , you know that their are two worlds , the real world and the other side . "

Kate " Yes . . . .  "

Jenny " And there's a link joining both worlds if you destroy that link then I will be able to come back . "

Kate " I can't do that even if I could , I wouldn't . "

Jenny " Then you are no good but your body is . "

Kate " What do you mean ? "

She looked at me with an inhuman face and stabbed me with a glass piece , everything blacked out then . After that all I remember is waking up my bed , Claire was sitting next to me . There was no injury on my body .

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