keep pushing forward

chapter 15

Shane.

work bad been the same as usual this week but I was missing Jenna something crazy. I was really hoping she'd invite me over, but it looks like the woman has some insane will power. something I obviously don't have with her. I mean even before the s*x I'd fallen head over heels for this woman already. but now that I've had a small taste of her it's harder for me to stay here working.

I just showered and finished a sandwich after a long day and say down with Duke to call her.

we'd been talkie every night and texting when ever we could, even talked with Jackson last night he was excited to be heading back to football practice today.

I smiled at the picture on my phone. one of her relaxing on the beach, I don't think she even knows I took it but damn she looks so beautiful.

jenna- hello?

her sweet voice came over the phone making me sigh out

me- hey gorgeous. what are you up to?

she giggled

Jenna- eating cold pizza just got off the phone with Macy.

I hummed a bit man I missed her but hearing her voice put me in a better mood.

me-well how is she?

Jenna - oh you know all in love and what not

I chuckled as she giggled. Macy and Calvin had been spending most of their time together.

me- well how was Jackson's practice? I didn't get an videos.

Jenna - they got rain out so they didn't get to practice. so he decided to stay with aunt mel for tonight, I'm sure they are eating junk staying up way to late. but he did tell me to tell you he will get a tackle his next practice.

I smiled. that little dude has me wrapped and I find it so funny he knows I like his mama but doesn't want her to know until she's ready to tell him.

me-well sounds like he's living the good life tonight

she giggled

Jenna- oh yeah. he gets away with everything when it's just him and her there.

I chuckled and we sat in silence for a moment, I begged her in my mind to invite me over. I wanted her to know she could ask me these things. I wanted her to understand I missed her just as much.

me- well I miss you woman.

she sighed out heavily

Jenna - I miss you as well. I'm sure today was rough did y'all get rained on?

me-oh yeah. we got soaked but nothing we aren't used to darlin.

there was a pause. I waited hoping.

Jenna - well hopefully tomorrow won't be as bad.

I shook my head smiling.

me- mind if I come keep you company?

Jenna - you need to rest. it'll be late but the time you get here.

me- that isn't what I asked Jenna.

she sighed and I knew she was overthinking.

but before I could say anything else she spoke again.

jenna-Jackson is beeping in let me tell him goodnight and I'll call you back.

me-I'll be headed your way

Jenna - Shane it's raining and I know you've had a hard day it's only a few more days until the weekend.

me- go talk to Jackson I'll be there soon.

jenna-you really aren't listening to me..

me - go. before they get worried. talk to you soon.

she went to protest but I hung up. I knew she'd call back once she got done talking to him. I took Duke for one more walk and grabbed a bag of a change of clothes before throwing on a shirt with my sweats and I headed out the door.

passing my crew that was still sitting out inter the covered porch area having a beer. they let out whistles and yelled questions as I walked passed.

I just waved them off

" y'all don't forget you have work tomorrow!"

I hollered at them and they all hollered a yes sir back.

I got in and headed down the road, they knew that walk all to well with the guys all running off at random times after work to see a lady. they just didn't know who I was going to see.

I was a little ways down the road when she called back.

me-hey darling. I'll be there about 1130

I heard her sigh out over the phone

Jenna - you are being stubborn

me- how so? I just want to see my woman

jenna-yeah and your gonna feel like crap tomorrow.

I'm a mess, my house is a mess! I'm not ready for a surprised drop by.

I could hear her freaking out even though was trying to be calm

I chuckled.

me-i know your house isn't a mess. and you damn sure aren't a mess. you just leave the door unlocked and I'll be there.

she sighed out.

Jenna - okay..

we said our goodbyes and I went way above the speed limit rushing to her. once I finally saw her drive I breathed out a sigh of relief. I wanted nothing more than to hold this woman. I had no idea what she was doing to my heart but I knew I was right where I needed to be in this moment.

I grabbed my go bag once I put the truck in park and I rushed to her porch since it was pouring rain, she flipped on the light so I knew she knew I was here.

before I could knock she opened the door. standing there biting her lip on one of my tees she looks like heaven.

" you're here"

she breathed out and I nodded smirking at her.

" I'm here love"

she nodded as I took a step inside and she took one back. I didn't let her get far I grabbed her up in my arms, her thick legs going around my waist as I held on to her ass dropping my bag to the floor. claiming her lips with mine and we both signed out.

kicking the door closed with my foot as she knocked my hat from my head running her hands over my head. she needed this just as bad as I did. she was just worried I was gonna turn her down.

I walked us to her room, breaking the kiss only so we could catch our breath as I kissed down ber neck.

once we reached her room I laid her on the bed and the clothes we were both wearing came off.

she moaned underneath me as my hands ran over her body. taking her in.

" f**k I've missed you"

her body shivered as I kissed each place my hand touched. kissing back up her neck to her ear I leaned up watching her beautiful face as I let my finger slowly slid over her wet p***y.

she tried to bring her legs closed but I shook my head.

letting my two fingers sink into her tight little heaven we both moaned out

" I'm gonna make you scream my name"

I breathed into her ear before making my way down her body. as her wide eyes watched me.

taking my hands and massaging her large thick thighs as I spread them wide for me, looking over her beautiful wet p***y just waiting for me.

I licked my lips

" as bad as I want to be inside you I need have to have a taste"

I didn't give her time to respond I let my head drop my eyes watching her as I licked her from one hole to her clit.

" Shane"

she softly moaned out. I didn't let up sucking her clit into my mouth I massaged it as my other hand came down find her opening thrusting inside slowly her hips jerked.

her hands flying to my head holding on as I worked her body over. her soft moans coming out.

it wasn't long she was falling over for her first orgasm my name softly rolling off her lips. her legs closing right around my head as her hips rocking back and forth.

once she calmed down I kissed my way back up her body. my beard still wet from her juice as she laid there breathing heavy

" I'm not done with you woman"

I whispered into her ear before flipping her body over. pulling as round ass into the air. her letting out a yelp when I smacked it. grabbing a condom and rolling it on, my c**k was throbbing if I didn't find some relief soon I'd go insane.

she leaned up looking back at me as she bit her lip, her eyes looking over my c**k.

grabbing her ass roughly and massaging it making groan.

we'd done this a couple times but I wasn't sure what all she actually like yet, but I'd definitely find out.

" please"

she panted out as I let my c**k rub against her.

thrusting in fast without warning making her call out.

" that's it baby girl let it out"

I groaned, holding on to her hips and thrusting into her roughly over and over.

she wasn't being over the top, I could tell the noises coming from her mouth were her own. she wasn't putting on a show and for that I was glad. I don't need a porn star, I need to know she's actually enjoying her self as much as I am.

" f**k Shane!"

she moaned louder as I moved a bit hitting a different spot and I smirked watching her ass bounce.

" found it"

I pounding into her over and over begging myself to hold off until she came first. I thought I was gonna lose the battle for a moment until she started to tighten around me.

" Shane! oh f**k! it's.."

her sentence turned into a moan as she fell apart, her juices leaking down around us and I was coming just a moment behind her. holding her hips into place as both our bodies jerked a bit.

finally she fell to the bed and I dropped the condom in the trash beside her bed before I fell into it holding her hand kissing it as we caught our breath.

Jenna.

I was laying on my stomach as he laid on his back. our hands connected. I finally opened my eyes to look at him and he has a soft smile looking over at me. I blushed hiding my face with our joined hands and he chuckled pulling my body to his.

" you can't hide now love"

I giggled shaking my head

" this is my first booty call'

he chuckled, the vibration running along my bare body

" it isn't a booty call if you plan on talking to me tomorrow "

I raised a brow at him. I'm pretty sure him driving in the middle of the night for s*x is a booty call

" oh yeah and what would you call this"

he sat up a bit, pulling me so if straddle him. I blushed even more, my body was still dripping. and let's be honest I'm sure he's seen way better woman.

his hands slide up my sides as his eyes took me in.

" this was the two of us needs each other"

I kissed his lips his hands grabbing my bottom, as his tongue slid back into my mouth my hips began rocking on their own.

" will it always be like this?"

I asked breathlessly. he bit down on my collar bone

" it will as long as you let me take care of you baby girl"

I moaned out my eyes closing. I wanted to feel like this more, my body felt like it was floating.

he held my close to his body leaning over the bed as I giggled

" what are you doing?!"

I asked scared he was gonna fall with me in his arms. he leaned back up showing me a condom.

my eyes went wide, surely he wasn't saying we were going again. he put the package between his teeth and his hand grabbed my n*****s twisting them a bit before one ran between us, he flexed his hard member

" he isn't done with you"

I bit my lip moaning as his hand spread my core moving my leaking juices around. he pulled his fingers back up holding them in front of our faces

" looks like she isn't done either"

I gasp as he spread my juices along my n*****s and I watched. getting even more turned on. I hadn't ever experienced this, this closeness, so hot yet so intimate.

he gently moved me back a bit and I watched as he rolled a condom over his large member.

" whenever you are ready baby girl"

he groaned out and my eyes flicked to his as he watched me. he nodded as I did. he wanted me to ride him, I'd done this before I just wasn't so sure how I felt about him seeing me on top of him.

it hitting me like a tone of bricks the lights in my bedroom were still on. my body got hot, and I'm sure I turned red a over. he smacked my ass bringing my attention to him, he shook his head slowly

" ride my d**k baby girl"

I gasped at his dirty words. shaking my head

" let me turn the lights low"

I whispered out trying to get off of his lap but he held me in my place shaking his head.

" no ma'am I want to see you make us both c*m. I want to watch the gorgeous body bounce on top of my d**k"

my mouth fell open. I was lost for words and I couldn't move. I was frozen in fear.

fear of him hating this.

he smacked my bottom harder this time

" ride my d**k Jenna"

my eyes flicked from his harder member to his eyes and he nodded slowly. I breathed out. grabbing it and lifting myself as I closed my eyes. I couldn't watch. I slowly let him slide back inside of me, stretching me once again. a moan falling from my lips and I think I heard him moan as well.

my hands went to his shoulders holdings on as I began to ride him slowly. my eyes squeezed shut.

I wanted to enjoy this I truly did but with the light on knowing he was watching me, knowing he could see my body. all my flaws I was dying.

he twisted my n*****s roughly making my eyes shoot open as he smirked at me

" just me and you darlin."

he whispered and I nodded

" close your eyes please"

I some what begged and he raised a brow at me. but he humored me. he kissed my lips before letting his head fall back closing his eyes.

" now ride my d**k like you mean it"

I started bouncing my name falling from his lips.

and moans como from mine. I'm this position he was definitely hitting the right spots.

my eyes were glued to his chest he let his hand fall roughly on my bottom again Making me call out.

" mmm work that ass just like that"

my eyes flicked up and sure enough he was watching me with hooded eyes. I didn't slow down, I couldn't k was to far gone at this point chasing that feeling of floating once again.

his hands tank my breast as the bounced in his face. he took one n****e in his mouth then the other.

" Shane"

I moaned out, my legs were starting to shake and I wasn't sure how much longer I could take this.

" mhm. c*m for me baby girl. use my c**k to make yourself c*m"

he groaned into my boobs his eyes finding mine. I wanted to c*m. it was right there but I wanted to make sure he came as well.

one hand fell from my chest and found my clit squeezing it making me scream out as I fell apart on top of him. my legs shaking and my body falling to his. my heart going insane as he wrapped his arms around me and pumped up into me. I was so sensitive but a few more pumps and I came again as he did. holding our bodies together he took my lips, putting his tongue on my mouth as we both panted into the kiss.

soon my body fell to his and I was exhausted. I hadn't even c*m so much. he ran his hand softly up my back then other moving the hair from my face as he kissed my cheek

" that was amazing darling"

I blushed hiding my face in his chest. but I kissed his chest humming a response.

after we both caught our breath he of course cleaned us both up. he was so soft with my body now, I felt cared for as be crawled into bed next to me and held me in his arms. I breathed out a sigh.

" things really can't be this good. things really can't be this simple"

he chuckled behind me kissing my bare shoulders

" who says?"

I shrugged

" it's the truth"

he held me tighter to his body.

" don't worry love I'll show you different."

he kissed my shoulder once more.

" rest love"

I nodded yawning. I was exhausted. and that was all I wanted to do now was sleep.

I had realized he called me love a few times and I wanted to question it, there was no way he was in love. there was no way any of this was real. once the new worse off I'm sure things would begin to change.

I wasn't ready for that but that's the reality isn't it?

he held me close as we both fell asleep.

I woke to his alarm, and I felt so guilty for him having to be up so early. I rolled over to face him as he rolled over to turn it off. he had his phone for a moment before he set it back down and pulled me back into his arms.

" it's so early"

I groaned out. his hand squeezes my bottom

" go back to bed darling"

I nodded into his chest, his hand rubbing my bottom wasn't putting me back to sleep, no it was waking up another part of me and I felt so damn silly.

I had never been this way. and I wasn't about to start now and scare him off.

he pulled my leg over his letting his hand roam around until he hit my core again.

I tried to move, tired to hide my wetness that had started to form but he once again smacked my bottom.

" why are you so embarrassed of me finding you wet?"

I shrugged I wasn't about to tell him.

he moved so he could kiss my lips as his hand found my core again, running around where I wanted him most. spreading my lips open and rubbing his hand around all the juices as I let out a moan.

" that's it baby girl."

I moaned out biting his lip. I couldn't believe I'd done that. he growled at me playfully before taking my lips roughly and slammed his fingers into my sensitive hole.

" Shane"

I gasp out and he hummed

" I've told them I'm gonna be a bit late. your mine Jenna"

with that he rolled us so he was on top of me and he slipped back inside me. I was overly sensitive and half awake. he rocked slow but I needed more as my nails came down his chest. I watched as he watched himself go in and out of me.

" faster please"

he grunted falling to my body and taking my lips as he pumped harder into me making me call out.

neither of us lasting long and I felt him fill me up. I felt like he was marking me. like he was making sure I knew for sure I belonged to him. and oddly enough I didn't mind belonging to him I wanted to be his. I wanted to be able to give him everything he deserved but I wasn't sure I could.

he pulled out from me and bit his lip as he watched our juices fall from me. his fingers moving it all making my hips jerk.

I had an IUD and I wasn't worried about getting pregnant or getting anything from him. I knew he was clean. I just couldn't believe he was actually touching it.

we made out before he cleaned me up even though I protested. I knew he had a long day at work I could clean myself up.

once he was done he pulled my body into his as we were sitting together on the bed and he kissed me softly.

" I will always take care of you love"

I bit my lip blushing as I nodded.

he kissed my forehead

" now climb that beautiful ass back in bed and rest until time to get up"

I rolled my eyes but moved to get back into bed not with out him smacking my bottom

" watch it babygirl or I will take you again"

I gasp and he chuckled pulling on his clothes and kissing me once more.

" I had an amazing time with you"

I whispered and he winked

" told ya I'd make you scream my name"

I blushed pushing his shoulder.

" I'll see you for our date this weekend if not before "

I nodded. I really hoped he meant it.

we shared one more kiss before he finally left.

I snuggled into the pillow he used smelling him as I tried to sleep a little longer.

wasn't much use, I had so much running through my mind.

he says he's gonna show me how things are different. he says this isn't gonna just pass after the new wears off.

I really hope this is true I want to be able to be this happy.

does he realize we had s*x without a condom?

what if when he does he freaks out thinking o tried to trap him. I mean that's what everyone said when I got pregnant with Jackson.

I sighed shaking my head it was way to early to have some many crazy thoughts.

Shane.

I had pulled into work a lot late, when my alarm went off I knew I wasn't ready to leave her just yet. I was gonna just hold her a bit longer but I took a chance of having her once more.

I knew I was reckless taken her without a condom and maybe she would wake up and be upset at the fact. I'd apologize, it was my mistake but damn did she feel good wrapped around me.

I was determined to show her she can ask for things she can want things or even need things from me whether it's in the bedroom or not and I will be there the best I can.

the guys all dogged on me a bit before I told them to get back to work.

I waited a bit before I sent her a message hoping she'd actually gotten some more rest I knew she had to go into work today.

me- good morning beautiful. hope you got some rest. and I hope to see you soon.

it was a bit before I got her message.

Jenna - we had s*x without a condom. I'm on birth control just so you know this and I'm clean.

I chuckled a bit to myself. I wasn't worried about her being clean I already knew that much. and as for the birth control, well she's a woman who clearly likes to have control over things so I wasn't worried about that either.

me - I do apologize for taking you with out one without speaking with you.

I have no doubt in my mind about either of those things darlin. I am clean as well. but like I said it is something should have thought about before hand, just got a little carried away.

Jenna - we both got a little carried away. you don't have to apologize.

me- well I must say having you wrapped around me bare felt even better than I could've imagined.

Jenna - Shane!

jenna- omg! I can't believe you just sent that in a text message!

jenna- I'm at work!

I let out a laugh and the guys looked at me. but I just shrugged.

me - just being honest with you.

did you blush that beautiful blush you always do when I say something like that?

Jenna - ugh! you know me way to well.

me- a whole lot more than I did yesterday ( wink face)

jenna-you are a perv!

me - I never denied that.

now did you get some more rest woman?

jenna-no. I mean yes sort of. so much on my mind.

me-stop over thinking things and just let me enjoy you

Jenna - ( eye roll) yes sir.

me- ( laughing face) that's better.

we chatted back and forth throughout the day then that evening after my shower I got a video of Jackson playing football. when I called Jenna Jackson and I talked for a bit. he told me he got his jersey and be was gonna be number 33. he was so excited and I hardly got a word in.

once he gave the phone back to Jenna she let me know she was gonna have dinner with him then call me back. so I grabbed myself a sandwich and waited with Duke.

when she called back I was some what falling asleep.

me-hello?

jenna-you are sleeping I'm sorry.

I smiled

me-absolutely not. just resting my eyes. how was your day?

she sighed out

Jenna - long and the field was hot but I'm so happy to be clean and home.

how was your day? I know you've got to be exhausted.

me- my day was okay. I am tired but trust me my night was worth it.

she giggled.

jenna-well we still haven't heard from Matthew so I'm honestly not sure how the weekends will look.

me- don't worry your pretty little head over it. if he doesn't spend his time with him we will make the best of it for him. I've already talked with Tony and bes excited about the possibility of us coming over.

she breathed out and I knew she was over thinking things.

jenna- why are you being so good to me? I'm morning special Shane. I honestly go to work, take care of my son and occasionally I hang out with Macy. and when I finally get a moment a lone I ever watch TV or read a book.

I sighed out. pissed off she felt this way about herself.

me- darlin I know he made you believe these things about yourself and I will work every day so you know that they aren't true. trust me when I say you are absolutely something special. and I'm just happy I get to say your mine.

I heard her sigh out and I knew she wasn't convinced but id do my best to change that. we talked for a bit longer before we both needed to catch up on sleep.

the next morning I sent her a message telling her good morning before I started my day. I knew I was up way earlier than her but I wanted her to have it when she woke up.

as I started making my rounds checking to make sure the guys were doing what was needed I heard the gossip.

" f**k Ben I heard you were the one seeing Jenna"

Ronnie says to him over the floor of the rig. Ben popped up looking confused

" me? I haven't even met her"

Ronnie laughed

" well man. Jones from Jim and Matthews crew said he heard it from Matthew."

Ben shook his head

" hell I wish it was me. I am asking Jim later when we see him if he can get me an introduction."

I chuckled shaking my own head as I walked away. he's seriously telling people she's sleeping with everyone but me.

I couldn't wait to tell her what I'd heard because I figured we'd have a good laugh over this. the least he could do is say it was someone she'd met. but I guess he's trying to get pitty from anyone he can.