Heart of Yours

Chapter 35

Devon's POV

I am at the borders, waiting for Samika. She wrote a letter saying she was already on her way. And I guess by now everyone over there came to know of our way of talking to each other.

Who cares at this point. I am only worried about how to face her. The car in which Samika is in, drove past me and into the pack. I don't know how she managed to grab a hold of the car but I didn't ask her about that either.

I ran into the pack with my wolf screaming in my head. Funny how he was silent when I was doing rubbish s**t like stabbing Samika's mother. Maybe the illusion, the scent made my wolf sleep.

Samika gets down from the driver's seat and Arnold from the passenger seat. I cannot begin to list the reasons why I don't like him, but I guess I am not in a state to list them either. There is so much I need to confess and so much I need to do, but I somehow can't find the courage right now.

Samika turns around and her eyes meet mine. She runs towards me and I open my arms for her. She runs into my arms and I thank heavens that The Madfur clan did not change her entirely yet. Just yet.

"Well, not for too long," wolf says in my head.

"Not wolf or wolfie anymore. I am Damon, you ass" he says, slightly irritated.

How am I going to follow a name that he and his mate changed when I have been calling him wolf ever since I got him? That sounded a tad bit unfair but I don't think I am in a situation where I can think about it now. I am starting to feel her pain through the mate bond now that we are so close. Earlier when we were apart, it was so minute and sometimes barely there. Now, I feel it all.

Samika pulls away again and looks into my eyes. I don't say anything as I move my eyes towards Arnold behind her. That man looks at me like he hasn't seen me in his life. Totally confused and if I wasn't in a situation like this, I would have broken his pretty face.

"What exactly happened?" Samika asks, but I don't answer her as I lead the way towards the pack house.

Her dead body is before the pack house. Just like the werewolf tradition where the body that is to be put to rest in peace, should start by the hands of the Alpha. The journey to heavens starts from there in our werewolf tradition.

Samika's legs wobble as she walks and I close my eyes momentarily, pain striking through the mate bond. I don't have to look at her to understand that she might be crying right now. Her tears might have blurred her vision. Her throat already has a lump that's becoming hard for her to shove down. And I feel all of that through the mate bond.

Even my wolf whimpers in the back of my head. Samika's father was an asshole. I knew that much. But Samika's mother was nicer. She never intended any harm. She never treated Samika like s**t. She might have, before I entered Samika's life. But ever since I was in Sam's life, she was the nice one.

Samika falls on her knees, before her mother's dead body. Her hands are shaking as she touches her mother's face gently. I control my tears just watching the scene before me.

This is all happening because of me.

I killed her mother.

I stabbed her when she couldn't even talk or move in protest. Not even self defense.

I killed an innocent woman who was in a hospital bed, doing everything she could to survive.

"Wake up. I am here. Look at me," Samika whispers and I feel a lone tear slip from the corner of my eye. Her voice tells everyone here that she is the most vulnerable right now.

"Your birthday is in a few days. I had a lot on my mind. Wake up, Mom" Samika says, this time her voice is about to give up as soft sobs leave her throat.

Cassie cries along with Samika and I can't even look at her right now. I committed a grave mistake. It was an illusion, but I blame myself too. I should have known. I should have thought. How would my dead father come back and how in the hell would I think that I was stabbing him again.

"Devon. Ask her to wake up and-" Samika's words stop abruptly when she notices tears in my eyes as well.

She looks at me and back at her mother and that's when her cries got louder. Everyone in the pack is crying with her right now. Everyone can feel her pain a little through the pack's bond with the Alpha. But I feel it even more through the mate bond.

"How did this happen? Who did this?" Samika asks Cassie this time.

Cassie looked at me for a second and I realized there is no meaning with all the denying or hiding it. It might hurt now, but at least I would be truthful to her. She can hate me now, but if I hide the truth then I would be hurting her even more as I hurt myself too.

"I did," I say and she looks at me, still crying. Probably not catching what I'm talking about right now.

"You did what?" She asks again, sobbing.

"It was me. I stabbed her," I say.

And my words were followed by dead silence. No one is saying a word. And somehow, through all the pain I have been experiencing through the mate bond.. now seems the peaks.

The pain feels like my heart is shattering. But it only took me a second to understand that it wasn't my heart that's shattering. It's Samika's.