Heart of Yours

Chapter 23

Devon's POV

I read them once again and walked out to see Brent and Olive sitting together on the couch. And they both frowns and deep thoughts written on their faces.

I don't say another word as I hand those four papers to Brent and walk away. He can decide it for himself now.

Samika and I stand at the window, staring outside. It's still noon but it's been more dramatic than any other day I have ever seen. The secret I tried my best not to even let Tyler or Cassie know, is now out of the bag.

How will I ever imagine that my mate would be my cousin's best friend?

"Is that why you beat Brent the first time you saw him?" Samika asks me and I raise my eyebrow but she just stares at me even harder, taking a step forward. In a threatening kind of way and I groan. What did I get myself into?

"Alright. I thought he would leave if he was disrespected or if you got to know we weren't getting along. But I guess I momentarily thought he was a werewolf too so I beat the s**t out of him. How was I supposed to know that he would be staying here instead of going back home," I scream at her and she scoffs.

"Oh yes. The plan was devised by a baby of five years. Such a failure plan if that was what you are hiding," Samika says, totally being sarcastic.

"Trust me it is still far better than many of the plans that you devised," I tell her to which she just scoffs and rolls her eyes.

We both don't talk about anything for a while. Meanwhile I mindlink Tyler asking him to take care of Alpha Judah and Melissa. I need to make sure they shouldn't leave the pack lands. This does not end here. This should not end here.

Now that everything is out, things should be sorted instead of making them messier. I have covered up for Alpha Judah for two decades now. I don't think I can hold it for much longer.

Moreover I need to win Samika's trust. And how the heck am I going to do that if she doesn't even know the truth of who Brent is and who Alanna is. Apparently she did read my father's journals. I wonder what he wrote. I read only a few and Aunt Alanna's name rarely popped up on pages.

"What else did my father write in his journals?" I ask Samika and she walks to her table and pulls out even more journals.

Not just my father's. I see mine as well. She read my journals too.

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"I have heard that my father copes with his mental stress and emotions by journaling. He writes things down when they overwhelm him. I don't know if there are good memories that overwhelmed him. I don't want to know the bad ones either. But I want to give this a try. Since I don't have a friend to share this with"

"Oh. I had a friend. Isaac was my best friend. Until one day the secret was out. That he was the Beta's mistress's son. In a world where mate bond is sacred, he was the result of the sinful bond. And so, I wasn't allowed to talk to him anymore. I still did. Because I found all those reasons as nothing more than bullshit"

"I faintly remember Mother's love. I don't remember dad's love at all. I remember Aunt Alanna but it's been ten years since we saw her. We don't even know if she is alive. If Kade is alive. Kade is Aunt Alanna's son who was also my best friend for only four hours. In a world where I rarely had friends, my father just had to ruin it for me"

"I don't know what made him do it. But he did a few unforgivable things. I was the one who was rebellious. I was the one who spoke with Isaac even though my father asked me not to. But Isaac was the one that paid for my actions. By giving his life up. My dad ordered his guards to kill Isaac and I begged Isaac's dad to try to stop at least. But he was just as uninterested as my father was"

"I stood there and couldn't do anything. I stood there but I couldn't even try. My father made sure to tell the guards to make it all as brutal as possible. So I was forced by my father to watch everything. They cut his limbs first and then went to other parts. I don't know the order because I was already zoning out and mourning him after two minutes. I did not watch another thing after they cut his left leg,"

"Isaac didn't have a proper burial or cremation ceremony either. His chopped up body parts were thrown at the borders for eagles, crows and other animals to feed on. My father took me along with him to tell me that if I don't start acting like him, this would be the consequences. And by the time I ran back to the place Isaac's body parts were dumped, crows were already picking on him. I hunted all the crows down but few flew away. At midnight when no one was watching, I buried all the parts of him I had and buried the crows too. After all in their bellies too, there was Isaac"

"I finally felt the need to write it because I have no one to tell what I saw. What I felt. And what I did"

"Today seems like the day. Because today marks seven years since that incident happened. And I still have nightmares"

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I shut the book and stared at her. But she is busy reading my father's instead. I know I should be the one to grow angry at her at the moment.

But the deeds I had done in my past weren't that great either. So I shut up and watch as Samika reads everything with utmost focus. Her eyebrows are furrowing as she reads and a frown makes its way on to her face.

There is a knock on the door and Brent shows himself. I don't say anything, I just watch him look at Samika too. She is so indulged in reading whatever it is that she is not even noticing Brent, Olive and me staring at her in the same room.

I stand beside her and take a quick glance at the journal before snatching it from her.

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Alanna contacted me three years after I last saw her. She wanted my help. She wanted her son Kade to grow up in an orphanage. She said the more she stays with him, the more he will fall in trouble again and again.

So she asked me to kill his wolf. I helped her give him a drug that would keep his wolf side submissive and his human side dominant. He wouldn't even know that he has a wolf side and one day he would fully act as a human. He wouldn't even know he is a werewolf. Born to two Alpha blooded people.

Alanna left after making sure Kade was in good hands. She told me she would contact me again once she found a good place to settle in. But I haven't heard from her again. Now it has been fifteen years since that incident happened. And I haven't seen Kade either.

I went to human lands several times. Sometimes in thin hopes that I would run across Kade or Alanna or them both. But now it is quite clear that she is doing everything in her capacity to stay away from the werewolf world. And she did an even more amazing job hiding her son from this world too.

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I close the journal and look at Brent. He is clueless but little does he know that once upon a time, a war brewed around him. That was what sent him to hospital as well. He was supposed to be dead but I knew he was Kade, and that's why I made sure he was alive at least until the medical help came.

So if this journal was true, then that means Aunt Alanna might still be alive. If she is alive, then we can detangle so many knots that keep bothering us.

"A drug that makes the wolf side submissive," Samika says and I look at her.

I hand it to Brent hoping he would read it and I give my attention to Samika, as she thinks of something deeply. But then, it hits me as well.

Aunt Alanna is going to solve almost all the problems we ever had.

Because there is a possibility that John Adams used the same drug on Samika that made her wolf side stay non existent. And she believed that she was a human.

For sure there had to be a link between the events.