Colors Of The Night

Chapter 6 Seeing you

Atheya

The water is sparkling bluish in color as the waves slowly rushing to the shore. Its ripple is fascinating to look at that create a sounds that brought music to my ears. The waves bring calmness in me. The morning light is penetrating into my skin.

For few day i had been staying in this luxury resort, ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang kapayapaan. Di ko man lang na-enjoy what the place offers to me. There are a lot of amenities that the resort offers, may Jacuzzi, may infinity pool that overlook the ocean, free access to the gym and most of all free rides to roam around the nearby places with exclusive cars and a driver.

But none of that is appealing to me, these past days was just tormenting, na feel ko ang pangungulila, pain at galit. I break down again kagabi sa may beach area, buti na lang walang tao sa paligid kaya bumigay ang puso ko. Di ko mapigilan ang sarili but now i am a little bit okay.

"God please help me na makayanan ko lahat ito, please let me see the light and enlighten my mind. Show me the reasons and guide me with my decision, if i should still keep holding on or move on? You bound us together in this marriage and ikaw lang din ang makapaghiwalay nito, please i am asking for signs." Taimtim kong dasal sa taas.

This place is really nice. Kung di lang siguro off season ngayon dito sa Bali, i don’t think i have a chance to stay in the luxurious place. They offer lesser amount for promo, reduce to 50 percent from their regular rate during peak season.

I am still sitting in the lounger while looking at the beach when i saw a man walking barely to the water. The way he walks scream of elegance and authority. Upon looking at his body physique, you can tell that he is in great shape, alagang gym. I haven’t seen his face yet but i can tell that he’s a foreigner by his size, skin color and body build. A holiday goer I guess.

George is always doing his run as his form of exercise but that man is more masculine than George not just the body structure, but its the manliness he exude while walking.

"Oh my God, i am admiring other man while i am still in my heart break moment and the worst thing is I compare him to George". Saad ko sa aking sarili. Well it’s true, he looks better than George, far better actually.

My eyes not leaving that man, he caught my interest. I see him diving into the water and having hard laps as he began to swim. I can see he is good in swimming, the way his hand moves while paddling and how his legs kicking against the current of the water. He is really fast having that crawl, di ko man lang namalayan na naka ilang balik na siya. He keeps doing it again and again.

"Di man lang ba siya nakaramdam ng pagud? How could a man have that vigorous energy after all those movements?" Tanong ko sa aking sarili while observing him. He is fascinating to look at, i feel envy sa kanyang skills. I love staying in the water pero di ako marunong lumangoy. After a few minutes na-feel ko na ang init sa aking balat so i decided to pumasok na sa aking room.

Then i saw the guy umahon na sa kanyang paglalangoy. I keep looking at him hoping to have a glance on his face, i was intrigued on on his whole personality, but when i saw him di ko mapigilang mapahanga.

"Wow, ang gwapo pala niya, kaya pala matangkad kasi foreigner." Bihira lang ako humanga ng isang guy at isa dun ang lalaki na nakita ko ngayon. Di niya ako maabutan kasi mas nauna akong maglakad pabalik sa aking room. I think mayaman din siya kasi can afford niya ang lugar na ito. Ako after this vacation, ubos na savings ko for sure. I don't even know if this trip is worth it.

Upon staying in the room, naramdaman ko na naman ang lungkot kaya i decide na magliwaliw sa buong Bali. Napagud ako kinahapunan kaya maaga akong naghapunan, naligo para matulog.

It’s still too early for me na matulog kaya i decide na mag open ng aking account sa social media, to know what’s happening in the world. Since sa natuklasan ko ang about kay George sa Faceapp di na ako nag-open nito.

Iwan ko ba kung bakit i open that girl’s account kahit masasaktan ako, part of me gusto still want to know. But what i saw broke my heart more. It’s a picture of her and George having a dinner in a nice restaurant at mukhang masaya.

The caption of the post is “spending the night and having a dinner at this luxurious place”, nakalagay ang name of the hotel at location.

"Di mo man lang ako nayaya na mag-dinner sa isang restaurant pero siya nakuha mong i-dinner sa isang mamahaling hotel. Ang unfair mo George, asawa mo ako for years pero ang kabit mo ginastusan mo ng bongga." Di ko na naman napigilan ang mapaiyak ng dahil sa aking nakita.

He has done a lot of this things for that woman, may pa dinner, pa vacation at sweet siya dito samantalang never niyang nagawa yun sa akin. Sweet oo nong bago pa kami, dinner sa common na restaurant kasi we both struggling pa, nagtitipid. I screenshot that post for evidence.

"Nakarecover na akong ng kaunti bakit nakita ko pa?" Di ko nakaya kaya i decide to have a drink. I change my clothes and go to the bar near this resort, ayoko sa bar ng resort kasi alam ko mahal dito.

Wala akong plano maglasing but because of my emotion di ko napigilan na mag-order ng mag order para lunurin ang sarili. Di ko namalayan kung ano yung mga iniinum ko, but after sometime si feel dizzy kaya i plan to back to my room.

As i stand, my legs are wobbly. Nalasing na talaga ako, natatawa nalang ako sa aking sarili. Pakanta kanta pa while trying myself not to look drunk. I tried to remember the resort pero di ko na alam kung nasaan yun.

"Opps"; parang may nabangga ako na kung ano. May kumausap sa akin pero di ko namalayan. I feel like i want to p**e badly, i needed it out, until i am out of the world.

Raiken

I saw a woman walking wobbly in the street in this late evening. By her gesture alam kong lasing na. I just keep looking at her, mahirap na baka mapagtripan. Then may mga lalaki na nagtangka na lapitan siya kaya i intervene. With her state of mind, delikado ma-rape. Looking at her posture she got a nice body but i hardly see her face from my end.

"Hey f**k off, that’s my wife"; i told the group of guys. Buti naman naniwala at umalis din sila.

"Miss are you okay?" Tanong ko sa kanya ng makalapit but she is not responding, she's not in herself.

"Opps"; rinig kong sabi niya at tumatawa, napapalingo ako, she’s so drunk. Napatigil ako kasi i smell again the same scent i smell last night and in Singapore with that lady, this scent is so common for sure but ngayon may halo lang na amoy ng alak.

But when i look at her face, napatanga ako, she is the same woman i saw in Singapore.

"Miss, are you okay? Where can i drop you? It’s dangerous to be out here"; di sumagot but i can feel na gusto niyang sumuka. At di nagtagal sumuka talaga. I help her but then after she passes out.

"Oh good Lord, anong gagawin ko sa kanya?" Problemang kong saad para sa sarili. No choice i had to bring her to my room, so i carry her. When i reach my room, binihisan ko siya kasi may suka ang damit niya. I should not be doing this but i can't let her sleep smelling like a p**e. I clean and change her clothes.

Di ko mapigilan mag-init ang aking katawan, she has a body to die for. No sign that he had given birth, her skin is flawless.

"What is your problem miss? Why you look so sad and now naglasing ka pa? Its possible na ikaw yung babae nakita ko kagabi kasi you have same scent and you were crying. Seems you’re in pain." Wika ko sa kanya while touching her face.

"You look like an angel, being sad ay di bagay sayo. If i'll a chance i will make this face happy when you are with me." Kausap ko sa kanya kahit tulog na. I was just there looking at her. Ang sarap niyang tingnan habang natutulog. Her face now looks peaceful.

"Why is it i feel relaxed whenever you are near to me? You calm my senses and put my troubled mind at ease. And my body reacted to you when in fact lately i lost interest to any woman?"

It’s true i wonder why it happen like that, especially when i just smelled her scent. I lie down next to her, then suddenly i feel sleepy.