Colors Of The Night

Chapter 5 Her Smell

Raiken

I was looking at all the building in front of me, contemplating on what i should do with life. I am still in my prime, with establish name in the market. My businesses are all running at its best, very stable. My main business office situated in the heart of New York and i often travel around to check each of them.

These past few days i feel really awfully weird, it’s like i was looking for something that i can’t explain. I feel I’m in trouble deep inside; losing my drive is not what i am. I always enjoyed working, very optimistic, very driven to what i do and i get what i want when my mind set on it, never loses yet.

“Oh f**k it, i can’ continue being like this, it will ruin me.” Maybe vacation is what i needed. Take a break and restart again.

“Vicky books me a fight to Singapore at 3pm later; utos ko sa aking secretary. “And please tell everyone that i will be in gone for a month. No calls, no messages Vicky unless i called you. You know what to do here.” She is very efficient, one of few that i can trust in terms on my business, that’s why she is well compensated.

“Will do Mr. Reagan, anything else you want me to do?” Inquire niya sa akin, she is also very organize.

“That’s all for now, keep your line open coz i may call you anytime.” I pack my things and headed home to pack my bag and go for vacation. It's not a well planned trip but i hope it will end good, just want to break this stigma that bothered me right now.

When I'm in the airport waiting for my flight, i am still feeling different, that i can’t figure out, there's a bit of feeling restless.

The usual when i go travel for a business trip, i was busy doing something in my laptop, working. My mind is busy thinking about my plans for that trip, how can i make it work to my advantage but now nanibago ako sa sarili, none of that exist in my gut. I was just there, sitting, waiting, not thinking of anything but not feeling relaxed. All I wanted was to feel the holiday vibe.

I looked around; i saw family talking upon each other, with full luggage in their hands, holiday goers for sure. When i see on the other side I see family again having fun, something pinching me within, i miss the sense of family. It’s been a while i haven’t visited home since i started on my own, i rarely goes home, if it happen its only a short vacation like Christmas and New Year. My mom wouldn’t allow us not to be together during those time.

When i reach Singapore, i stayed in one of my hotel. But i never bothered checking my office or telling my people that i am there.

Beginning today, i will be an ordinary Raiken. I will blend with ordinary people, to know what it’s like to be living in the moment and just be ordinary, spending holiday like how it should be. It’s time for me to make changes.

I look around the CBD of Singapore, a busy street, just all building, infrastructures and high end living like where i came from. I explore whole of Singapore until night but still I’m lacking interest in this place as my holiday destination.

I want nature and i can’t find it here so i head back to my room and in that instant i book my flight to Indonesia and head immediately in the airport. I can’t understand myself, why I’m rushing things when i am not in hurry.

When i am in the airport, still i just sit there and watch the movement of every people around me. I haven’t done this before, just to look at other people coz half of my life was so busy to mind other people’s business, even taking a glance of them i can’t do.

Then someone passes by in front of me. I froze for a second, coz i smell of something that is nice, that is triggers my senses to be active. A sweet light scent that gets into my nerves and makes me feel relax. I am intrigue who wears that scent coz the smell is unique for me and it calms me down.

I look at the person who’s wearing that smell, it’s a woman and she sits 7 meters away from me. I just keep looking at her; she is so beautiful with alluring posture but why she looks so sad, her eyes are gloomy. She seems in trouble and not in herself, doesn’t even bothered by the noise from the children or people talking loud in her side.

I guess she have a layover here, not sure where she is heading to. I look at her intently; my gut is telling me to talk to her and ask if what’s wrong or if she needs help but the other part of me says no, coz it’s not my business to meddle her personal life. We are stranger and i don’t have a right to meddle her personal issues..

I was surprise with myself coz i am not the type of a person who will be bothered by someone’s problem or to bother anyone. But something's telling me to talk to her if not i will lose the opportunity forever.

"If i would do it, what i gonna say to her? I was confused with myself this minute, why i am so affected by her?" Usap ko sa aking sarili. In that moment I'm in between of following my instinct or my consciousness.

"Oh f**k it, there’s nothing to lose if i try to talk to her, maybe i can help if she is in trouble." I gathered my strength to talk to her but when i am about to approach her, she stands up to head to the gate.

"Oh goodness, i lose the opportunity." I was just there standing looking at her back. What i feel at that moment is panghihinayang. Sometimes you need to trust your instinct coz it may lead to something.

I sit down again waiting for my boarding time; i still have an hour to go coz i came earlier. I suddenly feel excited about my trip, seeing her fuels my desire, it’s like there’s something i can look forward to, anything can happen in this trip, it may small or big.

When i reach Indonesia, i explore the main city first for a day then i decide to go somewhere away from the city. I head to Bali where my resort is located.

“Ahh this is life that i wanted”; sabi ko sa aking sarili. I just sit in the bench this early morning, feeling the sun slowly penetrating into my skin while watching the waves splashing the shore. To be with nature and feel the natural energy from them is what i needed.

I just spend the whole day walking around the part of Bali. And i decide to check my business while i am there to see how it going. I told my people not to mind me, just do their usual and i am just there to have a vacation.

Night life in Bali is pretty good, very lively. My resort offers a good entertainment at night and I salute my teams for doing a good job.

I am in my 3rd night in Bali when I decide to have a night swimming. Night getaway here is pretty famous as the beach is safe, we got a 24 hrs security personnel roaming around at night and loaded with CCTV camera in each side. The water is warm, the surrounding is quite, it fits for me in my troubled mind.

I was about to head to my penthouse to wash myself when i heard a sound of a woman crying, she's wailing. It is disturbing for me, to hear that kind of sound, it like so much pain in there, pouring her heart out. I decide to check but i don’t want to pry.

To my surprise i smelled the scent of perfume i smelled before when i was in Singapore. I guess that scent is pretty common for ladies.

When i see her kneeling down to the ground, bowing her head down, it means she is really in great pain but i think she is not a crazy to commit suicide but i still try to watch coz who knows what the woman’s thinking in her state of mind. When i heard that her cry slowing down, i guess she already recovered so head to my room.

"Why is it i feel lighter and relax when i was near to that woman?" Her scent makes me feel so calm. That night i sleep really well.