Colors Of The Night

Chapter 8 Identity hidden

Atheya

“Shocks anong ginawa ko?” Yun ang unang nagregister sa utak ko when i woke up early in the morning in different bed and i lie down next to a guy who’s not familiar to me na nakayakap sa akin. Di ko mapigilan na mataranta kaya bigla nalang akong napasigaw.

Because of that scream i did woke him up and what shock me the most is the guy who slept with, is the guy i just admired yesterday morning, unbelievable right? Mas gwapo pala siya up close pero di ko pinahalata sa kanya ang admiration ko, nakakahiya naman.

“Who are you? Why i am here?” Di ko talaga alam kung paano ako napunta sa room niya and let alone sleeping with him.

"You were drunk last night. I saw you in the road and there were guys coming into you but i sense you are not with them. So i rescue and ask you where i can drop you but you don’t answer me instead you vomit and pass out after. So i decide to bring you here for your safety.”

Upon hearing it, di ko mapigilan na mapahanga sa kanya. Mabait pala siya kasi the way his looks scream of authority at may pagkasuplado ang dating. Even i am a stranger, he help me but what about me niligtas nga niya ako sa mga kalalakihan pero sa kanya naman ako napunta and i am wearing his clothes, what does it means?

“Don’t worry i don’t touch you if you're thinking of something. I just change your clothes coz it has vomit on it. I ask someone to laundry it for you. I will just ask the laundry room to bring your clothes here."

Mas lalo akong napahanga sa kanya kasi if ibang lalaki pa yun, pwede niya akong pagsamantalahan in my state of mind last night. As in wala na ako sarili, i can’t even remember what happen. Ang alam ko lang i am drinking in a bar at umalis na. I can feel his saying the truth kasi i don’t feel anything unusual with my body, except headache at pagkauhaw, sobrang uhaw.

"Oh i am sorry for bothering you and thanks for taking care of me last night. I am so careless with my actions. Saad ko nalang. Gusto ko na sanang umalis kasi nahihiya na ako sa perwisyo na dulot ko sa kanya. Biruin mo, he clean me dahil nga nagsusuka ako, for sure di siya nakatulog ng maayos kasi i am invading his personal space. But instead of going out, he invited me to have breakfast with him, nakakahiya naman na tanggihan ko siya kaya tumango ako.

Saka ko naalala ang phone ko, kasi i saw my wallet in his side table. I see a phone pero alam kong di akin yun, may halong pink ang phone case ko at may kaliitan yun compare sa nakita ko. High end na phone yun na katabi ng aking wallet.

“Patay nasaan na ang phone”; usal ko sa sarili while trying to remember kung saan ko yun naiwan. Sana na room ko lang yun or di kaya sa bar baka mabalikan ko pa.

“Hey are you a Filipino?” Tanong niya sa akin ka nagpapakunot ang aking noo, how did he know that i am a Filipino,

“You're mumbling Tagalog words while ago.” Huh he understands what i am saying?

“You know Tagalog? You understand my language?” Di ko mapigilan na magtanong. Baka palaging itong nagbabakasyon sa Pinas, foreigner eh at may pera kaya siguro familiar siya sa Tagalog words.

“Yeah coz i am Filipino, mix blooded"; mas lalong akong na shock sa narinig. What he is a Filipino? May isang Filipino na andito at kasama ko sa isang foreign na lugar. Bigla akong nagalak. Tama pala ang kasabihan ng iba that if you’re in other country, sabik ka sa kapwa Pinoy, like gusto mo silang makausap. Parang naghahanap ka ng kakampi.

We talk about anything and i can confirm na Pinoy siya coz he can speak and understand Tagalog very well, yun nga lang may accent at ang cute niya magsalita. Naging magaan ng loob ko sa kanya unlike at first tipid ang salita ko kasi nahihiya pa.

I enjoyed the food, sobrang masarap lahat, have a Filipino fusion, swak sa aking panlasa.

"Super thank you talaga sa pag-alaga mo sa akin kagabi, kung wala ka baka napahamak na ako sa sinasabi mo na guys”; pasalamat ko sa kanya. Kasi di biro ang ginawa niya para sa akin. He save me at malaking perwisyo ang dala ko sa kanya.

"No worries it’s my pleasure to be of help. Do you believe that we're destined to meet?" Mas lalong napapangunot ang noo ko. What does he mean? Is he same with other guys na dumidiskarte agad using pick up line but he is foreigner at lumaki ibang bansa, di sila mahilig sa pick up line.

"I saw you in Singapore. You look sad that time, gusto ko sana lapitan ka kaya lang ayaw ko naman na magmukhang atribido. In my mind is baka you need help. Then looking at you kagabi, i was shock coz di ko akalain that i will see again.”

Ah kaya pala, ni hindi ko man lang siya nakikita, ganun pala ako ka affected sa nangyayari, nakatutulala lang. He is really a good guy kasi di niya ako kilala he wants to help me at napapangiti ako kasi naaala ko siya kanina.

"I recognize you too"; wika ko na nagpakunot sa kanyang noon. Maybe he is thinking na nakilala ko siya sa Singapore

"I saw you this morning in the beach, you're swimming, i was there nagpapa-araw sa lounger." Yah I guess we are destined to meet kasi di namin kilala ang isat isa but we already see each other beforehand.

"Ohh really? I guess we’re meant to meet. How long is your stay here?" Tanong niya while we eat. We just eat slowly while having a conversation. He is a good conversationalist.

"Uuwi na ako the day after tomorrow, I only got 1 week leave.” When he invited me to tag along and enjoy this trip together, may hesitation ako because it isn’t right for me to go with a man coz i am a married woman. But na misinterpret niya ang di ko agad pagsasalita.

"Hey you can trust me, i have proven that already. We sleep together in one bed for a night and i didn’t touch you." It’s not what i meant. It’s not proper for us to hang out together na kami lang dalawa at di ako ready mag-open up about my life story to a stranger.

"Para di maging awkward sayo, how about, we keep our identity hidden. I will not ask you any question regarding your personal stuff, anything about your life. All we do is enjoying this trip while it last. We will explore like what we plan to do here."

"In this period, we will forget our past, our issue, our life, who we are and what we do. Just pure enjoyment and getting lost in the moment, but just promise that we will be honest in our opinion and what we truly feel, how about that?" saad niya na nakangiti.

"Deal?" Upon hearing it di ko mapigilan at mapatango kasi all works for me. I don’t need to tell him about my life. We will treat each other as stranger. Why not andito ako para mag enjoy at kalimutan pansalamantala ang problema. He is offering me a chance na mahirap tanggihan. No one knows about us here anyway.

I agree and we used code name as replacement of our real name. Di namin kilala ang isa't isa which is makes safer for me. Sobra akong nag-enjoy sa company niya, he is a gentleman, easy going at masayahin. All i do in the whole duration is laughing so hard. His personality is way different sa ipinakita niya. If you just look at him from afar iba ang makikita mo but when makasama mo na siya di ka makaramdam ng pagkailang.

He brought me to fire dancing and a disco house. All i have experienced here so far are all my first, saka ko na realize how i miss a lot of things in this world. Pilit ko yun kinalimutan kasi thinking i am a married woman, kinalimutan ko ang sarili bcoz i was busy thinking of George and his needs and i forgot my own needs. I do save para sa future namin and possible di ko na magagawa yun.

"Hey you’re spacing out, care to share what in your mind, you can unload it to me"; he says it in convincing tone but i don’t want to ruin this getaway with him. I am here to enjoy, so i will forget my problem for a while kahit ngayon lang.

When he brought me to that disco bar, natakot ako bigla kasi maraming tao, maingay, di ako sanay sa ganitong scene. Wala kong pera pambayad sa drinks, but he said its on him. True to his word ever since this morning siya lahat gumagastos sa trip namin. Wala pa akong nilabas kahit centavo.

"I don't want to drink anymore baka I'll end up lasing like kagabi, that was my first ever drinking liquor."; naphobia na ako sa pinaggagawa ko kagabi.

"No worries i am here, i can take care of you again. Just had a light shot then we'll go dancing para di tayo agad malasing." Yeah i trusted him so why not. The whole time i was there he always guides me, never leave me, like i am important to him.

“Maybe your drinking the hard one that's why madali kang tinamaan, there's a secret on it. Just take a sip every now and then. We are here to enjoy. Come here let’s dance."

"First loosen up, don't think of anything, no one will judge you if you don't know how to dance. Look at them, see they are enjoying"; turo niya sa center where the crowds are dancing wildly. "Just sway your body to the rhythm of the music. Come follow me.”

I did what he says and we keep drinking, di na namalayan na sobrang nag-eenjoy na ako sa drinks at sayaw namin. We didn’t care anymore about the people around us, just us enjoying the moment.

I dance with him to the beat of the music. When the music turns into sweet, he put my arms into his shoulder and his arms into my waist. I am clinging into him. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam that i am being hold by him. I feel safe around him, like no one will touch me at di niya ako pababayaan.

We dance in intimate way pero di naman malaswa tingnan, like we are a couple in love and just enjoying the night.

“Do you know that i haven’t danced this way to any woman? You’re the first i had danced this intimate. And to be honest i enjoy my time with you.” Saad niya sa akin while swaying our body slowly. He never leave his eyes off me, di man lang ako nailang sa kanyang titig.

"Me too i had fun being with you, i won’t forget this moment." We just look at each other, like we our souls are connected.

I find peace and solitude in his arms, na di ko kailanman naramdaman with George. He is so caring and sweet to me, all throughout our getaway. He treated me like a precious stone that need to be keep. I never regret that i experience all this things with me, never regret meeting him and never regret coming here.