Colors Of The Night

Chapter 9 Be with you

Atheya

"You want to go somewhere?" Bulong niya sa akin. The music change into upbeat, the crowd are shouting, the music is loud, di na kami magkarinigan pa.

"Where?" Parang wala lang na tanong ko, as if kahit saan niya ako dadalhin sasama ako. Yun ang tama ng alak sa amin.

"Just along the beach, we can walk until we get sleepy pampawala lang ng lasing." Tumango ako sa kanya. Yeah medyo tinamaan na ako. Inaalalay niya ako palabas ng disco house. He tried to secure me by shielding my body to his para di ako masaktan. Marami pa ring tao papasok at lumalabas. I feel secure all throughout, not because he's a big man but his action towards me.

We reached the beach area of the resort, he said much safer here, there's a 24 hours security roaming around. We walk barefoot, holding our sandals in each hand and his arm area round my waist securing me and i do the same. Bigla nalang naging ganun kami simula kanina sa aming paglilibot. It's like we had a silent recognition and connection, everything becomes normal for us, like it was supposed to be like that.

Malamig ang sand na tinatapakan namin, it makes more relaxing and the atmosphere of the night complement on it.

“Do you know why i am here?" Bigla niyang sabi sa akin out of the blue. I look at him waiting for him to continue. I'm just there listening to what he would say.

"Lately i feel restless. I can’t figure out myself. I have everything that i need but still i am not happy. I suddenly lose my passion on the things i have been doing, it’s like i was looking for something that i can't define. This never happen before, i am a work driven person, passionate to what i am doing. But recently, i feel lost. That's why i am here taking this vacation. I hope I can find my rhythm again."

Pag-open up niya sa akin sa kanyang naramdaman. I felt honored coz he shared to me his feeling.

“How about you, what’s your reasons of taking this vacation?” He ask it while looking at me intently.

“Me, i am here to find myself, like you i feel lose, hurt and i am in the process of breaking. Hoping that when i get back, i can redeem what i have lost, make myself stronger and better.” Yeah that's what i have hope for.

“I think somewhere in our life we go through some struggle na mahirap lusutan, yun ididiin ka talaga. But when you can manage to pull yourself in that phase, better things will come. Because life is just a cycle, just have to be strong and brave to face that phase.” Ani pa niya, i like his thought, very positive and open minded. I like listening to his words, nakaka-inspire and uplifting.

"I guess you are right, we just need to push ourselves, di magpadala sa problema. We will just think that everything has a reason and purpose why it happen"; balik kong saad sa kanya. Yeah i know in everything i have gone through at this moment, there's a reason on it and i need to find it myself.

"I know we don’t know each other that much and we promise that will not talk about it. Just wanna tell you, i like the presence you bring in me. You make me feel at ease, gives peace within." He says every word na may diin like he wants me to feel what he feels.

"Can you stay your remaining hour’s or day here with me? I wanted to be with you, just want to cherish this moment before you go. I can't explain what happen to me just yet but i wanna explore the possibility. Can we just give in to the amazing feeling while we are together? We may not have this moment again."

Di ko napigilan na mapatango at maging emotional coz there's a man who wants to be with me, wanting my time while my own husband neglected my presence. I also enjoy his company, nakakalimutan ko ang problema.

That night we head back to his place. I haven’t gone to my unit yet since this morning, nasa ibaba lang yun. His suite is big, occupying the top floor.

"You can use my clothes, i don’t mind. I have spared of boxers that i haven’t used. I will just ask the housekeeping to laundry your clothes tomorrow." Wika niya, its past midnight already.

After i had my shower, lumabas ako na nakasuot ng kanyang damit at boxer. Kasya naman sa akin kasi i am 5’6 in height and he's 6’2. The boxer is garterize, his long sleeve polo becomes my dress.

"My clothes look good on you"; i saw admiration in his eyes. "Come here strange lady, sleep with me"; i smiled upon hearing my code name. Pumunta ako sa side niya. The bed is really big, we occupy the center.

"Would you mind if i hug you when we sleep?" Bulong niya sa akin. I admit i feel something different upon hearing those, it's like a shock of waves flowing in my veins at nagugustuhan ko ang pagbulong niya. I feel excitement in his action. Mali man but just this time i wanna give in to this amazing feeling as he said. Pagbalik ko ng pinas i will go back to the stage i had left.

It’s weird that some other guy hugs me, makes me feel good, when he is not my husband. My so called husband never bothered to treat me like he does now coz he is in the arms of the other woman. If he does it, then why i can't?

"I just want to feel you next to me. Today i really feel so happy and connected to you. I can't explain why i had this feeling and wanted to give in to that feeling." Saad pa nya and shockingly, pareho kaming naramdaman at this point.

"I would say sorry if i made you uncomfortable but i wanted to be honest with you." ngumiti lang ako. Never naging uncomfortable sa akin ang ipinaramdam niya bagkos opposite happen.

"No, it's fine, I never felt uncomfortable, you are so sweet and caring to me. You value what i feel and that alone matters"; i see him smiling.

He put his other arms under my pillow, it's like I'm sleeping in his arms and the other around my waist. I can feel his breathing in my hair. Paano kaya ako makatulog sa ganitong sitwasyon? I am facing him, he puts my arms around his waist. We are so close, so intimate in fact.

"Are you okay?" Bigla niyang tanong. I thought he is sleeping already.

"Yeah i am, no worries"; Yeah i am more than okay, kinakabahan lang at same time having a goosebumps. I never had this kind of gesture from George, he just sleep away from me. Never even bothered asking if i am okay. Napapaiyak ako sa aking sitwasyon but for now kakalimutan ko muna siya.

"It feels so intimate having you this close"; bulong na naman niya. God baka bumigay ako sa temptation na ito.

"Are you being this sweet and intimate to other girls you are with before?" Di ko mapigilan na sabihin.

"No, surprisingly it's my first time to do this. I am not a cuddle man, sweet guy and clingy to the past women i have been. I don't know, i just don't feel doing it with them." Di ako kumibo, di kasi ako sure.

"Do you believe me? I had promise to you that i will be honest in this whole duration with you. And i value my words. No reason for me to say bluff words or to be bluff with you." He is right, i guess he already establish his credibility.

"Let's sleep, it's already late, have a goodnight babe"; saad niya as he kissed my forehead. I really find it sweet.

"Goodnight too Reagan, see you in the morning"; balik kong saad as i cling to him. I feel he holds tightened too.

That night we give in to that feeling, we sleep like a couple. I let him hugs me, amazingly nagustuhan ko yun. Even i am a married woman, gusto ko din maranasan ang ganitong feel that i am special

Raiken Reagan

Tonight i sleep with the woman i want. Ito pala ang feeling na sinasabi nilang cuddle. It feels so good to be hug by her and she being in my arms. I don't know kung paano ako makatulog sa ganitong position. She is so tempting, she arouse me in every movement she makes. The sensation building in me is too much but i have to control my emotion, my desire.

I don't want na masira ang impression niya sa akin. My desire for her is overwhelming but i have to respect her. She is a respectable woman. I had to stand on my words but i don't know how long i can control myself. I just have to be honest to her.

The first time i saw her, i feel her sadness and as i promise to myself i will take off that sadness away from her eyes and i did it.

"I don't know what's your story but i have to respect your wishes, i feel that you're not ready to share it with me. And i promise that in the duration you are with me, you will be happy and that someone like me you wont forget." usal ko sa kanya kahit tulog na.

She sleep pretty well. She looks good in my arms, like she belong here in my arms only.

I don't know why i feel this strong connection and attachment with you that i haven't feel to any woman before. We had shared an incredible bond that only us understand.

The whole duration with her is just a bliss And looking forward to our next escapade tomorrow. I will make it worth, that's a promise.