Colors Of The Night

Chapter 10 Give in

Atheya

I woke in the middle of the night kasi bigla kong na-feel na naiihi ako, saka ko narealize na i was being hug by him all night. I slowly remove his arms away from his hold to pee. I admit ang sarap ng tulog ko, ito yung unang tulog ko na sobrang at peace ang feeling ko, a well spent night. Pumunta ako ng bathroom to do my business then i head back to the bed after doing it.

I look at the man in front of me. It’s undeniable that he is a good looking guy; he has this commanding aura every time he faces with people. The way how the employee respects him here, makikita mo ang status niya sa lipunan. Di ko mapigilan ang sarili na ma-attract sa kanya. Bihira lang ako makakita ng ganun na guy and the way he treated me differently from the rest, with respect and care mas lalo akong napahanga sa kanya.

“I know what i had done is wrong, giving in to this desire that i am feeling right now. And for sure kasusuklaman mo ako kapag malaman mo na may asawa na ako and yet i let you do this all to me. You will look down on me, maging mababa ang pagtingin mo sa akin kasi i am a cheater. Kahit pa sabihin that my marriage is failing but still it’s not a right.”

“Kaya di mo dapat malaman pa ang buo kong pagkatao. Tama lang siguro na hangang ganito lang tayo. You don’t know me and i don’t need to know you. After this I’ll be back to my old self. For now i will live in this bubble I've creating for myself while I'm with you, at least maging masaya man lang ako kahit sandali lang.”

Nakita ko na gumalaw siya at parang may hinahanap ang kanyang kamay. Napasmile ako kasi even in his sleep he knows na may katabi siya. Then bumuka ang kanyang mata niya when he haven’t feel me beside him or maybe he sense that someone is watching him.

“Why you have woken up?” Tanong niya sa paos na boses.

“Naiihi lang kaya bumangon ako.” response ko sa kanya.

“Come here babe, it’s still early, let’s go back to sleep”; sabay pulling me to him at niyakap ako. Ang sarap pakinggan ng sinasabi niya, like we are a couple. This time he hugs me from behind. I can feel his breath fanning in my neck; it feels so intimate, nag-iinit ako sa ginawa niya.

I haven’t feel like this with my husband, but with him kahit ngayon ko lang nakilala, ganito ang epekto niya sa akin. Para akong mababaliw sa kilig, kaba, excitement and anticipation. It's wrong to feel but i anticipate that he would cross the line but at same time i wish he won't baka madagdagan pa ang kasalanan ko. Minsan i can feel his snipping my neck and kissing it lightly na nakadagdag sa aking naramdaman.

“I really like your smell. Don’t you know that it’s your smell that catches my attention first, when you pass by my side? I like you sweet scent kaya napapalingon ako sayo dun sa airport in Singapore.” I was shock by his confession. Napapatawa ako, coz i only used cologne not a perfume so how could it catches someone attention?

"It’s just cologne that i use nothing expensive and now i am just using your body wash when i had my shower." Inform ko sa kanya.

“Really? That’s why i smell myself in you, but still you have the scent that is natural in you.” Nafeel ko na mas hinigpitan niya ang hawak sa akin. Hanggang nakatulog na ako uli.

“Sleeping beauty wake up”: naririnig kong bulong sa aking taynga pero di ko pinapansin, i still feel sleepy.

“Come on marami pa tayong dapat puntahan, sulitin natin ang araw na ito, your last day in Bali.” With what he said bigla akong napabangon. Yeah this is my last day in Bali, bigla akong nalungkot.

“Saan naman ang destination natin today?” I am still yawning, like i am not fully awake.

“We will go outdoor adventure today, will go hunt waterfalls, hiking in the bush, getting lost in the forest, river rafting and visiting the temples. Would you like that? Sa sinabi niyang iyon biglang nabuhay ang lahat ng himaymay ko sa katawan. I love nature, forest, waterfalls, river and other things that connected to the nature.

Bigla akong napabangon agad at pumunta sa banyo; I just hear him laughing. I do my thing in the bathroom, all i need is here.

Paglabas ko sa banyo nakaready na siya

Oh no, anong susuotin ko ngayon? Dapat nakasport shoes ako, di pwede ang sandal ipanghiking. I need pampaligo na outfit. Meron akong gamit sa room ko, I just need to drop by in my room.

“Come here, you need few things for our trip today. I have few people to get it for you, so here take a look on these. Sabay bigay niya sa catalogue.

“Mamili ka so that they will bring it for us here, while waiting for our food to arrive.” Iba talaga ang mayaman one click lang, andiyan na.

I look at it, its an online shop for women. Lahat ng kailangan ko andun, i just need to click it will save. Looking at the price, na shock ako kasi ang mamahal, thousands ang presyo but still in Indonesian money, not sure of the conversion in peso.

“Don’t look at the price, what’s important is you like it. Don’t worry it’s my gift for you”; saad niya kasi natagalan ako sa pagpili. "Come on we need to hurry para mas marami tayong magawa."

“Ang dami mo ng nilibre sa akin; nahihiya na ako.” saad ko sa kanya. He just smile.

“No worries, pampering you are one of my goal. Come on pili ka na.” Tinulungan niya akong mamili. After few minutes dumating ang lahat ng order namin at pagkain. May nakaready na tour guide paglabas namin.

We were walking along the forest para makarating kami sa isang waterfalls. Slippery ang daan patungo dun and he keeps holding my hand all throughout, until bumukad sa amin ang napakagandang waterfalls.

“Wow sobrang ganda naman”; napahanga talaga ako sa aking nakikita, a cascading water flowing down. The water is so clear.

"Yeah so beautiful and perfect"; saad niya at ng tiningnan ko siya. He was looking at me, di ko alam kung para saan yun sinabi niya na beautiful. And i don't want to assume.

Naligo kami, sobrang sarap ng tubig, malamig then we proceed to water river rafting, busog ang mga mata ko sa katitingin sa aming nadadaanan, namamangha sa aking nakikita while nakasakay sa rubber boat.

Last destination namin is temples. I have prayed in there, i ask a guidance and clarity in my mind kung ano dapat ang kong gawin.

At night time, he invited me to have a fine dining sa isang luxurious hotel. Ang class ng resort na tinuluyan namin pero mas class ang lugar na ito. I never expect na makakain ako sa isang 5 star hotel.

I enjoyed my moment there, bihira lang dumating ang ganitong opportunity and this is one time experience. He ask me for a dance, the area we are in is kind of private. My musician pa nakaantabay sa amin. Another experience na di ko makalimutan.

"Are you okay? How do you feel?" Tanong niya sa akin kasi di ako makatingin sa kanya at sa paligid, still my employee na nakantabay sa para sa need namin.

"Yes i am good, this feels romantic, di ko akalain na may ganitong side ka pala"; yun lang ang nasabi ko. I can't help but to smile.

"Well everyone of us has different side, depende yun sa nakakasama mo kung kayang mailabas ang real emotion mo and you make me feel romantic so i did." Nakangiti niyang saad sa akin, while we are swaying our bodies to the rhythm of the music.

"Have I told you that you look so beautiful and alluring tonight? Just being with you this close makes me feel hot." Wika niya while caressing my face with his finger tips. I admit nagustuhan ko ang bawat ginagawa niya sa akin.

"I won't deny my admiration towards you coz you deserve to know; as i said i will be honest with my feelings. No reason for me to hide it. You already know by now how vocal i am with my words and actions but please don't feel na di kita nirespito, being true means i am sharing my thoughts with you."

This man really surprise me in every way, magugulat lang ako sa mga pinaggagawa niya at pinagsasabi. And never did i feel that he disrespected me anyway but instead i receive a full respect and care from him na di ko naramdaman sa asawa ko.

"Tonight i let you be part of me, be intimate as i can be, because that's what i truly feel at this moment. You and me in this paradise. Will you give in to that feeling? Tanong niya at di man lang ako nagdadalawang isip na tumango. Yeah i will. I am happy to oblige.