My Unwanted Alpha

Chapter 3: Jennifer’s POV

I can’t believe it, Killian’s grandma doesn’t like me, and she is the sweetest person I know. I shouldn’t have gone to the pack house, but I felt so bad after what I said to Killian that I wanted to apologize.

After he left us, I felt really bad. I tried to attend my first class but felt I should apologize. I don't want him to leave thinking that I hate him. I don't, well... I do.

I don't know what I feel.

"He is our mate; it is natural that you don't hate him. Stop rejecting Killian. He has tried to gain your love for years," Linda said.

"And what about what I feel? How do I know his feelings are sincere?" I asked her desperately. I wanted someone to tell me that my fear had no foundation.

"He met you when you were a baby. He had to leave several times for missions and training, and yet he has always looked for you. He is a King, a Lycan, a Witch. If he didn't want you, he could have rejected us, and he didn't." Linda's answer was not making things better. It only reminded me of how unworthy I was. He was so many things, and I was only a wolf.

"You are blessed by the Moon Goddess, that means YOU ARE ESPECIAL!" Linda yelled at me.

"I got it, okay. I will go to the pack house. Something tells me he is there," I replied.

When I reached the pack house, I could hear the voice of my biggest tormentor. Tatiana. She was the one who started the rumors in school that Killian didn't want me as his mate. I was about to turn around in tears when I noticed the air around us shifted. I got closer to hear what they were talking about-

“Why are you so mean?” She asked Killian.

He was trying to get as far away from her as possible, but she was trying to touch my mate. Linda growled in my head, not liking that another she-wolf was near Killian.

“Because I have told you several times to leave me alone,” He replied. When he speaks to me, he is sweet, even when he is angry or sad. He never used this tone with me.

“But… why?” She whined. I had to cover my eyes because I couldn't stand her voice.

“Because I don’t like you, you know what you did, and I want nothing to do with you,” She stomped her foot on the ground like a little kid while Killian turned around to continue his walk towards the house.

I thought that was it. I would wait until she left to try to speak to Killian, but then she screamed:

“But your grandmother likes me! You are rejecting me for a wannabe that isn’t as pretty as me,”

I froze. Killian's grandmother doesn't like me? Why? She has always been kind to us; why would she not like me? She must consider me unworthy. Killian didn't react, so he likely thought the same thing.

My heart hurt like it had never before, but I wanted to confront him. I wanted him to tell me he didn't consider me worthy of our bond. As I approached them, I noticed that Killian had a deadly aura around him. I gulped and watched what happened next.

Killian turned around and looked at Jennifer. She had a smug expression on her face as if she had finally gotten what she wanted from him. I don't know if she doesn't realize, but Killian is far from happy. He is pissed, and she is in deep trouble.

“What did you say?” Killian asked. She got in a position that looked like when a three-year-old gained what she wanted after a tantrum.

“I said that your grandmother approves of me and not that bimbo,” she answered smugly.

Before she could finish speaking, Killian used his speed to be right in front of her. I think she finally realized he wasn’t happy because I could see her trembling.

Killian’s aura had changed so much that I couldn’t even recognize him. He was calm, but that didn’t make the situation better; if any, that meant that he was pissed and looking for blood.

“Mate is defending us,”

“Or he is mad that she hit a sensitive spot,” I replied.

I was expecting him to kill her or choke her, but instead, he extended his hand to touch her cheek. Tatiana’s trembling worsened.

“Do you think you are better than Jennifer?” His voice was so deep because it was mixed with Apolo’s.

I haven’t met his wolf, but my brother explained that Killian doesn’t like to turn because Apolo can’t wait to mark us.

“Because he loves us,” Linda continued nagging.

“Or because he doesn’t want to mark us,” I replied.

“You know what? I am tired of you playing the victim. He is literally defending you; he might kill that wolf for you, and you are still making lame excuses to justify your stupid and childish behavior toward him,” She blurted out.

“But-“ I wanted to speak, but she interrupted me.

“No buts. I am done hearing you talk lowly about yourself. You can do what you want, but you should know that he is a great mate, and you will lose him if you don’t snap out of that stupid behavior,” She finished ranting and closed the link.

Linda has never spoken to me like that. She and I had some arguments, but she has never closed the link, and certainly hasn’t put me in my place. I don’t know why I am so insecure, but that is what I feel.

I was so lost in thought that I didn’t realize that Killian was choking Tatiana. She was trying to gasp for air.

“Answer me!” He ordered. It was an Alpha’s order, she couldn’t fight it.

“Y-yes,” she managed to say.

Her fear could be palpated in the air. She was struggling with both the force Killian was using and the fear he was inflicting. He looked terrifying.

“Really?” He squeezed tighter, making Tatiana start fighting for air. She tried to scratch him, but it was impossible; Killian acted like nothing could affect him.

I approached them; I couldn’t let him kill Tatiana.

“Get this through your head, Tatiana; nobody is better than my mate. She is all I want, all I need. If you ever try to get near me again or say something bad about Jennifer, I will kill you,” I stood, frozen.

“See!” Linda popped into my mind again.

And yes, he was defending me; I couldn’t believe it.

“Is that clear?” He asked her, but she didn’t answer.

I continued walking towards them because I knew I had to stop him. He threatened a pack member, and Tatiana could use that against him.

Thankfully, he let her go before they could realize I was there. Tatiana immediately started coughing as air filled her lungs.

“Is that clear?” He asked again, but now growling.

“Yes,” she answered.

“Yes, what?” His tone was so cold; I hope I never made him mad.

“Mate would never treat us like that,” Linda interjected.

“Yes, Alpha,” she looked at him defiantly.

I can’t believe Tatiana is so stupid. Her Alpha is clearly mad at her, and she is still trying to get her way.

Killian started to turn around, and as he did, I noticed that he finally smelled my scent. I felt my heart stop because I didn’t know what to do next. I just saw him defending me. I now realize that what Tatiana invented was only that—a murmur. Killian has always been like this. He doesn’t want to be near her; he only wants me…

“Your grandmother will never accept Jennifer; she is not for you!”

I don’t know what came over me. I can’t believe I am doubting everything again because of her. My mind tells me it is stupid to believe any word from her mouth, but my heart tells me to run.

Killian screamed my name while I continued running towards the forest. I knew a waterfall was nearby, and I wanted to get there.

He was very fast, so I had to use all my strength to outrun him. All I could think about was Killian’s family not accepting me, a look of disapproval on his grandmother’s face. Tears streamed down my eyes, making my vision blurry, but I continued to run.

I could now hear the waterfall and Killian on my hills. I stopped and took deep breaths. I didn't want him to see me crying; I wanted him to see me as a strong woman, but it was futile. I couldn't contain my tears.

Killian finally reached me and tried to hug me, but I got away from him quickly.

"Jen, I swear that she is speaking nonsense again. My grandmother adores you, both of them," He said desperately.

I still didn't look at him. My feelings were all over the place.

"Baby, please look at me," he pleaded. But for some reason, I felt anger bubble inside me instead of calming down.

"DON'T CALL ME THAT!" I screamed.

"Okay, I won't, but at least hear me out," He still tried to talk to me even though I was being an asshole.

"NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR MATE. I HATE BEING YOUR MATE, I HATE YOU!" I ranted. I don't know what came over me. I didn't want to hurt him, but I knew I was with my words.

"Jennifer, please calm down," He was losing his patience too.

"NO, I HATE THAT I COULDN'T HAVE A NORMAL LIFE BECAUSE OF YOU; I HATE THAT MY BOND WITH YOU HAS MADE ME AN OUTCAST. I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR MATE, I REJE-" Killian covered my mouth with his hand, then I realized what I was about to say.

His eyes had darkened, and the same deadly aura I felt before appeared around us.

"Jennifer, the bond is not something you should take lightly, but okay. You hate me? Then let me do you a favor. I will leave this pack; I won't tell you when I will return. I will use a spell around us so I can't feel any pain. You can enjoy your life because I am tired of trying to change your mind. I have done everything in my power for you to love me, and I achieved the contrary." He stopped covering my mouth. I had stopped crying, too, but now that I looked at him... I realized the damage I had done.

"Killian-"

"No, I don't want to hear anything else. I hope you are happy now that I'm gone. If you want to reject me, you can tell your brother; he will inform me, and we can get that over with," He said and then disappeared.

I really f****d it up big time. I might lose him forever...