My Unwanted Alpha

“Jennifer, your friend is here!” My mom yelled at me from downstairs. “Coming!” I hate going to school, but just one more year and I am out. People treat me differently. They aren’t mean; quite contrary, they all fear me, and because of that, they whisper things behind my back. Most of them don’t realize I can hear them because I am a blessed wolf mated to the King. I possess many abilities that other people don’t. “Future king,” Linda reminded me. “Yep, future king,” I repeated. I should be happy to be mated to the King, but I am not. Girls would literally die to be in my position, but I couldn’t care less. I don’t want him, and I certainly have made it clear. Because we know we are mates, we haven’t done anything with other people. No one dares to harm the king, and even if I try to befriend a man in the pack, they run away from me. I don’t know what a normal life is. Since I was young, I had to learn how to fight. My mother has always taken care of me, and because of that, they have been very strict. I don’t get why a woman and a man who are powerful live entirely different lives. Every single girl wants to f**k Killian, and the boys want to be his friend. My brother Ian is the Beta, and he is the other golden boy. They don’t have to deal with what I have dealt with, and that is being the freak of my pack, and people don’t know if my blessing by the Moon Goddess; they just know I am mated to Killian. “You should be happy,” Linda growled. “And yet I am not,” I replied. Every single day, it is like this. My wolf and I are constantly fighting because I don’t want Killian. I wish I could be like the other girls and find out who my mate was when I turned eighteen. That way, I could have had friends, maybe even a boyfriend, but no. Ugh. I hate it. “Jennifer!” My mom yelled again. “I said I’m coming!” I put my hair in a high ponytail and left my room. Here it goes, another f*****g day. As I descended the stairs, I noticed that his scent was there. Fucking. Perfect. Linda stirred in my mind because I had avoided him perfectly all this week. Why moon goddess? Why did you pair me up with my parents’ best friends’ kid? I can’t even escape this bond. “What took you so long?” My mom suddenly appeared and asked through gritted teeth. “I woke up late,” I replied. I heard some movement from the kitchen. Killian had heard my voice. That was clear. The next second, his face appeared on the door frame, and my heart skipped a beat. Even if I don’t want him, I can’t deny that he is handsome. “If you denied it, you would be either blind or stupid,” “I know Linda, I won’t,” I rolled my eyes at her. Linda was practically drooling for our mate. I tried to maintain my poker face. Killian was 6’4 ", making him the tallest guy in our pack. I think he is even taller than our Alpha King. He also looks like the king, with his blue eyes and black hair. The only thing he got from Luna is his curls, and I believe his skin color is a mixture. The contrast that all his features give is mesmerizing. His eyes seem to pop against his dark complexion. In case you were wondering, yes, he is ripped. His muscles are so big that he can put a damn rug over him, and they could still be noticed. It should be illegal to look this good. I, on the other hand, look like any other girl in the pack. I also have blue eyes, and my hair is blond like my mother's, although it has started to darken. I am 5' 7'', so I am not small or petite. I am taller than Luna, but of course, I am smaller than Killian. I train a lot, so I have muscles. Because of that, I am pretty proud of my bullocks, but my breasts… they look like two lemons. I hate it. Most she wolves have very gorgeous bodies. Our genetics help. The majority of the girls in my school have an hourglass figure, but it doesn’t matter how much I train. I don’t look like them. I don’t know why; my mother is gorgeous, and my face is like a copy of hers with some of my dad’s features. My body, on the other hand… “Stop. You are beautiful; all bodies are beautiful, and yours is not the exception.” Linda didn’t like it when I belittled myself. “I can bet you that if Killian and I weren’t mated, he wouldn’t even look at me,” that was my truth. I hated the bond because I will never know if Killian would have liked me for who I am. The bond makes you stupid for the other person, and if you don’t believe me, you should see Uncle Chase. His mate has been frozen for years, yet he doesn’t give up on her. For some reason, he doesn’t age—well… most of the people here age differently—but it seems like time has stopped for both his mate and him. “Why does it matter? You are soul mates! He would have loved you anyway,” Linda tried to reason with me, but she had lost the battle a long time ago. “Hi, Jennifer,” he said with the biggest and cutest smile ever. Fuck! Even his voice is sexy. He has this deep, husky voice that could make any girl's panties wet. Control yourself, Jen. Deep breaths. “Hello, Killian.” I tried to speak without any emotion showing. His smile instantly fell, making my heart hurt a little. I am mean to him. I wish he would stop being nice; it would be easier to hate him, but no, it's quite the contrary. He has always been a gentleman, even as a kid. If Ian bothered me, he would smack him in the head. He is no longer in school since he is older than me, but until two years ago, he was the one who stopped people from saying mean things to me. Goddess, did it hurt to be like this? “Then don’t be,” “I can’t.” I shut Linda down; I don’t want to hear her anymore. “Where is Anne?” I asked my mom. “In the kitchen with your brother,” she answered. I didn’t even look at Killian and continued walking to the kitchen. My best friend and my brother were kissing there. Yuck! “Get a room!” I yelled at them. My brother looked at me and rolled his eyes while my friend only chuckled. “I’m sorry, babe, but you took too long. I had to enjoy my mate,” she said, hugging my brother. Yep, as if destiny would have it, my friend and brother are mates. Wonderful. “Let’s go, we will be late for school,” I told them. Why was Killian here in the first place? Oh… “Don’t worry, babe, Killian will take us,” Anne said while she got away from my brother to grab my arm. She got very close to me and whispered in my ear. “We should have a double date,” Fucking hell! She knows I won’t do it. “Anne,” I said as a warning. “What? He got a later class in his uni so he could take us there, don’t be mean!” She whined. “It is a ten-minute walk at most,” I rolled my eyes. I was lying, of course. It would be a ten-minute run, but who cares? “A ten-minute run for you, but not to them,” Linda interjected. “Same thing,” I huffed. “Don’t be like that, Jen. You know Killian is doing this to help us. Please let him,” Anne said, acting like she was trying to get her mother's permission. “Ugh, fine,” I said. “Then you can take your time to have breakfast; I will wait for you in the car,” he said from behind. I could feel a shiver climb up my spine. His body radiated heat that crept through my bones, and my skin tingled to be touched by him. Freaking bond and I am not even eighteen. The Elders don’t know how my bond works because it has never been heard of two mates finding each other so young. They don’t know if our bond will stay the same or if it will become stronger once we are eighteen. To be honest, I am scared. It is already hard to control my wolf when he is around; I can’t imagine what I would do if this feeling strengthened. Ian kissed Anne on her forehead and left the kitchen behind Killian. He gave me a dirty look as he passed next to me, to which I rolled my eyes. “You didn’t have to be mean to him, you know,” she crossed her arms in front of her. “You always tell me that, and I have to remind you that I wouldn’t if you didn’t put me in a delicate situation with him," I answered with the same attitude. Anne rolled her eyes and grabbed a sandwich that was on the kitchen counter. I did the same and ate it quickly before leaving the house. My mom used to get mad at me for the way I treated Killian, but then she stopped telling me anything. She advised me to follow the mate bond, but she would understand if I didn't. My dad wasn't so nice to Killian at first; I mean, when he started noticing me as a woman. When we were kids, we didn't understand what the bond meant. We enjoyed spending time together, but I assumed it was because we were friends. Then, he turned seventeen, and I was fourteen. His parents sent him away to train for his king position, and I felt horrible being so far from him. People were already whispering things behind my back, and I couldn't understand why. Then someone noticed the mark on my arm and asked me what it was. I just told them that it was something I was born with, but people already knew that I was special. I didn't think much of it. I hated that people in my school didn't want to spend time with me or run when they saw me coming, but I got used to it. Then, one day I heard one of the older she-wolves explain how good Killian was kissing. I didn't believe her, but the rest of the school did, so when they found out that I was his mate, they started murmuring that Killian didn't like me for me, but only because of the mate bond. I thought it was stupid at first, but then I noticed that most of the males in my school weren't interested in me at all. I was nothing special, and it must be the same with Killian. My own brother is with Anne, and she is stunning. She has dark brown hair and hazel eyes. She is smaller than me but has a body to kill for. I wished I could look like her; maybe that way, I would feel that Killian wanted to be with me because of me and not because of the bond. "Move your ass; if I have to go back to the kitchen, I'm going to push you into the car," Anne yelled at me. I dragged my legs outside. I didn't want to go, but I guess I have to. I will have to face him one day, either to reject him or to fully accept our bond. Ian and him were leaning on the car, discussing Goddess knows what. Killian had his arms crossed in front of his chest, so his muscles were on full display. "Whatcha talking about?" Anne jumped to be next to my brother. "Killian was telling me he was leaving tomorrow for Alpha training in the north," Ian said. Killian...is leaving? I should be glad, but my heart hurt so much. "You are leaving?" I asked him. Killian nodded at my question. "You seem glad about it," he said with sadness. My heart panged at what he said, but I deserved it. He probably came here to say goodbye, and I have acted as an asshole since I laid eyes on him. "I am," I replied. I shouldn't have done that, but I couldn't stop myself. Killian looked at us and opened his car. He got inside and didn't say a thing to us. I am sad and mad. I am many things, and I can't seem to let them out. "You were mean to him; what did you expect?" Linda growled. "I expected him to stay for my birthday, but I don't think that is happening," I replied. Yes, that was what hurt me the most. He would be gone for my birthday, and I couldn't blame anyone else but me.