Love Trap

Chapter 20

Celine POV

Days turned into weeks but I’m still trying to accept the fact that I no longer have my unborn child. ‘Where did I go wrong?’ I always asked myself. I know I’m being unfair with Blake too, for treating him cold since the incident happen and I won’t be surprise if he one day change and replace me. Who will be staying with a wife who can’t bear a child or can’t be fit in having a child?

I just wanted to work at the hospital to divert the sadness that I’m feeling everyday but Blake doesn’t allow me to go back to work. He said that I don’t have to work now that we’re married but I don’t want to depend on him as well. And the more that I stay here at home makes me feel the sadness being alone.

After our vacation in Hawaii, he manage to bring his work at home so that he could still assist me here if ever I need something. He remained sweet and affectionate but it’s just me who wanted to distant myself from him. Until the time that I just asked him to work in his office because it’s not helping me to move on to what happen whenever he’s taking care of my needs and making me feel useless too.

Afternoon came and I wake up in the sound of my ringing phone. I’m surprised when I got to see the caller name, it was Bradley.

“Hello?” I said, sounds unsure.

“Hello dear sister. How are you?” He replied at the other line.

“I’m fine. What’s with the sudden call?” I inquire.

“I just happen to miss you and so I called. Anyway, holiday is coming and our parents are expecting us all to spend holidays in our home. Do you want us to drop by at your place to fetch you?” He asked making me speechless for a while.

Since they knew that I’m staying here at New York too so there’s no excuse for me to not spend my holiday with them. And every holidays, it’s our tradition to gather at our parent’s house and celebrate the special occasion together. But the problem is, am I able to face them all now?

“Celine, are you still there?” Bradley asked when he didn’t get a response from me.

“Uhm, yeah I’m still here. I’m just not quite sure if I can go spend the holiday with you guys because I need to check my schedule at the hospital too.” I said as an alibi.

“I just checked the other day and the hospital staffs said that you’re no longer having a clinic there. Did they misinformed me?” He said sounding confused.

“Ohh, about that maybe you asked the new staffs there and they’re not aware that I’m just currently on leave.” I lied.

“Alright, let me know if you can spend holiday with us. Give me a call or even just message me anytime. It’ll be better if we have you too to celebrate with us, we’re your family remember so occasions like this must be celebrate with us.” He insist.

“Okay, I’ll let you know once I’d checked my schedule.” I replied.

“Alright, stay safe and healthy my dear sister.” He said before we end our call.

 I didn’t even realize that the holiday is coming. I need to talk with Blake about it once he got home for him to help me out. For sure he’ll think of a better idea for me to get an excuse.

Evening comes and finally my husband is home now. As always, he greets me with his sweet smile and gave me a kiss on my cheeks. I still didn’t know how to open the conversation with him but I need to tell him now so that he could think of a way to help me.

“Bradley called me earlier in the afternoon.” I started.

“Nice. What did he told you?” He asked.

“He remind me about the incoming holiday and asking me to spend the holiday with you all just like before.” I said and see his reaction from it.

“That’s great, then we will go there to spend the holiday with the rest of our family members.” He said that makes it more complicated.

“Are you out of your mind? I can’t spend holiday with you guys. I don’t have the courage to face them all until now.” I refuse to his ridiculous idea.

“Why not? We used to do that before.” He said like it’s just a normal thing to do.

“You can celebrate with them if you want but I’ll just stay here.” I said and headed to our room.

“That’s not fair. It’s our first holiday being husband and wife so we must celebrate it together.” He retort.

“Sorry but I can’t go meet them anytime soon and I don’t want to ruin the occasion if they knew about the secret wedding that we did two months ago.” I said for him to get back on his senses.

“Don’t you think that it’s better for us to inform them now so that there will be no hiding secrets now?” He asked innocently.

“You must be gone crazy. Do you think they will be glad to know that we’ve been both married?” I asked and trying to make Blake realize the trouble that we’re in.

“How are we going to know if we won’t open to them?” He asked back.

At the end, we didn’t have a final agreement and hang the topic unsolved. But on what I see with the flow of our conversation it seems like he wanted us to be known by all as husband and wife now. I should be glad and happy about it but at the back of my mind I’m getting scared of what our family and other people will tell about our relationship. And the rejection from our parents is something that I couldn’t bear above all. We went into bed without a final decision but all I know is I will try all my might to refuse their invitation.