His Rejected Mate

Chapter 9: Ella’s POV

Ella's POV

"No!" I screamed and Dean looked taken aback by my sudden burst.

"What are you saying?" Remo looked at me in disbelief.

"No killing. No killing. Please."

I was trembling by now, and I felt the crawls of the panic attack starts to crawl on my skin. I was clenching my fists trying to control it, but it was to no vail. I still felt it inside my skin and making its way towards my heart which I will soon try to claw it out of my body.

Remo's eyes zeroed on my trembling hands and ordered the guards to take Dean outside of the territory. But still it didn't console me. The ringing in my ears started again and I tried to shut it out.

"Ella can you hear me?" I heard Remo's voice in my head and I felt a soothing feeling inside of me.

I looked at him and he was watching me with his cold eyes, and I knew that he mind linked me, that's why I heard his voice in my head.

"Damn you man we could have enjoyed torturing him." I heard Christian whining and trembled at that forbidden word.

Torture.

"I will take her to my room. Wrap it up." Remo snapped as he pulled me towards his room.

I instantly entered the bathroom and locked the door behind me. I opened the cold water in the tub and waited for it to be filled.

That's how Mrs Collen used to torture me when I did something wrong. And I did something wrong by yelling at the alpha king. I have to be punished so I lowered my body into the freezing water.

If I shifted at the age of 16, cold water wouldn't have had an effect on me. But since I didn't shift, it was antagonizing.

I nearly screamed when I was fully under the water but kept my mouth shut.

Useless.

Pathetic.

Whore.

You deserve to die.

I deserve to die.

Maybe I do. Maybe I should have been killed with my parents. Maybe-

"Fück sweetheart what are you doing?" I was flung out of the tub and into a warm embrace.

My lips were shivering, but I started to get warm slowly.

"I'm sorry." I said as I looked at Remo.

He tightened his hold on me, his eyes were filled with rage as he looked at me.

"There is nothing to be sorry about. Don't do that again." He said slowly, as if talking to a child.

He put his finger under my chin and pulled my face towards him. Our noses were touching.

There was a tightness in the pit of my stomach, and it happened every time I'm near him.

In that moment I wanted to kiss him so I pulled him towards me and our lips connected.

He was stunned for a second, he probably didn't expect such a bold move from me.

The kiss felt right, it felt like I was at home, and I knew in that instant that I want to be Remo's mate. I deserve to be strong, I don't deserve to die.

My past life won't define who I am, and most definitely not who I will be.

Remo instantly reacted and started kissing me with force, tongue and teeth clanging against each other.

When we ran out of breath, we pulled away and looked into each other's eyes.

"Come, let's get you out of these clothes."

He pulled off the floor and led me to the closet.

I took off my shirt and his eyes darkened.

"I will torture them as much as they did to you." He growled.

"Let's not talk about it now." I whispered.

He nodded reluctantly and went to the bathroom. I jumped when I heard him exiting the bathroom closing the door forcefully.

He had a towel in his hand and helped me to dry my body with it, after I took off my pants.

I noticed how he tried not to touch my body with his bare hands and I frowned.

Is he disgusted?

“No. I won’t be able to stay away if I did.” He said out of nowhere and my eyes widened, and my face became hot.

I put on a black pant and a shirt, and went to lay on the bed.

“I have some work to do. Do you need anything?” He asked.

“N-no. I’m fine.” I replied.

I heard him sighing and then the soft closing of the door.

I closed my eyes and tried to sleep for a bit, but I wasn’t tired, and sleep wouldn’t come.

I got up and decided to roam the castle. I put on my shoes and left the room closing the door behind me.

“Luna.” I jumped at the new voice. “Do you need anything?”

A tall blonde man looked at me. He was dressed in black pants, and black shirt. His face was stern and harsh, his demeanor heavy and oppressive. He has a sullen expression, with eyes that were narrowed.

“No I-I just got bored.” I replied.

“My name is Colt, Luna. I am your bodyguard and I can help you with whatever you want.” He bowed slightly.

I nodded feeling uncomfortable in the presence of an unknown man, but I wasn’t going to say anything.

“C-can we go outside the castle?” I asked him and he gave me a perplexed look.

“You give the order, you do not ask me.”

I spent my whole life asking for permission to do anything, so it was strange now that I can do whatever I want without asking.

“Okay. Let’s go outside.” I said trying to sound strong.

Colt nodded and he guided me towards the castle’s doors.

The castle’s walls were still as cold as when I came here. It lacked any sense of living, and has a stark and forbidding appearance, with its gray stone walls.

The hallway was dimly lit, with torches and candles providing flickering light that casts eerie shadows on the walls. In addition to the old portraits of strange people.

The stone floors are unforgiving and I’m sure it’s uncomfortable to walk barefoot.

I never noticed these details before, because I was too lost inside my head. But now I noticed it.