Beautiful Mistake

CHAPTER 3

"I'm Kim btw, you're ?"

Like she does not know me, or she don't really remember who I am; well she's too young that time and it's been seven years; she also never seen me personally but I did see her before I left.

This is the first time that I would see her face to face, but it hurts knowing she doesn't remember or does she?

I look at my bottle; I drank another, I didn't answer her question, I do have a girlfriend and if she was Kim the one that I knew 7 years ago then I should be starting to getting away from her, Venus and my mother won't like it very much... She's the reason why I'm here being a prison in Europe

"Ohh you don't want to talk?" I look at her, she was smiling at me, like she was trying to get my good side or my interest so I could answer her or talk to her

She never really change she still talk that much huh!

I get my phone and message Veronica because I wanted to remember that I have a girlfriend, that I am committed, I don't want to forget her... She's the one for me, and temptation shouldn't be entertain

"So you and your girlfriend broke up so you're here?" She asked again while I was typing my message to Veronica because of my sudden missed calls

I stop for a while and close my eyes tight remembering Veronica's face when her face that I was imagining didn't calm me down I got up in my seat and put my phone in my pocket; I also get my credit card and give it to the bartender to pay for the drink I just order

I didn't even finished drinking the whole bottle but I guessed I should be running away for the ultimate temptation that is beside me

After the bartender give back my credit card I half run and walk so I could reach immediately my Jaguar that is park in the very back of the bars place.

I stop running when I see that I was meters away from my car, thinking that I am away to the temptation I look back only to see her also running towards me.

"What the f**k!? You run fast!" she was trying to catch her breath from trying to catch up on me

"Why are you following me" I am so annoyed and I don't even know why I am annoyed;maybe because her presence is really bothering me.

She was suddenly look shock when I talk to her, I don't know why is she shock; is it because I finally talk to her or she does know me and she was shock to hear my voice personally.

"Y-you left this..." Suddenly she was embarrassed while giving back my wallet that I don't know why she's holding; when I remember that my wallet is in my pocket

"Y-you accidentally drop it off when you take your credit card"

Ohh I didn't realize..

"Thank you" I said and turn my back

I was walking still, I look fine I guess in the outside but in my internal I have so many question; my mind wants me to hurry to run and get in my jaguar as soon as possible but my body won't move fast; my feet was just walking slowly like I was waiting for something.

"Sungit!"

Suddenly I was gasping from breath trying to control myself to face her to look at her again; to look to her innocent face and freaking lose my control; to forget that I was committed to someone.. Veronica!

"Masungit kahit sa personal"

I clenched my jaw and face her, I can feel that my eyebrows been colliding for the annoyance that I was feeling at this very moment; why won't she just let me get out in here?

Why would she just stop following me and ask and stop trying to talk to me as if she wanted my attention, as of now I know she does remember me, is that why she's talking to me? But why? still interested? I thought that us not knowing each other personally , would help her get over with her feelings about me.

She's way too young before, 16? How would it be like what I felt, when she's that young? I am sure that what she felt before was infatuation, but who knows; people are unpredictable!

"What else do you want from me?"

When I practice that words in my mind it's sounds annoyed or more on angry but when I speak it out, it's like more than a sweet asking voice I could do!

"Nothing" she also sounds annoyed by my reaction and my question; as if she doesn't like what I am acting infront of her!

But what would I do? What would I ask?

How are you? It's sounds creepy all of the sudden; why would I ask her that when we're not even friends before; yes we are some sort of an aquaintance and .... Something else.

"Ok" I mumbled; I bet she didn't hear me because her eyes looks confused; my voice was low that even I can't hear it. I just know in my mind that I did say that.

I turn my back at her and open my car; when I was inside; I could see her looking at me through the windshield, it's tinted so I know that she can't see that I am also looking at her..

This is all I could do .. nothing more—and it's always less.

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"Hey.." I throw the white towel that I was using to dry my hair when I answers Veronica's call; I thinks it's all about the missed calls I made ...

"I'm sorry I didn't answer your calls earlier, what's the matter? Is there a problem?" Her voice was worried and apologetic at the same time

I rely my weight at the side of the basin in my bathroom: I let out a silent and heavy breath ...

"I missed you.."

"Aww Alfred, I told you to come right!"

Suddenly I felt like it was my responsibility to say her that; to miss her because she's my girlfriend, but did I really miss her like I miss that lady?

"I'm sorry if ... You're worried because of my calls I— just don't know what to do Veronica... Would you come home fast?"

The other line become silent. I heard I few noises and suddenly her low voice...

"I'm sorry I accepted a new contract I would be here for ... A month"

"Oky talk to you later ... There's an emergency at the restaurant bye.. "

I turn off the call and forcefully throw my phone at my bathrooms wall; I could hear it's crack sounds but I don't care, I can't control my self—I don't know how.

I am mad at some thing, is it because I wouldn't see Veronica for the entire month or is it because I knew she was near me?—she was at the same country where I am now; is it the reasons why I am acting like this, because she was near but I couldn't have her...

Another shuttered echoes in the whole bathroom the wall circle mirror infront of my basin was shuttered when I punch it... And I was not even satisfied by the first punch I did it more than I knew I could.

The blood was dripping at the white marbled tiles I had in the bathroom; I also pick up the towel that I was using at my hair earlier to stop the bleeding in my hand, I still want to punch someone; I think my anger issues was coming back again—I should seek for help, a doctor maybe.

I clean my wound and I don't even know if I did remove all the tiny glasses inside my wound all I know is that I remove all the shuttered glass I see and put some first aid kit, I also cover my whole hands with bandage.

The only thing that I hate about my life and self is that I can't control my self so as much as possible I wanted to stay away to something that I knew I wanted but not for me..

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"Goodmorning uncle!" I smiled at my nephew Mathias.

Marcus and Miguel is playing something in their own iPad while Mathias and Mason was in the floor watching cartoons at my parents living room.

When I woke up this Morning I went straight in here, even though me and my mother so was my sister was not in the good side of each other I still respect them as my family.

"Where's your mother?" I ask the children Marcus look at me and remove his headphone

"What is it uncle?" He asked

"Where is your mother and your grandmother?" Marcus point the kitchen hallway and get back at playing at his iPad.

I went to the kitchen and even though I was meters away I could hear them talking about something

"Do you think she's the same person?" My mother sounded asking.

"I guess, they have the same name.. but as far as I could remember she's in the Philippines why would she be here?" Venus also asking

"I don't know, maybe overseas worker, she's a dentist in our village's own clinic, I think they hire her.." my mother told Venus

"You must do something about it mom, if she's the same girl then Alfred must be—"

I didn't hear what they say I walk out and ready to go somewhere already, I change my mind I think it's not right to visit them now

"Leaving already uncle?" I didn't even spare a look to Mathias who seems curious about my rushing

When I step outside I hurriedly get on my car and I didn't stop punching the glove compartment of my car;until I was satisfied and the glove compartment broke but I didn't care..

"I f*****g get it oky!! I understand !! Why would they always step in, on my own god damn life! For f*****g sake!!"

When I could see the blood; I stop and watch the bandage soak with my blood; it's surpassing the capacity of the bandage to absorb liquids.

I couldn't feel anything. My hands felt numb so I drove my car away, I even see my mother walking out in the gate to see my car leaving; I could see her in the side mirror of my car.

She's a dentist? In London? From where I am living now! What a small world for the both of us!? Is life f*****g me!?

I step on the break when I was infront of the clinic I entered without even knocking at the door, the inside was small—it was just for a first aid kit purposes 5 to 10 people would fit in; there is also some bed that is covered with curtains;. White and blue wall paint color is the interior.

"What could I possibly help you s-sir?" She was stuttered when she look at my face and recognize me for who am I

"My hands.." her eyes first look at the left hand but there is nothing wrong in that hand, she look at my right arm and her reaction was priceless .

She covered her mouth with her both hands when it open big because of the shock she felt; when she see my hands

I don't even know why but my feelings becomes more light when I see the worries in her eyes and without even knowing I was smiling; I see myself in the near mirror. Am I crazy? I was hurt but I was smiling? Is it still good? I should really seek for help.

I walk to the nearest bed and sat down in there I watch her panic watching me move.

"I already clean it last night, but I did something so the blood started to flow again" she bite her lips after my words she's like having some monologue in her own mind, her eyes is full of worries and panic

"I- I can't .." her voice was low she looked outside and started to stamp his feet on the floor

"You're a doctor aren't you?" I ask her also annoyed don't tell me this doctor don't know how to take care of my wound, f*****g agency who hire her to do this if she doesn't know a thing about it at all

"Yeah I am!" She was more on panic now, my blood was dripping at the white tiles they had in the clinic

"Then what are you watching, are you gonna do it or watch me lose blood?" Is she paranoid?

"I am a doctor but, I am a dentist my field was all about the mouth, your wound is in your hands, the other nurse and doctor is on their break, What should I do?" She was more on asking herself more than talking to me

"So you will watch me?" I ask lowly at her she look at me and I could see that she was stress; she stamp her feet 3times on the floor and bite her lips before looking for something.

Her face was stress when she sat down beside me in the clinic bed... Her hair is long it's black and straight, her chin is color red; her blood is the reason I guessed or a blush on I don't know, her eyes is like half moon; the eye brow was lining up with the way her eyes did not so thick or thin eyelashes it's just enough to be recognized,... And her lips they are heart shape, freaking beautiful!

"I thought you already clean your wound?" She ask so I snap out in what ever I am thinking

"I did" I said low; enough for her to hear

"There is still tiny glasses left, what happen? Last night when I saw you; your hands is still oky." She look at me and she was taken back to cought me looking at her

"I am not a doctor or nurse I am a business man" I told her and lean closer to see her even more

"S-sorry — but what happen r-really" I look down at my hand that she was holding, the blood stop flowing and there is also a small basin beside her, there is a water inside and I could see the tiny glasses that she remove from my hands.

"It's oky if y-you don't want to tell me, I mean it's rude prying up to someone else business..." She even nodded her head she was looking at my hands that was held by her hand

"I don't mind really, I — I punched my mirror out of anger" she was taken a back and look at me our face was inches away to each other.

"B-but why?" Her voice become low this time.

"Would you believe me if I told you that it's because of you?"