Beautiful Mistake

CHAPTER 4

"Would you believe me if I told you that it's because of you?"

"M-me?" She even point her self to confirm it; I nod my head to her and watch her reaction closely. Slowly she look down at my hand and rolled some bandage around it, her eyebrows are nearly colliding. Is she having a monologue in her head?

"Why?" She look at me again; my hands are now oky

"Pardon?" I ask losing track on what we just had as a conversation because I fucosed on her face and reaction; it's mesmerizing you can't blame me..

This is the very first time that I would see her this close, the first time was far so was the second time

"Why did you punch your mirror because of me?"

This time she lean forward making the gap between us more closer. Her eyes was pure of curiosity and for some reason I wanted to stay close to her like this; it felt nice and good

"What did I do to make you mad?" Her hands cage me between and because my heart was beating so freaking loud I move backward; suddenly my whole body was in tension; I don't know if it was panic or nervous but all I know is that I am not comfortable but I freaking like this position.

My back hit the wall beside the bed slowly her other arms pressed the side caging me into her little arms

"You don't know the word space, aren't you?" My voice came out low and raspier I could felt the tension in her whole body; that's it! That's what you make me feel about your presence Kim! Felt it too!

"So what if I don't; are you gonna push me away?" her voice sent shiver down my spine—i could feel the hair in my skin have life because of her sweet little voice

Who said I will push her, no one! I want her this close, maybe more—I don't really give s**t about anything now; it's like my mind was fucos on her; if she bewitched me, then I don't f*****g care!

"Who said I'll do that?" I whispered to her; the side of her lips tug up and her head slightly tilted from the side; she gave me smug smile

She was about to withdraw our current position when I pulled her white coats collar closer to me all I could concentrate of right now is that her eyes

"You started this ... " I whispered because I knew that this position was close enough

She looked shock at what I did I could clearly see into her eyes the panic and nervous she had when her whole body started to shake

"You don't want to know the reason why I'm mad at you anymore?" I brushed my tounge around my dry lips and I could clearly see how her eyes followed the way my tounge move

"You want to wet it in your own way?" I ask again this time more on sweeter and raspier; something that I knew woman could never escape from

"I-I have work t-to do.." she was stuttered her words was saying she must move away from me because I am a predator for her, but her body doesn't move; I know you want it too !

"Oh really .. I'm sorry to disturb you then " I slowly let go of her collars white coat and see what she would do

Let see how strong you're to control yourself my dear; because me, I was so weak for you!

But she didn't move away; Oh no she is also weak for me

"Why aren't you moving?" I asked; teasing her more about her self control, this young lady was really don't have self control like me

"I-I don't know.." she look at my lips again, and I was amazed when she close her eyes tightly as if she was forcing her self to think much—to see a better option to the position she was the reason why we're on right now..

Oh come on don't tell me you won't let me taste your lips I've been waiting; she slowly open her eyes and bite her bottom lips

I could see that she had a final decision on her mind; please I do hope your decision has something to do about my cravings honey because I would freaking do it myself if you stop midway!

I was about to pull her again when a freaking phone rang she instantly stand up and she look at me for a moment and run for the phone infront of one of the desk

I tightly closed my eyes and bump my head in the wall when I realize what I did; I freaking have a f*****g girlfriend why did I even lose control, a little bit more and this is freaking cheating; but it is cheating...

Oh gosh what did I freaking do! I just want to stay away from temptation and now the temptation is freaking walking towards me

"Hello"

I look at her when she answer the phone she was fixing the crumb's in her coat; what did I do, I was just gonna hurt her in the very end when I still continue it; I have a girlfriend ! You have a girlfriend Alfred why are you liking someone else! You're f*****g committed why do you still want someone else commitment?

I bump my head in the wall again for the second time and stand up, I need to face all my mistake I should leave England, maybe I'll follow Veronica in Milan for the mean time, I would come clean to her, I would tell her what happened here; I'm sure she would be mad but I hope she'll forgive me, this is not a good idea, what happen is a mistake—but that mistake gives life to my died internal, Kim's presence was like fire to my cold died soul, her breath and her looks makes me breathless, her eyes looking at me makes me sweat—something I never been feeling for a very long time; this is a mistake but it was beautiful...

"Yes ma'am I'll be there in a minute. Just relax" she put down the phone and let out a heavy deep sigh. Before walking to her I fix my shirt first and straighten it out; I walk towards her while she was moving fast taking some things into her first aid box

"I will be leaving— someone just got their gums bleeding in the village I'll be goin in there.." she look at me and then bite her lips before closing the box she was about to walk pass through me when she stop beside me

"Just wait for Dra. Smith she would see your wound if it's worst or just minor" and then she started walking again

Someone's gums bleeding, why don't they just come here then?!

"Wait!!" She was already putting the golf carts keys for the village service when I stop her—I hold her hands and her all eyes was on me again

"Do you know the area?" Suddenly she was dumbfounded, she was like busted and she just like realize something

I knew it she was knew in here, she don't know the houses and which way, the whole village is large it could pass as city and she would just go in a golf cart?

"Do you know the number of the household?" I ask her; she nod her head

"Good let's go, in my car it'll gonna be triple faster than your golf cart" she was still in her own monologue in her mind when I held her hands and pulled her towards my car

"Hey! Dra. Ramirez where are you going?" Someone else ask, she look back so was I am

Five people was on their own uniform as doctors and nurse I don't know who ask but I bet she would talk when Kim would answer her question

"Someone in one of the houses in the village got their child's gums bleeding they called me"

They all nod their head so I didn't have the idea who ask her but based on the voice I think one of the woman is the one who ask

"Let's go!" I open my doors car for her and when she is settled I walk to the driver seat and get inside—I give life to the engine of the car and look at her, she was freaking sexily putting here seatbelt on

"W-What house number?" I gulp when I stuttered I started moving the car and in a minute we're at the road

"247." I instantly step on the break when I hear the house number

"247?" I asked at her; she looked at me confused about what I did

"Y-yeah.." s**t!

I step on the gas and I was droving my f*****g car back at my mother's household, why didn't I even think that it could be one of my nephew! Who it is Marcus? Miguel? Mathias or Mason? Which freaking one?

When I parked my car outside of the garage I run, not even thinking about The person left in my car I guess my nephew was more important for now, I think nothing could happen to her inside of my car... right?

"What happen!" They all seem shock when they see me and hear me; I was at the living room when I see Mason crying so loud as if it is really hurting him so bad; Venus is holding a white towel to absorb the blood coming out to her gums

"Al! What are doing—Oh my gosh what happen to your hand?" I didn't even spare a look to my mother I walk straight to Mason and I hold the towel that my sister is holding

"What happen Young man?" I asked lowly to him; he look at me and then slowly he started to calm his self the crying Mason was now wiping his tears away

"My tooth c-came out" I smiled and let go a small smile for him, thank God it's just a tooth, I thought It was something serious

"Thank God he answered, he was crying and we can't talk to him what's the matter so we call the dentist nearby—" they all look at the door when they hear someone is entering

"H-hi I'm the dentist" I know they are all shock to see her especially Venus and mom since they know her

I remove the towel when I see that it's stop bleeding already; I look at Kim, she was biting her bottom lips so hard that I knew It would leaves a small cuts

"Could you check him, he is six we are all expecting that his tooth would come out because it's changing at this age right?" I asked her casually; she nodded

"Excuse me" she said to my mother and walk towards Mason beside me she kneel down to face Mason

"Let me see baby" she said sweetly to the child—I could felt my Sister and my mother's eyes on me but my fucos was on her, my eyes was lock on her; my glance was like glued only for her

Now... could you see how I would look at her, how my eyes have its own life; how my moods becomes calm when I am staring at her, now can you see what I see on her

I look at my sister and she was freaking fast wiping her own tears when I saw her crying; why are you crying?

When I look at my mother she look away as if guilty of something; do you understand now?

If only I have the control to stop liking her mom then I would, if only I could just stop my heart for wondering if there is still a chance for the both of us I would; if only you didn't stamp on to the little fire we had before then maybe it was a flame now, you kept the fire in the middle of the snowstorm; you stop it already even if there is no start at the very beginning...

If I did not met her before, could my heart still beat for someone like this; if it was not her who would it be? When will it be?

In Veronica's arms did I even felt my knees to get weak? In her glance did my heart beat fast? In her touch did I ever got nervous ? Or when she talk to me then I even stuttered?

No.. I didn't .. only her .. only to her..