Fireside secrets

Christmas morning.

A few hours later, Eivan came into the bedroom and sat on my cold bed.

" It's freezing in here. Come to bed January. Please." He rubbed my arm over the blanket.

I nodded. I was so cold even with blankets piled on top of me, I had grown accustomed to the warmth of the guys during the freezing cold nights.

I crawled into the blanket fort and onto the bed quickly as I ducked under the warm blankets.

Thomas pulled me into his arms and moved his body over mine, swapping places so that he was now in the middle position.

" Thanks." I said.

He just kissed my neck as he snuggled with me, holding his arm tightly around my waist.

" I'm not done with you yet. I promise. I would have pulled you out of that icey room right away but...I thought maybe you needed a minute alone.

I sent him in to get you. Niether of us could sleep without you here. Are you ok baby?"

" Yeah, I just felt like an i***t, I mean I basically pressure you both to have s*x, what did I expect.

Of course it doesn't mean anything to guys. I guess girls just like the romance stuff more than guys. I have a lot to learn don't I?"

I felt Thomas stiffen behind me.

" January you don't believe that we have feelings for you?" he sounded angry now.

I turned to face him.

" Why would you? I'm like a broken f****d up girl with lots of baggage no future plans..."

He kissed my nose, stopping my downward spiral.

" Because... you are my little s*x kitten and I want to pet you and train you and cuddle with you." He nibbled my shoulder.

I smiled at that.

" Ok, I can be a s*x kitten for you. I will let you be my master.'"

His eyes seemed to get all smokey with desire. I was starting to see the effect that I could have on him.

This I can handle, this is just s*x and even if he never wants a girlfriend, he wants me now.

I moved my hands over his shoulders and pulled him to me.

" Don't hurt me. I'm fragile." I whispered.

" I won't. But at the same time, you might hurt me. I'm not very good at relationship stuff and if you're going to be my girl, I might need training myself."

" Your girl? You mean like going steady type of girl?" I needed to make this clear. Was he asking me to be his girlfriend.

" January, I never met anyone like you. I want to explore what this thing is between us, besides I don't have a girlfriend in New York.

But.. let's not put labels on this right now. Let's simply be f**k buddies first."

Ah there he was, the man slut that I had grown to know so well.

I stayed quiet after that. I knew he was trying even in his own crass way.

" I didn't mean that, I meant let's be lovers first, get to know eachother. See... I need you to teach me how to talk to women.

I don't mean like other women, like just you...of fuck...I'm messing this all up."

I placed my finger over his lips to silence him.

" I love you just the way you are. Don't think about it too much. You are a good guy. I trust you Tommy."

He closed his eyes.

"I love it when you take control." He whispered, as he kissed my lips.

I kissed him back, but my mind was on the man behind him, his back was turned away from us, a pillow held tightly over his fat head.

We finally fell asleep as the warmth of the fire filled the room. I decided that I could be friends with Eivan.

I would support him to get his girlfriend back. I could try to at least.

*************

Christmas day.

I didn't want to get out of bed, remembering what day it was today.

For the past two years, I hated Christmas day. It was the day that my friend Amanda had sent me those photos of Adam and my sister April making out in a bar right after Adam dumped me so cruelly.

It was like a sharp knife that cut me deeper than anything had ever before.

Even the monster hadn't hurt me this badly.

I guess because I was totally in love with Adam. I was obsessed with him. He was my whole world. I put my entire existence into his hands.

So I really hoped the guys didn't remember that today was that day. Maybe they forgot about Christmas.

I turned over and pulled the blankets up over my head.

Both of the guys had gotten up early. They were gathering wood and bringing stuff up from the basement.

My bladder wouldn't let me sleep any longer.

I shoved my pillow away, and felt those magazines underneath.

Oh, I forgot about these.

Grabbing the magazines I shuffled into the bathroom.

I opened the first magazine while sitting on the toilet.

The middle of the magazine opened to reveal a naked girl in a provocative pose.

" Wow girl. You are really putting yourself out there."

I touched her breasts with my finger and wondered what it would feel like to be photographed naked like this.

My fingers wandered up to my own n*****s. I teased each one as I felt myself getting aroused by the photos.

Pulling open the next magazine, it was even hotter than the first.

This time the woman had her fingers on her g string as her other hand was cupping her very large breast.

I moved my fingers down to my own p***y.

It was wet with excitement.

I had never masterbated like this before. I mean...I had urges, but I was too afraid to try anything s****l.

I was thinking of being with Tommy in the basement.

My fingers swirled around my clit as I felt that arousal building up as it had with Tommy.

My breathing began to speed up. My chest was heaving up and down as I increased the speed and pressure of my own touch.

I cried out as I came hard, my head falling back as my toes curled and my thighs clenched together around my hand.

"Uh, uh, oh f**k, oh, oh, uh, hah hah, hah. f**k oh yeah...oh..oh..oh..yeah."

That was exactly what I needed to release all of those thoughts of Adam and everything I used to associate with Christmas.

Once I finished in the bathroom, I fixed my pants and shirt and opened the door.

Tommy was standing outside of the door with his fist on one hip.

He put his hand out.

" Give them back now."

I sheepishly handed him the magazines.

"You heard me?" I felt my cheeks glowing bright red.

" I guess you didn't know that in the basement, sound carries through the floor vent.

Yeah, we heard you. What month was the one that set you on fire? Was it miss Feburary?" he teased.

I shook my head. " June."

He grabbed me around the waist. "I'm partial to January myself. If you needed a Christmas orgasm, I would have gifted you one." He bit my earlobe, then licked it. My heart skipped a beat, his warm tongue could do things to me. Naughty things.

" Well...you did win that bet that you made with the professor. So I guess I'm your Christmas present then." I tried to be coy and cute, but I wasn't quite that person.

I closed my eyes and swallowed back my awkwardness.

"I love you just the way you are. Don't think about it too much. You are a good girl. I trust you J."

He repeated my same words back to me.

" Thank you. Can you...uh please step into the bathroom with me a moment." I pulled him inside and locked the door.