I was taking down notes as the quiet chatter from Kiara and Jazz filled the open space. Though they are to wed in Boracay, I opted for a ceremony practice in our open garden close to our cafe and my shop.
With just two weeks into the wedding, and everyone flying out to Paradise Garden Resort Hotel and Spa five days from now, Jazz is more losing his mind and stressing over the event.
I can't blame him. With so much sh!t that had happened in their life, this is the other way he can help my sister to retain her sanity. Jazz's has been very supportive of Kiara and never did he miss reminding her that everything will be okay and that he'd kill if they won't finish as Mr. and Mrs. Balbastre in their church wedding by two weeks.
As her planner and twin sister, I pitched in whatever I can to make her feel better and less bothered. I told her numerous time that Jazz won't let anything or anyone stand in his way of making her his wife.
That's why I told them to have a rehearsal so that everyone would know that their part and what they'll do on the big day. I just want everything to be perfect for Kiara, because she deserves it. A dream will come to reality for her.
"Lahat na ba nandito?" tawag ko sa atensyon nila na may ngiti. Lahat sila pinasadahan ko ng tingin pwera sa damuhong nakaupo sa pinakadulo ng monoblock, sa pangalawang hanay. I can imagine him lazily on the chair in front of him with that smirk on his face.
Nope not him. Hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan 'yong atraso niya kumakailan at 'wag na siyang umasang kaya ko siyang patawarin.
"I'm here! I'm here!" a high-pitched voice dominated the surroundings, making us all turn to look. "Sorry, I was late! Woooh, Lord God, I'm never a fan of running." she gushed all of that while panting. She has her hand over the arch of the entrance while the other is in her chest while she heaves.
"Great job, Mika. Fifteen minutes ka lang late ngayon." tudyo ni Jonas sa kanya.
"Ikaw kaya magkaroon ng jetlag." sagot ni Mika sa kanya at umirap saka umupo sa bakanteng upuan sa harap ko.
"Okay, now we're all here. Puwede na tayong mag-start." muling banggit ko.
As I barked my instructions, Kiara is all but a big ball of excitement and anxiety. She was listening very eagerly, nodding ocassionally as she holds hands with his husband. Jazz on the other hand, looked like he didn't give hell as to what I was saying. He was just staring at Kiara, enjoying the different expressions accross her face. It was clear that she doesn't notice it because she had fixed her attention to me. But in my point of view, I witness the admiration and twinkle in Jazz's eyes that clearly says that his wife is the most valuable thing to him.
A surge of jealousy and longing made my heart clenched. Damn, some people are just lucky. But I'm so happy for them. Jazz really make an extraordinary things for my sister.
I cleared my throat, not really the best time to be thinking about these things. "Ready na ho ba tayo? Let's all form a line sa may entrance."
Lahat sila nagsitayuan at sumunod. I was again busy jotting down some reminders when a shadow tainted my white pad. It is just me or I already memorized the feel of his presence, because when I looked up, Jonas's probing, deep, coffee- colored eyes met mine.
I smiled tightly at him. "Sir Jonas, pumila na ho kayo sa likod ng entourage." it took everything in me to make it casual sound, but my heart . Lord, my heart is making a run for its life.
Why does he have to be his good-looking? That strong jaw, prominent nose, extraordinary long and silken eyelashes, and that unruly hair which fell loosely in his forehead.
I don't know what this guy had to me, because I always go from annoyed to extremely attracted to him from one moment to another. I'm always stuck on those two feelings, going back and forth in a limbo.
I know he didn't fail to notice my reaction because for a while a smirk appeared in his handsome face.
"You done staring, baby? Satisfied checking me out?" his arrogance evident in his voice.
I acted as if I hawking a loogie to move myself out of the attraction-filled haze I was at.
"Pumila ka na roon, Sir Jonas. Naghihintay na 'yong ikakasal." I reiterated.
He squinted his eyes at me, as if searching for something. Something I have no idea of. "Well, you'll soon tell me." He sounded so confident before he turned to his heel and strode over to where he's supposed to be. Hambog talaga ang gago!
I was in a state of shock. Am I that easy to read? Am I that transparent that he noticed? I quickly shook my head to clear my paranoia. Maybe, it was just a lucky guess.
I again displayed my professional smile as I go over on how the venue would look like. Sinabi ko na rin kung anong kanta ang tutugtog at kung ilang segundo ang kailangan nilang bilangin bago maglakad sa aisle ang bawat abay. Hanggang doon lang ang sinambit ko kasi walang alam si Jazz na si Kiara mismo ang kakanta ng sarili niyang composition na wedding song march kapag siya na ang maglakad sa aisle. Lihim pang pinapraktis ni Papa si Sophie para sa makabisado niya ang keys and notes ng kanta.
"Tita Lillien, Tito Raiden, dito po kayo maghihintay sa gitna kay Jazz." then I walked to our makeshift altar and pointed to where they will end. "Lalakad po kayo hanggang dito, tapos sa likuran po kayo ni Jazz tatayo. Dito po sa tabi ni..." napalingon ako kay Jonas na nasa tabi ko. "Sir Jonas." we locked eyes and I saw mirth dancing in his eyes while he surpressed his grin.
Madali akong umiwas ng tingin. "Okay, gawin po natin 'yong sinabi ko."
I cued on the person-in-charge of the sound and signal for Jazz to walk on the path we reffered to as the practice aisle.
As I stand at the end point of their walk, Jonas closed the inches separating us and whispered directly on my ear. "Love it when you locked your eyes to mine. Ganyan palagi ah, 'wag kung saan-saan ka titingin."
I was dying to see expression, killing to descry that damn smirk I know he has on, thay sexy simper I am slowly considering as one of my weakness.
Good thing, I was strong enough to move away and not to look at his direction. That's when I noticed that my parents are both looking at me intently. A slight smile curved into my mother's lips while a slight pouted to my father. Napailing na lang ako.
I think the best way to manage these confusing feelings I have for him is to just ignore him. Because I know the moment I face him, I won't be able to control my wild heart. Damn it! Curse his pretty face!
Lucky for me, he dropped his antics after that. The practiced went smoothly, it even ended with Jazz tearing a bit as Kiara practiced her walk while holding a vase as her bouquet.
"Kung pwede ko na lang hilain ang araw, Hun." I even heard him commenting when Kiara stood in front of him. My sister playfully smacked him in the chest while she half-cried, half-giggled.
Nakatitig ako sa kanila, sa sandaling panahon na naging event planner ako, at sa lahat na naging kliyente ko na, masasabi ko na sa kanila talaga ako nakaramdam ng matinding inggit. And I'm not usually like that, kasi hindi ko naman pinangarap 'to. But looking at Jazz and knowing how deep and rooted his love for Kiara, I realized that maybe wishing for this type of a happy ending isn't really that bad.