Breaking Her Rule (Jonas Lei & Kaitie Carina Story)

Chapter 10

Running is still my thing. Akala ko sa paghuli lang ng mga masasamang nilalang na gustong tumakas magagamit ko ang pagtakbo pero hindi pa rin pala. Magagamit ko pa pala kung nandiyan ang anino ng taong 'yon. And it's annoying because I freaking hate cardio, but if it means getting away from Jonas Angcaya then I'm willing to maintain and to sprint uphill if that's what it takes.

After he chased away the foreign dude, claiming I'm his wife, again, then he kissed me again, and said those words I'n not going to repeat because it does weird things to me, I kicked him in the shin and ran away. Freaking ran like batsh!t crazy away from him.

Wala nga akong direksyon, eh. Umabot ako sa chapel kung saan idadaos ang pag-iisang dibdib nina Jazz at Kiara. Tamang- tama dahil kailangan kong magdasal. Humingi ng lakas ng loob at resistensiya laban sa mga lalaking katulad ni Jonas.

He's goddamn sin in an angel's suit. Whenever he's near me, there's this strong magnetic pull I can't ignore. Parang konting-konti na lang, oo na ako sa lahat ng sinasabi niya.

Binagsak ko ang sarili ko sa kama. Nag-sisisi kung bakit ako nag-impromptu marathon kanina. Although I'm used it, still my body feels jelly. Nangangatog ang kalamnan ko at tuyong-tuyo ang pakiramdam ng lalamunan ko kahit inisang lagok ko lang ang kalahating litro ng tubig kaninang pagkabalik ko sa kuwarto ko.

And that's another reason why I should stay the hell away from him. Because until now, I didn't even think it was possible to consume that much water in one go without pausing to breathe. Jusmiyo, kahit noong kasagsagan ng training ko sa academy dati di ko naranasan ang uminom ng gano'n. Tang*ina talaga 'tong Jonas na 'to.

I groaned and turned to lay flat on my stomach. Is there some way to know if someone put a voodoo spell on you? Gayuma ba? Baka kailangan kong dumiretso ng Quiapo bago uuwi pabalik ng Ilocos para matanong ang mga matatanda roon. Wait, is it possible to bewitch someone with a kiss? Sa laway? God, that's disgusting.

I sighed. Clearly, my head is not on the right track. Kung anu-ano ng naiisip ko. Muli akong umikot para tumihaya. I stared blankly at the mini-chandelier on the ceiling.

What do I have to loss if I ever give in anyway?

"Your sanity." I answered immediately. "See, you're slowly slipping away from saneness." I added.

Mapapasama na talaga ako sa maging pasyente ni Doc. Tigress nito. I kennnaaat.

Napahalinghing ako muli saka bumangon. I think, I need to shower. The bathroom is a good to contemplate on deep things.

I started removing my jewelries when a knock on the door resonated through my quiet room. My fingers stopped unhooking my loop earrings as I stared dead on my door.

Again, a knock vibrated through it. But it was harsher followed by a slightly muffled voice but enough to let know who's on the other side.

"You got your space. Now, open the goddamn door or I'm breaking it on its hinges."

Bolts of electricity coursed through my spine making me shiver. My fingers started to tremble, my heart frantic on its beating. I was frozen on my feet, stupidly boring a hole on my wooden door.

"Five." He shouted. I wonder if there are Jazz and Kiara's guests peeking to see who's making all the fuss on the hallway.

"Four." He continued.

Then it was as if I was out of trance his sudden apperance brought me. I shook my head quickly, my brows furrowing. He's counting down. Counting down before he break the door?

"Three." His voice, dipping low and threatening. Would he really break the door? Hindi naman sa kanya. And I know he knows the trouble he'll be in once he does it. Kaya sa tingin ko hindi niya gagawin.

"Two." But then again, this is Jonas 'Matigas ang Bungo' Angcaya. At wala siyang pakialam kung ma-stress man ang mga tao sa paligid niya makuha niya lang ang gusto niya. Pero naalala ko na nasa isang kuwarto lang ang pagitan ng kuwarto ko nila Nanay.

"One." He finished the same time I quickly swing the door open. And he's there, all six foot and three inches. He has both of his hands on the door frame, his stance ready to kick the door down.

But when our eyes met, a gorgeous smile crossed his face, his eyes twinkling with emotions I can't comprehend. "That's my girl." He muttered then he grabbed the back of my head, crashing his lips to mine.

He pushed me back, my feet automatically following his lead. His other hand found the small of my back before he snaked his arms on my waist. I heard the door shutting in a tud before he maneuvered us both, suddenly I'm pushed hard on the said wooden door.

He kissed me hard, I feel like I'm developing bruises on the process. Pero wala sa kaluluwa ko ang pagrereklamo, hindi ko na nga rin maalala kung ano 'yong mga tumatakbo sa isipan ko kanina bago siya dumating.

I rested both my arms on his broad shoulders, before I raked my fingers on his hair, gripping on his locks as I dived deeper to his spell. I savored more of his kisses, more of his lips, more of him.

He groaned and holy hell because all the noises he's making are channeled straight in the middle of my thighs. I let out a moan, the hand holding my head travelled down to my left thigh, holding it tight he hitched it and hooked it on his waist.

He pushed his pelvis forward and a whimper escaped my mouth when I felt how deliciously hard he is on my stomach. My body is wired and all my senses are hyped up.

I bit his lip before his tongue delved again on mine. He angled his head sideways, deepening the kiss.I always thought French Kissing is gross, but somehow it isn't with Jonas.

"Hmmm." I mewled. The hold on my thigh tightened before he started to move, practically dry humping me against the door. A string of curses flooded my mind as the wetness and heat from the south is becoming more and more prominent. I swear I'm soaking my undies.

He gave me a few more pelvic thrust before he slowly became immobile. It took a few more of the mind blowing kiss before he gave my lower lip a soft bite and stopped.

"Baby." He whispered against my mouth. God, his voice is chocolaty smooth, I can feel it passing silkily down my throat. We are both panting and I swear steam is evident on my hotel room.

"Yes?" I absentmindedly answered.

I saw his lips tipping up before he gave me another peck, "You have to realize now that no matter how far you run, I will always chase you down."

It was a threat, at the same time a promise.

Hindi ako nakasagot. I was distracted on the tiny space between our bodies, not to mention his erection poking me on my belly. Hindi rin ako makagalaw. And I'm still debating if I can't move or I don't want to ever move from our position.

He gave me another chaste kiss on the lips before he carefully set down my leg wrapped around his waist. He took a small step back and I held down the protest bubbled in my throat when I lost his heat against mine.

He took both of my hands in his, making a bridge in between our bodies. He let his eyes roam from my head to toe, saying nothing. I started to fidget on my feet, suddenly timid and shy how he's studying me right now.

"You're so goddamn beautiful." He hushed out, making me snap my eyes back to his.

And I didn't expect to see how soft it looks, even his smile is warm. Hindi katulad ng nakakaloko na ngiti na binabato niya sa'kin parati.

"Ummm." I numbled. Ano bang sasabihin ko? Wala na ako sa ayos mag-isip.

He just kiss the wits out of me before giving me my first ever dry hump and I guess my better judgement just flew out of the window.

"I got to go, baby. I need to take care of this," then we both looked at the tenting on his short. "before I changed my mind and take you against the door, without clothes this time. Wala akong pakialam kung nasa palibot lang na mga kuwarto ang buong angkan mo."

As if it were magic words, I jerked away from his hold. My cheeks are flaring and I can't even look at him in the eye.

I heard him chuckle before he again closed in the space, "Kiss me, baby, para makaalis na ako."

Nanatili akong nakatingin sa paa naming dalawa. He again let out a short laugh, as if he finds my reaction amusing.

He trapped my chin in between his fingers, tipping my head up so I won't have any choice but to look at him. "Kiss me." He whispered before he bent his form down, giving me a slow but a breath taking kiss.

I was in a state of stupor. He smiled at me, all teeth. "Can you scoot a bit to the side so I can open the door?" he asked, mirth heavy on his voice.

Wala ako sa sariling umusog sa gilid para mabuksan na niya ang pinto. I am still lost when I followed him, gripping the side of the door for my life, because my knees are about to fail me.

Muli niya akong hinarap nang nasa labas na siya, nagiting-ngiti pa rin siya. Inabot niya ang mukha ko, giving me a brief caress on my cheek before he went to clipped my hair behind my ear.

"See you at the wedding, baby. I'll wait for you at the altar." He muttered with a wink before he went on his way.

Napasara ako agad sa pinto at napaupo sa sahig. Para akong nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa sinabi niya. I know he doesn't mean it, I mean he means it but not in the way my mind is thinking. Because he will be at the altar, not as the groom but the best man, and he will wait for me there to remind him of things he might forget since he tends to forget a lot when he's not concentrating. As I was not a part of the entourage, too. Yes, though it's my twin sister's wedding, inayawan ko talaga. Kahit din naman noong kinasal si Ate Keanna, umayaw din akong maging isang abay niya.

Pero balik sa sinabi niya ang katotohanan ay natakot ako. Natakot ako sa sinabi niya dahil parang totoo. And the crazy part is a part of me wants what he said. But it isn't right.

He's not right for me. No good for me.

Dapat dito pa lang alam ko na. He's breaking my rule. He's making me oppose the things I believe in. If that's not a warning, I don't know what is.

I didn't sleep a wink and it sucks because I have to be up early for the preparation. Since, it's Kiara and Jazz's big day. It was a blur events. I was all over the place making sure everything is perfect. Pinabaliban ko muna lahat ng mga bagay bagay na may kaugnayan kay Jonas. And I think he's doing the same. He's not playing, not trying tricks on anyone and it kind of surprised me because he actually listens to every instruction given to him. Simula sa prep, sa video and photo ops, hanggang sa mismong kasal.

It's very solemn and intimate with only ninety invited guests, despite my sister's wedding dream theme. Halos lahat naiyak magsimula sa pagkanta niya ng sarili niyang wedding song composition while she's walking in the aisle towards Jazz hanggang sa vows na narinig namin, kahit ako. Kasi alam ko... namin ang pinagdaanan ng dalawa bago nauwi sa church wedding. Maraming naging struggles ang kapatid ko bago niya narating ang daan sa piling ni Jazz. At isa ako sa pinakamasayang tao para sa kanilang dalawa. Hoping and praying that their marriage will last a lifetime, until God decided death to do their part. Hindi iilang beses na nakatitigan kami ni Jonas, na laging nauuwi sa pag-iwas ko dahil natutunaw ako sa mga ngiti niya.

At the reception, instead the newly wedded couple welcome their party with their bride and groom entrance, it bacame the princesses grand entrance. Jazz waiting for Kiara and Shania down the grand royal -staircase. And again, pumapalakpak ang mga bisita at kaniya-niyang iyakan. Saan ka ba makakita ng welcome party sa isang kasal na ang grand entrance ay ang bride at bestfriend nito. Sa kasal lang 'yan ng kakambal ko.

Kiara's made of honor, Shania, was the first one to talk when it's time for the speech. Another round of tears when she shared a little of what Kiara went through when she was left by Jazz. On how she faced her own battles in raising Sophie. Nakita ko rin ang pagpunas ni Jazz sa mga luhang lumandas sa mata ng asawa niya. But clearly, it wasn't sad tears. Her face glows of happiness and Jazz mirrors the same.

When the emcee called Jonas, my body seemed to know because it stiffened to attention. He walked to the stage followed by a guy holding the big frame. The one he got from Mina? Is it Mina? Or Mia? Ugh, whatever.

"Hello, I'm Jonas and I'm Jazz's bestfriend." Pagpapakilala niya. I saw the colleagues tribe and a few of the female guests flocking near the stage making me roll my eyes. He refrained from talking for a while and look's like he's looking for someone from the crowd. At mukhang kilala ko kung sino ang hinahanap niya dahil lumawak ang ngiti niya nang nagtama ang mga mata namin.

"Ako ang pinakadabest sa lahat ng friends and members ng Syringe Fanatics." He said with full confidence that make us laugh. Pero si Jazz, umiling lang pati mga kaibigan nila.

"Only a few of you know that Kiara is Jazz's weakness. He was always strong before until he met Kiara again. Kaya 'yong may galit kay Jazz diyan. Alam niyo na kung paano siya gagantihan." He added laughing.

Gago talaga.

"Joke lang! But seriously, Kiara was the one who mend his broken heart and she was the one who cure his aching soul. We used to hear Jazz talk about Kiara all the time, doesn't know when to shut up, actually. In person after our duty at the hospital or via Facetime when he was in Canada." He said, making the audience laugh, again. "But just like the other love story it wasn't perfect. Unexpected events making them go on separate ways. They both face the harsh of the world with a long distance in between them. Pero ganoon ata talaga, kahit gaano kayo katagal na pinaglayo, kung para kayo sa isa't-isa, mahahanap at mahahanap niyo ang daan pabalik. Dahil 'yon ang nangyari sa kanilang dalawa." Then he broke eye contact with me to look at his bestfriend and my sister.

"The path you walked going here wasn't easy. It was crooked and full of skewed line. Now, seeing you both here, with fingers intertwined, I knew all you had gone through was worth it. Kiara, I haven't seen Jazz that happy since time I can remember. So thank you, for painting that smile on my bestfriend's face. Thank you for making him happy by embracing him again. And to the two of you I want nothing but happiness and bliss for you, because of all people you both deserve it. Congratulations, bro, and welcome to the Syringe Fanatics family, Kiara." Saka siya muling humarap sa amin at tinaas ang baso na hawak niya. "Oh, I already brought with me my wedding present." Pagpapatuloy niya.

He asked one of the waiter to take his glass before he took the big, wrapped frame from the man beside him, then he carried it until he landed in front of the newly wed sa ilalim ng wedding gazebo na gawa sa mga bulaklak.

Mukhang nag-uusap sila hanggang sa sabay na pinilas nila Kiara at Jazz ang balot. First expression that registered on their faces were shock before it was completely overriden with love. They both stood up and hugged Jonas, whose back is still on us. They talked a little more before Jonas turned around, showing us a painting of young Jazz in his scrub nurse uniform and Kiara in what looks like her demo teaching uniform way back in college if I'm not mistaken.

Jazz was smiling smug, his left hand on his pocket and the other on Kiara's shoulder. While Kiara sporting a peace sign while she held hands with Jazz.

It was really a thoughtful gift. Kahit ako na-touch sa effort na ginawa niya. I found myself smiling, who knew Jonas Angcaya has a soft side.

Nang bumaba siya sa gazebo umalis na ako sa kinatatayuan ko para kausapin ang head ng catering. We were busy discussing when I felt two hands resting on my hips.

Agad akong napalingon at tumambad sa'kin ang ngiting-ngiti na si Jonas.

"Hi, baby." Bati niya.

Kinunutan ko siya ng noo saka marahas na tinanggal ang kamay niya sa baywang ko. I excused myself before I dragged him towards the corner of the reception hall, out of sight.

"Anong ginagawa mo? Nagtratrabaho ako." Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko 'to sinasabi sa kanya. But it felt right saying it.

He smiled sweetly, advancing towards me. He again put his hands on my waist. "I know. But, you didn't enough time for me this morning with preparations and all and now I demand a bit of it for myself."

I looked at him bewildered, my heart trying to break free from my chest. I tried to take a step back but he tightened his hold on my waist.

"Di bale, after this, I have you all to myself." He remarked. Hindi ko nga alam kung sino ang kausap niya. Ako ba o sarili niya.

Pero hindi na ako nakapagtanong. He gave me a soft kiss on my temple before he slipped back to the crowd. Leaving me confused and excited and nothing but a puddle of melted nerves until I composed myself to do my job.

Nakangiting sumandal ako sa isang upuan habang pinapanood ang mga bisita na nagkakasiyahan. I can hear the buzzing of their conversations while the music continue to blast around us and everyone is enjoying.

This day really felt lika a dream to my twin sister. Like a story that she wished for when we were young that suddenly came to life. As I made sure the place looks like as if it only existed in fairy tale.

"Look's like their having fun."

Nilingon ko ang umupo sa tabi ko at nakita kong si Kuya Kenn na tinititigan ang mga tao sa dance floor. Kiara and Jazz made their first dance with different songs before their guests intervened their bridal and groom dance including us. Jazz danced us with my sister Keanna and my mother. While Kuya Kenn had his way to dance to Kiara.

"Oo nga. Imbes na maging eleganteng ball ay para ng naging mga party people na hindi magkamayaw sa pagsayaw ng kung anu-anong kanta ang mga tao."

Everyone is gyrating on the dance floor while sweet music blasting from the speaker aound us.

"Ikaw ayaw mong sumali sa gitna?"

Nakangiting nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kapatid ko. Nakalahad ang kamay niya sa harap ko.

Umiling ako. "I'm slightly tired, Kuya. Let them have fun."

He agreed with me with his smile.

"You did a great job for making this day perfect for Kiara." He whispered to me.

"I worked hard to gave the best wedding she always dreamed of. A day that she will forever remember."

He nodded at me with his eyes glisterring of water and then he pulled to hugged me tight.

"I'm still wishing that someday I will also see you wearing a white dress, walking down the aisle towards to the man that will go beyond to break and bend your rule." he softly said.

Muli akong napaangat ng tingin sa kanya ay nakita kong na kina Jonas at mga kaibigan nila ni Jazz ang direksyon ng mga mata niya na nakatingin din sa amin.

"You know what I always and only wanted, Kuya." I retracted.

"Naniniwala pa rin akong may lalakeng nakalaan para sa iyo na hindi magagawang gawin ang naging batayan at basehan mo kaya ayaw mong maikasal." He countered back.

I don't think so.

"Kakakasal palang ni Kiara, Kuya. Let Papa move on first bago ka sumunod sa yapak ng mga kapatid mong nagpakasal na." Pag-iiba ko. Alam kong idadaan na naman niya ako sa mga pangaral niya kaya iligaw ko na siya sa mga susunod pang lalabas sa labi niya.

"Nasaan pala 'yon. Nagtago ata."

Napansin din pala niya, kanina pa kasi namin siya hinahanap kaya walang nangyaring father and bride dance.

"Well, you know him, like what Nanay always talked about. Mr. Grouch din kasi talaga ang ama natin, naiilang siya sa mga ganito."

He nodded his head to agree, then he centered my head in the direction where Jazz is hogging Kiara in the middle of the dance floor. Then suddenly the music change into the song that we are familiar.

And moments later, my father is walking towards the newly wed and he extended his hand to Kiara. Kiara took the hands of our father when Jazz freed her from his embrace.

They are both slowly swaying with the 'When God made you' song , and Kiara is like now a sobbing bride.

I notice how Kiara roamed her eyes around the hall until it landed to us. That's the cue to my brother to asked me to join them. He stood up first from his seat and went to Ate Keanna to get her before they walked forward to the dance floor.

I stoop up later and decided to join them. I saw Jonas gave me a sweet smile when I passed to their table. Mabilis na naglakad ako papunta sa kanila at nadatnan ko silang apat na nagtatalo kung sino ang favorite ng aming ama.

"And you?" nakataas ang kilay ni Kiara ang bumungad sa akin.

"You're all loser. Favorite ako ni Papa everyday." Halukipkip ko. "Ako lang naman ang sumunod sa yapak niya na dapat sinundan ng isa diyan kasi siya lang ang lalake." Pasaring ko. Ngumisi lang naman sa akin ang kapatid naming lalake bago nag-iwas ng tingin. "At take note, ito ang lamang ko sa inyo. Ako lang ang anak na kasama nila ni Nanay sa bahay. So, ako talaga ang favorite." Pagyayabang kong dagdag. Di nila ako papatulan dahil alam namin na hindi ganoon ang mga magulang namin. They love us equally.

We all joined swaying into a full rotation until Kiara asked us where is our mother. Ate Keanna answered her, but we all knew that behind her reason is opposite what her eyes showing.

Nagkatingin kaming magkakapatid na para bang iisa ang nasa isip namin, kaya naman walang salita-salitang mabilis kaming naglakad papunta sa kinaroroonan niya pero gaya palagi inunahan kami ni Papa at agad niyang kinulong ang ina namin sa mga bisig niya.

Kuya Kenn almost run to sit beside her. Ate Keanna and I made our way too to her back to hugged our mother. Nakapalibot na siya sa aming apat. Nahuli si Kiara dahil alam kong mabigat ang wedding gown niya. Her gown is just like made like a weapon.

Dahil wala siyang pupuwestuhan, nagulat na lang kaming lahat ng binagsak niya ang katawan niya sa kandungan ng amin aming ina sa harapan.

"You're going to hurt your neck." Paalala niya kay Kiara gamit ang boses na nakasanayan na namin. Pero hindi niya napigil ang sariling umiyak ng husto habang yakap pa rin namin siya. "Oh God. What the hell is wrong with me." She said in her tears.

Behind her tears, I can see the love in my mother's eyes as she looked at us. She gave away my sister Keanna on her wedding... ngayon naman ang bunso niya ang kailangan niyang pakawalan. I know that this is happy ocassion. Pero naiintindihan ko rin na hindi madali sa kanya. Because in her eyes, we will always her babies. And we will never understand... not until we parents as well.

Nagrarason si Kiara sa kanya dahil sa hindi maampat ang pag-iyak niya pero tinawanan lang namin dahil sa kayabangan niya.

Kaya inihulog namin si Kiara sa pangunguna ni Kuya Kenn. Then our parents can't help but laugh and moments after, we all joined them.

Parang walang mabigat na pinagdaan sa mga nakalipas na buwan ang mga halakhak namin na sumasabay sa malakas na tugtugin sa buong paligid.

Life wasn't easy for us the past months. A past haunted us in unexpected way that resurfaced and wreaked havoc in our present. May pagkakataon na parang hindi na namin magawang ngumiti at tumawa. Para bang ang mga 'yon ay ang mga bagay na binawi at tuluyang ipinagkait sa amin. Our life was okay... not perfect but somehow happy, even with the taint of the painful memories and one night mistake, wrong decisions and someone that wanted to appear and come out to shake the foundation of the relationship of our family.

Pero sa kabila ng pinagdaanan namin... isang bagay ang hindi namin magagawang kalimutan. It's the fact that there is nothing in this life worth fighting for that will ever be easy to reach. Lahat pinaghihirapan. Lahat inilalaban. There's always a struggle. Life is not live through a smooth path. There will always be challenging rough roads, crossroads of decisions, and necessary stop overs.

Lies can have a devastating impact on us. The smallest lie snowball into a web of deception that almost shattered our lives. But then, forgiveness should be always there. Holding to anger and resentment only hurts ourselves and those we love. Acceptance is that one miracle cure to restore things in order. Everyone of us has our unique story to tell. Behind of our face is a complex and facsinating history that deserves. And most of all, if there is love, it can endure even the darkest of times. Love provide us a beacon of hope and a path to redemption despite the betrayal and heartbreak.

My mother was right that bought us into whole again; you don't need a perfect partner to have a perfecf lovestory. You only have to do is to learn how to adjust and accept everything to the person you chose despite of his imperfections and past.

And now, all is well Real's family.

"Ate Kaitie, may nahanap ka na bang prospect sperm donor mo?" Out of the blue na tanong ni Kiara ng kaming dalawa na lang ang naiwan dahil nakaalalay ako siya sa gown niya.

Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya at tumingin sa buong paligid. Mamaya kasi may makarinig sa kanya.

"Wala pa. Bakit?" Sagot kong pabalik.

Napansin kong ngumisi siya ng nakakaloko sa kinaroroonan ni Jonas bago niya kinuha ang bouquet niyang nasa lamesa saka walang pasabing ibinigay niya sa akin na nagpaawang ng mga labi ko na hindi ko nagawang magprotesta.