Breaking Her Rule (Jonas Lei & Kaitie Carina Story)

Chapter 16

Sabi nila kakabahan ka lang kapag hindi ka sigurado sa naging desisyon mo at sa mga kaakibat nitong pangyayari. 'Yong ginawa mo lang na bara-bara at hindi pinagplanuhan.

That's why I don't understand why I'm turning into a ball of trepidation. I've planned this. Ironed this one through and through. There's no creases, no ridges, no grooves. But why is it that whenever I look at Jonas, everything I've known seems strange and unfamiliar?

Bakit parang natatakot ako na sh!t, baka nga ma-inlove ako sa taong ito?

Hindi kami nakapag-usap ng masinsinan pagkatapos niyang umamin at sabihin sa'kin ang lahat ng 'yon dahil nakatanggap siya ng tawag mula sa sekretarya niya kailangan siya at pinapabalik siya agad.

He reluctantly left. And by reluctantly I mean, him melting me with three more of his fiery kisses before he was able to exit my office.

Since, he didn't disturbed me that hours left, I had time to spend the remaining hour to my family before the day end.

The next day, I didn't see him or heard from him. I was starting to think that he had a change of mind and decided to make a run to the hills. And damn, because there's this sharp pain in my chest the whole morning his presence was not in a way noticeable.

Ilang beses ko pa nga siyang tinangkang tawagan siya kasi may parte ng utak ko ang nagsasabi huwag na. At kung bigla niyang naisipang 'wag na magparamdam, bakit naman ako maghahabol ng paliwanag?

By two in the afternoon, I was nose deep into work, trying to not let my mind wander to those unanswered questions regarding his sudden retreat even though he was deadly determined yesterday.

But all my stupid and crazy notions were doused away when Roselyn knocked on my office and informed me that I have a flower delivery.

Nang una hindi ko pa na-gets. Akala ko sinasabihan niya ako na may delivery kami ng bulaklak sa shop, na pinagtatakahan ko sapagkat alam naman niya ang gagawin sa mga 'yon.

Hanggang sa tinulak niya para palawakain ang uwang ng pinto ko at pinapasok ang tatlong lalaking may bitbit ng malalaking bouquet ng Hyndrangeas. It took them five rounds of coming in and out of my office until my office was brimming with pale blue to deep royal blue flowers, their sweet, calming scents exploding to my senses. Hindi ko na kailangang manghula kung sino ang magbigay. Ganitong ganito ang klase ng bulaklak ang natatanggap ko noon sa 'anonymous suitor' ko. Blue Hyndrangeas.

"Ma'am Kat!" Impit na tili ni Roselyn sa may nangungusap na mga mata. I maintain a stoic face, but the truth is my heart is slamming hard and all I want to do is shriek because the feeling in my chest is too much to bear.

"Kay Sir Jonas galing ito, ano?" Hindi niya mapigilang magtanong.

Umiling lang ako. "Magtrabaho ka na, Roselyn." Saka ko pinirmahan ang papel na inabot sa'kin ng isa sa mga nag-deliver. May inabot din silang blue na envelop bago tuluyang umalis.

Once Roselyn gave up and granted me privacy, the tides of this foreign feeling all but smothered me all. I was beaming at nowhere. I took everything in. It felt dangerous yet so. . . right.

Binaliktad ko ang sobre at may isang salitang nakasulat doon.

BABY

I shook my head, the smile I have grew wider. I flip the triangular head and pried the lighter blue scented paper inside.

DAY ONE was written on top of it. I skimmed down and read the note in full.

ARE YOU ALREADY IN LOVE WITH ME? TICK ONE:

○ YES

○ NO

I threw my head back and laughed, totally forgetting why I felt like sh!t since yesterday. I grabbed my phone and without any reticence, I dialled his number.

"Baby." He breathed after the first ring.

God, I missed his voice.

I then heard rustling next was his swaddled voice. "Carry on without me. This is an important call."

Hinintay kong magsalita siya ulit bago ako nagtanong, "Sorry, did I catch you at a wrong time?"

He's answer was an instant. "No. No. It's good. If it's you any time is okay."

And damn me because I can stop myself grinning like crazy.

"I think a thank you is in order for the Hyndrangeas. Though, I wonder if you're forgetting that I own a flower shop?"

He chuckled. "No, I dindn't forget about it. In fact, I'm memorizing every damn thing about you." Then his voice went sober. "I'm glad you like them. Sorry, I wasn't able to be around much less contact you since yesterday afternoon. Work has been crazy, pero darating naman na ang mga ugok mamayang gabi at sigurado akong hindi na ganito sa susunod. May kaarelyebo na ako."

I melted at my seat. Gusto kong 'wag kiligin but he's making it freaking hard not to.

"O-okay lang. Hindi mo naman kailangan mag-sorry. Akala ko nga nagbago na isip mo, eh."

"Kung may magbabago man ng isip sa'ting dalawa, ikaw iyon baby at hindi ako." He said matter-o-factly with a twinge of sparkling mirth in his voice.

I'm afraid of going to choke with the domineering emotions spilling from my inside. Clearing my throat, I switched the topic.

"Hindi ko alam mahilig ka pala sa blue." I voice out the first thing that my mind can grasp. I lazily ran my finger on the note, reading it over and over again.

"Well, your a fan of Stich, blue notes and a Blue Hyndrangea's lover woman who's been constantly in my mind." He uttered, I can sense his signature grin in place.

"Paano mo nalaman lahat ng mga favorite ko na may kaugnayan sa blue?" I asked intrigued.

"You will not let slip this, are you?" He asked back. Ang boses niya nanunudyo.

"Just curious. I don't know that you're a stalker." I fired back that made him laughed on the other line.

"Okay, baby. Listen, I will not repeat myself again. First, the small stiches inside your car hanging. Second, blue notes, that's where you wrote your 'thank you' everytime I sent you flowers. Lastly, Blue Hyndrangeas, that's how you to me. You're my calmness, serenity and tranquility. And I'll learned that is your favorite flower to Kiara." He ended with a mocking laughed.

Pati mga maliliit na bagay napansin niya. Wala tuloy akong mahanap na tamang salita na maging sagot sa paliwanag niya. Kung may nakakakita lang sa akin ngayon, pagkamalian na akong baliw dahil ramdam ko ang lawak ng ngiti ko sa mga sandaling ito.

Pero siyempre hindi ko ipapahalata sa kanya.

So, I cleared my throat, my will power of holding my walls up slighy wavering. "I'll let you be, Jonas. Alam kong busy ka."

"Busy is not a word to be linked with you. Pero, sige. I'm sure you're swamped as well, nakita ko 'yong calendar of activites mo sa dingding nang nadiyan ako."

"Bye." I whispered about to end the call but he spoke again.

"Baby, what did you chose?"

My brows creased until I realized he's aking about the note. I grinned, tapping the paper on my lips before I answered. "It's a NO."

Natawa siya, "Ah, I need to do harder swooning then." His words were seeping with determination making me squirm with anticipation on my leather swivel chair. "Goodbye, baby. Be my ruin."

I tried to concentrate on my work after that call but it was utterly impossible. He's parting words had sealed the deal. Kung kilig ang nararamdaman ko sa pabulaklak at pa-cute na note niya, kakaibang kaba naman ang dinulot ng mga huli niyang salita.

And like him, it was danger to me too. The way his warm and as sweet as chocolate voice coated his words, as if he's willingly abandoning himself for me to destroy.

Pero malinaw naman sa akin na ako ang dehado kapag hindi ako nag-ingat.

I reminded myself why I'm still in touch with him and why I stopped pushing him away.

The baby.

I again reached for my phone and shot him a text.

Me: I forgot to tell you something. Are you free tomorrow?

His reply was immediate.

Jonas Angcaya: You forgot because I know you missed me but you're too stubborn to admit it.

I bit my lip, supressing my smile.

Me: Are you free tomorrow?

Jonas Angcaya: See? Dodging it again. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. Are you asking me on a date, baby?

My cheeks felt flushed and suddenly rushed of heat flooded my system. It did look like I'm asking him out.

Me: No. We're going to the hospital to see my doctor.

Then my phone rang. It caught me off-guard, it slipped of my hands making me catch it mid-air.

"Hello?" I wheezed out, recovering from the mini heart attack.

"Are you sick?"

"No. I mean, yes, kind of. But it isn't serious. I mean, it's serious but not that serious." Why the fück I'm blabbering like a kid? I let out a harsh breath. "It has something to do with why I want a kid so bad. Basta, sumama ka bukas para maintindihan mo."

"Ngayon na tayo pumunta." Then I hear him cutting off his meeting and I think he's walking in high speed basing from the way he breathed. "Susunduin na kita. I'll be there in thirty minutes."

"No!" Mabilis na pigil ko, kahit ako napatayo kahit wala naman siya sa harapan ko para personal na mapigilan. "No." I said more calmly. "By appointment si Doc Aquino at bukas pa 'yong akin."

"Baby." His voice resonated of pleading and distress. "How the fück am I supposed to calm down knowing you're sick? Bakit ngayon mo lang sinasabi sa akin 'to?"

I found myself guilty and apologizing. "I'm sorry. Wala namang rason para sabihin ko sa iyo noon. But I'm correcting that now. Sasama ka pa ba sa akin bukas?"

"Malapit ko na ngang talunin 'tong bintana ng conference room para mabilis akong makapunta sa parking lot at makapagmaneho para masundo ka tapos itatanong mo pa iyan?" Whew, does he sound pissed.

But somehow a giggle passed through my throat. "Nililinaw ko lang."

He again let out a staggering breath." Yeah, I'll be with you tomorrow. Anong oras appointment mo? It's a Saturday. Saan kita susunduin? Sa bahay niyo o sa shop?"

"Ten AM. Sa bahay na lang. Hindi ako papasok bukas."

"Okay, then. See you, baby. Miss me more while we're apart."

Saka niya ibinaba ang linya. Matagal akong nakatitig sa kawalan pagkatapos.

Everything sink in.

Holy Sh!t!

We are really doing this! Nakalimutan ko lahat ng proseso kung paano magkaanak dahil wala akong ibang pinagtuuunan ng pansin kundi 'yong batang ibubunga no'n.

Ngayon ko lang na-realize. I practically offered him to have consëxual sëx with me! Panic consumed me, making me go still. My mind was spiraling out of control until the chiming of my phone made it go into a halt.

Jonas Angcaya: I need to know your condition. Hindi ako mapakali. I think I'm dying.

This man is turning me into a crazy woman! One thing I'm panicking the next thing I'm again smiling like an i***t.

Me: Endometriosis. You can Google it. If you have questions, file them so we can ask Doc Aquino tomorrow.

There's no reply.I guess he's already surfing the Internet like a mad man. Ten minutes passed when my phone chimed again.

Jonas Angcaya: In case you don't know, I'm a Liscence Nurse also and I'm aware of that condition, but it's not broad my knowledge about it. And you said it wasn't serious? Are you fücking kidding me? It is SERIOUS! Are you feeling okay? I'm going to get you. Dapat ata nagpapahinga ka lang. Complete bed rest to be exact.

Me: Whoa, there cowboy! I'm fine.

Jonas Angcaya: Promise?

Me: Yes.

Jonas Angcaya: Okay. . . but you're going to tell me when you're not feeling well, alright, baby?

I hesitated to reply. Of course, I know he's a Nurse. Kaya nga Syringe Fanatics Pharmacy ang pangalan ng kompanya nila eh. I shook my head at the same time, I was turning into mush.

Me: Yes. I promise.

Jonas Angcaya: Good, that makes me happy. I don't want anything happening to the future mother of my kids.

I stopped breathing. Ilang beses kong pinaulit-ulit basahin 'yong message niya dahil namamalikmata lang ako. But it's clear as day. He's really in this with me. Hindi ko na alam kung alin ang mas mabilis, 'yong pulso ko ba o 'yong paghuhumerentado ng puso ko, pero isa lang ang alam ko, nabibingi ako sa lakas nito.

Buti na lang, wala na ring kasunod pa na text 'yon. Kasi kung mayroon man, hindi ko na ata mapapagkatiwalaan ang sarili ko sa mga susunod ko pang isasagot sa kanya.

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"Saan ang punta niyo?" Hindi mapigilang itanong ni Nanay nang maihatid niya ako sa pinto, sa nag-aabang na Jonas.

I leered at him for a moment, admiring how he presents himself today, not that ever did it bad from any other day. He's wearing a sky blue polo shirt with a little crocodile embroided on the left side. His dark jeans and black boots finished his looks.

God, he's so dreamy.

"Kitten?" Muling tanong ni Nanay saka humigop sa tasang hawak niya.

Napa-iling ako. "Sa doktor, Nay."

Her eyes gleamed with caution and dread, before she carefully masked it with a smile. Katulad ni Ate Keanna, tutol pa rin siya sa pagpili ko kay Jonas ngunit hindi naman niya ako pinipigilan. Nag-aalala lang siya at naiintindihan ko naman.

"Alam mong tutol ako sa mga desisyon mong ito. Pero wala ako sa lugar na pigilan ka sa mga gusto mo. You're old enough to decide for yourself. Dahil hindi naman porket ako ang nanay mo, ipagpipilitan ko ang gusto ko na dapat iyon ang gawin mo. But, if anything happen that will not go according to your plan, always remember, Nanay is here, okay?" Malambing na sabi niya saka niya ako hinalikan sa noo ko.

"Mentally noted, Nay. You're really the best." Sagot kong sinuklian ang ngiti niya saka ako umakap sa baywang niya.

"Sige na. Lumakad na kayo. Mag-ingat kayo." She gave me peck on my cheek this time. She turned to Jonas and gave him also.

"Salamat po, Doc Real. Mauna na po kami." Paalam ni Jonas sa kanya na may matamis na ngiti.

"Tita Keira na lang, Jonas. Masiyado kang formal sa Doc Real na tawag mo. Huwag rin Mrs. Real, tumatanda ako sa tawag na iyan." I can almost see her grimacing but she did great job keeping it in.

"Noted po, Tita." Walang anu-anong sagot niya.

"Drive safely."

Tuluyan na kaming lumabas at agad niyang pinagsiklop ang kamay namin. Napansin kong medyo namamawis ang mga palad niya at nakakunot ang noo niya.

"Are you okay?" I inquired as soon as we're inside his BMW. But instead of getting a worded answer, I got his mouth instead.

He kissed me so much need, my body ignited. His other hand grabbed me by the small of my back and the other fisted my hair, giving me a subtle pull backward he feasted on my lips harder.

I spread my fingers on his chest, roaming and gallivanting his toned muscles until I found his arms and that's where I found my strength not to faint under the intense pressure of his kiss.

I moaned, writhed and groaned. All I want is to ease the building pressure between my legs. He groaned against my mouth, his tongue delving in. He caged me in his solid form, taking and taking everything I can give until we're both panting and out of breath.

"I missed you so damn much." He whispered. His mouth hovering on mine. He let go of my hair and rubbed his thumb on my cheek. "Last na 'yon. I can't function well when I don't see you."

I was breathless, flushed and shocked stupid no words came out.

He grinned sweetly before kissing the tip of my nose. I lost his warmth after as he settles in his seat. I'm on autopilot while I mirror his movements. He gave me one lingering look before he purred the engine to life.

"Love the dress, by the way baby. Suits you mighty fine." He comments.

Napababa ako sa sundress na suot ko. I smiled to myself. I'm really into his compliments. Lagi kong gustong maayos akong tignan para sa kanya. But he doesn't need to know that.

So, I gave out a indifferent shrug. He saw through it because a deep, throaty laugh echoed inside his car.

As being Nurse he is, he interviewed me beforehand. He asked a lot of questions about my condition throughout the drive. Kung kailan ko raw ba nalaman? Bakit ako nagkaroon ng ganito? Kung may iniinom ba akong gamot? Gaano kalala at marami pang iba.

Lahat sinagot ko ng makatotohanan. By the time we reached Doc Aquino's room, I saw him paling. He gave me a smile but worried smile before he hugged me and gave me a long, sweet on the forehead.

"Walang mamamatay." I tried to make the atmosphere light, hoping I'll get a smart rebut from him but he just looked at me, his brows knit together and as if I'll disappear any moment.

The secretary called us in, breaking our moment. With his hands tightly secure in mine, we both ingressed and greeted by the doctor.

"Kaitie, hi. How's everything?" Tanong niya pero agad na lumapit ang mga mata niya sa lalaking katabi ko na nililinga-linga ang buong espasyo ng lugar. "Is this your boyfriend? Inigo, isn't it? Nag-decide na kayo na mag-anak?"

Jonas's neck whipped directly at Doctor Madelyn upon the mention of Inigo's name. Sumikip ang pagkakahawak niya sa kamay ko. "It's Jonas Angcaya, Doc. And yes, we're opening the baby factory business." Through his smiling, his voice is glooming.

Gusto kong sabihin na hindi ko siya boyfriend. More like a business partners but it sound so fücked up I didn't speak.

Hindi naman 'yon pinansin ni Doc. "Okay." Then she turned to me. "May sakit ka pa bang nararamdaman, Kaitie? Lalo na kapag may period ka?"

I gave Jonas a nervous side glance. Sanay kasi akong si Nanay ang palaging kasama ko tuwing check up ko. Kaya kung mga ganitong tanong walang pag-alinlangan akong sumasagot. Even before, not once did I bring Inigo with me though he insists on it before. Hindi ko lang kasi makita ang point na sasama siya gayong ayaw niya naman akong bigyan ng anak na hindi kami kinakasal.

"Baby?" Jonas's voice brought me back to the present.

I cleared my throat. "Since the surgery, minsan mayroon pa rin, Doc, pero madalas wala. Hindi ko lang din sure kung dahil ba 'yon sa pills ko."

"Surgery? You didn't tell me about this." Jonas's was the next thing I heard.

I looked at him placing my other hand on the top of the intertwined ones. "Last year, Doctor Madelyn carried out a procedure wherein she and her team removed tissue deposits on my endometrium wall."

He looked horrified. Hindi ko alam kung inaral ba niya talaga ang anatomy kagabi dahil mukhang naiintindihan niya ang mga binanggit ko. Nag-advance reading siguro siya dahil sabi niya alam niya ang klase ng sakit ko pero hindi ganoon kalawak ang alam niya. Napalunok at napatingin siya sa doctor.

"How frequent are these surgeries?"

"As little as possible. The surgeries helps with pain reduction, kaya ko tinanong kanina kay Kaitie. She's been in unendurable pain last year that's why I opted for it."

Jonas gave my hand a squeeze before he released his hold and swung his arm over my shoulder. He pulled me closer to his body, planting me a kiss on my temple.

I saw the fuzzy smile on my doctor's lips but I tend to ignore it. This is not the time to be distracted.

"Other than that, it can also improve her fertility rates since, her condition greatly affects it. But, like I said, it should be less in occurence. Repeated surgeries can reverse the advantages by causing scarring and extensive formation of adhesions."

Jonas is rubbing my arm all the time. 'Yong itsura niya seryoso at talagang nakikinig, na para bang hinihimay-himay lahat ng sinasabi ni Doc Madelyn bago niya nilulunok.

"With that said, kailangan nating itigil 'yong pills kung nagpa-plano na kayo mag-baby. We're going to have to run down some few tests, blood works, and I'll prescribe medicine to boost your fertility. Kay Jonas, I'm going to need you to abstain for 3-5 days for your semanalysis."

"Got it, Doc. I've been celibate since I met her anyway."

Napalingon ako sa kanya pero hindi nakapagsalita. Is he for real? How about that art girl and that damn new police officer he's flirting before?

Doc laughed, as she started to scribble on her pad. "That sounds endearing but I need you to start anew with the days. Kailangan within three to five days lang as abstinence per our laboratory protocol."

Nagsimula akong mamula sa tinutungo ng usapan. Napatingin ako sa hita ko, nag-iisip sa ibang bagay maliban sa. . . sandata ni Jonas. I felt it on me countless of times before and I know hard it gets and -

"Baby." He growled. I peered at him slowly and I saw his face crumpled into a frown. "I can hear your damn thoughts and if you don't stop that now, we'll be giving Doctor Madelyn here a demonstration of how I'm going to get you pregnant."

I bit my lip, trying so hard not to squirm. I can feel the growing dampness in between my legs, plus I have to live with the embarrasstment of knowing someone is with us when he reveals my x-rated thoughts.

"S-sorry. . ." But why am I apologizing? I tucked my hair behind my ear and looked away.

He again pulled me closer to his body, his lips on temple again.

"It's okay." Doctor Madelyn reassured. "Normal ang ganitong usapan sa akin." I can see her writing again before she spoke. "The abstinence m**********n, Jonas, ha."

"Oh. Okay, Doc." Jonas said with ease. "Then tomorrow would be my three-day mark."

He moved his mouth closer to my ear, out of the doctor's hearing. "I jerked-off hard in my bathroom, with you on my mind, last two days ago." He admitted.

I balled my fist, not knowing what to do with what he said. It's so lewd, so bulgar, yet it fücking turn me on even more.

He chuckle with my reaction before turning his attention back to my physician. "Is this for us to know the health and liability of my sperm?"

Doctor Madelyn smiled at the same time nodded her head. "You're right. We need to that. Dapat malaman natin kung healthy ba 'yong sperm mo para ma-eliminate natin 'yon kung sakali mang mahirapan magbuntis si Kaitie. The tests measures the factors: number of sperm, sperm motility or movement, then shape and morphology."

"Mukha bang hindi healthy 'yong kanya, Doc?" I snickered, annoyed.

Pero bago pa makasagot si Doc, naunahan na siya ni Jonas. "Pwede naman nating subukan na ngayon para magkaalaman na tayo at 'di na natin kailangan 'yong tests na sinasabi ni Doc."

The heat travelled back to my cheeks. I gave him a hard slap on his chest making me wince in pain. Sinabihan ko na kasi ang sarili kong 'wag siyang hinahampas kasi matigas ang katawan niya.

His smiling at me playfully but his chocolate eyes are slowly darkening into pitch black, as if it's filling in with desire and carnal impulse.

"May gusto ba kayong idagdag sa procedures niyo?" Doctor Madelyn laughed. I was able to let go of the breath I was holding. Buti na lang binago ni Doc ang usapan.

"Add STD screening tests for me, Doc." Jonas said after I felt the tension between us simmering down. Nilingon ko siya pero dati na siyang nakatingin sa'kin. He looks so sincere and earnest. "I'm coming in clean and admit that I've been with a few partners before her. I didn't contract anything becuase make sure that I got tested regularly and never did once do it without protection." Then he gave me a delicate squeeze. "But, this means a lot to my girl and I'm willing do anything to give her peace about my past."

My eyes started to well up and my vision is getting a hot hazy. He's really in all the way. My heart is washed with so much elation because of the importance he's been showing about this. Hindi ko kasi in-expect na mag-e-effort siya ng ganito. Though he didn't give me any reason to, it's just that I don't want to get my hopes up. Guarding myself, so to say.

"Okay, then. Sure. I'm glad you're also honest with that part, too."

He gave me a small smile. Doctor Madelyn finished off our requests and prescription before sending us out. Bago pa kami tuluyang makalayo sa room ni Doc, tumigil ako sa paglalakad.

With our joined hands, he too halted on his tracks. Worry was the first thing etched on his ridiculously handsome face so I burted out my words. "Thank you, Jonas. Alam kong simula pa lang ito, but I don't know how to repay you."

Hi grazed his knuckles on my cheek before he tucked my hair on my ear. "Just fall in love with me and we'll call it quits." He said, humour and hanker prancing in his caramel eyes.

I sink my teeth on my bottom lip, no words to reply. He wasn't disappointed with my lack of answer, but instead he looked at me like I'm all there is exist in his eyes. Then he reached for his back pocket. He opened my palm and place a little blue paper on it.

DAY TWO

ARE YOU ALREADY IN LOVE WITH ME? TICK ONE:

○ YES

○ NO

Napailing ako, may mumunting ngiti sa labi ko. Inabutan niya ako ng ballpen na mukhang galing din sa bulsa niya.

I peered at him before encircling the 'NO'. He gave me the cutest pout I've ever seen before snaking his arm on my waist, crashing my body to his.

This should be indecent considering we're in the hospital, but I couldn't care less. I love the balmy feeling I get when I'm against him.

He chuckled, shaking his head. I found myself melting into him, my head on his chest, listening to the slow and soothing beats of his heart.

"Be my ruin, baby."