Stay with me

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Carolines POV

Its been 3 and a half weeks since the attack and today is my first day back at school. Im dressed like a feel. Yoga pants, baggy sweatshirt. Blonde hair in a messy bun and no makeup. I was goinf to return the week after I got home from the hospital but I ended up having bad flash backs when I was originally supposed to go back to school so my mom kept me out one more week. I ended up going to see that counselor that the doctor had recommended to me. It started out as one on one sessions and they also added me into group sessions. Ryan and jessica came over every day after school to give me my school work and keep me company. After yesterdays session with the counselor I finally felt confident enough to go back to school. Especially having ryan and jessica with me. Ryan drove my car today while I rode passenger. Jessica had a doctor's appointment so she's meeting us there after first period. Ryan opens my door for me and I grip his hand for dear life. He has been a godsend and hasn't left me yet. I am so thankful for a guy like him. Thankful he hasn't pushed me further than what I was ready for. Weve kissed and cuddled and done a few other things and that is enough for me. I sure hope its enough for him right now. But being the awesome guy that he is he doesnt say anything or push me further. Back to reality and I dont miss the stares and whispers as we walk into the school. I do notice that the jock clique is nowhere to be found this morning. Odd. I dont dwell on it too long as we both make it to our first class. He kisses my forehead and tells me to text him and heads to his class. Go figure the day jake and his minions dont show up to school i have an uneventful day. Everything was bareable, not one panic attack, not one minute of torture. The teachers all looked at me in pity, my guess is from the bruises that are visible but the worst ones are the ones you cant see.. i walk to the nurses office for my mediations since i started feeling some pain and i meet up with ryan on the way out. He tells me "turns out they are all away for the allstar football tournament. They should be gone the whole week!" This makes me smile. A week with no one that can hurt me. By the time we go to lunch I'm mentally exhausted. Between all the people saying how the missed me, and the people just being flat out nosey I just can't take anymore. The 3 of us sit to eat and we talk about our plan to get jake to admit everything. We find out there is an after party the night they cone home from the Allstars game. Deciding that is the best place to execute our plan we move onto other things. Me and ryan have been dating for about a month now and we are quickly becoming inseparable. We have so much in common yet were so different. We balance each other out. It also helps that he has the most beautiful face ive seen on a guy and muscles for days. His personality is good too. His favorite color is yellow, and he likes all genres of music. He loves the outdoors all like me. But he is the hyperactive one and I'm the mellow marshmallow. See, balance. I lean onto his shoulders and try to force my eyes to stay open.. As were all sitting in the cafeteria I hear cell phone notifications, a lot of them. Even jessicas, ryans and my phone went off. It was a group chat from none other than madison. Why can't she just leave me alone. She's not even at school. I just don't get it.

Madison: yall, looks like miss perfect princess isn't as innocent as she seems. She came back today and it Looks like the little b***h likes the attention because look what we found. Miss perfect isn't so perfect anymore.

Attached is a video. I reluctantly click the video and you can see a poorly edited video of a porno with my face photoshopped onto the woman. I drop my phone and run out of the cafeteria crying. I hear laughter and people calling me a slut. I lock myself in the bathroom stall and hear the door open and shut. Jess calls out to me. I tell her to go away as loud as i can. I even scared myself with how much force I put behind it. But she knows I don't mean anything by it. She tells me she's not going anywhere and that ryan is waiting outside for me. I open the door and collapse into her arms. I dont understand what I did to cause them to hate me so much.

"Why? Why does this keep happening? What did i do that was so wrong? I dont understand why they all hate me" I sob onto her shoulder soaking her shirt with my tears. She picks my face up and wipss my tears and stares right into my blue eyes and says  "I dont know babe but I know your worth, ryan knows your worth, your family knows your worth. You are incredible. You are so strong,  I envy your strength. You are beautiful. They are just jealous and are taking their own issues out on you. It doesn't make it okay. They are bullies and narcissistic psychopaths. So here's what youre going to do. You're going to clean yourself up. Fix your makeup. And walk out there with your head held high. f**k everyone else. You know the truth and so do the people that matter. Besides anyone with half a brain can see that those videos are photoshopped." That made me chuckle. We got to fixing my makeup and finally walked out of the bathroom. So much for my unevertful day. The cafeteria was empty and ryan just held me.

"Do you want me to take you home baby?"ryan asks me. I shake my head "i want to see how the rest of the day goes" he nods and gives me a kiss. I wrap my arms around his neck needing more. He swipes his tongue across my lips asking for entrance and I gladly give it to him. I attempt to deepen the kiss until a throat clears and I remember jessica is still here. I giggle, she rolls her eyes but smiles and we all head to our last period of the day. He hugs me tight when we get to class and walk through the doors. The teacher asks for an explanation as to why were late. The class just laughs and one student said "she was too busy making some p**n" ryan got mad and started marching over to the poor guy who decided to open his mouth. "Mr Darcy, take a seat, dont make me give you detention" that was enough to get him to stop but I didn't miss the glare he sent to the class.

Halfway through class ryan texts me he is literally 3 rows away from me I roll my eyes and look at my phone.

Ryan: i miss you already

Me: its been 45 mins, down boy lol and I'm within 15 feet of you  

Ryan: i don't care your not right next to me. let me take you out tonight? Please princess

Me: I dunno, I have this super hot boyfriend I don't think he'd appreciate it too much

Ryan: I'm sure he'll manage. He's one lucky guy!

I chuckle and the teacher eyes me and I sink down into my seat. My phone vibrates again with another message.

Ryan: ill pick you up at 6 dress warm. ❤  don't even think about backing out love.