His runaway mate

Jackson

It has been a week that Katy has been missing. When I saw that she was awake, I thought I was dreaming. The way she was handling what she has become was just too good to be true and I should’ve expected her to try and run. When she allowed me to hold her in my arms, I felt like I had finally found the missing piece to true happiness. I don’t know how she knew to break the pack bond, but luckily she didn’t break the mate bond. The bond is incomplete but it is still there.

With every day that she is gone, the more pain the unfinished mate bond causes. I might have marked her, but to complete the mate bond, she has to mark me. My wolf is going crazy not knowing where she is. We couldn’t pick up her scent anywhere. If I had known she would completely disappear off the grid, I wouldn’t have stopped running after her. I was hoping she would go home and I would give her some time, but she didn’t show up for work the next day. I called one of my pack members, Craig that worked in the police department to find out where she lives. Leaving a female wolf with no protection was like putting a target on her back and with the increase in rogue attacks, she could be in a lot of danger.

 Katy has been living right under my nose for the past six months. If I just looked a bit further than the super market, I would’ve found her four months ago. I got her landlord to give me the keys for her apartment by paying him off. If it wasn’t for the fact that it was desperate to make sure she was safe, I would’ve lost my s**t knowing he would just give up the key to her apartment for a few hundred dollars.

Everything in her apartment was neat and clean. There was nothing personal in the place and I found it hard to believe this is a place she called home. If it wasn’t for her smell being in nearly every room in the apartment, I would’ve thought we had the wrong apartment. I went into the room that I assumed was hers as it was the room that smelled the most like her. The closet doors were open and emptied out. I took my time to look around in the room hoping there would be some clue as to where she would’ve gone.

I went to lie down on her bed and just get lost in the smell of her, somehow trying to comfort my wolf and myself. As I lay my head down on the pillow, I realized there was something hard under it. I lifted up the pillow to see a book, I opened the book and realized that this was her diary. I hesitated at first to open it but if it could help me find her, I would invade her privacy to get her back. I opened to read the first entry.

February 16th

I need to talk to someone that I don’t have to lie to. I know I have Cole that knows the truth about everything as he has gone through it with me, but I can’t tell him all my fears or needs. I want to give him a worry free life from now on and to do that, I can’t tell him everything going on in my mind. So now that you know why I bought you… here it goes.

“Who is Cole?” My wolf asks as if I have the answers to that.

“Shut up and we might find out.” I think to him. Honestly I would also like to find out who he is. I know her brother’s name is Drake so I know she isn’t writing about him. There are only two scents in the apartment and she did say she was living with her brother. I decide to just keep reading, all the answers are in there.

Today is day two in our new life. It wasn’t easy to leave everything behind. Not that there was much to leave behind, HE made sure of that. I fear that we weren’t careful enough, that we might have left some clue as to where we are now. The only person that knows what our new identities are is the one friend that I trust with my life. I know he would rather die than give up the information about where we are. I honestly hope it doesn’t come to that. HE doesn’t know about Jeremy, I have never told HIM about Jer. I only met Jer after I left HIM the first time. I lost contact with Jer years before HE came back into our life.

I bumped into Jer again after everything went to s**t. I found out that he became a cop in the time we lost contact. When he found out what HE has done to us, what he has taken from us, he helped us get out. At first he wanted to take the case to his department but I begged him not to. HE had people everywhere and the only way to get away from him once and for all was to fake our deaths. Jer and I became close in the small time we spent together, I wish he could’ve came with. I didn’t want to lose him but I knew him coming with us wasn’t an option.

I closed the book unable to keep my jealousy for this Jeremy under control. It is clear they were a bit more than friends. I know I will have to keep reading, she has been running from someone, which means this person is dangerous and she is obviously scared of him. She also said she had to change her identity, so who is Katy really? Is Katy even her real name?

I have read through half of her dairy but everything is about this guy whose name she refuses to write as if just writing his name can bring him to life. I know he murdered her parents and her younger sister. The amount of pain he has caused her, makes me want to hunt him down and kill him slowly, but I can’t find him without knowing who he is.

Apart from the first entry in her diary, she only wrote about Jeremy once more. She did mention Cole a lot, it is clear that she cares deeply for him but she cares more about protecting him from the man she fears. It doesn’t sound romantic all. She was writing in her dairy every day until the she started working at my company.

Between work and pack business, I have been spending every second I could trying to find her. I have asked Craig if there is a way to find out what her real name is and if he can try and find out whom this Jeremy is. I needed to know how she thinks and what her next move would’ve been if I was going to find her before the wrong people did.

Sitting in my office, I wait for Alpha Anderson to arrive. I needed to find out if he has seen her or if she has passed through his territory. We also had to discuss our actions against the rogues that have been attacking our territories. We need to work out a plan of action if we want it to stop. I decided to read Katy’s dairy again while I wait for him. With something so personal, there had to be something in there that would tell me where she went.

 June 3rd                                                                                            

I met my boss today. I really don’t even know where to start! I have never been so instantly attracted to a man. The moment I walked into his office, I was struck dumb. If the Greek gods where to walk the earth, he would be one of them. He is every woman’s walking wet dream. At first I couldn’t find my voice and was just taking him in. It took me a while to remember it is my boss that I was eye f*****g in his own office. When I spoke to him and he didn’t even seem to listen to me, I got pissed. Bridget told me he was this sweet kind hearted man, I thought she was talking about and old man. Jackson isn’t old and there is nothing sweet about him. Luckily she said he hardly ever comes in, so I won’t have to worry about making a fool out of myself every day or constantly running into him.

I am happy to know that she was just as taken by me as I was by her on the first day we met. I can’t wait to see that else she thought of me in the past three months.

Just as I am about to read her next entry, my phone begins to ring. I look to see it is Bridget’s line calling and I quickly pick up. “Jackson, I have Katy on the line for you.” My heart skips a beat and I quickly tell her to put her through.

“Jackson?” Just the sound of her voice already lessens the pain the mate bond has been causing. I take a deep breath and it feels like it has been weeks that I have been suffocating without her. “Are you there Jackson?” She asks and I can hear the pain in her voice.

“I’m here sweet heart. Please tell me where you are. I need you here, I need to know you are safe.” I need to keep her on the line and talking if I plan on ever finding her. I pick up my cellphone and send Craig a text to tell him that I am on the phone with Katy, if she doesn’t tell me where she is, Craig will be able to track where the call is coming from if I can keep her on the line long enough.

”I am safe. I just needed to hear your voice. The pain was getting overwhelming. I thought if I put enough space between us…” she didn’t have to finish for me to understand what she was trying to say. She was hoping that she could break the bond between us. I know I have no right to be angry with her, but I couldn’t stop the anger rising up in me knowing she was trying to break the bond. I understand she needed time to work this out, but she has been trying to break the bond completely.

“Why are you calling me then? If you are trying to get rid of me, why are you talking to me now?” I know she can hear the anger in my voice. Is it really so bad to be bonded to me? When I hear her crying, I immediately regret the way I was talking to her.

“I didn’t know it was going to be this hard. You don’t understand what I have been through! You have no idea how hard this is for me, what it will cost me to be with you.” She cries.

“I know you are running, I know you have been running. I know you have been through hell. I can help you! Let me help you!” She has to know I can protect her.

“H-how do you know what I have been through? You have no idea the things I have seen. You have no clue what hell is Jackson.” She says and I can hear she is getting angry.

“I know what hell is because I had so live through it. When I was changed, I had to leave my family behind to protect them. I had to see my wife grieve me and my son grow up without a father. I had to watch them get buried after they passed on. I lost the ones I loved the most. I know what hell is Katy.” It took me years to come to terms with the fact that I did make the right decision by letting them go. I couldn’t control my wolf in the beginning, being bitten by a rogue is very different than being bitten by an Alpha or your mate. A wolf isn’t meant to be on its own. If you aren’t strong enough, your wolf will take complete control and become feral. Your need your bonds to the pack to tame the beast within.

Katy still has her bond to me and that should help her keep more control over her wolf. She was also part of my pack when she was changed. Her wolf already knows where she belongs, she already knows she isn’t alone and Katy is also a very strong person mentally. The fact that she could so easily break the pack bond is proof of that.

“I’m sorry Jackson, but I can’t make the sacrifice that you made. I refuse to live without him.” Her words cut deeper than a knife ever could. Before I can say anything else, the line goes dead.

I throw the phone across the room before letting out a scream. I know half the building probably heard me, but I didn’t give a s**t. She is choosing another man over me? I know she is attracted to me, I know by the way she wrote about me in her diary that she wants me. Who could she possibly love enough to choose him instead of her destined mate? I know she hasn’t been a wolf long but her wolf knows who she belongs with. Her brother is the only person I can think that she is really close to aside from Cole. Who is Cole to her really?

My cellphone starts ringing and I answer hoping Craig can tell me where she is. “You’re not going to like this. The call came from Idaho, close to the Blood moon pack.”

“Get everyone ready, we need to get to her now! I will meet you there.” I say before disconnecting the call. From what I have heard, the Blood moon runs a dirty pack. They have no respect for women and abuse them and use them as slaves to do the men’s bidding. We have been trying to convince the werewolf council to terminate the Alpha but all we have heard is rumors about the abuse. We have no sold proof of what they are doing to the females, and the females are too scared to speak up.

On my way out of the office, I tell Bridget to cancel all my appointments for the rest of the week. It is time I bring my mate home and found a way to keep her there.