His runaway mate

Katy

Hearing Jackson’s voice, only made the longing and the pain worse. I knew I made a mistake by calling him, but a part of me is glad that I did. I called from a payphone in the small town Cole and I decided to settle down in for now. It is close to the forest and made it easy for me to change into my new wolf form. The first time I change, it was painful. I lost my breakfast right after the change was complete. Cole said my wolf had gold eyes that matched my gold blonde fur. I should’ve known my wolf would be the same color as my hair, seeing as Jackson’s wolf was the same color as his. My wolf was so excited to finally be free that I had to fight for control. Cole made sure to stand a few feet away so she wouldn’t feel threatened. I know she wouldn’t hurt him as she views Cole as her own pup, but one can never be too careful.

We ran in the woods for hours with Cole by our side. We rolled in the grass and chased rabbits. I felt like a child, running free in the woods and playing catch with animals. I wanted to feel that freedom every day, but it was a risk to be seen and I wasn’t sure if there would be other wolves in the area. We stayed close to the edge of the forest and have only changed twice since we got here.

By the time I broke down and phoned Jackson, I couldn’t take the pain anymore. My wolf felt depressed and kept telling me we needed him. The human side of me missed him as well. I knew I was risking everything by calling him, I knew it might lead him to where we are, I just couldn’t take it anymore. When he told me about his wife and his son, I was heartbroken for him. The fact that his mate left him is probably cutting those wound wide open again. I have spent hours thinking about what he said, seeing your child grow up without you, that must have been the hardest thing to do. I am not sure why he made the choice to walk away, but I trust he had his reasons.

Knowing that he at least knows some of the pain I have lived through doesn’t change the fact that I won’t be able to just go on with life after my son passes. I want to believe that I will be happy with Jackson by my side and that he will someday be able to get me out of the dark hole I know I will be stuck in if I have the day my son leaves this world behind, but I can’t see how that will ever be possible. How can I go on living this life without him? I would love to believe in reincarnation and that I will be blessed with my son again in the future, but that is only wishful thinking. Just because werewolves exist, doesn’t mean every other fairy tales are true.

I know my wolf might start losing her sanity staying away from her mate. I really didn’t think this through. We are both depressed and in pain, we are getting weak, we won’t be much use to Cole in this state if he is in danger. I sit awake all night thinking of what is best for me and my son. I need to protect him even if it is from myself. Wolves are pack animals and only the strong survive without a pack. If werewolves are anything like real wolves, I will need to be a part of a pack if I want to be strong enough to protect Cole. I am just making more enemies as I go along. I am a lone rogue wolf in a world that I don’t know much of. For all I know, there might be other wolves in these woods, that aren’t as kind as Jackson. I am lucky so far that I haven’t run into any other packs.

By morning I have made my choice and begin to back my bags. I will need to tell Cole about my decision and take my wolf for one last run in the woods before we get on the road. She hasn’t been out in more than a day and I can feel that she needs it. She already feels stronger knowing that my mind is made up and she will be seeing her mate soon.

I wake Cole up at five am and tell him we needed to go for a walk. By six am we have eaten and we are out of the room we have been sleeping in for the past few days. The motel is a five minute drive from the nearest trail into the woods. Not many people seem to like hiking here and we have been the only ones using this trail by the looks of it.

“I phoned Jackson yesterday. My wolf has been driving me crazy with her need to get back to him and honestly, I miss him as well.” I say as we start walking up the trail. Cole nods his head in understanding as if he has been expecting this. “I am taking it you have been expecting this. I haven’t really been myself lately and I did tell you I would make a choice after some time of thinking.” I continue, I need to get this out and over with.

“You want to go back to him.” He says before I can get another word out. I nod my head in agreement. He needs to know that I still plan on keeping him save. That I need us to go back for his sake as well as mine. “You have been getting weaker without him, I have never seen you this tired. You are hardly eating and I was going to drag you back there if you didn’t make the right choice by the end of the day.” I give him a surprised look. I thought I was doing a good job at hiding how weak I have gotten, but clearly I haven’t. “Don’t look at me like that. You have been screaming out his name in your sleep, I hear you crying out in pain and it is killing me knowing you are in pain and I can’t do anything about it. You might be putting on a good act when you’re awake, but you can’t hide your screams at night. I love you mom and I know you want to protect me, but I also know the best way for both of us to be protected is with you at your strongest and you will only be at your strongest at his side.” Cole says and I realize I should really give him more credit, he has been the strong one between us for the past week.

“I want to go for one last run before we get in our cars and make the drive back to Oregon. I need us to get back to him soon, so we won’t be stopping for rest along the way. Are you up for that?” I ask him already knowing his answer. We have gone days driving without much rest, this will be nothing against what we have done in the past.

“You will have to come clean to him mother, he will have to know and understand everything if he is going to be a part of our lives.” He has a point and I know I will have to tell him about our past. He has to know what he is getting himself into.

I step behind a tree while Cole walks away with his back turned to me. I don’t have money to replace torn clothes and I will need my clothes if I plan on driving back to the motel to get our bags and Cole’s car before we head back. I turn into my wolf form with my clothes in my mouth and Cole takes it to place it in the backpack he is carrying. I run alongside him for an hour, not really paying attention to our surroundings. By the time I realized we have gone too far into the woods, it is already too late.

The smell of smoke and something rotten assaults my nose and I know it is wolves. I know there will be no time to get away and that they have probably already smelled us. I look around me for a place to hide Cole but there are just trees. I start to panic when I hear them coming closer, I know there is more than one because I can hear more than one wolf howl as they come closer. When I see the first one step out from behind the trees, I shift back to my human form. Cole’s eyes widen in fear when he sees the first wolf, he tries to push me behind him when he sees the second wolf. “Cole, I need you to climb the tree.” I tell him softly.

He looks back at me as if I have grown two heads. “What? No, we can take them together.” He says stubbornly.

“Cole, you will get in that tree now!” I growl at him. I know he is capable of protecting himself against a human, I made sure we were trained for the day we would have to, but these aren’t humans and he doesn’t have the extra strength that I have. I might have gotten weaker, but I am still far more capable of protecting myself then he is. Cole sees the determination in my eyes and gives a sigh of defeat before starting to climb.

Two more wolves step out from behind the trees and they all start to shift. I don’t even care about the fact that I am standing naked in front of them, but I am disgusted by the lust I see in their eyes.

“Well look at what we have here, a female rogue with her human pet. We will be enjoying this.” He says with a smile that I can only describe as hunger.

“Do you think we should wait for Alpha to show up or should we have our fun with her first?” The second one says looking at the others.

They have surrounded me and I feel sick when I see them touching themselves. I know what they intend to do and I will die before I allow them to place their disgusting junk anywhere near me. They keep discussing whether or not to have their share of me before their Alpha arrives or to wait. The one on my right side isn’t touching himself but is still aroused, he is looking me up and down as if considering whether I am worth upsetting their Alpha or not. I know I need to move fast if I plan on getting Cole out of this mess. I shouldn’t have wasted time going for a run. We should’ve just packed up and left, but there is no time to think about what I should’ve done, I need to figure out what I am going to do.  I think about the training Cole and I got after we lost my parents and my little sister. I promised myself we would never be that helpless again. We signed up for kick boxing classes at the first place we stopped when we started running. By the second place, we learned martial arts. We have had various forms of training throughout the years, we have trained in hand to hand combat, weapons training and how to look for weaknesses. To anticipate your attackers next moves before they do it. We were taught to always make the first move, don’t wait for them to attack first, no man will expect a woman to make the first move. Never show any weakness and protect your throat, stomach and head. Never turn your back on your attacker, but that will be impossible today as they will be coming from all sides. I will always have surprise on my side and I know if I move fast I can take at least one of these assholes down before they can even lay a hand on me.

I run full speed to the nearest man and jump on him, wrapping my legs around his waist and twisting his neck with a strength that I didn’t know I possess. He falls to the ground and I let my fingers form into claws before ripping out his throat to make sure he is dead. I turn around and see that the other three is frozen in shock. It only takes them a second to recover before they jump into action. I get into a fighting stance and brace myself for the first one to reach me.

Just as he jumps into the air with his arms outstretched, I step to the side and he falls to the ground. I quickly get on his back and grab his head, twisting it hard and breaking his neck. Before I can try and rip it off, one of the wolves comes up behind me and sinks his teeth into my shoulder before throwing me to the side. My head knocks against the tree and I fight through the dizziness. I hear Cole scream in warning and I jump to the side just as the wolf is about to jump on me with his jaw wide open, ready to snap it around my throat. I moved out of the way just in time and instead if my throat, his teeth bite into the tree.

I allow my wolf to take over and this time I hardly feel the pain of the shift with the amount of adrenaline pumping through my veins. By the time the wolf is able to unlatch his teeth from the tree, I am fully shifted. These wolfs doesn’t seem to be trained in combat or they are very arrogant because he isn’t even trying to protect his weak spots. His throat is left wide open and it looks like he is trying to intimidate me by standing tall and trying to make himself look big and as terrifying as possible. Does he really think he can scare me by showing me his vulnerable throat and stomach? Is he really that confident after I just killed two of his men or is he just stupid? His other pack member comes to stand next to him and they seem to be communicating without talking. The one that bit into my shoulder gives a nod and the other one turns and walks to the tree where Cole is. I know what he is going to do and fear and anger starts taking over. I start to run after him but the other wolf bites onto my leg, breaking it and digging his claws into my sides. I ignore the pain and turn to snap at him. I turn on my side and throw him off me before turning on him and biting into his throat. I bite down as hard as I can and try to ignore his claws digging into my stomach. It takes a few seconds for him to stop struggling and I want to rip him to piece to make sure he is dead and will never move a single muscle again but I don’t have time.

The other wolf has already shifted and is making his way up the tree to Cole. I run as fast as my broke leg would allow me and jump as high as I can pushing myself up the tree with my front paws and grab onto his foot before pulling him down. We hit the ground hard and for a moment everything goes black.

“Mom!!” The sound of Cole’s panicked scream makes me shake my head and fight for consciousness. I know I have lost too much blood and my wounds aren’t healing. I won’t survive this but I will make sure Cole is safe before I let death take me. When I open my eyes, I see that the other wolf is already standing and the look in his eyes makes it clear that he is going to enjoy killing me.

I changed into my human form when I lost consciousness and I know I don’t have enough energy felt to change again. I get up on my knees and get ready to play dirty. I might be dying today, but so will he. I make myself look weaker than I am, making it seem like I have given up by bowing my neck in submission. He won’t be attacking with force if he thinks I have given up, he came here with the intent on raping me and I know he will try and do just that now that he thinks I have given up.

As soon as I see his feet stop in front of me I look up and see him looking down at me. He lifts his hand to my cheek and rubs his thumbs over my lips. “I’m glad to see you have realized you can’t win this fight. It is a good thing the others didn’t get a scratch on this pretty face of yours. It would’ve been a shame if I couldn’t put this mouth of yours to good use.” He takes his d**k in his hand before touching it to my lips. I gag at the idea if him putting his filthy junk in my mouth. It is sick that this fucker would do this to a wounded woman. He will never get his hands on another woman, I will make sure of that. I turn my hands into claws and give him a look of defiance. “Open up b***h and take what I give you.” He tells me.

“Never.” I growl at him before grabbing his junk and digging claws into it before ripping it off. He howls in pain and falls to his knees before me. I grab his throat and rip it out cutting of the sound of his howls. I hear someone approach us and look up the tree to see Cole climbing down from the tree. I growl at him to stop and look to the side of the approaching steps. I try to get up on my feet but the adrenaline is gone and the pain takes over. I fall back on my knees and feel the darkness creeping in. Jackson steps into my line of sight and my body gives in, I know Cole will be safe with Jackson. He might not know what Cole is to me, but he will soon find out.

With Cole being safe and Jackson being here, I allow the darkness to consume me. I am finally ready to let go.