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I knocked on the door and was told to enter.
"Lisa, it's nice to see you. Please, have a sit."
I sat down across my therapist Jean.
"I'm glad you made it. So how have you been?"
" I'm okay I guess."
"Mmmmm.....sounds like you have some things on your mind."
I took a deep breath and looked up at her.
"Well, I'm confused."
"Can only help you if I understand what is bothering you."
" Dante wants me to give us a try but, what will everyone say? Kate thinks I should and Hayden wants me to as well though he doesn't seem thrilled. Kate thinks it will be good for me. She says he seems to really like me."
I went on to talk about how she reacted when I arrived home. She was mad then super excited about the whole thing.
" In the entire explanation, I can hear everyone's opinions but yours. What do you think?"
I kept quite to process my thoughts.
" Okay, let me put it this way. When you think about Dante, what comes to your mind and how does that make you feel?"
" I don't know really. It's like I feel safe but scared."
" Why are you scared?"
"My mother says I bring nothing but bad luck. So I'm scared that I will ruin his life."
"How will you ruin his life? And what does your mother mean?"
" She always says bad things happen when I get close to people. I don't want to cause that for Dante. I know he can get better than me."
"Do you believe that? If you do, I would like you to list all the bad things you have caused to Kate and Hayden. For all I know, those are the closest people in your life."
I thought about it but I couldn't really point at one thing.
"Lisa, what happened to you as a child is sad. Your mother managed to get into your head because she is a figure you looked up to. Instead of naturing you positively,she used her issues on you. I can't speak for her but, I would like you to try and see good in yourself."
"But I'm a monster."
"Lisa, I want you to think about something positive about yourself and try to project that on the outside. We all have insecurities but sometimes those are our strong points. Love can be a beautiful thing that is very rewarding. If you have feeling for Dante, try and see the good in it."
I looked at the time and realized it was time up. She followed my path of sight.
"Time is almost up. I want you to buy a note book. In that note book, write anything that comes to mind , positive or negative. Get a page from there and write what you think are good qualities and bad qualities about yourself. We can continue from there."
We said our byes and I went about my day.
Dante called that he wanted to meet for lunch. I walked into the restaurant, the moment he spotted me he stood and smiled.
"Hey baby"
"Hey " I responded shyly with my cheeks as red as they could be.
He kissed my lips lightly and I gently pushed him away. He looked hurt but quickly hid it.
"Are you uncomfortable with me showing affection?"
"We are in public."
"I know but, sometimes I will kiss you in front of people. It's nothing to be shy about. I will hold your hand and all."
"What will people say?"
"Honestly, I don't care about people. One day, I want to show you off to people. Let them know you are my girl."
His girl.
I liked the sound of that.
" So how's the weekend going?"
"It's okay. "
"I wanted to get to know you abit more."
We were interapted by the waiter. Once our orders were taken, we continued our conversation.
"So did you think about what we talked about?"
"Yes."
He looked anxious and scared. He moved closer to the table looking at me.
" And?....Girl,you are killing me here?"
"Dante, why me? You can have any girl you want."
"I want you. You are beautiful, smart, fun to be around and I would like to have a chance to prove we are good together."
"You don't know that."
"I do know that I have feelings for you."
"I've only been in one relationship and it didn't end well. I don't know how to act cause you are my boss."
"I don't care. I want to show you that you are worth everything. Before you say anything about people, it's about what we want. Please give us a chance."
I took a deep breath.
"Okay."
He smiled widely. "Seriously?"
I nodded. He stood up and gave me a big kiss. He pulled back.
"Thank you and I will do everything to make you happy. Don't worry you will get used to the kisses."
We continued our lunch and once done, we left with him holding my hand.
The following day, we went for a drive. He was so carefree and constantly smiling.
He talked about his childhood and his family. I envied the beautiful childhood he had.
He told me about the places he had been to and how he wanted to take me to some at some point.
We arrived at an open field, he took out a basket and a blanket. He held onto my hand again.
He laid out the blanket, and took out bowls of fruit and wine. He kept on feeding me.
I laid down and was admiring the sky, something blocked my light.
Dante was looking down at me.
" You are beautiful" he leaned down and kissed me.
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