IMPERFECTLY ENOUGH

I'm Lisa Brown, a 26 year old lady just trying to figure her life out. I'm 5'5, I have big hazel eyes(some say I have eyes you can get lost in but I don't see that), brown- caramel type of skin, some may say I'm big but I could say I'm on the medium side. I'm curvy with black curly hair. I just don't see what the fuss is on describing yourself but I guess I have to give you something. And I think the best description is what people see right? When I was growing up,I had a dream. A dream that I would be a powerful engineer by the time I was 23, and like Rihanna said in one of her interviews 'God sat back and laughed'. He did laugh for sure from the time my mind could process anything. A bowl of rubbish. I think I was made from the cast aside pile. Then I had another dream that like a fairy tale, I would have very few trials in life or once certain trials were done and that would be it. God tipped over his throne and thought he created a clown. I guess that's the only thing he did right. I make so many people laugh. Clown! See I just need red hair, red button nose, huge shoes and live life.....that's the joke. I had yet another dream, I would fall in love with my prince charming and marry him then live happily ever after. I think at this point God choked on his own laughter about how he created the biggest clown ever. ? Why am I saying this, you may ask? Well, my life was somewhat perfect growing up until certain situations changed my whole life. Now, I discribe myself as someone clumsy, the definition of bad luck, easy target, worthless and a nothing. And guess what! I lost another job! Just great. I walk out of my boss's office, trying to hold back my tears because I just got fired. This it the fifth job in three months that I am losing and heaven knows, I need the money. I felt like maybe karma was playing a sick joke on me and I wasn't finding it funny. As I walked out of the restaurant,I saw people fussing over the toned, handsome and tall vanilla milkshake. He raised his head and had a look of irritation on his face. The look on his face made me feel so small. I tried to give an apologetic look but, his expression never changed. It was as though he could see into my soul. I was so uncomfortable,I quickly looked down and ran out of there. You see, I graduated with a degree in business management, top in my class. In my mind with my amazing grades, a job wouldn't be hard to find. Man, was I wrong. It's been three years and I've been getting small jobs. At most, I've taken up waitressing jobs. Which is a good thing, not in my case though. I have butter fingers and also have bad luck. In these past three months, I've been let go for so many petty reasons. I lost the first job cause I spilt hot coffee on my boss's crotch,well let's just say he touched my behind as I was setting the coffee down and it went down a certain path. I feel bad, but he kinda deserves it. The man kept making s****l advances towards me from the get go. I lost the second job because one of the girls didn't like me and she was sleeping with the boss. Typical! Ikr. The third one, I gave someone the wrong order and they happened to be allergic to nuts. Let me explain before I'm hated. It was an extremely busy day and was also peak hour. People from the offices flooded the small café that day and I was so overwhelmed with orders. On top of that my boss expected me to fill in for someone who didn't show up in the kitchen. Let's be realistic, how can I manage front of the house and kitchen at the same time and in one shift. Anyway one lady ordered a chocolate milkshake and the other chocolate and nuts milkshake. As you can imagine, I swapped the orders and it so happened that the one I gave the one with nuts was allergic. My boss told me I was careless and fired me on the spot. I did follow this lady to the hospital and made sure she was okay before I went home. She understood my mistake and allowed me to go home. Some good that was for a change. The fourth one, oh my! My boss was one nasty old man. Everytime any of the female waitresses would pass by him, he would lick his lips and touch his crotch. We would all try to ignore it until he tried to force himself on me. When I tried to report it, I was told there was no proof and I just never went back. And now, my fifth job. We had some VIP clients today,who I was assigned to serve. Well, you guessed right, miss clumsy decided to show herself. First, I tripped on air and spilt some water on one of them,they let it go. Then as I was bringing the appetizers, I fell and broke the plates I carried. The last straw was as I tried to balance, I pulled the table cloth and everything was ruined. My boss didn't even give me a chance to explain. He said those were very important people and I embarrassed not only the restaurant but him as well. He wouldn't want me to represent him. That is how I walked out of the restaurant without a job. Feeling humiliated and defeated because I don't think all this is normal. As I walked home, all I wanted to do was go to sleep and wake up with everything been just a dream. My body was letting me know that I needed to slow down but I knew what would happen if I did. I had to start looking for a job by tomorrow. I was so tired, I just opened the door and all I could think of was my bed. I looked up and my world fell apart at what I saw. F**k my life! ?????????????? So as a birthday present to myself and my loyal readers...I launch it on my birthday ???