How I Wish

Chapter Seven

I was happy Ashlee was here. My mom never talked about anything personal around company. When we got back we entered into my room with Nate. Nate had a crush on Ashlee, it was adorable.

"So what happened?" I asked as I sat on my bed with my legs crossed.

Ashlee sat on the floor leaning against the wall with Nate in her lap.

"The usual. He came home drunk out of his mind... started hitting everything and everyone in sight..."

"Where's your mom?"

"With my aunt... I just want to be with you guys right now..." She said hugging Nate tighter.

Ashlee's dad is an alcoholic, and an abusive one. He's a nice man but when he drinks, he loses all sense of himself. Ashlee and her mom usual leaves the house and return after a few days until he sobers up. Those days were the ones where she would come over and stay until she felt save enough to go home. She's said he's never hit her before... but I had my doubts.

Even though her parents were Cuban and Afro-American, she didn't know how to speak spanish.

"Enough about me... what about you?"

"He came here yesterday..."

"It's not that bad, Leigh. At least he cares for your family"

"That's not fair Ash. You can't compare our situation"

"You're right. It's because mine is much more f****d up"

I keep quiet and laid back on my bed.

"So you going to tell me about this guy? Did I meet him?" she changed the subject.

"No... I really messed up..." I looked down at her "I kind of implied he was racist or at least prejudice because he wasn't into me."

"You think you're all that for everyone to be into you?" she laughed. I took my pillow and threw it at her, not remembering she had Nate in her lap.

"NO!" He pointed his finger at me and gave me a stern look. We broke out in laughter.

"Sometimes it feels like he cares but then he gets cold and distant"

"Don't tell me you're falling for him"

"I still haven't hit rock bottom" I sighed admitting the truth. I was falling deep. I was pissed at him for talking to a girl when it was none of my business.

"If it's that bad then you need to try and fix it. If that doesn't work, strip naked and stand in front of him, he won't be able to resist" She said cover Nate's ears.

"You would know" I laughed and she gave me the middle finger, making sure Nate didn't see.

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"Maybe next time I should say 7:30" Xavier was leaning against his car when we came out the door. It took a while to decide what we were going to wear and what we wanted to sleep in. We didn't even know what kind of party this was and where we would be spending the night. I just hope we didn't get raped.

"Maybe next time you should ask whether I wanted to go to a party or not" Ashlee retorted as we approached him.

"Next time" he murmured with a smirk on his face, taking her face into his fingers and kissing her cheek. She was blushing terribly.

I hurried into the car and sat in the back. When she saw me, she glared at me as she sat in the passenger seat. She could use a guy like Xavier rather than the pathetic ones she usually go for.

"Where are we going?" She asked him after he placed out bags in the back and started the car.

He smiled over at her but said nothing. When he pulled up at a familiar looking building, I wondered when I've been here before.

Then it hit me. We were at Trent's house. He was having a party? I don't even know if he wants me here.

When Xavier pulled out a key and open the apartment door, I held my breathe as we walked in. It was exactly how I remember it. Everything in place. A delicious smell was coming from the kitchen.

Wait... wasn't this suppose to be a party? where is everyone? The place was empty.

We took our shoes off and entered into the living room. "You guys really know how to throw a party..." Ashlee said her voice dripping with sarcasm.

"What party?"

I turned my head and saw Trent walking from the kitchen with a dish towel in hand. His long sleeve black shirt was rolled up over his elbows and he was wearing a pair of basketball shorts. I bit my lip at the sight of him. His eyes met mine and I melted. I looked down at the floor examining the carpet.

"Leigh"

I looked over at Ashlee as she mouths 'OMG' and I mouth back 'I know'. She looked at me intensely and nodded her head towards him questioningly and I nodded back. She could tell he was the one I was talking about. She smiled and winked in approval and I blushed.

"When you invited yourself over for dinner, I thought you were coming alone" I heard Trent's voice murmured to Xavier. "Hi" he said to Ashlee shaking her hand

"Ashlee" she smiled

"Trent" he smiled back. "Xavier, kitchen. Now"

Xavier smiled at us and followed Trent into the kitchen. I let out the breath I was holding in. I took a seat in the chair I sat in a few days ago. Ashlee joined me, sitting on the arm rest.

"You fall for him? Aren't you stretching a bit too far?"

"Shut up!" I scowled and she laughed pulling me into a hug.

"What are we going to do here?" Ashlee asked looking around the room

"Well, you are going to change into something more comfortable and we are going to watch a movie and have dinner" Xavier said coming from the kitchen.

"Seriously? You promised me a party and that's what I'm in the mood for" she stood to her feet and placed her arms on her hips.

Xavier's eyes suddenly became darker as he approached her slowly. They stared at each other intensely not saying anything for what seemed like eternity before he spoke again "As you wish"

She smiled shyly and then pulled him into a hug. When they embraced, Xavier winked at me and I rolled my eyes. They really are getting along, I smiled to myself. I stood to my feet awkwardly in my tight dress and entered into the kitchen.

Taking a deep breath, I walked up to Trent. Before I could start with what I wanted to say he held up his hand. "Save it"

Feeling frustrated, I took the finger between his thumb and middle finger into my mouth. His eyes went wide with surprise as I began to suckle on it slowly never breaking eye contact. As he removed it, he rubbed it against my bottom lips before his arms wrapped around my waist and he pulled me into his hard chest.

His eyes were bright with excitement and his lips were slightly parted. My heart began to pound at our proximity. I looked down into his chest, hiding my face from what I had just done. I've never been so brave or assertive before. I didn't know what to do... I needed his attention...

"Yes Leigh?" his voice was husky and low. His fingers tilt my head back, forcing me to look into those mesmerizing and demanding eyes. I swallowed the lump in my throat.

I cleared my throat "I just wanted to apologize for that I said to you" I whispered, unable to keep my voice strong.

"Was that all?" he asked his voice still low

"What else do you want me to say?" I couldn't help but notice how desperate I sounded.

He stared down at me in his arms for awhile. He sighed heavily and then removed his arm from around my waist. He was leaning against the counter so he couldn't move away. I wasn't about to let him pass.

I wanted him to touch me again. Ever since he took care of me, I felt like I need someone for the first time. It only made the need stronger when he began to ignore me after. It pissed me off... it made me want more... made me want him.

"You look nice" he said, drinking me in.

"Is that all, just nice?"

He sighed and pushed his hand through his hair. He looked so damn sexy.

"This is why I can't see eye to eye with you. I give you a compliment, you should just say thank you."

I narrowed my eyes at him "Do you tell every girl that they just look nice?"

"If they do, yeah. Leigh, please not now."

I was hurt. I wanted more affection from him. I didn't want to be complimented the same way he complimented everyone else... I bet he told that blond the same... or the brunette... or the dark haired girl.

I looked back down at my fingers and decided that I was probably annoying him immensely. I pouted and nodded without looking up into his eyes.

I saw his hand take mine in his and pulled me into his firm chest again. When his cool breathe touched my ear, my body got weak. Chills ran through my body down to my toes. I inhaled his perfume and suddenly felt dizzy.

"You look lovely" he whispered in my ear. I smiled at his words. I knew he just used another word for 'nice' but at least he tried.

I turned my head and gave him a kiss on the cheek, wishing it could've been somewhere else.

"You're a very frustrating girl, Leigh" he laughed smiling down at me.

I rubbed my nose against his. I want his lips so badly. There was just something about him that made me lose all sense of myself. I paused a few inches away from his lips...

He sighed and then pulled away, sliding away from me. I frown in rejection... again. Leaving him in the kitchen I went back to the living room and sat down. Ashlee was on Xavier's lap when I returned. They seemed to be hitting it off. I felt a bit of jealously at their relationship. They met each other a few hours ago... and here I was, constantly getting rejected.

"What's wrong?" Ashlee asked when I sat down

"Nothing" I smiled turning my head to the television. She knew I was lying and that my smile wasn't genuine but she let it go.

"When are we leaving?" Ashlee asked Xavier

"When Trent is dress" he told her looking up at her in his lap. "I'll go hurry him along"

He left us in the living room and entered into the kitchen. After about five minutes, they both went down the hallway.

"What were you doing in the kitchen?" Ashlee asked me

"Getting rejected" I told her "I see you and X and hitting it off."

"Don't get too excited. We're just hanging out, I don't need anything serious with how messed up my life is right now. I just want to enjoy myself and pretend everything is perfect" she smiled and I didn't blame her.

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When we arrive at the club downtown, it was almost midnight. Trent didn't want to waste the food he made so we had to sit and eat before we went anywhere. He was surprisingly a pretty good cook. Trent volunteered to be the designated driver so we could all get wasted. I didn't know how we were going to get alcohol anyways.

When we entered into the club we found a booth and sat down.

"Be right back" Xavier excused himself and then returned with a bottle of Tequila.

"How'd you get that?" Ashlee asked, grabbing the bottle from his hands.

"My sister owns the club" he sat down beside Ashlee again. He watched as she fought to open it before taking it out of her hands.

After we took a few shots, I felt as light as a feather. My mind was free of worries and my body moved freely.

Ashlee and Xavier were already on the dance floor but I didn't want to go by myself.

I looked over at Trent and bit my lip nervously. The light in the club was low but I could still see his eyes beside me.

"Dance with me" he asked as if he could read my mind. I was only too willing to comply. I didn't know the song that was playing but I didn't care. I round my hips slowly as I wrapped my arms around his neck. As I turn my ass to him, he gripped my waist pulling me closer.

This was so sensual it was mind blowing. I rest my back into his chest, still rotating my hips. His lips kissed my neck softly, sending sparks through my body. I rest my head on his shoulder, allowing him more access.

When his lips brushed against my neck and slowly rose north up to my ear, a small moan escaped my lips. my breathing was rough and shallow and so was his. His hands explored my body slowly, caressing me.

"Break it up" Xavier's voice shouted over the music. My eyes shot open and I realized what was happening. Ashlee slapped him on his arm playfully . "We're leaving"

Ashlee rose her feet to show me her shoe. One of her heel was gone. She smiled at me apologetically and I shrugged.

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When we got back to Trent's apartment we all changed into night wear and sat down in the living room. Xavier had to carry Ashlee to the car from the club and then from the car into the apartment because she refused to take her shoe off.

They say down on the couch and I sat on the floor. Trent was M.I.A (missing in action) as always. When he returned, he took the couch beside Ashlee. He was wearing a white beater and boxers. Seeing him that naked really turned me on. His muscles were deliciously defined. They rippled as he stretched for the remote. My breathe got caught in my throat as always.

"Okay, let's have a vote" Xavier began "... alright, alright. Saw it is"

We all looked at him as he said that. No one even said anything. I rolled my eyes and laughed to myself. When he started the movie, Ashlee looked at him.

"This is Saw 5. I haven't watched 3 or 4 yet"

"We'll watch them another time, I promise. This is the only one I brought"

She smiled at him and they started to cuddle. Honestly, I didn't care which one it was. All I wanted to do was stare at Trent until I feel asleep. Yes, creepy, I know! but I've got it bad!

When the movie began and the lights were off, I relaxed against the couch and watched the screen mindlessly. My mind ran back to a few hours ago when Trent's hard on pressed into my ass. I wish I could go back...

Then a scream pierced through the room and I followed suit, screaming just because someone else was screaming. I threw my head down into my hands and hugged myself.

Xavier started to laugh and Trent joined in. After 15 minutes of cuddling myself, I felt an arm around me.

"It's not that bad"

I looked up into Trent's eyes and smiled shyly. I couldn't believe I was behaving like that in front of him. Rubbing my body up against his, letting his fingers explore...

I rest my head against his shoulder and kissed his neck. I felt his chest rise and fall as he took in a sharp breath.

"I like your sweats" he whispered to me

OH s**t! I forgot I decided to wear the pants he lent me the first night I was here

"Me too" I murmured into his neck smiling at myself

"I don't understand you. One minute you're telling me off and challenging every word I say... and then the next you're sucking on my finger and grinding on me" He eyes stared down into my face, his minty breath on my cheek. His voice was low, only for my ears.

"you're just as frustrating. You give me all your attention and then you take it away from me, leaving me wanting me and then you ignore me... you have at least five different girlfriends. Now here you are, being sweet and adorable comforting me which will soon stop."

I felt his chest vibrate as he chuckled "sweet and adorable?"

Then silence.

Was he admitting to the five girlfriends? Or the fact that this side of him will be gone soon?

Well if it was, I should just enjoy it now.

I sat on his lap and wrapped my arms around his waist, kissing his neck again. His arms tightened around me making me feel save and protected.

I really am falling hard...