How I Wish

Chapter Six

It wasn't the first time I've ran out of the house when my dad would come by. Usually I would go over to Ashlee's house and have her comfort me. But I have no one now.

Regardless of that fact, I was beyond excited to go to school this morning. Trent really wasn't the guy I thought he was. It surprised me how caring he can be. Well sometimes.

When I woke up, no one was in the house. I knew I was in trouble from what I did last night.

I hurried to school after eating breakfast, making it before the bell rang.

"You look happy today?" Jessie observed "not to mention cute... you know you don't have to dress up to impress Sean right? He hits on anything with breasts"

I laughed. I had semi-straightened my hair today which just means its wavy now. I had pulled out my make-up bag that was stored away with a few other things and I may have paid a bit more attention to my outfit today.

I didn't do it for anyone, just myself...

History went by much more painfully than usual and so did my other morning class, Spanish.

When lunch time approached, I suddenly became nervous. I was finally going to see him... What should I say?

After I placed my books in my locker, I headed to the cafeteria. On my way there, I finally saw who I've been dreaming about last night. He had on a knitted sweater with jeans and boat shoes. He was in a level of his own.

He wasn't alone. Leaning against him was a new girl I've never seen before. She had beautifully long black hair, and her make up looked professionally done. My spirit took a dive.

I can't believe this. Was he serious? How many girlfriends does this guy have?

When our eyes met, he looked away as if I was someone he didn't know. I scowled at him.

Before I could force myself to say a few colorful words, strong hands held on to my waist and warm lips brushed against my ear.

"Trying to impress me, are you?"

I smiled at the sound of Sean's voice. I closed my eyes and bit my bottom lip, trying to stop my smile.

"Who said you were that important?" I turned in his arms and came face to face with brown eyes that had a special place in my heart. I don't know what it is but it was easy warming to him. Yes, he's very flirtatious with everyone but he did it in a sweet way...?

"Ouch" he smiled resting one hand on his chest, the other still around my waist "why do you want to bruise my ego?"

I rolled my eyes "As if that was even possible"

He flashed a wide smile and I pushed him away playfully. I looked back over to where Trent leaned against the wall. His eyes were now focused on me rather than looking away like before. I finally scowled at him like I originally wanted to do. Yes, I was jealous of all the other girls getting his attention. I didn't know why! Usually I like being the one no one paid attention to but his... made me feel... special?

URGH! I'm so confused at all of this. I was pissed at him, the girl leaning against him, and myself.

"Where's my lunch?" Sean finally asked breaking me out of my own thoughts. I willingly handed him my lunch container. After awhile, it becomes a routine.

"Your mom's cooking is blessed" He murmured leaving me on my own in the hallway. Before I could run after him, I felt someone's presence behind me. His cologne filled my head an made my heart beat faster. Only he could do this to me. I turned around to face Trent.

"You look nice today"

I wasn't expecting a compliment. It throw me off horribly and I forgot what I was about to tell him. This has been happening often when I'm around him, I can never remember what I wanted to say. He was not going to be using me like all these other girls, talking to be when he felt and then ignoring me when he didn't.

I folded my arm across my chest. "Didn't think you noticed with the way you were making out over there"

His lips pulled up into a smirk. "You're cute when you're jealous"

Did he just call me cute? NO! Focus. My heart was going a 100 mile per hour in my chest. I chewed nervously on the inside for my cheek. I took a deep breath a few times before I was able to speak again.

"I'm not jealous" I lied looking back over at the girl scowling at me. I narrowed my eyes at her. I didn't like you either, I thought. ... Why was I so upset? This guy is messing with my emotions and he did nothing!

Suddenly she started talking to a few of her friends as she glared at me. I turned back to the Greek god in front of me and flipped my hair deliberately. If those girls want something to talk about, I'll give them something to talk about.

"What are you doing?" Trent asked softly as I trialed my finger down his arm slowly.

"I just want to thank you for last night" I said a little more loudly "And how you took care of me..."

I might have been doing this to piss those girls off but I really did want to thank him.

"That reminds me" He hands me a bag that I haven't noticed he was carrying this whole time. Suddenly, he rest his hands on mine which was still on his arm. He brought my hand to his lips and kissed it. My breath stopped at my throat as he does. "By the way, you're not my type"

My mouth dropped open. What does he mean I'm not his type?

"What do you mean I'm not your type" I snarled grabbing my hand from his "Is it because I'm black? f**k you!"

I was furious. Also embarrassed from rejection. Before I could turn away, he grabbed my arm.

"Watch your mouth." he warned, his eyes angry "I'm not prejudice against anyone... I don't date ignorant girls with bad tempers. Next time before you go around saying s**t you should get your facts straight."

He dropped my arm and walked away. Well, I feel like an idiot...

I avoid curious eyes and joined my friends at the lunch table. Opening the bag he gave me, I saw my clothes I left at his house, now washed and clean. I feel like s**t.

"What's wrong? you were so happy this morning" Jessie asked as she took a spoon of pasta in her mouth.

"Nothing" I answered rubbing my forehead. I was beginning to develop a headache. Xavier finally made his appearance beside me.

"You f****d up" He said.

I rest my head on his shoulders. Why wasn't I surprised he knew what happened?

"Am I your only friend?" I asked

"Leigh, I've grown to love you in a short time but you really have an attitude problem. You're interesting, and not just because you're black. That's why I take so much interest in you."

Am I ever going to live this thing down? I know it just happened but shit... "You didn't have to bring that up" I murmured into his arm

"You said it. No one here cares if you're a chocolate who likes the taste of vanilla" he chuckled.

I sighed heavily and placed my head on the table on my arms.

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It was Friday and I still haven't spoken to Trent about what I implied. It wasn't my fault I couldn't get the chance to apologize. He's been seriously avoiding me and I couldn't blame him.

It was after school and I was at my locker as usual talking to Sean and Xavier when I heard my name. I looked down the hallway and I completely froze. I couldn't believe it!

"Ashlee!" I shouted. She ran up to me and we started jumping and screaming uncontrollably.

"Miss me, huh?" she smiled when we pulled away. Her hair was dyed chestnut blonde and was as curly as ever. I'd like to think we became such close friends because of our mixed background.

"What are you doing here?" I was breathless

"I know you missed me. Even though you don't know how to pick up the phone and call anymore. But, whateva. I got to your house and your mom told me where to find you... here I am!" she opened her arms

I couldn't stop the smile on my face. She usually only visits me when somethings wrong though, I know she could have easily called... "Everything okay?"

She looked at me and her smile faded a bit. But then she looked behind me, and I knew she was looking at the guys.

Remembering I wasn't alone, I turned back to them. "Guys, this is my best friend Ashlee. Ashlee, Sean and Xavier" I gestured to them individually.

"Always the one to surround yourself with sexy white guys, huh?" she winked at me making me blush. She smiled her best smile and shook their hands individually. When she goes to let go of Xavier's hand, he held on to it.

"You think I'm sexy?" He flashed her his adorable smile making me laugh silently.

"I call them like I see 'em" she smiled back obviously flirting with him.

"Okay" I interjected, taking their hand a part "stop romancing my friend"

"Stop c**k blocking him" Sean laughed. I hit his chest playfully and he pulled me into a hug. "I gotta go. Nice meeting you Ashlee." he smiled kissing me on my head and taking her hands in his. I wasn't surprised they were so confident in their interactions with people they just met. they were aware of how good looking they were.

"You too" Ashlee smiled sending a smile my way "I should come visit more often. No wonder you haven't called me"

I laughed and looked down the hallway. The school was almost empty now.

"Bro, stop touching her" Xavier took Ashlee's hand from out of Sean's.

"No harm done" Sean smirked taking his leave.

"You guys are cute and all, but I like my men dark... so..." she took her hand from Xavier and pulled her hair one side.

Xavier placed his hands in his pocket and took a step towards her "I like a women who knows what she wants"

I rolled my eyes. Are they really going at this now? If I knew Ashlee was going to come here, I'd make sure I was home.

"I'm having a party tonight, I'll pick you guys up. Bring something to sleep in" He continued

"How do you know I want to come?" Ashlee asked timidly. She was obviously feeling him, she just liked playing hard to get and I could tell Xavier knew that.

"I wasn't asking. Be ready by 8" He was gone in a matter of seconds.

"What..." She looked in the direction he left in, wondering how he did that.

"Trust me. You can't argue with him... among with a few other guys here..."

She looked at me and smile "Who is he?" she asked

I closed my locker and we exited out the school "Who's who?"

"The guy you've caught feeling's for"

"No one Ash" I lied.

"Mhh-hm" she let it go

"So what's up?" I asked as we walked towards my house

"I need to stay here for the weekend"

"You know that's not a problem... Is he drinking again?"

She nodded her head with her eyes on the ground. I pulled her into a one arm hug and kissed her forehead.

"A few more months" I smiled at her and she smiled back.