My Best Friends Brother and Me

Chapter 6 – Truth Be Told

Kaya’s POV

I was probably a little too quiet when we woke up and I could tell Leah was dying to know what happened. But I was a little embarrassed and I didn’t want to do it here. I wanted us to have a bit of privacy.

"Kaya, are you awake?" Here we go, I’m so not ready for this.

"Let’s just get dressed, have breakfast, and go take the dogs for a walk. I’ll tell you all the juicy details then! Okay"

"Okay"

I’m glad she didn’t push it.

So, we did just that and when we were done with breakfast, we headed out with the dogs. We couldn’t have gone more than 3 minutes up the lane before she bubbled over.

"Ughhh Kaya, I’ve been waiting since you fell asleep on me last night. Hurry up and spill" she said impatiently.

I laughed as I said "nothing to tell really" but I couldn’t hide the hint of blush in my cheeks which told her otherwise.

"Really!" she rolled her eyes, she prompted me again "start from the beginning, leave out no details."

"OK, from the beginning…." I said with a small sigh. I knew I was bidding my time and I was gonna have to spill, I just didn’t know how I felt about what happened and I was still trying to process. Maybe talking it out would help? Here goes.

When Leah left me and Jayden alone, he grinned at me and took my hand. He seemed confident, and it made me feel secure. I sensed my cheeks blushing a little as I tried to look away. We got a drink, and I felt a little giddy.

I looked at him and my eyes lingered on his luscious lips, hmmmm I could just kiss those lips, I thought to myself as I looked up and saw him watching me. The blush in my cheeks darkened and I glanced away.

I caught a look in his eyes that I couldn’t quite decipher before I averted his gaze. "Come on, let's head outside where it’s a little quieter so we can talk", he said in a soft but firm tone. I liked how he spoke to me, with authority, as well as composing calmness.

It was like he had done this before. Done what before I don’t know, took someone’s innocence or let someone down gently. I had no idea what I was in for. I was about to find out.

I could feel the nerves rising and churning in the pit of my stomach. He led me out the back where it was dimly lit, and the ground was rocky and irregular. He held me close while helping me navigate the terrain.

We ended up on a bench behind a crumbling brick wall and we sat as the darkness enveloped us. The dim glow from the yard gave us just enough light to see each other as my eyes adjusted. He held my hands in his and I felt a tingling sensation spread through my body.

He said nothing for a moment, and it felt like forever. I was going to speak but before I could, he let go of my hands and cupped my face in his hands. He pulled forwards and touched his forehead to mine. As I looked up, our lips inched closer.

My breath hitched as I felt a nervous but excited feeling creep into my stomach. We could have been like that for seconds or hours, I didn’t know. What I did know, was that I wanted it to happen. I wanted to kiss him and for him to kiss me.

He edged towards me almost as if he were giving me a chance to pull away. But I didn’t, and neither did he. He made me feel secure and safe and, at that moment, I was blissfully happy. s**t, this is it, the first kiss, and with the guy of my dreams.

Finally, our lips touched, it sent electricity through my skin. It was soft and slow, and he teased my bottom lip so I would part my mouth, and through instinct I gave way. His tongue slipped in and danced around my mouth.

I mimicked his movements as I was completely inexperienced and didn’t want it to seem that way. I didn’t want him to think it felt wrong. It didn’t to me, to me it felt right, it felt amazing.

I moved my hands to his hair and the back of his head, which only encouraged him to kiss with more passion and ferocity. His hands moved to my lower back and caressed my breasts briefly on their way down. Almost testing if I would allow it. I did.

We both instinctively pulled away simultaneously, breathless and in need of air.

"wow" was all I could muster to say.

He grinned as he breathed heavily and said "Ditto."

We sat for a moment in silence before he said "I wasn’t planning on doing that". He had a look of guilt in his eyes.

"Why not?" I didn’t really know what else to say. I wasn’t sure where this was going. I was feeling exhilarated that we had kissed, and it was amazing. It made me feel things I had only seen in movies.

I didn’t think it could ever be topped. I felt a heat in my core that made me giddy. But I now had an uncomfortable feeling in the pit of my stomach while I waited for him to explain what he meant.

"Don’t look at me like that" he said in a soft, gruff voice.

I looked down and he pulled my chin up with one finger, so I was staring into his beautiful soft green eyes. His eyes looked slightly sad, but I could see a hint of lust remaining. I was at a loss about what was happening.

"Like what?" I muttered, I was begging to feel insecure and as I started to look away from his heavy glare I couldn’t help but add "Did I do something wrong?" I felt like an i***t.

He pulled my face back to his and I could tell he was battling his own thoughts.

"No, no, not at all". He quickly responded so as not to make me feel any more uncomfortable and ruin the moment, "That was amazing, I just… it’s just…"

I could tell he was struggling to find the words, so I said to him "You don’t like me like that?"

He pursed his lips to the side, looking guilty as charged as his eyes looked left to right. I knew at that moment I was right.

I tried not to look devastated as he said "I’m so sorry Kaya, I messed it up, I do really like you, you are an amazing girl. I shouldn’t have done that. I really hope you can forgive me; it’s just I like someone else."

There was no hint of malice in him. His remorse was genuine, but I felt so stupid. Of course, he liked someone else. I buried my disappointment as I looked at him and I said, with as much confidence as I could, "Ah well, a girl can try."

I looked into his eyes as I continued "And for the record, you didn’t take advantage. It takes two, you know. I didn’t say no. Thank you for being honest with me."

"Kaya, you really are amazing, you know that."

"Yeah, but not quite amazing enough, huh?" I said with a little more hurt than intended.

"I’m sorry, it’s not that, I shouldn’t have kissed you, but at that moment it felt right. I don’t regret it. Not for a minute. But it would be wrong for me to be less than honest with you. You deserve better than that."

I was actually stunned by his maturity. I was grateful for his honesty and wanted to keep his friendship. I told him this and then we sat and accepted what had happened as a great kiss between friends.

We relaxed in each other’s company and chatted away until I started to get cold and tired. We stood up and walked around the corner of the wall and bumped into Leah. The rest she knew.

Leah’s POV

My eyes inadvertently bulged out of my head as Kaya regaled what had happened last night. I can’t imagine how she was feeling, as my emotions were up and down like a roller coaster, and I was the only one listening to the tale.

I was surprised at Jayden’s level of maturity but pissed that he kissed her when he had no intention of being with her.

I was happy Kaya had an amazing kiss and glad it was with someone who she liked, and treated her with respect, but still, that her happiness lasted all but minutes and ended with him letting her down. I was gutted for her.

She finished telling me what had happened, and we realised it was almost lunchtime. The dogs had a long walk today! We started to make our way home.

"Kaya, who is it he likes?"

"He didn’t say"

"I know he was nice about it and all, but I still think he was a complete ass."

"Yeah, I know, me too" she shrugged.

"At least you only gave him a kiss."

"I guess. I’m going to be a virgin forever."

"Oh, shut the front door. You start uni in 8 weeks! You are going to have plenty of opportunities to lose it then! Just don’t rush into the first guy's bed!"

"I can’t make any promises" she laughed.

"Kaya!"

"Ah, well, life is for living!"

"Yeah, okay, good point."

We laughed all the way home and when we made it back the dogs were starving! As were we.

"What do you want for lunch?"

"Kaya, it’s almost teatime, let’s just have some toast and wait for tea?"

"Yeah, ok"

We scoffed some toast, fed the dogs, and then sat out in the garden.

"Leah, do you think there is something wrong with me?"

"what? Why do you say that?"

"I really want to have s*x!"

"We are hormonal teenagers, Kaya, and in our defence, we’ve held out quite well!"

"You say we, like you, feel the same. But you never talk about it."

I rolled my eyes and tried to keep my composure.

"Kaya, I think about it all the time. Sometimes I think I was wired like a guy! It’s ridiculous. But that doesn’t mean I am going to jump into bed and have s*x with the first guy I see. I just, I don’t know, at least want it to mean something! Don’t you?"

"s**t! Are you really horny all the time?"

"From all those words, that’s what you took. Wow Kaya, your something else"

We both laughed "No, I mean, well yes, but I thought there was something wrong with me! At least I know you feel the same way!"

I decided to give her a little truth. "Why do you think I was late all those times to school? Because I slept in from studying too hard? Really?"

"I love you Leah, but your kind of a geek. It was believable."

"Yeah, well it wasn’t true, I was having s*x dreams that were too good to get out of bed for!"

"f**k OFF!"

I blushed a little as she scrutinised me, maybe this wasn’t such a good idea.

"What can I say? It’s true"

"WHO? Who were you dreaming about?"

The truth ended here, and the fabrications began. "A tall, dark, handsome man with a beautiful body who whisks me off my feet and gives me the most amazing s*x I have ever encountered"

"Sounds too good to be true."

"It is Kaya, that’s why it’s called a dream! A wet dream at that!" I winked at her and noticed her eyes widen as she realised what I was saying.

"LEAH!"

"What? It’s a natural part of growing up, Kaya. And believe me, wet dreams are hot!"

I hadn’t noticed Kai standing in the background close enough to hear.