Shooting stars, shot down
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She led us to a table in the back, reserved for them.
Charles still held my hand under the table.
I felt awkward about this.
David pulled out his phone.
" Ready bro, ready for this?" He held up his proud papa pictures of little Sophia on his phone.
Charles dropped my hand and grabbed the phone to look at baby Sophia.
" Oh, this is YOUR little girl, I met her earlier today, Jo was walking her." He seemed very relieved to me.
" Someday Jo will get with the program and make a little cousin for Sophia." Brea stared at me.
I felt like I was about to break down at her words. She had no idea, none of them did that I had lost a baby.
I spilled my drink on my dress as an excuse to leave.
" Oh, damn...excuse me. I'm so clumsy."
I made my way though the thick crowd and walked into the busy kitchen. No one stopped to look at me, I saw an open door and slid through it.
The tears came down in a huge out pour. I thought I was past this s**t.
I walked up a grassy hill in the back of the building and sat on the curb.
I needed to go home before I made a fool out of myself.
My head hurt, it was pounding, I grabbed my head and shook it. Feeling myself slipping back to consousness, to Mexico.
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"Now I will dress you in a nice little sexy outfit Punta. Tonight you will make me very rich. I will make you very high." The man was back now.
More drugs dumped into my arm. I started to scream as he squeezed my butt and kissed my neck.
You smell so good now. I am going to miss you punta. I have enjoyed your exquisite body more than all the others.
I went numb as he touched me, feeling the drugs flow through my veins, my head lulled...
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I looked around and tried to remember, where was I?
Charles Hudson, the charity event...
I can't tell you how relieved Charles looked at seeing that little Sophia wasn't my baby.
He could no longer deny that he knew nothing about my pregnancy.
Honestly, I felt a bit relieved.
When we were up on the roof top before, and we saw that star streak across the sky, it all came flooding back, I wondered if he felt it too.
I tried to tell him that day when he was in Aspen with his dad that I was pregnant, he was the father of my baby.
I never yelled at him or held him accountable. I wondered at that. I trusted that he truly did not remember making love.
He never asked, maybe he was too much of a coward. I went back into the bar
I picked up a shot of tequila. He seemed so happy that he didn't have a little baby named Sophia.
I was sure he would have done the right thing, but poor sss Lana would be so heart broken. Everyone would be dissapointed.
I was halfway drunk, David pulled Charles up on stage to do his little part for the charity.
Charles saw me there, in the very back of the room, my eyes were red.
He seemed to have a hard time concentrating.
" Well, I might have had a few too many tequilas to do this," He joked. Everyone laughed at prince f*****g charming.
I had moved now. I was back at the bar drinking alone.
He couldn't seem to look anywhere else but at me. I pulled down that little black dress as it crept up.
My hair was a mess, thick curls hung around my shoulders, having come undone from it's pins.
David came to his rescue. He took the microphone from Charles and pointed to his table."Sit before you fall." He ordered.
Charles bowed to Dave, everyone laughed again and clapped.
He chose not to sit down, he walked straight over to me instead.
" We need to talk, just you and I Joey." he said.
I handed him a shot as I drank one myself, not looking at him.
He covered my hand with his own.
" I'm sorry." he said.
I shrugged.
" I should have asked about the baby." he said softly.
" I saw how relieved you were, so no need friend." I said, not wanting to talk about it further.
He squeezed my hand.
" What happened, I mean can I ask, or?" he wanted to know.
" Miscarriage. It was over so quickly, I had just began to accept it, but no worries, I'm good now." I pulled my hand away.
" Jo, I honestly didn't recall that night, well pieces of it. It wasn't until I saw that shooting star on the roof. Well, I was a jerk. I was a bit of a drunken pig that night, really." He made an oinking noise then.
I stood up and wobbled outside.
He was compelled to follow me.
" I need to go now." I said.
He called for a taxi and put me into it, then suddenly opened the door to climb inside with me.
This wasn't right, something didn't sit well with him, he needed me to know that he would have done the right thing.
I knew that, I leaned on his shoulder.
" You are a good man Charles. Don't fret. I know how you would have rescued the damsel, it's in your rich Hudson blood."
That must have made him feel angry. He frowned at me.
He sat me up to look at him.
" I would have married you, raised our baby with you!" He assured me.
" No." I said.
" What do you mean, NO?" He barked, getting loud.
" I never planned on making you marry me. I just thought it was your right to know about your son. Well, I don't really know it was too soon to know the s*x of our baby." I said it quite sadly too.
" Jo, we had s*x, once at a party, where I might have slept with other girls that night too.
Maybe you should have reminded me of this fact and why the hell didn't you use contraception?"
He was very angry with me. But I wasn't the one to blame, was I?
I guess I was, I patted his hand.
" Yes Charles, you are quite right. I'm sorry I didn't let you know that you had f****d a virgin girl that night. My fault, all my f*****g fault."
Now he was incredulous.
" I assure you that you were in fact not a virgin. Maxwell Brown told me you and he did it at a party the week before, in the girls dorms."
He could see me start to laugh now.
My shoulders shook with my laughter.
" Why would I lie to you. It's so mundane. Really, I wanted to have s*x with you, get pregnant, then tell you about the baby, just to never talk to you about it ever again?"
I did have a point.
" You were a...a virgin then really?" He asked me.
" Yes Charles. Let's change the subject now please. Tell me how did you met the fabulous sss Lana?"
I didn't want to talk about my virginity.
" Listen it's not important now, right now you need to tell me something else. If you would have had our baby, would you have raised him all by yourself?"
" Charles, I did not have our baby, so what does it matter, really?"
" Tell me please." He knew the answer though.
" Yes, I believe that was my very plan. I did tell you about the baby, you had to get to the ski slopes, recall?"
He remembered.
" Driver change of plans, 618 Sicamore drive." he said.
The car turned around and headed to his city apartment.
He wasn't letting this go.
I was quiet now.
The car slowly stopped, he paid the driver and opened the door for me.
I got out. We walked up to his building.
I followed him inside of the place.
" This was my first apartment, no one knows about it, I come here to shut down. Play video games, smoke." He smiled at me.
Looking all around the place, seeing his college jacket and pennants.
" I like it here." I said sitting down and picking up a game controller.
" Ok, what are we playing?" I asked.
He ordered some food and lit a blunt, handing it to me.
I inhaled and coughed.
We quietly played.
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