Joshua's p.o.v
I have been kicking ass at the Alpha Academy. I have gotten much stronger. I am bigger than what I was when I first started. I speak to my parents weekly. Unfortunetly my dad hasn't been able to find Nicole. I have been pretty down about it. All I do is train and study so that I don't think of her too much. It isn't working at all. Lyell is tired of watching me sulk and be in a bad mood so he is taking me out tonight with the other guys. I was about to say no and skip it, but he is right. I can't just stay in here and be miserable. I feel so lonely though. They try to encourage me to get laid, but I don't think I can do it. I am f*****g horny I mean I am an Alpha and we are always horny, but will I even be able to get it up with someone who isn't my mate? This is so messed
