It's Always Been You (Book 1)

eight

Nicky p.o.v

I need to see what classes I want to take for senior year. In a couple of weeks, we return to classes. I am so excited to graduate since I just turned 18. I'm still not sure if I want to go to college, but I still have time to figure it out. I get home, go online, finally decide on my classes and hit up Deacon. He agrees to meet me for training in about 30 minutes. I shower, get ready and head out. There are not many people training at this time. Deacon, Kiki, Lesa and some warriors are here. I always had a crush on our Alpha, but as I got older, I figured it would never happen. Then he met his mate, and it definitely would never happen. She passed away, but no-one has gotten close to him. He is smoking hot, but kind of mean. I stay away he used to make me feel all flustered. Plus, I have Joshua for now so I really shouldn't be checking anyone else out. Especially my Alpha. What the hell is wrong with me? I run up to Deacon and give him the biggest smile. He's standing there talking to his brother. Deacon rolls his eyes at me. The Alpha is just staring at me. "Ready?" I ask, "Ready for what?" my Alpha with his strong, deep, sexy voice asks. Before I can even reply Deacon answers "I'm training Nicky today." Alpha Santiago just raises his eyebrows. I smile at him and walk away and begin stretching. Deacon trains with me for 2 hours. Most of that time Alpha watches. It's like I can feel everywhere his eyes look on my body. Makes me feel hot. By the time we are done, I am dragging. I love the fact that Deacon and my brother don't take it easy on me. Why did I want to train today though, I feel extremely tired. More tired than normal and I still have to meet with Joshua later. That makes me smile. My sweet Joshua. I go home and eat with my family then decide to shower and start getting ready. I am feeling good today and want to look extra cute. I decide to wear a dress and some cute sandals. I do my hair and makeup and look in the mirror. I look good. I decide to go to the coffee shop a little earlier today so I can calm my nerves down a bit. I feel like something is going to happen. Or is it what happened earlier with my Alpha. The feelings I got. So weird. I been there for a bit and notice it's our normal meeting time, but he isn't here yet. That isn't like him. He's always been here on time. 20 minutes pass and nothing. I keep waiting. 1 hour passes and still no sign of him. I don't know if I should leave or drive up to our spot. Maybe he meant to meet him there. I decide to wait a little longer. After 2 hours I hop in my car and drive to our everyday spot. I park and get out. He isn't here either. Well, it isn't like him not to show up. ever since I met him, he has been a punctual man. I wait there for another hour, but when he still doesn't show up, I decide to go back home. It's too dark for me to be up here alone anyways. I drive back home thinking why he didn't show up today. Did something happen to him? Is he hurt? Did he change his mind and not want to see me anymore? Did he meet his mate? oh s**t. Maybe it isn't anything bad. I try and think and make sure he said we were meeting today. Maybe he said tomorrow. I get home feeling pretty disappointed. I quickly change into some jeans and a crop top and go searching for Deacon. I need my best friend to make me laugh. I find him in the living room of the pack house with his parent watching a movie. They invite me to stay and watch it, so I do. Once it's over Deacon and I go for a walk. I fill him in on getting stood up today. He listens to everything I say. "What a d**k move." He says. I stare at him, wondering what he means by that. "You deserve better that guy looks like a d**k and totally not your type." he says and starts laughing. I laugh too, typical Deacon to say something like that. "What's my type Deacon since you know better than me." I ask him genuinely curious. "I don't know, but definitely not like him. Bulkier, stronger, manlier, meaner. Someone totally opposite of you. You are too nice you don't need another nice person. You need a man that will man handle you." he says I just laugh at him. We walk to the orphanage to get Bella to sneak out. I call her and we throw rocks at her window, but she doesn't answer. We end up going back to Deacon's room. On our way there we come across his brother. He asks us where we were so late. Deacon tells him we were out, but now going up to his room. He stares at me, and I can't help but stare back at him. Then I remember my place and that he is my Alpha, and I am being disrespectful and look down. "Come on Nicky." Deacon grabs my hand and drags me along. "Goodnight Alpha." I mumble out as I walk away. I hang out with Deacon for a bit. I help him choose his classes, so we are together every period. He also tells me about some guy he met and hasn't been able to stop thinking about him. I tell him that he should go for it. He tells me he doesn't think he's into guys though. That sucks, but you never know until you try. I know there's people who are both into males and females. I stay a bit longer, then decide it's time to go home. On my way down, my Alpha scares me. He's sitting in the dark. All alone. Who does that? "Come here Nicky." He tells me. He turns on a small lamp. "Are you happy here in this pack?" He asks me. "yes" I reply. "Is Deacon treating you right?" what kind of question is that. So sexy and weird this man. "Yes, Deacon is amazing." I tell him. "Good. Goodnight Nicky." He says while giving me the most intense look. I clear my throat. "Goodnight Alpha." I whisper with a small bow and hurry home. That was weird. Alpha Santi isn't one for conversations, at least lately. Was that even a conversation? Hmmm at least I got Joshua off my mind for a bit. I lay on my bed and instantly fall asleep. That night I dream which I don't normally do, but I dream 3 beautiful pups. An older boy and a set of twins. A girl and a boy. All three have smiles that reveals dimples identical to mines. A big man is holding the set of twins in his big sexy arms, he has a bunch of tattoos all over him, but right now I can't make them out they are a little blurry. He is turned around facing the boy who is sitting on the couch so I can't see his face. The man hands the little baby girl wrapped in a pink blanket with a pink bow on her head to the little boy. He looks at her and starts crying. "She's so beautiful." the boy says, "She looks like a little doll." He looks up straight at me and says "She looks just like you, mommy!"