confused heart

chapter 3

damn that guy...

he actually have the nerves to show up on me?after all this years?

and damn me... yes me! why am i acting like a teenage love struck on him?

for Christ sakes... how can i be so stupid and helpless???

It was always been him...

love him before...and still loving him now!

as in FOREVER.

why... oh why, can't i not stop loving him?

then my mind goes back on that one unforgetable night...

Isabella, Micheal is here!

my princess...make it fast. we don't have all night. and besides, you only have till midnight before you turned again to rugs?!

ok...ok...i get it.just give me a minute. your highness (i made a quick peek on my door and give him a face.then close the door again quickly to finish what im doing earlier)

after one more quick look in the mirror. i go out of my bedroom, smiling sweetly.

then i saw micheal looking at me mesmerised and not able to speak.

whats the matter your highness?lost your tounge?(i smiled at him wickedly)

your so beautiful princess (micheal said while blusing)

thank you for that your highness. but i think we better leave coz we wouldn't want to be late, are we?

oh yes...tita, were leaving now. bye for now.

mom, were going. ill see you later.

ok.go now...micheal take care of isabella, ok?

YES MAAM! (then he bowed to my mother)

I grabbed his hand and hurriedly went to his car.

(yey, we arrived early. only a few couples had just arrived. I immediately searches lance. YES, ofcourse. my LANCE. where is he? I must find him now so that I may execute my plans)

Micheal I can't seem to find Lance?please me help look for him?

princess please relax a bit, ok?we had just arrived here. we should take a sit first, enjoy the party a little bit , then will look for him.

but Micheal. what if he leaves?I won't be able to do my plans?

ok. ill look for him.just stay here and grab some food for the both of us?ill be back to eat what youll get.make sure to get nice foods, ok?!

sure your highness.

(after an hour of waiting. I decided to look for Lance my self. im getting bored. besides ived eatin the foods that i get. might as well walk to get some exercise to my legs. then i started roaming around the place. then, as my aching feet just suddenly force me to stop? I saw him... well who else? MY LANCE! but apparently, his not mine now coz he was bussy f***ing the campus slut at the darkest corner of the school's car park. suddenly, tears run down my cheeks like a water fall. I don't how to react to this?even worst, i even don't know what im feeling right now? im angry, hurt, ashamed, confused, sad and lost....DAMN YOU LAWRENCE SANTILLAN! i was supposed to give myself to you...my whole being.i was so stupid to think that you cared, that you like me. I loved you...since I was nine. Why....oh why did you do this to me?how could you?) all this was running to my mind..coz my lips cannot make even a tiniest sound.

Heart, please stop loving him! Heart, please listen to me!

(then I blindedly run without clear directions...one thought in mind. that i need to get the hell out of here!)