The Billionaire's Ex Wife

Insane Thoughts

Abigail's POV

It has been a month, a month since I told Linda to get me my divorce, I am tired of all this waiting, I thought that he would have signed them by now. My biggest concern is that he might still be out there looking for me. I don't know but it kills me to think that I am just sitting here like a sitting duck. I did not want to go this road but I didn't have a choice.

The truth is that I have been thinking about my soon to be ex husband as of late. At night when all the kids have gone to bed, I would lay in my bed and cry myself to sleep. A part of me hates myself for that because this means that I miss him. I wish there was a way that I could just shut out my feelings for him and really move on. I have had my life around my kids so much that I don't think that my feelings matter. I console myself that I am doing the right thing for them. That this is for the best.

Linda has paid me a visit and she is staying for the whole weekend, she suggested a weekend away and I stupidly agreed. My mother has since moved in with me so I have all the help I need with the kids. I guess it is because I haven't been away from the twins just yet. They are getting bigger every day and they look more and more like their father with each day that they grow. I feel so bad that I have denied them the chance to get to know their father.

I know how hard my life was without a father figure in my life and believe me when I say that this is the last thing I wanted for my kids. As a parent, all that you want to do is to protect your kids no matter what, which is what I have been doing for the last two years. The twins are now a year and a half, they can't sit still for anything and they both have a temper, they take that from their dad. Martin is an angel. He is so matured and even if his siblings pull him by his ears and bite him, he loves them so much.

I have always wanted to have a big family, one with a lot of kids but this is not how I imagined having that family, I had made a promise to myself after I had Martin that I would make a better choice next time, that I would choose a good man, I guess I really am a fool for love. This is why I have no interest in being in another relationship. I went from bad to worse, the next one will be a catastrophic failure as well. There's people who are supposed to be in love and then there's us, the ones who can't stay in love.

I was so so happy, for a moment there I was thought that I had it all. I don't know if I can forget everything that Tracey told me about Theodore, if she told me this before that fiasco at the cabin, I would have never believed her. I mean I thought that he was a man who would never even hurt a fly. Even still, I can't stop loving him, I think that is the part that scares me the most, what does that say about me? what kind of woman would have feelings for a man like that?

I will tell you, a damaged one. As much as I want to hate him I just can't. I don't know how many times I have just wanted to take a plane to New York just so that I can see if he is alright. I know that he loved me, I know that but how do I be with a man like that? What would our kids say when they find out that their father is a heartless killer, what if my boys want to take after him? Can I really live with myself knowing that I allowed them to be like that?

"Don't tell me that you are day dreaming again..." Tracey said.

Remember when I said that I seeked for help from the one person he would never ever think about? That person was Tracey. When I was in hospital, she came in disguised as a nurse. I remember how she kept on looking at me when she went over my file.

*** Two Years ago (Abigail's Hospital Room) ****

"Tracey is that you?" I asked her.

"Yes, please don't scream, I came to check on you." she said and removed her mask from her face.

"Why would I believe that? are you sure that you are not here to finish what you started?" I asked her.

"I am sorry you got shot, I didn't mean to hurt you, please believe me, that is why I came here, I needed to make sure that your are okay before I leave." she said.

"Leave?" I asked her with a puzzled face.

"Yes, I can't be here, Theo would kill me if he knew I was here, I have to disappear, I just wanted to tell you that I am sorry first." she said.

"You know that you can't expect me to accept that right? I trusted you, treated you like a friend and then you betrayed me, that hurts more any bullet wound." I said.

"Yes, that was shitty of me, I know that I can't make it up to you but I hope that now you know what kind of man your husband really is, that you understand the man you married." she said.

"Then help me..." I said to her.

"Help you? what do you mean help you?" she asked me.

"I can't stay with Theo anymore... I need to get away from him, I need to go where he won't find me, I don't have the skills to disappear but I know that you do." I said to her.

"Abigail what are you asking me to do here?" she asked me.

"I want you to take me with you, take me and my son with you where Theo won't find us, where Greyson won't find us... please..." I said and held her hand, I was begging her to help me, she owes me that much.

"Okay I guess I can do that, I am leaving in two days, everything will be ready for us to go, fake passports for you and your son will be ready, Abigail are you sure that this is what you want? He will come after you, he won't stop." she said.

"That is why you have to make sure that he doesn't find us." I said.

"Okay then, two days from now I will be waiting for you in the parking lot downstairs, I will smuggle you a wig and a dress for your boy." she said.

"You know that Martin is a boy right? he doesn't wear dresses." I said.

"That is why he needs to wear one, as soon as Theo realises that you are gone, he will put out a search for his wife and stepson, if your son is a girl, no one is going to ask questions." she said.

"okay... that will be fine." I said.

"Abigail if you are not in the parking lot by midday, I won't be there. You need to make sure that you are there that's if you still want to go." she said.

"I am sure, I want to do this. " I said.

"Okay then, I'll see you in a couple of days." she said and left my room.

I had just sealed my faith as far as my marriage went. I didn't tell Tracey about my pregnancy at the time. I kept it all to myself and a lot has happened until then. Two days went by so quickly and as promised I found her waiting for me and my son who was now dressed like my daughter. I told him that we were going to a dress up party, which explained why I had a blonde wig on.

My mother was more than willing to distract Theodore while we made a get away. A few minutes out of the city Tracey drove us to a private airstrip where we found a private jet waiting for us. I left my whole life behind. At first it was hard having to depend on Tracey to cover all the costs while I looked for employment. It didn't take long for my mother to tell me that she had reconnected with my grandparents. Turns out they are wealthy and they practically forced money on me, a lot of it.

At the time Tracey and I had developed a relationship, Theo played the both of us, he wronged the both of us and after she helped me, I knew that I could be friends with her. After a few months I started to contact my mother and Linda. Tracey found a way to get them phones that can't be traced and that is pretty much how we have kept in contact. My mother insisted on being here for the birth so again Tracey came through for me. Since she lives so close to Theo's dad's, she had to make sure that they didn't realise that she was gone. She found a double. Someone who posed as my mother.

Linda came down and she hit it off with Tracey immediately, the three of us have been friends since and for the most part it has been wonderful. We try to be there for each other as much as we possibly can. It was wonderful to have friends again, to have the sisterhood bond between us.

***** Present time... (Durban Beachfront South Africa.)***

"I am not day dreaming, I guess I am still tired from the eighteen hours plane ride here." I said to her.

"Well I told you that South Africa was a beautiful country, I also know that this is the last place that Theodore would look for us at." Tracey said with a smile.

"I just admit, when you said South Africa, I thought that we were going on a Safari but this is amazing. The buildings, the people, the culture... I might just get a beach house here." I said.

"Well I have been here before but I was in Cape Town, you would love it there though the weather can get a bit crazy at times. " Linda said.

So Tracey has a friend who was generous enough to let us use his beach house. The house was beautiful and even more amazing was the view of the sea from the house. I loved this place so much I wished that my kids where here to experience it, though I suspect that the twins would probably end up eating the sand.

"So Trace... how did your date go? he seemed like a nice guy." I said to her. I was asking her about her neighbour.

"I don't know, he hasn't called me back. I thought about stalking him but then I realised how crazy that would be." she said.

"I am glad you realised that." I said. I know that she has the skills to do that but I don't want her to do anything that would put us all in the spotlight. We need to keep up with appearance.

"What about you? did he sign the papers?" She asked me about Theo.

"I don't know... what's happening with that Linda, I thought that it would be done by now. " I said.

"Look I did what I had to, he still hasn't gotten back to me. I called his lawyer and he told me that they had terms of their own, he also said that they are willing to go to court if they have to." Linda said.

"Well going to court is a bad idea, I hope you know that right? He just wants a way to find you." Tracey said.

"I know... that is why I said that I don't want anything from him. " I said.

"I'll try to push him to sign on the papers." Linda said.