Greyson's POV
I never thought that my future would be with Rosa, why would I? I thought that I had Abigail back in my life, that I had a chance to make my family whole again, when Rosa told me that she was pregnant, I had a lot of thoughts in my head at the time, especially since she cheated on me. I have always wanted to be with Abigail and then my baby girl was born. I saw her face and I knew then that DNA tests where just a formality. I still went through and got them done.
They came back and they said that the baby was mine, for the first time in months I felt happy again and most importantly, I stopped thinking about Abigail, that baby girl changed my life in a big way, I just wanted her to be in my life. I also knew that this time I had a chance to do things right, don't get me wrong, having a new baby doesn't mean that I get to forget about the son I had but in that moment, I knew that his mother would never let me go anywhere near him again.
I thought that this was my second chance in life, I had done a lot of mistakes when it comes to Abigail and I was so afraid to do the same mistakes again. Rosa went through the pregnancy on her own. I just threw money her way and left her to deal with everything, I missed the doctor's appointments, I missed the pregnancy classes. I felt like I was about to repeat the same things. This is why I asked her to move in with me and I changed one room into a nursery.
Our set up was not perfect but it was good. Rosa was happy, as long as the nanny and I did all the work while she scheduled family photoshoots and having brunch at the Ritz on my account. I don't understand why she wanted to have the baby so much and then around and neglect her. I thought that maybe I could remedy that, that maybe I could make her want to be a good mother. I proposed to her and she was happy, I thought that we were making progress but it only lasted a month.
After that she was so caught with planning the wedding. She wanted the biggest and most expensive venue, we had four hundred guest and only ten percent of that where from my side. She had a designer make her a customised wedding dress which cost an arm an a leg, I didn't mind that either, the fact of the matter is that I had a lot of money and there was nothing wrong with spending it on my wife to be. During that time I had been taking care of my daughter.
I have been getting up in the middle of the night to make sure that she is sleeping okay, I wake up to change her nappy, to make her formula and to rock her to sleep when she was crying, I don't even think that she knows that my daughter has a favourite toy and a favourite blanket. I have been in this marriage for over a year and I already can't take anymore of this. No matter how much I try, I can't make her be a mother to our daughter.
I am not complaining because I get to spend a lot of time with my little angel. I am not trying to compare the two because they are very different though I will admit that Abigail is way much better about being a mother than Rosa will ever be. We had a talk last night, one that ended up in a fight in a restaurant and now we are a trending topic on all social media platforms and all the gossip sites. People are already making speculations about our marriage. There is even talks about divorce. People are saying that we have reached the end of the road.
I won't say that they are wrong because I feel like that as well. Last night was date night with my wife and the Nanny called to tell us that our daughter was running a fever, we had just started eating and I didn't care. I wanted to leave the restaurant as soon as I got the call but she wanted to stay. I hate how she doesn't care about anything or anyone but herself, last night was just what I needed to know where I really stand with this woman. We came home and I called the pediatrician, she told me what to do and I did it and my baby was fine.
I agree that it was nothing serious, the doctor said that she was probably teething but what if it was something serious, what if it was bad? Her reaction to our child being sick made me realise that I don't want to be with her, that this marriage was not going to work because she didn't want a family, she wanted the perks that came with my wife, the black card, the expensive car and having everything at her back and call. I woke up early to check on my daughter. She was still in bed when I came back.
I just felt irritated and went to my closet, I pulled out a bag and started to pack things. I was packing my clothes. When I was done I went into my daughter's room and started to pack a bag for her as well. I went to the nanny's room and knocked on the door. She was already up. I told her to pack a bag for a few days because we were leaving.
"Is Mrs Bolton coming with us?" she asked me.
"No, my wife will not be joining us." I said to her and left the room.
I went back to my bedroom and got my packed suitcase and rolled it out. She was awake on the bed.
"What's with the case? Are we going somewhere?" She asked with a huge smile on her face.
"I'm leaving you." I said.
"What? what do you mean that you are leaving me? Is this about last night?" She asked me.
"No, it's not just about last night. I can't do this anymore." I said to her.
"Greyson what are you talking about? we are a family? You, me and Coco are a family, so what do you mean that you can't do this anymore? you know what? I always knew that this day would come. You are still thinking about her right?" she asked me.
"Her? what are you talking about?" I asked jer.
" I mean your college sweetheart, you have never really gotten over her, you think I don't know that you still love her? so what is it? have you found her, are you two going to give it another try? what is it going to be and don't you dare lie to me. " She said.
"You are talking crazy, no I am not going back Abigail, I don't even know where she is, I am leaving you because I have realised that I don't want to be in this marriage anymore. " I said.
"Why? Greyson we are so good together, why would you want to walk away from all of that? " She said.
"Let me ask you something, what shoe size does our daughter wear?" I asked her.
"What?" she asked me with a puzzled face.
"What's her favourite colour? what calms her down when she is not feeling well?" I asked her.
"Well I don't know, the nanny does all that, I mean that is what we pay her for." she said.
"Fine, when was the last time you took our daughter to the park? or did anything fun with her? Do you even know that she has said her first words? that she understands Spanish because her nanny is teaching her Spanish?" I asked her.
"Greyson what does our daughter have to do with all of this?" she asked me.
"She has everything to do with this, do you know why I married you Rosa? I did it for our daughter, the same daughter you don't have time for so I don't see why I should stay in this marriage when it's not making me or my daughter happy. " I said to her.
"Greyson you can't be serious, you know that I love our daughter." she said.
"you could have fooled me." I said.
"Baby please don't do this, I will change, I can change. I promise you that I will do better please don't go, don't leave us." she said.
"I am leaving you, there is no ways I would ever leave my daughter with someone like you." I said.
"What? you can't do that, you can't take my daughter away from me, baby please stay, let's talk about this. I can be a better mother, I know I can." she said.
"Goodbye Rosa, you can keep the house, I want a divorce." I said.
"If you leave me it will be the last thing you do, I will ruin you Greyson. Don't forget that I am an influencer, I will tweet and you will be cancelled, there will be a hash tag me too trend about you. " she said.
"Is that a threat?" I asked her.
"No, it's a warning Greyson, don't test me. " She said.
"Let me remind you I own one of the top law firms in the country, I will sue you for defamation and you will never ever work in this part of town again and if that's not enough, I will make sure that you never see Coco until she is of legal age to make decisions for herself." I said. She got out of bed and kneeled before me.
"Greyson I am begging you, please stay, let us make this work, okay I will admit that I don't have a maternal bone in my body and not because I don't want to and not because I haven't tried. She doesn't like me Greyson, she cries everytime I try to pick her up, we will make another one, maybe a boy and maybe I will be able to connect with that one, please stay, let's make this work." she said as tears went down her face.
I am not a heartless man so at that point I was feeling sorry for her. I wanted to stay but we both knew that it was not going to work, having another baby won't solve the problems in our house, I don't think that our baby hate her, I just think that my baby knows that her mother is not the mothering type and if she had spent time with her like she was supposed to, I am sure that they would have a relationship by now. I hate to admit this but I can't make her something that she is not.
"Another baby is not going to fix this." I said and dragged my suitcase out of the bedroom, I left her on the floor crying. I really wanted to make this work. I wanted to fight for my marriage but there is nothing left to fight for. I wish that this was about Abigail, that would make things so much easier. At least I would have someone else other than myself to blame for all of this but it has nothing to do with her. My marriage has run its course.
I might not be happy about this whole thing and mainly because this is not what I wanted for sure, I wanted to make it work, I wanted to make sure that I don't fail in this but it seems like I am bound for failure when it comes to relationships, that I failed at making two women happy. I guess I have to accept that maybe I don't need a serious relationship afterall.