Sun Seth Memories

CHAPTER 7

The Best Friend's Advice

SETH'S POINT OF VIEW

Our dinner ended peacefully, the same thing from the mall did not happen which I'm truly grateful for. Sun and I had a little talk, let me correct that, Sun kept talking to me, telling me stories of what he was doing at work he also did not forget to mention the names of who he works with, their complete name if I may add and their gender or whether they're alphas, omegas or betas.

It was funny how he was so quick to add that information when he remembers. To be honest, I had fun during our dinner. It was the first after that happened that I got to enjoy eating dinner outside without feeling anxiety or fear.

I fidget the hem of my shirt while averting my eyes on the wall behind him. My heart feels weird. "T-thanks..." I whispered looking down this time. I couldn't look at Sun, there was something about the way he looks at me since we arrived. It's... It's different from his usual way of looking at me.

I heard him cleared his throat before he answered, "always, you're always welcome, Seth,"

I look at him abruptly. I wasn't able to stop myself and looked at him because of the way he said my name and I was right. His eyes looked a little sad even though he's smiling at me.

I don't know what to say, I can only stay still like an i***t.

"I'm...—"

"You don't have to force yourself around me, remember that. The mere fact that you smiled at me and talked to me is enough for me." He smiled.

How can he be so... patient? He's an alpha, isn't he? So why does he act differently? This may sound prejudice against him and the alphas but it's the truth. Naturally, alphas are domineering, they're dominant. It's in their nature to get what they want, to mark when they want to, to mate when they want to. Alphas are born above others. It's what they label as natural, acceptable even. It is what is expected of them.

"I'll go ahead," Sun spoke breaking me from my reverie. Without waiting for my answer, he turned around and walked away.

I didn't know what came to me but, "w-wait!" I slightly yelled to him. Sun looked back with a confused expression. I look down and sigh before I look at him again. I let out a small smile before speaking, "thank you. I had fun today. Good... good night!" Without waiting for his answer I closed the door shut a little loud than I wanted but still, I'm relieved I had the chance to tell him what I felt today. It wasn't, though.

I cupped my chest where my beating heart is, it's beating loudly and fast! I didn't know I was this nervous just admitting what I felt today, anyway, it was worth it.

I didn't know... Sun's smile could shine as bright as it did a while ago. It was... amazing.

~

I stared at the ceiling blankly. My tired limbs finally relaxed although I feel too lazy to move even my fingers. I glanced to my right where my phone is. I should send a message to Viv. I was typing a message when her name flashed on my screen.

I chuckle before answering, "I was about to text you," I tell her.

I heard her yawn from the other side before she replied, "You did? Oh well, a call is better than texts anyway. So, how have you been wherever you are?"

I chuckle again hearing how dismissive but obviously interested she sounded. She wants to sound uninterested but failing. "I'm okay, I honestly did not think I'd be okay here," I admitted.

Viv gasped. "Is that for f*****g real, Seth? You? The human who hates anywhere but your apartment is okay somewhere else?!" She exclaimed exaggerating my point.

I rolled my eyes but I couldn't refrain from smiling. She has a point though, but I don't hate other places, I simply don't feel comfortable somewhere outside my apartment.

Although Sun's mansion is huge... it doesn't feel cold or isolated, if anything, I noticed the mansion feels livelier. It's comfortable in a way, I still feel anxious from time to time but I think I kind of got used to seeing a lot of people.

"I don't hate t —"

"— oh shush, whatever. I'm more interested in that place you feel comfortable. Don't tell me you're in a mot —"

"— Okay, stop. Don't use your wild imagination too much, Viv. I'm in a decent place, not the kind of place you're currently imagining." I cut her off before she wanders the topic further. Viv is a little, no, she is wild. I often wondered how a beta woman like her is my best friend and up until I still haven't found the answer.

"Sheesh, boring." I can hear the roll in her eyes along the line. I laugh at that. "So, what's with the sigh?" She asked all of a sudden.

Oh... She noticed. Aside from being wild, sexually, I don't know what the right term would be, Viv is also sharp. Too sharp if I may add.

"I... I have something to tell you," I intended to keep this matter a little longer but I feel guilty keeping an important matter from Viv, my best friend who has seen the worst of worst state I could be.

I started telling her everything, from the moment Sun and I first encountered each other until this dinner and what I felt... Even my fears and doubts. I feel sorry feeling this way, I feel sorry that I am this way. I want to be honest but I feel that I'm deceiving Sun at the same time. It feels confusing that I don't know what I want to do and what I feel, if what I feel is even real or whether this is true, this entire situation or I'm just playing on someone's palm and plans.

I'm scared... and I'm scared to admit that to Sun.

"...hah... That sure sounds tough," Viv breathed on the other line. I looked down. Viv sounded problematic. I knew it, this... I, I'm a horrible person to do that. I'm giving Sun mixed signals when I'm not sure of my decisions myself. I bit my lower lip while my hands holding the phone is shaking. "Hey Seth," Viv called me, "tell me, is he big?"

"VIV!!!" I yelled abruptly with my eyes wide. "Don't ask such a perverted question!"

She loudly laughs on the other line. What is so funny? And to think I was so serious, gah!

"Duh, I'm just curious. Okay then, is he handsome? How does he look? Looks yummy, yes?"

I shut my eyes tightly while massaging my temple, this conversation is hopeless without a doubt.

"Viv... seriously..."

"Yeah, yeah, you're being serious. I notice something while you were telling me about Mr. Sunshine —"

" — Sun,"

"— Yeah, Sun. Jeez, so uptight," she heaved a deep sigh, "those were your fears, Seth. Your fears alone, fear of what you should do, what you should decide. Your fear of alphas and the outside because of what happened, by the way, f**k that damned manager. I wish I was with you then, damn. Anyway, as I was saying, those fear that you always had, that I can understand, but, based on your story, aside from me, I can tell that you, in a way, trust that man and you don't know why too, right?"

"... I do?"

Viv chuckles, "I don't know, but it is what it sounds like. I know how much you fear being in someone new's presence but you were telling me about every little fear you have yet you voiced none of what you fear about that man, except for him being an alpha, that too, Seth, it doesn't look like you fear him as he is but with what he is. You said he was different, different from other alphas, that's concerning on your part but at the same time you wanted to know why he's different."

I bit my lower lip, it's like Viv is hitting me with points that I failed to notice, no, facts that I ignored. Was I too anxious to recognize them? Is it worth noticing?

"Seth, I know this sounds cliché and cringe but... only your heart knows what you truly want. I'm not saying be stupid or anything, I just think that you are slowly and subconsciously recognizing that Sun is different and you must stick to it. Observe him, study him and tell him if there is something you don't feel comfortable with, no matter what it is and if that man stayed, if that man still claims to be your husband despite how annoying your demands are maybe, just maybe, you and him were meant to be a married couple more than in papers."

"Can I... do that? Won't I—"

"— the Seth I know may have fears but he isn't a coward. You're honest and straightforward, sometimes it's too much but you are what you are, if he accepts that then you may have found your happily ever after... with a huge dîck I hope."

"VIV!!!!" Ahhh! How can she be so blatant?!

She burst out laughing over the phone, she sounded hysterical honestly.

"Sorry! Your reactions are cute as always. Phew..." She chuckles a little, "anyway, no matter what you decide I support you as long as I see that it is what makes you happy because if not, b***h, I will push you to that happiness even if I have to beat you to it."

I cringe, "you are too violent,"

"Aha, I've been told."

I smiled because of that. "Thank you for listening, I'm sorry for keeping it a secret until now,"

"Yeah, you should be." I flinched. She sounded mad all of a sudden, I feel more guilty. "Nah, just kidding and I'm always willing to listen, Seth. Always one call away, I'm a love guru if you're not aware."

"Pfff! Since when? Love guru without love life?" I teased chuckling.

"Ahh, so that's how it is. Here comes your honesty, Seth." She retorted while trying to sound mad but I can picture her smiling right now.

"Oops, my bad!"

"Whatever. Your love story is straight out of a romance novel though, so much that it's giving me goosebumps."

"Hey! That's mean!"

Viv and I burst out laughing and continued talking, we talked about a lot of things, from her activities to her non-existent love-life, we teased each other as if small kids.

My talk with Viv was so refreshing I completely forgot my worries and I slept late... so late.