The Werewolf Nanny.

13

These next few days were the worst that I could remember ever happening in my life. The night I walked out of the house instead of Alex coming to explain or just for him to come get me he sent Jon. I didn't sleep in the room with him, but I found myself in the bed the next morning, but Alex was gone. He was really doing this?

Then there the diner parties he took me to, he had me dressed in the most beautiful dresses,ever and he would act loving and caring then in the night he wouldn't touch me or even hug me anymore. That was doing something to my wolf and slowly it started to affect me. Never in front of him, but I would go some where and just cry, was I getting depressed? I ate my emotions in front of him, but deep down I wanted his touch, his kiss, anything, but I wasn't going to beg for it. Then one day there was a pack meeting and Emma was back home, he went up to her and hugged her.

My wolf exploded so fast, and I quickly walked outside to hide the fact I was going to puke. After I was done I silently cried, what the f**k did I get myself into, was this the rest of my life?

"Hey?"

I turned so quickly, to find Jon. He looked worried, as he came closer. Before I could really think better of it I hugged him, he hugged me back, and I cried like a baby. He rubbed my back.

"Hey, what's going on?"

"Everything! Jon, I don't know what to do!"

"Here come on, let's go for a walk."

He lead me down the stairs and out to the field.We walked and as soon as we were far enough, he turned to me.

"I have no idea, what's going on, Alex doesn't want me anymore or...I don't know, he doesn't touch me, hug me or even anything, he hardly talks to me at all, he sends you or Ben to talk to me...He didn't send you to talk to me did he?"

"No, I walked out here on my own, you've been like a little sister to me, Liz, I can't stand seeing you hurt."

"I guess he's on his ass eating popcorn, watching how I quickly fall apart!"

Jon laughed but shook his head.

"What happened you guys looked okay at first?"

"If even that, did you know our first time my wolf and his started the whole thing, and we finished it?"

"No, but even that is weird."

"Right, I really don't know what to do Jon, it's starting to affect me so deeply, it's not even funny."

"Let's head back, but you two really need to talk to each other, I have noticed he's avoiding you at all cost, and I'm not sure what that's about."

HIs words didn't sound a 100% true but I wasn't going to press him for information, I was just glad I could talk about this to someone. Before we reached the house,  I stopped and looked at Jon.

"Thank you for listening, but you can't tell anyone okay."

"I would be killed other wise." I laughed and gave him a hug, and he hugged me back. Suddenly someone yanked me away from him, I fell away, but who ever was punching Jon, then I realized it was Alex.

"Alex, stop!" But before I could go toward them Ben grabbed me by the arms.

"She's only mine, mine!" he yelled at Jon and punched him over and over.

My wolf came forward, and I ordered Ben to let go, he did and I ran at Alex.

"Get off of him!" I yelled he pushed me away and suddenly I felt the sting of a slap across my face. That stopped the fight, as he glared down at me, I was on the ground. I spit out blood, and Marsha came toward me I shook my head, and looked up at Alex. I slowly got to my feet, and stood in front of him.

"How long?" he spat at me, "how long has he been your lover!?"

I smiled a humorless smile and looked away from him, then before I could think I slapped him back.

"Never, not once has he touched me, if that's what you think of me, then why am I even here!?"

I pushed past him and just ran where I had no idea.

"Elizabeth!"

(Alexander's POV)

I called after her, I hadn't meant to slap her, but when I saw her in Jon's arms, all I saw was red. These past few days, have been unbearable. Having her so close and just not touching her. My wolf wanted nothing but to take her to some cave and have his way with our mate, but I'm realizing everything I did to Shannon wasn't fair and it hadn't been right. I just couldn't stop seeing how Elizabeth made those that disrespected her respect her, and how she had put that challenge out there if there were anyone in disagreement with her, they could fight it out. Shannon didn't have that chance, nobody respected her, when I was gone, and even when I was there they would sometimes disrespected her in front of me, I would later punish them, but it wasn't the same.

I couldn't help feel guilty, I found my mate and was happy about it, but I made Shannon's life horrible. Everything in me knew what I was doing to Elizabeth, was going to come back to bite me in the ass, and for a while I had made myself so paranoid that she might have a lover, that when I saw her leave and Jon follow my mind went to that idea again.

"Alexander, we'll find her!"

"No, I need to find her myself!"

"Boss," Jon was on his feet and was healing," you need to stay here for the others, Ben and I will find her, she couldn't of gone to far."

"I'll excuse myself with them and will join you soon."

They both nodded and phased and headed to find her. My thought was she won't run into rouges. I asked Marsha to watch the kids, I excused myself the our guests and followed Ben and Jon to find Elizabeth.

We searched for hours and found nothing, then I smelled the air and I was catching whiffs of her scent in the trees.Smart girl, but then it went cold again. Now where the heck did she go? We looked and looked but didn't find her, I was pretty sure it was hours, but we never found an other sign of her. Pretty soon Marsha mind linked me and said the guests were leaving, I had to go back, and just prayed Elizabeth would come back.

I got back and bid the guest farewell, they all wanted to see Elizabeth, and say good bye, I made the excuse that she was feeling under the weather, some teased that pup number three was on it's way, and some just thought it was weird, but accepted it. I couldn't sleep that night, she hadn't come back, it was already two O'clock at night, and she still hadn't come back.

I would be able to find her if our bond was set, but I couldn't bring myself to open it, and have her feel everything I was feeling. Even when I wanted to find her. Early the next morning I was about to head out again, when she was walking up to the house. She walked inside and up the stairs, to our room and into the bathroom. I sat on the bed and waited for her.

(Liz's POV)

I had slept in a tree last night and decided to head back, they hadn't been able to find me last night, I had hid in the pond, got out and made a fire and dried my clothes and was surprise I didn't draw attention to myself, but once my clothes were dry I put them on and slept for a few hours in a tree.

I had a nightmare, but it didn't felt like mine, like Alex's wall had sprung a leak and I was getting flashes of his old memories.

He was right he and Shannon had been in love, but like me he wanted everyone to know who she was, but nobody accepted her as their Luna, and the disrespect got worse, she had cried to him and he did something, but it only worked when he was around. While he was gone, these assholes, pushed her around, like a school girl among bullies, even when she was pregnant. They were merciless. She didn't die of a infection, she had suffered an injury she wasn't even aware of and had bleed internally until she died. I think even Shannon was showing me how everything was, becasue when i woke up I smelled her, I had already caught her scent from before, when we stayed in the old pack house.

The only things she had to save her, was her children, they were the only reason she woke up in the morning.

I got done in the shower and wrapped a towel around me, and headed out. Alex was sitting on the bed. I didn't acknowledge him, just continued getting dressed.

"We need to talk."

"Do we, I think I'm clear on what's going on."

"No, you don't and I think I really need to clarify ."

"No, need I'm a w***e sleeping around with your men, because you won't so, no need."

He went quiet as I pulled my shirt on, and grabbed some socks, and my shoes and walked past him. He grabbed my arm, making me look at him.

"I didn't mean to hit you last night, and I'm sorry."

"You have a lot to be sorry for I'll just add that to the list."

"What's that suppose to mean?"

"Nothing you don't already know, now let go."

He did and I walked down stairs and greeted the kids like usual.

In the forest I established if he wanted to think the worst of me and on top of that not touch me, then fine. I wasn't getting a lover but I would do what he did just dive into work or a project. I would visit the kids in the orphanage and spent time with them, with Aaron and Eden. There Aaron met his best friend, and Eden just loved playing with the other little girls. I would read them stories and plan for little activities. The other women were fantastic, and even Emma was here with her kids, she was helping out but also stayed in the pack house with them.

I got to know her and realized that she was an awesome woman, not very into grand things, but she had ideas for these kids. Jason was the one who thought she was weak for wanting a simple life. They had spilt and it had almost killed her, but here she was still fighting for her kids.

"So when are you two having one?"

"I ...um I don't think anytime soon, with us back and him  getting things working and running again."

"True, and these little guys are not easy to watch after."

"You got that right." We laughed but she could see past my mask.

"Don't give up on him, he still can't forgive himself with what happened to Shannon."

"Right." I smiled and acted not to know what she meant.

Later that day I was walking around the village and they had a small food store, and went with the kids to grab somethings, we were having a fun time, until I walked out and one of the she-wolves pushed me, and I almost fell with Eden.

"oops, sorry didn't see you there."

I looked at her, she really thought I wouldn't do anything, she chuckled to her friends, I kept walking with the kids and they kept doing some stupid things, once we got close enough to the house, I gave my bag to Aaron and asked him to take his little sister inside, he did. Then I turned back to the b***h.

"Whoa the almighty, Luna!" I grabbed her by the throat and slammed her to the ground, I felt her throat crave when I slammed her down, she was gone.

I looked at the others pissed as all hell, they looked at me in fear.

"You want to bully someone, I'm right here, come on!"

They hurried away, I walked up to the house and headed into the kitchen to get a drink of water, I have just killed someone with my own bare hands. Was it bad that I didn't really care?

These people really wanted to push buttons then let them, but this b***h wasn't going to feel bad about it.

Once I had dinner ready and the kids were eating, Alex walked in and looked at me.

"Come out here now!"

"I'll be right back you guys."

They nodded and I followed Alex outside. There was a group of people outside, with the woman's body from earlier.

"She killed Alice in cold blood!" shreiked one of the friends, I looked at Alex.

"Is this true, did you kill this woman?"

I looked at the others and in a very serious face, stepped forward.They all started to cuss me out and were getting loud.

"Shut up!" I yelled they did.

"A lot of you think, you can disrespect me and my children, I killed her because she wanted to cause me harm, and didn't care I had children with me, I am aware I am new to you people but I will be damned if I let this disrespect continue, I am your Luna, like it or not. Like I said you have a problem take it up with me, not the Alpha, and not with my children, and if you want to be abandoned by both and be killed one by one like flies, we came make that happen too. There will be order in this village, and you can fall in live or be killed."

I looked at Alex and he understood why I had done what I did.

"I second the Luna's words, anymore disrespect toward anyone, human, child, or lesser wolf will be a death sentence, we need to help each other, not step on those less fortunate, or you are free to leave the village, but be warned you are not welcomed back."

There was a silence over the people and they all walked away.

Once everyone was gone, I tried to walk past him, he grabbed my arm and pulled me close to him. And kissed me, I fought for a while then just melted.

"You are fantastic." He said as I pulled away from him.

"Nothing that didn't need to happen."

He nodded but didn't let me go.

"Can we go for a walk, we really need to talk?"

"Sure."

We walked hand in hand mainly because he wouldn't let me go, once we reached the pond, he seemed more calm.

"I know i've been saying it a lot and it seems to be in vain, but I really am sorry."

"What I'm not understanding is for what?"

He went quiet, looking out at the pond, lost in thought for a minute.

" I was weak, and selfish."

"Mistakes aren't weakness, Alex, they're a part of life, now if you make it twice that's more stupidity and maybe a little weakness but obviously you didn't learn from it."

"I guess I haven't learned then."

"Why, do you say that?"

A dark shadow seemed to cross his face.

"Shannon, would cry herself to sleep every night, because she was being bullied by the others, at the time I made it clear she was to be respected but when I was gone, it wasn't like that, she would cry to me, and I had no idea what to do, between the pack and congress, I couldn't breath, and there was a point where I actually thought how I wished I had been strong enough to let her go, and have her marry a human man, but I was selfish and I couldn't let her go,  I guess my selfishness killed her in the end."

I looked at him and there were tears sliding down his face, I looked into his face, and cleaned away the tears.

"I think both of you were pretty selfish, she wasn't tied to you like I am, she made her choice to stay and put up with the abuse, she wanted to prove something to you to the others, the problem is a human can't compete with a werewolf, she couldn't show the people she deserved to be respected, the way they wanted, and they didn't see her as a threat or strength so step all over her, in a way they killed her."

He growled softly.

"I just wish I had been the one to force her to see that she needed to leave, and get away from all this, but..."

"Alex, you need to move on and realize no amount of punishment you give yourself will make the pain go away, and the move you avoid the good things you just become bitter and soon the important things won't matter anymore, and you have kids that need you, and now a pack."

He nodded and looked at me.

"Will you help me?"

I looked into his eyes and saw that he really wanted to make this better, and I couldn't bring myself to be mean not to him. I kissed him once on the lips.

"Of course you jerk."

He smiled at me and hugged me tightly. This was a good place for a new start, for both of us, hopefully for the best.