Leave Me Alone Alpha

Chapter 5

I stared at my mate as tears rushed down her face. She is trembling and I can't stand it. Shwe looks so afraid of me. I absolutely hate it. I watched her small form tremble when she get so f*****g tiny.

"Baby",I start as her body trembles.

"No not anymore",she whimpers and my heart feels like it shattered in my chest.

I love to kneel before her but make no moves to touch her. My girl is so thin now and I hate myself. I hate that I thought with my c**k and not my heart. Even my wolf hastes me.

"I'm sorry, baby, more than you will ever know",I said, reaching out to wipe her tears away. She just sobs harder. Her body shakes as sobs wrack her form, making my heart sink more.

"Please just let me go Justin, I can't and won't go through what you did to me last year. I can't be tossed aside and lose more than a mate. My pup died because of you and I wished to the moon goddess that I bled to death when the bleeding started",she cries out, wiping her own face.

"I will never hurt you ever again, because for leaving I can't baby I need you",I said, pulling her to me. Just like I predicted, she tried to fight me off. I just held on tighter. Her weak attempts to get out of my hold made my wolf howl in agony as he felt how much weight our mates lost. She was too f*****g thin and frail now.

"No...No stop it",she sobbed weakly. f**k, my baby was a mess and I needed to fix it.

"Baby please, I'm so f*****g sorry. I hate that I hurt you like this",I said, kissing her head. Her little body is pressed to mine as she sobs harder.

"Please let go",she whimpers.

"I can't, baby I don't want to",I said, kissing her head and stroking her back. I hate myself even more as she shudders and cries in my chest. Once her walls go down, I feel all her pain through our mate bond and I don't know how she lived like that. I just hold my little mate and let her cry. She sobs so hard and I just hold her regretting what I have done. She wails for our loss and time I let slip away for a rough f**k.

"Baby, you need to come home. My enemy knows my mate and he knows you're here. I already killed a rogue at your back door. It isn't safe here anymore",I said, feeling her tense in my arms. I knew she would tense up and I prepared for her to try to run again.

"Does he know you rejected me and doesn't care what happens to me? Hell you don't even love me",she mumbles more to herself.

"I do love you baby, I swear I do",I said, kissing her head. My wolf wants to reclaim her but I hold off because she needs to want it. I just rock her till the tears stop.

We sat holding each other and for the occasional sniffles or shudder, I thought she was sleeping. She is absently rubbing my arm and I love the tingles I receive from her touch. She sighs sadly. I feel her sadness and it feels suffocating.

"I don't want to come back just to be rejected again, Justin, it would really destroy me. I am not letting any male ever again destroy me for cheap ass",she utters.

I just held her tighter, feeling how bony she got. I was a fool to call her names and to reject my one and only. She just sits in my arms shuddering once in a while. This sucks ass.

"Baby I'm gonna tell you why, how and when I f****d up and I want you to listen to it. When I'm done I will answer all the questions to the best of my ability",I said, kissing her head.

"Okay",she mumbles. She feels like she just gave up and I hate that.

"First I did cheat and I'm sorry for it. I was stupid and immature, thinking I settled down too fast. Second, rejecting you was out of my control. I slipped a drug created by vampires. They controlled what I said to you that night. Third, Lisa was behind it all and I banished her from my pack effective immediately. I know this doesn't help our situation but I needed you to know",I said, waiting for her response.

"Why did you never tell me Justin?",she said softly. She looked broken and withdrawn, something I had never seen Aurora do. My mate was bubbly and cute. This new version is sad and withdrawn now, all thanks to me. I f****d up the greatest thing I ever had for s*x, plain and simple. I am a piece of s**t.

"Baby, I had to buy time to gather all my information and report it to the proper councils",I said, kissing her head.

"You still cheated Justin and I don't know if I can forgive that",she whimpers. Her little body shakes as she wraps her arms around her smaller body like she is cold. She opens her closet looking for her suitcase and I see how neat my little beauty still is and I want nothing more then to hold her.

I just hold her as more tears come and I know I need to make up for my stupid mistakes. Aurora is my everything and she is the perfect mate. I just f****d up by not holding her to a greater value than I should have. I will get my mate back and I don't care what lengths I have to go to. She will be mine again.

"Aurora, we're going home",I said, standing up to take her to go pack. She doesn't respond as I head to her room. She walked to her room looking utterly defeated and sad. This look killed me as she looked at where to start.