Master Gallagher

Called it a game

It was like a game, a game that left me petrified with fear and excitement. A game that.. made my heart want to jump out of my rib cage. I would lie awake at night replaying everything... I really did that? I really had the guts to do such. The worst of it all is, I did not even feel the least guilty.

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"Mary, Liam wants to walk the dog today." Master William said during breakfast.

"Liam did not say that." Mary rudely replied.

"Liam, don't you want to walk the dog to Oliver's house?"

"Yes yes yes please dad!" Liam replied eagerly. "Rosy could play with Oliver's dog as well."

"See.. he said he wants to walk the dog and he certainly can't walk the dog by himself." Master William said giving Mary a dirty glare. You may be asking yourself where Lady Tracy went off to? Well there was an upcoming wedding in London. She was absolutely honored to be called over to see the design that the bride required. Master William had not treated me badly.. not even a little bit or at all. Infact, when I was distracted he would wink at me from afar or give me his infectious smile. It was weird.. the main point is, we had not managed to be together. Mary really kept her promise. She would bring a mattress and sleep with me in the basement while telling me her really fun stories about how she grow up in the Durham home.

I wished she could at least give me some moments alone. I did not wish to tell her that I was wearing Elliot's ring and I really liked what Will did to me. I wouldn't dare call him Will in front of anyone else. That would raise suspicions.

"Mary, let's hurry and get Rosy." Liam said immediately getting off the table.

"What about Panashe?" Mary added.

"No, father said Nase is very tired with house chores. You don't do anything so you will help me give Rosy a walk."

Master William took a sip of his tea and gave Mary a dirty glare.

She returned it.

"Mary!!!" Liam pulled at Mary's arm.

"Be patient, Liam." She added.

"Pleaaaaase!" He said with a tooth missing which was honestly adorable.

When Liam ran off, Mary whispered. "You're such a shameless man."

Master William blew her a kiss. "Not as shameless as you though. Don't think.. i do not know why Durham brought you to stay here. Lay off my girl, Mary. I'm warning you. Your indecent behavior is not welcome here. It's disgusting and you should be ashamed even before the lord."

Mary was left silent.

I did not understand what Master William meant when he said Mary was indecent. She was very kind and loving. She was awfully too close for my liking but may be that's what friends did. I had not had many friends in my life. I thought of her as a great person with lots of banters. She could never harm a fly.

"Walk like a lady, would you?" William yelled. Mary turned her head and flared her nose at Master William who gave her a bright smile. I didn't understand this conversation but never the less. It didn't really bother me.

As soon as the door closed.

I heard the utensils drop.

Within seconds Will was standing behind me. The reason I say Will is because he was only Will to me, that's when he was most kind. He was only Master William when he was with the other elites who made slaves miserable and had nothing to talk about except compare wealth and argue about politics.

He didn't say a word, a smile perked up on my lips. He laid a sloppy kiss on my neck and down to my collarbone.

"This is hard." He whispered. "Four days."

"It wasn't that long." I replied turning around to face him. He swiftly lifted me off my feet and backed me up against the kitchen counter.

"I missed you." He said immediately entwining our lips.

"Missed me or the s*x?" I questioned boldly in between the kiss.

"I suppose both."

"I feel like that's all I'm good for." I told him. Quickly pushing him away.. he seemed hurt. He ran his hand through his blonde locks.

"It's not like that and you know it." He said holding my chin up so I would at up at his ocean blue eyes that I really adored and made me weak on my knees. I didn't reply. "I can't exactly take you out on dates and show you off."

"I know.. you don't have to tell me every other time we're alone together."

"I'm sorry."

"It's fine, maybe we shouldn't do this."

"No, Panashe. I can't—" He said in a panicked voice. "I really can't imagine not being able to think about you or even looking forward to being with you. I know you always say you have nothing to live for but honestly.. if I can't be with you. I have nothing to live for either. Not even Liam could convince me."

"Will, how can you say that! He is your son and he doesn't deserve that!"

"I know.. I feel guilty for feeling that way but, I certainly will not lie. I care more about you than any present person in my life. It's not just about s*x, I suppose that's just a bonus. I love being with you, even if we aren't doing anything. I love being with you even if we're just sat in silence.. look... uh I don't say this much infact hardly ever unless I'm saying it to my son but.. Panashe, I love you. Regardless of the situation, I have tried really hard to hate you but I just can't. The more I hate you, the more I found myself falling for you. Please.. I'm begging you. Don't give up on this."

I was speechless.

When Elliot told me, he loved me. It felt unnatural, how he loved me with only knowing each other for a week. We only had two encounters and at times, we had not even spoke for more than thirty minutes and he loved me. I wish things were that easy. When Will told me he loved me, it felt somewhat right and genuine. It didn't feel like he needed to say it.

"I don't know.." I panicked.

"It's fine. I understand, I did some really horrible things in the past. I plan on making it up to you."

"I don't like this!" I told him. He immediately looked concerned. "I don't like constantly having to look over my shoulder every time we're together."

"We will be careful then.."

"I'm afraid, Will."

"Nothing horrible will happen."

"You can't be sure about that, what if you're not there to defend me or protect me?"

"I—"

"You can't promise that you will always be there because we both know that's not true."

"So what are you proposing?"

"I'm getting married. I will move to the Cunningham's ranch. I feel distance between us will make everything easier."

Will was quiet, he moved away and over around the kitchen. I felt nervous. He finally came back and didn't give me time to respond as he laid his soft lips on mine. I returned the kiss missing how his lips always felt on mine. He let his hands roam all over my body, playing with the buds of my hard n*****s over my dress. He swiftly held me up, he lifted me up like I weighed a feather. Making sure not to break the kiss. For a moment in between the kiss, I decided to open my eyes, startled because his were already open. I blushed.

"Do you want me to?"

I nodded.

He didn't waste time, taking upstairs. Straight to the guest room. When he laid me on the bed for a moment he just stood there looking at me. "You're so beautiful." He said under his breath, it felt awfully weird to hear him saying that because all he ever did before was insult me.

He helped me remove my dress. His hands were rough in texture but always soft and holding me delicately. We both knew Mary and Liam would be back soon. This had to be fast. I missed him too, I missed his touch. I missed being full. He bit on my lower lip which made me moan. His fingers pumped inside me with emergency before I knew it. I was releasing the knot that had built up throughout this whole scene.

My body craved for him. Every part of me always did. At first I tried really hard to deny it and be disgusted. Truthfully, there were moments were I wanted it too but pretend to fight against him.

His kisses were soft and feathery. He licked my earlobe which I thought was very weird but I liked it. Whenever we were together, clothes were always gone within seconds. I never understood how.. Even after earning an orgasm from his long fingers, I still wanted him and he knew it. I never had to say anything. He teased me a bit by rubbing his girth on my clit but when our lips finally touched and he pushed into my moist folds. I immediately arched my back... from a foreign feeling. It was pain and pleasure at the same time. I could never get used to his size, every time he entered me felt like the first time. He hissed incoherent words as we stood still for a few moments.

I wrapped my arms around his neck. He stared at me for a bit. He let out a smile. "What?" I asked him. "Nothing.." He said biting on his lower lip. "You're very pretty and you don't even know it."

This made my heart simmer. I felt overwhelmed also because we were having a conversation in the middle of having.. he finally decided to start moving. I whimpered, I realized.. he loved. Whenever I did that. His hands held my full breasts.. he took his time which was torture. His hair was soft and a nice handle. He smelt so good, he felt so good. He continued with the slow movements, I could feel my orgasm building up. He made sure I felt every inch of him. Every time he slammed into me, I almost cried from pleasure. Squinting my eyes closed because it was too much to handle. I couldn't never get used to this. I loved the way his muscles moved whenever he was on top of me. He was just so.. perfect.

Perfect for me.

He picked up the pace and started going faster. "W-will.." I moaned. This made him only go faster. With three last hard thrusts.. I let go but something felt weird... it was warm and fuzzy inside my core..

"Will..." I whispered. I didn't know why I was on the verge of tears. "What's that.. wait what? What have you done.." I immediately tried to push him away but he wouldn't budge.

"I had to.." He said softly. "Please don't cry.." he held me close. Honestly, I couldn't help it. I couldn't help but feel my life was over.

"Y-you're s-selfish.." I cried but Will wouldn't get off me. "You just ruined me."

"I would be lying if I said I'm sorry."

"GET OFF ME... YOU'RE JUST MAKING IT WORSE. I'M GOING TO BATH." I yelled, when he wouldn't move for the first time I clapped him. His right cheek was left with a finger print. He didn't do anything except let out a smirk. He pulled out and laid back on the bed, amused.

"You're evil!" I yelled once more buttoning my dress up.

"I will be a nice person and tell you that.. no matter how many times you bath and scrub... it's done. Don't waste your time being angry—"

"Don't touch me..." I said almost immediately when he stood up naked coming towards me. At this point I could feel his c*m seeping out from the folds of my v****a. I hated him and did not even want to see his face.

I didn't waste time reaching for the door and banging it closed behind me. Maybe I should have taken Liam and his dog Rosy for a walk. I really did this to myself...

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This game wasn't fun anymore, I thought to myself as I hugged Elliot good bye after we had visited his parents. I felt horrible. It had been two weeks and I could not stop thinking about it. Elliot and I had spoken to Pastor Richardson and he was delighted to wed us. Our wedding wouldn't be anything big or fancy.. just family mainly slaves from the Cunningham's and Gallagher's. Lady Tracy was happy to make me a dress as well. I told my mother and she said I needed to lay with Elliot as soon as possible.. Incase I was actually.. pregnant but what would happen when the baby came out looking nothing like me or Elliot. Mary went to give William a piece of her mind after she asked me what was wrong and I was crying.. I told her. At this point every time Lady Tracy spoke to me, I felt scared imagining her reaction.

Him—

I didn't want to even see his face.

I hated him.

Deep down, I knew I always meant the opposite whenever I said this and it actually bothered me.