Fading Stars and Silent Tears

impression on Seraphina (Part 1) [Aurelius's POV]

"Oh, Seraphina, you want me to talk about her?"

"I have so much to s– My bad, yes, I will start from the beginning. Sorry, I got carried away."

"Well, as you probably know, if you read our little background (Read it if you did not, please), you should know that my past is not glorious. I grew up with a lot of traumas. But hey, you are not here to read about me; you are here for my impressions of Seraphina, so I will start."

"When I first saw her, it was in the classroom on my first day at that 'school'. Can we call that a school? Can we? Anyway, that's not the subject..."

"The first time I saw her, I absolutely wanted to know her. I was having that kind of aura that I know automatically matched mine, but I was too shy to go talk to her. And of course, even if I was desperately searching for love, I knew it would take a lot of time for me to trust her and to open up. At least that's what I thought."

"She was cute. I mean, she still is cute, but as the author wants us to talk about how it was in the past, then that's why I should do that... My love, please forgive me. You will remain cute forever in my eyes!"

"Anyway, let's get back. Sorry, I'm always excited when I talk about her."

"I absolutely needed to befriend her and try to establish a relationship with her. Actually, to be honest, friendship was enough for me. But later on, I started to get jealous silently for no reason, and that's how I noticed that I fell in love with her. I'm practically sure I'm the one who fell first, and she fell harder, type of thing..."

"So I tried to make a move on her after one long month. Why? Well, uh, because I had observed her. Yeah, I know it's creepy, but I promise it was not to do anything weird. It was actually to see which approach was the best... And I came to the conclusion that none of what I planned would work. So I went to her with no mask and completely myself. I figured out that this was my best chance."

"So we started to talk together after that month, and the more I talked to her, the more I fell in love. Occasionally, I was losing myself in her beautiful blue eyes for 0.01 seconds, yes, but of course, my shyness was stronger. I did not want to be weird to her, but I really wanted to lose myself in those. They are so beautiful."

"What? You want me to talk about something else? Why? Because we have a word count? That's stupid. Rahhh, okay, as you wish, your commander..."

"Her personality? Well, she was kind, attentive, but unfortunately, she was a little too rocky, almost as if she made a shell to protect herself from me. At least that's what I thought. But it was not because of that that I gave up. I knew that girl could love, and I knew that was the kind of love and affection I was searching for. And I was not ready to let her go without trying, so I did what I had to do."

"I remained myself, as much as it needed for her shell to c***k, because I remember, she said that she liked my true self, so I knew it was the thing to do. So we remained chatting for at least two weeks, almost every day, by message or in person..."

"And one day, I chose to tell her about my feelings, but it did not go that well. But it did not go horribly wrong either. She said, and I remember word for word, 'Why not? There's no problem. I mean, the feeling between us is nice, so why would I say no?' It was at this moment that I actually tried for real to get her to officialize the thing."

"What did I do? Well, like I said, I remained myself, which means I was there for her when she needed. I listened to her every problem, even if it was hard for her to open up at first."

"Behind that shell, I knew that a charming girl was hiding, a girl who needed love as much as I needed. The good thing is that we were the same, so it was very easy to understand each other."

"I will not hide that during this time, I was also dealing with a breakup from someone I really loved, but who never wanted me for the guy I was, but more for the guy I was pretending to be. So I learned from that mistake and went directly to that girl with the mask down. And to be honest, I'm glad I did, because she got to fall in love with the person I was, and not the person I wanted her to see."

"Describe her? Oh boy, if only you knew. Can I? It's going to be long... You sure? Okay, thanks."

"Where to start? Oh yeah."

"It all started in a pitch-black room, hallway, world, take it as you want, and inside, there is me, around this broken world. Everything to me was black, white, and gray. I had no main objective except to survive and repeat the same day over and over... till one day I finally put an end to my misery. Then, that beautiful angel, colomn, again, take it as you want. She came to my rescue as a fallen angel with broken wings, almost as if she got rejected by God himself because she was too perfect for him, and suddenly, my nightmare transformed into a beautiful reality where colors were allowed to exist. She was standing there in front of me with her damaged wings, crying like she could feel all the pain I had in my heart. No words were coming out of her lips, yet I could understand all the meaning of her tears, so I hugged her in return. We embraced each other, and instead of words, our souls communicated for us, establishing a deep connection that no ordinary human could ever bear."

"As time passed with her by my side, my dark thoughts faded away, and for the first time in my life, I wanted to live. But not only live, the dreams I had once started to come back, and the meanings that accompanied them were stronger than ever, and the voices in my head shut down. For the first time in my life, I was experiencing true love, that genuine love that someone has for you without any back thoughts... For the first time, I found a meaning to the life that has been attributed to me, for the first time, I cried because I was so happy to breathe and hear my heart beating, which in the past was artificially dead. For the first time in my life, I was happy to wake up in the morning thinking that finally, I am worth something to someone."

"All those beautiful emotions made and make me so happy right now, and I thank you for allowing me to express all of that. You are the peace I need, the peace I always searched. Now, in return to you, my angel, I shall give you my: - Soul - Heart - Arms - Love - My existence

I owe you my life. Without you, I would certainly have been dead long ago. You are looking at me in a way nobody in this world ever looked at me, giving me a sense of accomplishment because all the search I did and efforts I displayed finally paid off."

"I vow my entire existence to you, your highness. You showed me that true love still exists in this broken world we actually live in, and for that, I would never be able to thank you enough and properly, so please once again accept this gift as a token of my gratitude."

"Upon the day you said yes, my life belonged to you. My entire being is at your disposition."

"My wish? I wish only one thing. I wish that my love is healthy, I wish her happiness, success, and that even if one day I am to disappear, I want her to know that I will continuously check on her and pray, even in the afterworld, for her security."

"Love strikes when you least expect it. If you get the chance to find the love of your life, please, I'm genuinely begging you, dear reader, fight for it. I fought for it to be where I am today. Don't let the past stick to you; you might lose the chance to know true love."

"For my part, it's difficult to say it for now, and it pains me not to be able to naturally react and say it as a normal person, but I'm proud of myself for also allowing me to be happy instead of being stuck in my past."

"And of course, I want to thank you once again, my love, for giving me that chance. You have no idea how much it means to me. You truly make me happy."

"I love you, my princess ❤️✨️."