My Perfect Mate

Trying to Heal

It had been a few weeks since I lost our baby. Gavin had been freezing me out, intentional or not. I think that it was hitting him harder than he wanted to let on. He was so used to being the strong, tough Alpha. He wasn’t used to showing much emotion. I would watch him from afar, just waiting for him to explode. I was expected to have a follow up appointment with Dr. Nelson from my surgery tomorrow. We had been on a strict “no s*x” regime. I think that it made it harder for Gavin to blow off steam. He had spent most of his time either in his office or the gym. Every time I tried to talk to him, he would be distracted or change the subject. As hard as it was for me, I slowly started moving forward. I wanted to keep my distance and let him figure out his own thoughts on his own time. I knew that he would talk to me when he was ready.

We decided not to tell anyone at first. Eventually we told our mothers, who to my surprise had both been through something similar. Both my mother and Diane had suffered the same thing with their first child. Surprisingly, they were my biggest support system through this. With my mate not talking to me and giving me the silent treatment, I haven’t been training or fighting much. I surrounded myself with wedding planning, that is if Gavin still wanted to marry me. I was so paranoid that this would keep happening and he would give up and move on. Scarlet was a big help, mentally.

Stella, I know that you’re hurting but you can’t think like that. Gavin loves us, no matter what. It’s just not the time. Maybe if you scaled back a little on training and traveling, it will give your body a break.

I know Scar, I just wish that I could talk to him. I’ve already been on hiatus from fighting and I can feel my body deteriorating. If I stopped training, I wouldn’t be my true self. Gavin and I have plenty of time to have kids, I can only be a warrior until my body can’t take it anymore.

I totally get it Stella, but maybe you should extend your rest order. See what happens. I’m not saying to give it up completely, just scale back a little.

I knew that she was right, I just didn’t want to have to give up something that I loved to do. I know that as a Luna, it is my job to produce a young Alpha, but my mind kept circling back to if we were ready or not. All of the stress was getting to me, I needed a bubble bath.

After about a half hour, I was getting wrinkly. As I was wrapping myself in my big, fluffy robe, I got a link from Katie.

Hey girly! I need to head up to meet with Gavin today, We’ll be there in about 30 minutes. How about a couple drinks tonight?

I wanted so badly to just get into sweats, but I knew that I also needed some Dr. Katie advice.

Sure baby, I just got out of the bath. How slutty are we getting?

I could hear her angel like giggle.

It has been a while since I’ve been that slutty. But out of respect for our men, I would say to keep it at least a little classy.

I rolled my eyes, did I even have a man anymore? I shook it off and walked towards the closet to find a slutty, yet classy outfit.

I stood in front of my mirror, I picked my second favorite pair of jeans. My first pair was shredded to bits after I shifted prematurely. They were dark wash, waist high jeans. I paired them with a black mid drift, so it exposed just a bit of tummy. I hooked my gold hoops in and scrunched my hair to re-shape my curls. I kept my makeup light with a light pink gloss. By the time I was done, I knew that Katie was here. I turned on my heels and headed to Gavin’s office.

I knocked lightly and waited to be called in. Gavin had always told me that I didn’t need to knock, I could have free reign of his office. With us being in a weird spot, I wanted to be extra cautious. “Come on in bug!” He called from the other side of the door. I slowly pushed open the door to see Matt and Katie sitting on the other side of his desk. Gavin was laughing and smiling at something that was just said. Well it’s good to see that he’s smiling, even if it’s not at me. I was instantly irritated. Was he just putting on a brave face or did he just despise me that much? Matt and Katie turned quickly with beaming smiles, “Hey bug! How are you doing?” I gave Matt a shy smile as I stepped forward and closed the door behind me. “I’m okay, I just wanted to check in. Katie and I are planning on getting drinks tonight. I wanted to see how the meeting was progressing.” both Matt and Gavin’s faces fell when they heard that Katie and I were going out. Matt gave Katie a crooked smile and c****d his eyebrow, “You two are going out by yourselves?” I walked in and propped myself on a nearby wall. Before Katie could say anything I swooped in to save us both. “Don’t worry Matty, I will guard your Luna with my life. We’re just going to go to Scotty’s for a couple and then we’ll come straight home.” Katie whipped back towards Matt and gave him a reassuring smile. Matt looked between the two of us a few times before turning to Gavin, “You’re okay with this man?” Gavin shrugged his shoulders. “I’m sure they’ll be fine.”

I couldn’t believe this fucker, a few weeks ago he would have flipped his lid. Now he seemed like he didn’t give a s**t. Whatever. Matt seemed to relax a little bit as their meeting continued. Gavin would normally pat his lap by now and gesture for me to sit on him. Today he seemed like he didn’t want anything to do with me. I was just the woman who lost his pup. I kept to myself as they wrapped up, Matt stood first. “Katie and I will head down to the second floor and settle in real quick. After that, she’s all yours bug.” Katie stood and grabbed Matt’s hand before blowing me a kiss and heading out of the office. Once the door was closed I decided that we needed to hash this s**t out. It had been far too long. Gavin looked surprised when I took a seat across from him. I crossed my arms and stared at him. I took a deep breath before ripping him a new one.

“What the f**k is going on with you? Why are you ignoring me? Just last month you were saying how much you needed me, how you couldn’t live without me. What happened a few weeks ago, was not my fault. So why are you making me feel like s**t?”

He was taken aback from my outburst. His face went blank before closing his eyes. When they re-opened, his eyes were black from rage. Good I want him to be mad, hopefully now he’ll tell me what his problem is. “Stella, I’m not trying to make you feel like s**t. Losing the baby was the worst thing that I have ever been through in my life. I know that it is not your fault, I just can’t believe how easily you moved on.” Now it was my turn to be shocked. I couldn’t help the rage that was bubbling inside my body. I stood up quickly, shoving the chair back against the wall with a bang. I slammed my hands on the edge of his desk and looked him square in the face. I could feel my body temperature rise and I knew that my eyes were glowing purple. I was ready to snap. “YOU THINK THAT THIS WAS EASY!” I pushed off his desk making it skid towards him. “How f*****g dare you! It tore me up inside, I have cried myself to sleep every night this week, but you wouldn’t f*****g know because you’ve been sleeping in here!” I pointed behind me towards the couch, that still had his blanket and pillow on it. “I have needed you so much more these last couple weeks but you decided to block me out. Every time I try to talk to you, you change the subject or just plain ignore me. We are supposed to help each other through this, you vowed to always be there for me. When I needed you the most, you weren’t there. Instead of being a supportive mate, you decided to be a d**k!” I held up my left hand and stuck my ring in his face, “Do you remember this? Do you remember what you said to me when you gave this to me? Well I do!” I repeated his speech back to him word for word.

“I still can’t believe how lucky I am that the Moon Goddess blessed me with you. You are everything that I never knew I needed. You are absolutely perfect baby, and I want to worship the ground you walk on for the rest of my life. I want to spend every remaining day I have left on this Earth with you. I love you more than I can ever describe. “

I retracted my hand and placed them both on top of his desk. I leaned forward again, “When I wasn’t getting your help, I decided that I had to rely on myself. Do you know how hard it is to handle my healing when my mate doesn’t even want to look at me!” I was screaming at the top of my lungs, but I didn’t care. This is the moment that I had been waiting for. He needed to know how he was making me feel.

Suddenly Gavin was standing. We were almost nose to nose. “That’s enough!” His Alpha voice came out. To the rest of the pack, it would have been enough to make their skin peel off. For me, it was a challenge. I lightly giggled like some crazy b***h and rolled my eyes as I slid the ring off my finger. I held it up in front of his face. “Don’t you f*****g dare!” he yelled at me. There was so much anger in this face. I gave him a smirk as if I was asking for a death wish. I tossed my ring at him, “Take your f*****g ring. If this is how you’re going to treat me, then I don’t want to have anything to do with you.”

His face automatically dropped when he caught the ring. I was already walking to the door before he could say anything. I slammed the heavy mahogany door, the force made the walls shudder. I forced my breath through my nose, I was fuming. I can’t believe that after every thing that I went through, that he would act like this. I clearly didn’t mean that much to him. I knew that he would be chasing after me in a matter of seconds. I needed to get Katie and I out of here as soon as possible.

Katie, it’s time to go. Please hurry, I want to get the f**k out of here. Meet me at the truck, there’s been a change in plans.

I turned my link off so Gavin couldn’t talk or track me. I grabbed my keys and purse from the hall closet and headed out to my Jeep.

Katie was sprinting towards the truck. She had changed her outfit and put a fresh face of makeup on. I revved the engine as she got closer and peeled out the second her ass was in the seat.

I was driving like a maniac, I knew that I was scaring Katie the way she was clutching the “oh s**t” handle. After a few minutes she shouted at me over my blasting music. “Stella, what has gotten into you? Can you please drive like a normal person?” I shot her an apologetic look as I slowed down to a more reasonable speed. I reached for the volume knob and turned the radio down. Katie took a deep breath to calm her nerves. “Okay, now that I’m sure that we’re not going to die. Can you please tell me what the f**k is going on?” I gave her a sideways glance, Katie was not one for swearing, so I knew that she was really upset at my behavior. I nodded my head as tears started to build in my eyes.

I told her everything. I started with the engagement and how happy I was and continued to tell her the rest of the events that happened that night. I watched her face contort with all the different emotions that she was feeling. It was a roller coaster of emotions for me too. By the end, she was crying. Not like cute girl crying, I mean like hysterical, ugly tears. She sniffled her nose and wiped her face. “Stella, I’m so sorry. I’m so so sorry. I can’t believe that all of that happened to you in one night!” I sucked in my lips and nodded my head trying to keep the tears in. “I know, it really sucks. I think that I’m still high from the adrenaline. It doesn’t even feel real, I can’t believe that I broke things off like that. I was just so angry, I don’t know if we can come back from this.”

I could tell that I had really bummed Katie out, I hated to do that to her. She was so excited for tonight and then here I come, the dream crusher. I tried to give her my goofiest face to make her smile. It worked a little bit, she gave me a tiny smirk, I could tell she was trying not to laugh. I reached forward and cranked the volume and started dancing along to my music. She finally gave in and soon we were singing at the top of our lungs.

Since I had told Gavin where we were going, I knew that we needed a new spot. I hadn’t noticed that we had driven a little farther than I wanted to. I turned to Katie and told her to look up some local bars in the area. “There’s not much, there a couple holes in the wall nearby.” I told her to close her eyes and pick. About 5 minutes later, we pulled into a gravel parking lot off the main highway. The place was called “Shooter’s.” It was clearly a biker bar. Out in front of the main door, there were at least a dozen burly, bearded men. They were all joking around with the bouncer when we walked up. They broke apart as we approached them, “good evening ladies. Can I see your ID’s?” Katie and I both reached into our back pockets and grabbed our ID’s out of the bundles of cash that we had brought. As the bouncer looked down at our pictures, I could feel all 12 sets of eyes trained on us. If only I could read their minds. After another moment the bouncer looked back up at us, “Go on in ladies, let me know if anyone gives you any trouble.” odd, but okay.

Katie and I walked into the dimly lit room and found two stools at the end of the bar. I wasn’t planning on getting f****d up so I just ordered a beer. Katie on the other hand had a totally different idea. “Two shots of Jager please.” I shot her a look, “What? I thought we were here to have a good time!” she shrugged her shoulders, looking all cute. I rolled my eyes as the bartender presented our shots. After we downed them I looked over at Katie, she was bouncing in her seat, she stuck out like a sore thumb. It was only a matter of time before some big lumberjack looking dude came over to us. I sent Katie a link.

Katie what are you going to do when Matt follows your track and finds you here talking to a mountain of a man? We’re supposed to be laying low.

Relax Stella, I’m sure he just wants to talk.

I rolled my eyes at her innocence. With that, I ordered a shot of tequila.

After about 3 more shots, I knew that I was a goner. Scarlet came barreling into my forefront.

Shit Stella, I left you for like a half hour! What is Gavin going to think when he has to come get you because you’re too f****d up to drive?

It’s fine Scar, I’ll stop after this last one. As if by magic, another shot was set down in front of me. I looked to the right of me, Katie had disappeared. f**k, where did she go? I stood up on the stool and searched the crowd. I finally found her standing in the middle of the makeshift dance floor. She stood out in her bright pink mini skirt. She was surrounded by a circle of men, all salivating at the thought of getting a taste of her. I hopped off the bar stool and shoved my way to the center. “STELLA!” She was swaying, not just drunk swaying, something else was going on. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and opened my senses. God damn it, she’s been drugged. I pushed past several broad shoulders as I made our way back to the bar. I heard an echo of protests coming from behind us. In one quick sweep I had her up on the stool, she weighed next to nothing. Which is probably why the drugs hit her this hard. I grabbed both sides of her face and looked into her pupils, they were the size of saucers. I snapped my fingers in front of her, which didn’t seem to register. She was fading fast, I had to get her out of here. “Katie? Katie focus, who was buying you drinks?” Even as I asked her questions, I knew I wasn’t going to get any answers. I decided that it was time to go, the last thing I needed was for Matt to bust in through the front door and create an even bigger mess. I scooped Katie up into my arms, she was now limp, I could hear her breathing so I knew that she was still alive. I tried to call for the bouncer to get the door but he couldn’t hear me over the music. As I got half way through the room, I felt a large muscular hand on my shoulder, “Hey darling, where do you think you’re going?” I saw red instantly. I knew my eyes lit up because this guy immediately backed off. I stepped a little further towards the door when I saw a wall of guys blocking my way. f**k an A.

I didn’t care if they saw me shift, I knew that there was only one way that we were going to get out of here. I gently set Katie down on a stool near the door. I searched for the bouncer, but he was no where to be found. I knew that I had to take matters into my own hands.

I prepared for Scarlet to take over as I let out a warning growl. Suddenly, I saw a wave of black coat each of the sets of eyes that were staring me down. Oh good, so they were expecting me to do this. I knew that Gavin wasn’t coming to save me, as far as I was concerned, I didn’t have a mate anymore, I was all on my own now.

Scarlet, let’s f**k some people up.

I quickly shifted into my wolf. There was a wave of shifts in front of me, each wolf was taller than the next. We can do this Scar, we’ve taken down rouges down ourselves before, what’s one more fight?

I lunged forward, attaching myself to the smallest one. The rest of the fight was a blur, I knew that I was losing. If I was going to die, I wanted to go out swinging. I fought as hard as I could. I know I took out at least two of them, I only had 10 more to go.

Just as I was about to swing at another, I was tackled to the ground. He held me down with his paw on my neck. I was losing air, almost losing consciousness. He nipped once at my nuzzle, just grazing me with his teeth. I yelped at the small twinge of pain. I knew that he wanted me to shift back. If I didn’t, things would get a lot worse. I told Scarlet to back off and my human body quickly returned.

One of the behemoths that we had seen standing out front hand my arms bound behind my back with just his arms. f**k, f**k, f**k. This was Thomas all over again. Here I was once again, waiting for our men to come save me. Why do I keep putting myself in these situations? I looked over to see Katie being draped over some other guys shoulder. I tried to kick my way out of his grip as I saw them carry Katie outside. I felt this guys beard tickle my neck, “just calm down darling. It will all be over soon.” oh that’s it. I swung my leg back as hard as I could and hit him right in the boys. He crumbled like a house of cards. No one else in the room was expecting it so I got the jump on them. I shifted back and bounded out the door towards Katie.

I aimed low and hit this guy right in the back of the knees. I wasn’t playing around anymore. Katie tumbled from his arms and was laying a few feet from where this guy fell. I stepped on his throat and twisted my paw into his skin. It was nothing, like crushing a cigarette under my boot. I didn’t care that I was naked, I ran over and picked up Katie. I barely made it to the Jeep before I saw the rest of the group come out searching for us. The dead guy gave us just enough time to escape while they were distracted.

I sped down 94 with a fire under my ass. I linked Matt, I didn’t want Gavin to know what happened, he didn’t deserve to know. I knew Matt was going to be furious, I could only handle one Alpha at a time.

Mattie, we have a problem.

I told Mattie what had happened, he was furious at first but when he heard what I did to protect his Luna, he softened a bit. I knew that I would definitely get a strong Alpha lecture. But at least we were safe.

When we were a safe distance away, I pulled off at a rest stop to throw some clothes on. I’m glad that I started leaving a spare change of clothes in each vehicle. I slipped into some basketball shorts and a tank before hopping back into the driver’s side. Just as I was about to shift gears, the wind picked up and I got an unfamiliar scent. They were following us. What is with men wanting what they can’t have. No means no guys. I knew that I needed to get us home, I looked over at Katie to make sure she was securely buckled in. She was peacefully snoring with her chin down to her chest. I kicked it into all 5 gears as I sped off down the highway.

I hung my head out of the window as we continued towards home. They weren’t directly on us, but they were definitely catching up. Boy would they be surprised when they saw what was awaiting them. I needed to link Matt again and give him an update, which means that he would have to tell Gavin.

Matt, it just got so much worse. I stopped to change and caught their scent behind us. We have a good lead on them but I know that they are going to follow us home. I’m bringing them right to you.

For f**k’s sake Stella, can this night get any worse? At least give me an update on Katie.

She’s sleeping like an angel. Now as the acting Luna of Silver Moon I command you to assemble the warriors, there’s about to be another fight.