Falling for Lycans

Ch.8

Ch.8

Shelby drove until she found herself pulling into her parent's driveway. This was one of the last places she thought she would end up. She was already there and there was no sense in leaving. Shelby got out of her car and walked up to the door. She knocked but there was no answer. "Well, at least they aren't home and I can sit and think without them around." She thought to herself. She pulled out her keys and unlocked the door. It had been a while since she came home to visit. She looked around and saw that everything was the same. Shelby went upstairs and down the hall to her old room. She opened the door and was taken back in time. Everything she left in there was still in its place. All her posters were still on the walls and her medals still hanging from her shelves. She closed the door and went and sat down on her bed. "Why am acting like this? I knew Bryson would eventually move on because I wasn't hopping into bed with him but Drew? Drew knows I like Bryson and I didn't think he was serious about getting Bryson into his bed. UGH! Why can't I just be like I used to be and climb in bed with him?" She said out loud to herself. Shelby laid back on the bed and sighed. "What happened to the confident girl I was before? I would like for her to come back." She said as if she was going to get a response. Shelby lay there for a while just staring up at the ceiling. She was trying to think about why she became this Shelby. "Oh, Wait. Now I remember. I am this way because guys only wanted one thing from me and I gave it up so willingly. That's when I promised myself I was not going to sleep with anyone else until I found the person I was going to marry." She laughed at what she had just said. "Marry. Who would want to marry me? I'm nobody." She said as she closed her eyes and sighed. Shelby got up and went through her drawers to see if all her little trinkets were still there. While she was looking through them, She found her journal from high school. Shelby grabbed it and went back to her bed. She laid down and opened it. She skimmed through the pages. The further through she went, she found the pages began to get depressing. This was when she began acting out.

** Today I told Cherokee I was going to go to this party this weekend and that I couldn't wait to get trashed. **

** What's up journal? Me? More than my last entry. I went to that party and got wasted. I had a lot of guys eyeing me but no one came up to me. **

** Yo journal! I went to another party tonight and got so s*h*i*t faced, I made out with 4 different guys. **

** Journal, another wild party last night. I ended up drinking way too much and apparently, three guys tried to take me into a room. I was lucky though. This guy named Drew told them I was with him and he got me out of there. We went and got coffee and he bought me something to eat. I don't know why he was so nice to me but I am really thankful he saved me from what was about to happen. **

** Sup Journal? Drew and I hung out all weekend. We went to his place and got wasted. His parents weren't home so we had a little party with just the two of us. **

** Journal, I did something last night with one of Drew's friends. Drew invited a few people over and they were getting high and I was already drunk. Drew's friend Michael asked me if I wanted to go talk. I followed him to the spare room and he kissed me. He told me he wanted me and I gave in. I lost my V-card last night. I have to tell Drew about Michael but I'm scared he won't talk to me anymore. **

** Journal, I give up. I'm done. I refuse to sleep with anyone else until I find my future husband. Michael is such a f*u*c*k*i*n*g jerk! He told me he loved me and we were going to get married after high school but I caught him in a T*h*r*e*e*s*o*m*e, when I went to his house yesterday. He told me he wasn't doing anything with those girls but I'm not stupid. I saw him getting sucked off by one while he was making out with the other. I am so f*u*c*k*i*n*g stupid for thinking he loved me. No one will ever love me. **

Shelby closed her journal after reading those pages. Tears filled her eyes, threatening to escape. "This is why I am the way I am. This is why I won't sleep with Bryson. He is hot just like Michael was and he has already been with goddess knows how many women."She said to herself. Shelby put her hands over her face and began to cry. She ended up crying herself to sleep. When Shelby woke up, She heard noises downstairs. She got up and threw her journal in her bag and went to see who was home. When she got downstairs she walked into the kitchen and saw her mom standing at the sink.

"Hey, Mom."

"Oh, Shelby, my baby girl. What are you doing here?"

"I needed a break from Drew so I came home to clear my head."

"Oh. Are you and Drew fighting, sweetheart?"

"No Mom. We aren't fighting. Drew had company and I needed to get away."

"Oh. Well, I am glad you came home. I've missed you."

"I've missed you too Mom."

"Your father will be home in about an hour. I will order dinner."

"It's fine Mom. I have to get back. I am working on another book and I have a lot to do."

"Oh, Shelby. Would you at least wait until your father gets home so you can see him?"

"Yes, I'll wait until he gets home Mom."

Shelby sat and talked with her mom until her dad walked through the door. She talked to her dad for a few minutes before he started to go on about what he was designing. Shelby hated graphic design talk because her father wanted her to become a designer like him. She told her parents she had to get home and told them bye. After grabbing her bag she headed back to the house. She prayed Drew wasn't there to avoid dealing with the conversation of him and Brsyon in bed. Thinking about Bryson and Drew together sparked a little anger. Drew knew she was into Bryson but still got him into bed."UGH!" She yelled out. Tears filled her eyes but they weren't from sadness. They were angry tears. Shelby left. She pulled into the park parking lot and sat there. "I wish it were me. I should have been the one under Bryson. Not Drew. Not stupidly hot Drew. Wait. Stupidly hot? What the hell? UGH! Drew is my best friend, I can't think like that. Ugh, it's hard not to though." She said to herself. Shelby got out of the car and started walking. Maybe some fresh air would help her clear her head of these thoughts. Shelby ended up at the bridge her and Bryson went to. She leaned over the rail and stared down at the water. "I need to pull myself together. This is my own fault. I told Drew to have at it and I kept teasing Bryson. I am to blame for them ending up in bed." She said to herself. Shelby took a deep breath and headed back up the trail. Shelby's phone went off and she grabbed it to see who it was.

Drew: [Babez, Where are you?]

[I'm fine Drew. I had some stuff to take care of. I'll be home later.]

[Shelbs, are you sure you are ok?]

[Yes, Drew. I am fine. I'll be home later.]

Shelby was looking down while putting her phone in her pocket, when she ran into something hard. She looked up to find green eyes staring down at her.

"I am so sorry. I wasn't paying attention."

"It's ok, pretty lady." Bryson said as he smiled at Shelby.

"So, what are you doing here? I figured you and my roommate would be hanging out again." Shelby said sarcastically.

"Nope. Tiger and I aren't hanging out tonight, pretty lady. I came for a run."

"Oh ok. I am going to go now." Shelby said as she stepped away from him.

"Wait, pretty lady. Can we talk?"

"I'm sorry Bryson. I can't right now. I have a lot on my mind and I think it's best if we don't. I am liable to say or do something I may regret." Shelby said as she backed away.

"Shelby, wait!"

"Bryson, No. I don't want to talk about you and Drew. Please just let me go before I do something stupid."

Shelby turned around and took off running to her car. She got in and hit the steering wheel. Her heart was racing and she was mad. She was jealous that Drew got Bryson in bed and she wanted so badly to tell Bryson that. She knew it probably wouldn't have done any good though. She couldn't admit it to Drew but she had always been jealous of how he was in bed. He liked to give her all the details after he got laid and just hearing about his s****l experiences, made her jealous because she wanted to have those experiences as well but she just couldn't bring herself to do it. After she started her car she left the park and drove to the house. She sat in her car in the driveway for a few minutes. She was dreading walking through the door and Drew asking her what was going on with her. She took a deep breath and got out. She unlocked the door and went in. She didn't see the living room light on so she tiptoed to her room. As soon as she opened her door, She heard Drew's door open.

"Shelb's?"

"I'm home, Drew. I'm exhausted and I'm going to bed."

"Shelby."

"I'm fine. I'm going to bed goodnight, Drew."

Shelby couldn't bring herself to turn and look at Drew. She knew if she did that she would more than likely break down and she didn't want to deal with that. She closed her door and locked it. She threw her bag on the chair and went into her bathroom. Shelby turned the knob for the shower and waited on the water to get hot. While she stood there, she undressed in front of the mirror. She stared at her body. She knew she had a nice body but she couldn't bring herself to show it off like all the girls Drew brought home or even the ones Bryson was probably used to being with. When the mirror began to fog, Shelby finished undressing and she got into the shower. She looked down at her naked body. "Maybe I could show off a little more than what I am. What could it hurt?" She said to herself. After she got out she looked at all her clothes. Nothing she owned would show off the right amount of her assets. She decided that as soon as she got up she was going to clean out her closet and dresser and get rid of some stuff. Shelby got up early the next morning and began throwing out clothes. When she finished getting rid of all her old grandma clothes as Drew called them, She grabbed her purse and headed for the door. Drew came out of his room and called out for her.

"Shelbs, wait. Where are you going?"

"Sorry Drew, can't talk. I am on a mission."

"Mission? What mission? Shelbs, where are you going?"

"Can't talk. Bye, Drew."

Shelby ran to her car and got in. She backed out of the driveway while Drew stood at the door and watched her.