Phoenix: rise from death. **COMPLETED**

#12 giving into desire

"what do you mean you are in? this isn't some game on the playground. I'm killing Christopher. I'm killing an alpha."

"yes, I know and I am in. that sick bastard can't continue and if he lives then Carla and Angel have to run for the rest of their lives. that little girl looks just like him. she won't be easy to hide forever." he grabbed my hand and pulled me towrds him again as he embraced me in his arms. the feeling was amazing and the bond was so strong it was consuming me. " and if it means you will accept me then I will do anything. I don't think this is a game either. he did horrible things to us all and it's time we stood against him."

"so you are doing this so I will mate you?" he c****d an eyebrow at me. I could see the playfulness and laughed at him. it was becoming harder to resist him.

"no. I am doing this because it is the right thing to do. being able to mate with you is just an added bonus." it was strange sitting here with him and he wasn't cleaning my wounds or helping me heal. it was a strange feeling to be joking amd laughing with a man who had seen me so broken and beaten. my mate. the man who cried at my passing and poured his heart out to me as he prepared me to become ashes. it felt right.

there would never be a perfect time for this. I suppose the moon Goddess knew I woukd need help and gave me him. maybe in a way she also knew he might be able to save my souk after this was all said and done. he may be the only one who could bring me back. "if I accept this then what? I'm not the same broken girl I used to be."

I was a little surprised at myself for even entertaining the idea. "I'm not asking you to be who you used to be. I'm asking you to allow me to find out who you are now and to be a part of that." I could hear his heavy breathing as he spoke. he was desperate to get me to say yes. I could feel it oozing out of him." I have loved you for a long time Angel. I don't want to let you go. I will do anything."

it had been a long time since I heard those words from him and the only other time I heard him say he loved me was when I died. "I heard you tell me that when I died. I watched you prepare me." his face fell in shock.

"you heard me?" he brought his hand to his face as he thought about that day. I coukd tell it haunted him still. "i meant all of what I said. every word."

"you need to understand something. I was brought back to kill Christopher. that is something I have to do." I watched his face as he ran through so many different emotions.

"I will help you. where you go I go." I wasn't sure what to say in that moment. he was accepting it and accepting me in spite of what he now knew I had to do. I paced the room back and forth as he stood there watching me. "Angel?"

"you really want this? you want my burden after you and Carla escaped? you would risk the safety you have to help me kill him?"

"yes I would. without hesitation. I want to be with you." he closed the distance I had created between us and grabbed me into his arms. I didn't fight him. I didn't back away. this time I let his lips take what they wanted. I wanted him to touch me. his hands were roaming up and down my body as my legs wrapped around his waste. lifting me and carrying me to the bed he layed me down gently. my eyes closed as his touch sent sparks racing down my exposed skin. he lifted my shirt above my head trailing kisses down to my collar bone. I shivered with pleasure from his touch. his body and tossed it aside. he was so hard yet so soft as he placed himself between my legs. I could feel his bulge pressing into my wet center. he moved his hands down to my jeans. fumbling with the button as he touched my belly with his fingers then sliding my jeans and panties off with a swift movement. i laid there for a few moments as he looked over my naked body. instinctively my hand went to hide my branding. In the heat of the moment I had forgotten all about it. I felt incredibly self conscious in that moment. a vulnerability I had never felt before even with Christopher. I was branded by another man and not by my choice. Jacob reached for my hands and placed them above my head pinning me down. "don't hide your body from me. I want it all. every bit of you." I felt him take his free hand and run it across my scar. the touch surprised me and sparked all at once. the heat he left behind burned into me sending my senses into over drive. he left my hand and sat up tracing his fingers over my scar again then out of nowhere he leaned down and I felt his lips kissing it as he whispered to me. "I love you. every part of you."

he trailed kisses down my hip to my thigh as he slid a finger into my wet core. the pleasure burst inside me making me wet. I closed my eyes as my head sunk deeper into the bed and my back arched bringing me closer to his hot mouth. I felt his tongue trace my folds as he moved his finger in and out the added another finger. the pressure of his fingers on my clit was driving me crazy for more. I needed so much more. he was sucking and nipping at me now moving his fingers in and out. I was moaning in sheer ecstasy. I was close to jumping off the edge of a cliff and releasing my orgasm. I could feel the pressure built up inside my body needing to be released. I had never felt anything like this before and I wanted so much more of it. my hands were pulling on his hair and my hips were moving as if they had a life of their own. my body moved faster as the pleasure grew deeper. I needed to let go. he whispered into my core."let it go baby." it was all I needed the vibration of his words on me and the mix of his fingers sent me soaring to a whole new kind of pleasure.

"oh Goddess jacob!" I screamed out as my orgasm ripped through my body causing it to convulsed in the most pleasure I had ever experienced. he removed his fingers as I watched him suck them clean in his mouth. my chest was rising and falling as I tried to catch my breath.

"you are so sexy baby." his eyes bore into mine filled with lust and desire. I felt him at my entrance. I wasn't even sure when he got fully naked everything was in a haze. "can i?" he looked at me with such need and compassion. I had never been asked before. this was all so new to me. I nodded my head as a smile spread across his face. "I won't be able to stop myself once I'm in. are you sure you want this?"

my voice was hoarse from screaming out in pleasure. "make me yours." I whispered so low I wasn't even sure he heard me. he lowered his head to my lips taking them in. I felt him push slowly into me as I gasped from the sudden pressure inside me. he stilled for a moment allowing me to adjust to him then he slowly started pumping in and out of me. it was slow at first as he built up speed. my senses were going crazy. everything was in a haze of desire and pleasure.

he was going deeper and deeper with every thrust. I felt him swell harder inside me. he was close and so was I. my need to orgasm was almost painful as it built up waiting to tear through my body. I felt his teeth elongate and graze my neck ever so lightly. I felt his canines sink into my marking spot as the pleasure went off like a bomb coursing through me. I saw white light burst as my vision went blurry then I felt myself slipping into the darkness as my eyes shut.